Prollymaia - Maia

‘can’t wash it off’

it’s a wild ride having “please don’t leave me” and “it’s your loss if you do” daddy issues with “please don’t yell at me ill cry” and “fuck around find out” mommy issues

I feel like a broken plate. My shards are too sharp and i have shattered into a million pieces. The pieces are too small and can never be glued back together again.

if you can’t handle me at my worst that’s understandable cause i can’t either

I used to be so over-achieving when I was younger, but now I just feel like I cant do anywhere near as much. Its like after moving away from the trauma, even though I'm in a safer place now, I'm absolutely exhausted. While I was going through the abuse, I was able to achieve so much, and get everything done that I needed to and more. But now it seems like I've been weakened. I was capable of doing more, so how come I can't do it now?

Anyone else feeling this way?

BPD is watching yourself burn your own life to the ground over and over again

I love how my coping mechanisms just make me worse