Prollymaia - Maia

[ID text — you knew what you were doing and you knew it would hurt me, but somehow that didn’t stop you]

it’s a wild ride having “please don’t leave me” and “it’s your loss if you do” daddy issues with “please don’t yell at me ill cry” and “fuck around find out” mommy issues

just saw a post that said “when you lose the emotional attachment to them, you begin to realize how ordinary they are, and that it was your love and energy that made them unique” and i seriously don’t think i was ready for that

when i let my mind unravel, when i step deeper into the abyss, in times of such terrors, I stand gutsy knowing you would be there to assist me.

nocturne, excerpt from my journal

— Albert Camus, The Possessed

this attitude came from pain, I wasn’t always like this