Une étape

"Why are you so negative?"

Because growing up, nothing ever went right, so now I just expect things to go wrong. I expect abandonment, so I either cling on or push away, I expect things to not work out because that's what I've known. Whether it's a relationship, a goal, anything.

I also just have a severely low self-esteem that was consistently reinforced.

It's true that I can be positive when it comes to others' lives. I believe others can heal and become the best versions of themselves, I believe anyone else can deserve happiness and love. Me, on the other hand? Nah.

“you’re so mature for your age” thanks I was not allowed to show any vulnerability as a child

Please please eat me alive turn my body into something sacred I don't want to be here anymore everything is so tiring and I get no reprieve from the monotony and the pain and oh this pain is too much for such a little body I'm desperate please I'm tired I'm scared I don't want to be here anymore

-from Pinterest

I’m a motherfucking stargirl

My troubled dreams

wow I should really go 2 bed omg