"How Do You Cope With Your Disorders?"

Haha

Real

My existence feels wrong. Like I wasn't even supposed to be here to begin with.

"everything will be alright" yeah maybe after I die

When I die

Will you look for me in the sunset

As the light drains from the sky

And the stars creep in

Will you look for me in the sunset

As colors come and go

And time slows

Will you look for me in the sunset

As I watch you grow old

And move on

Will you look for me in the sunset

Because then mabye

I could feel beutiful

:3

Pretty like blood in snow

Pretty like feathers in a vase

Pretty like dried flowers

Pretty like art of bones

Pretty like decaying fleah

Pretty like rotting stones

Pretty like tired nights

Pretty like dying leaves

Pretty like broken glass

Pretty like bleach stains on a black shirt

Pretty and fragile

Pretty and gone

None of this would’ve been an issue if I just killed myself at 16

I so badly want to absolutely cvt all over my arms but I had to go and tell one person and now they check my arms. You wanna help me? Let me freaking cvt

overestimating how much you mean to someone really fucks you in the head

Tw sui talk and attempt

Me having to support my boyfriend after I tried to kms and apologising.

Am I selfish for wanting to scream that mabye it was harder for me??

Am I selfish for wanting the tiniest bit of support??

Like im sorry I tried to kill myself but obviously im going through some shit.

He then proceeded to dump on me how he was sucicudial and acted like he got it

I'd been suicidal for as long as I can remember

Im sorry me killing myself fucked with him I really am

But I feel like he didn't even bother to consider that mabge it fuxked with me

Mabye I get flashbacks and panic attacks because of it