I Dreamt Of You Last Night

I've Endured, Now What?

Blue Iris - Mary Oliver / So This Is All I Will Ever Be? - Fatima Aamer Bilal / Vive, Vive - Traci Brimhall

I think I'll always need other people more than they need me. I'm so helpless

thinking you're being overdramatic and paranoid over nothing only to be proven completely right is such a sickening feeling.

"But why do you let your disability stop you?" Because that's.... what disabilities... do. That's... literally the basic definition... of being disabled... A disability impairs your ability to function. That's what the term means. That's the main thing

I don't think I've ever met someone who feels the kind of bone deep soulless depression I've felt for most of my life. I'm not saying they don't exist, I'm just saying part of me wishes there were someone I could talk to who actually understands how I'm feeling.

But that's selfish of me, right?

I wouldn't wish this on anyone

as i get older i really do understand why people abuse substances now

I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it I'm not worth it all I want is to be seen all I want is to be loved I'm sorry I'm not worth it I'll be better I'll be good I just want someone next to me I want something real I'm so desperate for something real but I'm not what anyone wants I know that I've seen that I'm not what anyone wants