I had a great time today (I don’t want to go into the darkness alone.) you make me so happy (darling, the light is fading.) I’m going to love you forever and ever (I’m scared my forever can’t be much longer, love.) I’ll see you in the morning (there is a heaviness in my heart that will not quiet. I am fearing the sunrise will not come.) you make me so smile so much (you deserve better and I’m still sorry I couldn’t give it) I’ll do my best to take care of myself (my best is hiding from the darkness. my best is looking up wearily at the approaching night.) I’m tired (of breathing) I’ll see you (for that I can live) I love you (the poets spoke of the sun but I know only your smile.)
“Remember, being yourself is the only way to find out who truly cares and loves you for you.”
— TheGoodVibe
“Our universe grants every soul a twin–a reflection of themselves– the kindred spirit –And no matter where they are or how far away they are from each other – even if they are in different dimensions, they will always find one another. This is destiny ; this is love.”
— Julie Dillon
i do believe Todd's love language includes physical touch but he had a weird relationship with it when he first met the poets. like, all his childhood, he saw Jeff being covered in hugs and kissed whenever he'd come back with a really good grade or be 1st in whatever competition he was in. so without really paying attention, their parents created a weird dynamic where Todd thought that physical affection was something you needed to earn, to deserve. and like, he doesn't even realise it, it's just what he saw his whole childhood, so it's how it works in his brain
obviously, when he was a little kid he was so excited to bring home brilliant grades and medals and trophies too, so he'd get plenty of hugs and kisses from their parents, too. but it never came :( his grades or any other achievements were never good enough, he'd only get a "that's great, Todd. now go tidy it up, would you ?" and an occasional shoulder tap
so, imagine the surprise when he would get hugs from the poets without doing anything special ?? when Charlie would randomly affectionately ruffle his hair or kiss the top of his head, when Meeks or Pitts would gentky squeeze his shoulder out of the blue, when Knox would wrap his arm around his shoulder when they were just walking and talking ? when Neil would hold his hand everywhere and cover him with cuddles and kisses when they were laying in their dorm ? (he didn't expected much from Cameron but he'd get a genuine shoulder tap from time to time). he wasn't entirely comfortable with it at first because he felt guilt, like he didn't deserved it, but that went away real fast and he fully embraced physical affection surrounded with people who love him <3
“I have never known who or what I am supposed to be. The only thing I know for sure, is that I am supposed to be more than I have been.”
— William Chapman
Do you ever just stop in the middle of the day… and think about how could this sentence have ended?
And I would like to spend… my eternity with you? And finally stop pretending? Living together in a place that's ours? Without heaven or hell, not an angel and a demon, but just us?
Heaven must smell like
Lemons & clean sheets, today
My heaven's at home
🍋 gratitude haiku day 27
Travel and tell no one. Live a true love story and tell no one. Live happily and tell no one. People ruin beautiful things.
Khalil Gibran
When Sylvia Plath wrote "I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited."