Fuck This Is So Real. THIS Is Why I Make The Art I Do. THIS Is Why It's A Struggle For Me To Even Set

Fuck this is so real. THIS is why I make the art I do. THIS is why it's a struggle for me to even set foot in a church these days, even though I will be doing so for my niece's baptism next week. Because the way I was raised made me believe I wouldn't make it to adulthood. No kid should have to think that way.

one of the cult scholars i listen to said "most children are not being raised to die" months ago and i still think "being raised to die" sums up growing up in fundamentalist christianity so well.

my friends and i didn't know if we would grow up to be adults. we would have conversations about wanting the chance to be an adult and knew we were """selfish""" for wanting to live if it wasn't in god's plan. we were raised to believe that we would either be killed for being a christian (in the us no less) or that jesus was coming soon (rapture/end times theology). we knew it was "sinful" to want something outside of god's plan but we couldn't help ourselves.

we were members of the lord's army. we were to obey orders and lay down our life if necessary. "this life is just a test" they'd say. "our real life is our eternal life with the lord." none of this is real, it's just a test. if you pass, you get into heaven. if you fail, you're sent to eternal damnation and hellfire. this is an open book test, we've been given all the answers already. if you fail, it's your own fault.

being raised to die means that your future doesn't matter. jesus is coming soon. jesus is what matters. "set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. for you died, and your life is hidden with christ in god."

i've been out for years. i'm in my late 20's. i still don't know how to set my mind on earthly things. i still struggle to believe i have a future.

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rachelleacomics - i'm not the enemy anymore
i'm not the enemy anymore

Hi I'm Rachel. I make comics about mental illness and religious trauma (+ fanart) also on bluesky

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