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small update, won’t take your time at all, it’s my birthday today. i’m officially 20 now! :D happy birthday to me

NOOOOOOOOOOO PREMIUMBITCH. YOU WILL BE MISSED.

 legit tears yall

LUCID DREAMS + VIVID SHIFTING DREAM!

i believe that before this dream i had been struggling with lucid dreaming a bit (i hadn't had one in the past few weeks and was doubting my ability) when i did have one. i can't remember this one very well since it was a little while ago but i do remember that i'd read that if you close your eyes in the lucid state you're sent straight to the void state, and while i didn't do so, the dream faded away and i thought this was the perfect time to try to shift.

i think part of what i did incorrectly was not set a firm intention - i just wanted to shift - but i ended up waking up in a bed and grover, percy and annabeth were in the same room sleeping.

now, i haven't yet finished my pjo script (like, at all) but i did think i shifted, mainly because of how incredibly vivid the dream was. i tried doing reality checks in the dream but didn't focus on them enough (trying to breath through a closed nose tends to work, though in more vivid dreams i find that there's an initial resistance, almost like i can't breath through it, so i try to do longer reality checks during the day because of this).

anyway, in the dream i walked around excitedly because i was like, "this is it, i shifted", though i overlooked lots of odd aspects about the world since it was a dream. when i woke up i was partially bummed that i didn't shift but this was also great motivation.

i also had a lucid dream another night where i was able to create a portal for the first time! i have had trouble controlling dreams especially in the past so during the day i planned what i was going to do in the dream, which was to accio a sword (luke's sword from pjo) and use it to create a portal.

i ironically had a dream before this about both hp and pjo, but anyway, after i woke up i was still tired so i closed my eyes and allowed the dream to materialize in front of me, and once it was tangible i started moving around. i accio'd a sword, and it worked! then i created a portal but woke up prematurely 😭

but that's about it! i don't know what it is with me and having 'false shifts' in my dreams but they're pretty common. i just tend to use them as motivation!!

back to ─ shifting journal.

MY SOOOOON

the thing abt duke thomas is that he is a genius truly gifted kid who had a promising albeit average future ahead of him until tragedy struck and took his parents from him. then all the energy he has diverts and he blocks everything else out and dedicates himself to finding them and also being a huge problem for anyone who'd try to obscure that.

like #1 most underrated thing abt his character is that he is, by definition, a "retired crash out". after age 14 he had no friends, shit grades, was getting into fights so often he was being kicked out of schools AND foster homes. it truly was self made vigilatism and the power of friendship that saved him from tunnel-visioning into an early grave.

ALL THIS TO SAY my favorite thing abt duke thomas pre batman and the signal (hell even during the comic) is how much of an unapologetic asshole he is to everyone indiscriminately in a bad way. He was kind but lil bro was NOT nice. he was selfish and a dickhead even to ppl who cared and were really trying to help him. I really like to think that him getting past that wasn't dc neutering him but the active choice to get better after he finally found a solid support system. that being said, he most definitely code switches and has to CONSISTENTLY hold back from poppin bitches in they mouthes bcs hes past that! he's in his healing arc! <as he'd say.

In my Batman DR. I’m in a very weird position. I’m Alfred’s daughter, Julia Pennyworth, who is a real character and I’m just taking her place. Can you imagine the awkwardness and embarrassment of the whole situation? Especially those who know niche facts/characters of DC

This is about Sci-Hub. yeah we get it.. gatekeep knowledge and protect the interests of capital…

🎀 list 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! get to know your moots or followers <3

Drawing

The colors purple, pink, green and blue

My zodiac sign (Sagittarius RAAAH)

Shifting (mainly to rich and royalty DRs)

Aesthetics

where r all the weirdos and freaks of shiftblr with the weird niche drs

i love a good Harry potter dr, y'all r doing ur thing, and i live, but where r the ones with a rocky horror picture show or Star Trek or muppets or rupaul's drag race drs 😔😔😔😔

also, if u shift as an animal, i like rlly wanna know about that? I hear of a lot of ppl doing it, but i wanna actually know about y'all's dr! like r u a house pet?? like a rich lady's dog that she keeps in her purse, or a wild fox, or a frog or a wolf

Of course Jason was doing all of that shit to get Bruce's attention. He had to make sure he had the attention, since he had already been wiped off the face of the Earth, in both body and proper memory. A lot of fix-its fall into the "if Jason had just accepted the status quo things would be good and they could be a happy family" but that's not the point. The point is that the status quo leads to others getting hurt, just like Jason did. And if Jason's death was not enough to get Bruce's attention and to make things change, well. Someone has to make him pay attention, and what better way to do that, than to do things outside of the status quo?

a good thing to script if you’re like me and think “i really wanna shift right now, but sleep feels so much better right now and i wanna feel awake tomorrow”:

when i shift, i feel completely rejuvenated and like i just had the best sleep of my life

i feel like this helps more with people who do awake methods like me