‘can’t Wash It Off’

Take Care: Mothers, Daughters, and Inheriting Self-Hatred, Ella Wilson

I HATE when people tell me "just forget about your trauma" or "just get over it" or even "just be happy".

Like, how?? I get flashbacks everyday and sometimes multiple times a day.

How can someone "forget trauma"?

How can someone "get over trauma"?

How can someone "just be happy" over trauma"?

LIKE, FUCKING HOW???

It really annoys me and VERY triggering too.

Does anyone else get annoyed and triggered by that statement?

“do you want to talk about it?”

no, i want to kill myself because of it.

I’m sick of going to bed and knowing things won’t be better tomorrow

I used to be so over-achieving when I was younger, but now I just feel like I cant do anywhere near as much. Its like after moving away from the trauma, even though I'm in a safer place now, I'm absolutely exhausted. While I was going through the abuse, I was able to achieve so much, and get everything done that I needed to and more. But now it seems like I've been weakened. I was capable of doing more, so how come I can't do it now?

Anyone else feeling this way?

Why can't I fucking fix myself