Starting To Run Out Of Ideas To Post Ngl…

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Not that far from usernames I’ve made in the past lmao

1. change all the e’s in your url to “3” 2. change all the o’s in your url to “0” 3. change all the i’s in your url to “1” 4. add some dashes everywhere 5. put “Xx_” and “_xX” at the beginning and end 6. your new emo chat forum url

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Showing this in hopes of spreading awareness. 🕊️

Ok so I remember talking about this with some moots of mine and I figured I’d talk about it here.

Does anyone else fucking hate seeing couples and get extremely disgusted by them, but not in the sense that you’re romance repulsed(Tho I am aegoromantic and semi-romance repulsed), but because you have this burning envy towards them because they have a sense of connection that you desperately want and would do anything to experience?

I get grossed out by couples doing pda shit but I know that subconsciously I really want it, but I feel like I will never be able to get it because of me being aegoromantic and also very distrusting of other people, even my family and friends to an extent.

I’m probably the last person who should be in a relationship. I’m explosive, struggle to communicate my feelings, and am extremely obsessive to the point that I would go nights crying over someone I cared about.

My obsessive tendencies know no bounds.

Oh and need I forget about how black and white my thinking is? I genuinely can’t see people as anything other than completely good or completely bad so I’ll go hot and cold on a person if I like them but they do something I don’t like. Like I’ll love them one day and hate them the next.

Idk I have a problem, but case in point is that I feel like love and romance are too inaccessible to me because of who I am, so I’m just left with a gross pit in my chest every time I see a couple being all cutesy and shit.

It’s excruciating.

So I may have gotten inspired…

Expect a video in maybe 3 weeks to a month.

I’m looking back at videos trying to explain Jirai Kei and not gonna lie, if I wasn’t a hideous, camera-shy freak, I’d go all out and make my own Jirai Kei essay.

The way that these people talk about Jirai Kei doesn’t feel like it does them justice since they’re into it from a fashion perspective. And I don’t wanna be that person, but if you’re into it purely for the fashion, you might as well call it girly kei since that’s what its fashion aspect of it basically took inspiration from, if not directly took it from (and if you’re a subcul Jirai, emo fashion in Harajuku is a primary visual inspiration).

Jirai isn’t just some edgy term used by Jirais to look cool and like some sort of anime menhera archetype. It was an actual insult used by people(usually men) in Japan to describe girls who are basically ticking time bombs. This is just Jirais reclaiming the term the same way Emos had reclaimed their name(Emo was an insult in the early 2000s).

I call myself Jirai because I understand this as someone who was often called overdramatic and too emotional, and feel a sense of power from it. Yes, I’m not Japanese, but there’s a reason that some Japanese subcultures have terms for participants outside of Japan(Ex. Gaijin Gyaru). It doesn’t have to be exclusive.

In conclusion, to quote a Reddit that I found, “I don’t think people(especially fashion Jirais) understand the implications of being called a Jirai.

I really hate how I just can’t have a consistent goal or dream in my life.

As a kid I dreamed of being a veterinarian because I loved animals but eventually gave up on that because I lost that spark to actually care for them.

I mean it’s normal for that to happen but the thing is that I can barely take care of myself so I don’t trust myself enough to care for another living thing.

I had dreams in middle school to be a webcomic artist but I also lost the spark for it since I struggled to even pick up a pencil sometimes and often had art block.

Now currently I dream of being some form of popular/famous and find that Vtubers tend to be a hot topic on the internet so I’m like “Why not?”

But then I realized I’m nowhere near fucking stable to be a good streamer and would probably make my audience hella uncomfortable and not wanna watch my stuff. Plus I know I would get tired of fame very fast.

All in all I just want to be loved.

I want to be known and seen for what I am, but I know that’ll never be possible because I’m genuinely such a mess that I scare people and make them lose hope in me, and that’s not even exaggerating. My parents have said to me on quite a few occasions that they don’t know what to do with me anymore.

Idk maybe for all I know it could just be a case of me being young and aimless, but I won’t deny it’s the most frustrating shit ever.

^^^Quiz link is above!!!

@jiraigoddess @doublelariatgirl @pienbitchchan @hirselves @angelhrtz @xchryxanthemum @pienguts

Feel free to continue!!!（＾ω＾）

Imma make my own tag game! （⌒▽⌒）

https://uquiz.com/quiz/MjLBFJ?p=98329

So glad I got this! I'm OBSESSED with witches!! (˶◕‿◕˶✿)

Tagging the moots!

@failure--girl @jiraigoddess @silly-lackadaisy @okoilo @kyu-kyurarin @dolly-girl-rie @digital-mine @4tyuna-ij7 @sleepy-internet-addict @batmine @the-real-loser-otaku-girl @yume-chiyo @toxetta @jiraiema @etherealcollapse @crisquirrel @immortal-angels @mad0katsuki @macaron-vents @liminal-lover + anyone I might have forgotten and open tags!

Me fighting off my intrusive thoughts be like:

I feel like making a post about my alterhuman identities outside of fictionkins so here’s a list of the like 3 different identities I have plus some that I’ve recently been kinsidering recently.

♡Kin: Angel♡

♡Kin: Wolf♡

♡Kin: House Cat♡

♡Kinsidering: Doll♡

♡Kinsidering: Rabbit♡

♡Kinlist♡

Feel free to judge me based on who I kin/kith/kinsider. XD

These aren’t in any particular order except for the very top one.

Also disclaimer I am very aware that some of these characters are very morally ambiguous. Just because I kin/kith/kinsider a character doesn’t mean that I exhibit their morals.

Anywho, here they are!

♡Kin: Ame-Chan(Needy Streamer Overload)

♡Kin: Aubrey(Omori)

♡Kin: Stocking Anarchy(Panty & Stocking)

♡Kin: Kotoko Utsugi(Danganronpa)

♡Kin: Konata Izumi(Lucky Star)

♡Kith: Shadow the Hedgehog(Sonic the Hedgehog)

♡Kith: Riamu Yumemi(iDOLM@STER)

♡Kin: Lain Iwakura(Serial Experiments Lain)

♡Kinsidering: Fluttershy(My Little Pony)

♡Kinsidering: Satou Matsuzaka(Happy Sugar Life)

idk if internet is making me worse or better but i can’t live w/o it so i don’t think it matters