I'm A Lot More Effort Than I'm Worth

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silencieux

corps pressé contre le vent

sueur et larmes

qui est là? ils appellent

il n’y a pas de réponse

silencieux

gelé contre des arbres dansants

pourquoi moi? ils disent

mais ils sont un

et ils sont seuls

il n’y a pas de réponse

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(it’s not my first language so, apologies if the grammar is off slightly)

I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it all I want is to be seen all I want is to be loved I'm sorry I'm not worth it I'll be better I'll be good I just want someone next to me I want something real I'm so desperate for something real but I'm not what anyone wants I know that I've seen that I'm not what anyone wants

I dread these halls like the hand of God.

I don't want this to be real.

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to be here

Having to live a future you didn’t think you’d be alive for is so fucking hard