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Chapter 6: Heart Ain't A Brain

Jerrell's Point. Of. View

As I awaited her answer I noticed that she was becoming teary eyed. I don't know why she just won't tell me what's going on with her. I love this girl and I've always been here for her, and I plan to continue this pattern of being here for her. However I was growing impatient and I needed her to talk to me now.

Me: Khloe look at me. *I said as I cupped her chin in my hand bringing her to face me.*

Once I had eye contact with her she turned her head again. I wasn't gonna leave until she spoke to me about what was going on. I picked her up without even getting off the couch,placing her body on mine so that she was now straddling me. Then I tried again, this time holding her face a little tighter, enough for her not to be able to turn her face from me but still not too hard.

Me: Khlo? What's going on?

Khloe: Please can we just talk about it a different time Jerrell?

Tears were now streaming down her face. Yet here I was still lost with no clue about what she was feeling.

Me: No, Khlo look at you, you're crying and you still don't wanna tell me what's going on. Listen, I love you, and I'm here for you so just please let me be here.

Khloe: Please don't do this.

Me: Don't do what Khlo?

Khloe: Don't be all kind, loving, and sweet to me.

Me: Ok, tell me you don't love me back and then we'll come to this agreement. I won't be kind, loving, or sweet to you.

Khloe: I.....I....

Me: Khlo don't force yourself to say words you won't mean.

As she got up off of me she began to cry harder, except for I wasn't gonna just let her run to her room crying.I grabbed her by her arm and pulled her into me. I put my chin on the top of her head while she cried into my chest.

Me: Its ok babe, everything while be ok.

Khloe: No, it won't, and I'm so sorry Jerrell. I really didn't want to hurt you.

Me: Babe I'm fine, when I talk about my dad I sad for just that moment, but then when I think of how much he made sure we knew he loved us, I'm ok again.

Khloe: No, Rell, not that.

Me: Then what Khlo?

I eased away from her so that she could look at me, but I didn't let her out of my arms. 

Khloe: The day after you left, I had a doctors appointment...

Me: Yea?

Now I was getting scared, but I wanted to be there for her. Just as that thought left my head she began to cry hysterically again.

Me: Babe, shhhhhh, stop crying please. Just tell me what's going on.

Khloe: Jerrell I found out I was 1 month pregnant.

I had to stop for a moment and walk over to a chair. I didn't mean to leave her there crying, but I didn't know what to do. I did know one thing for sure though.

Me: Babe, I'll tell my mom and Terry, and I'll be-

Khloe: I had an abortion Jerrell. *She said wiping her eyes, which didn't make sense because she just continued to cry.*

Me: You did what!?!

I could tell she was scared, because she jumped then froze in her spot as if she forgot how to use her feet.

Khloe: I'm so, so, sooooooo sorry Jerrell.

I didn't know what to do, so I had to chuckle.

Me: I'm not even mad that you killed my child, matter of fact...I am mad. But I'm more upset at the fact that you didn't tell me. The girl I loved, the one that was everything to me. I took your virginity remember?

My voice was growing cold, just as my face was becoming hard with anger. I now had tears streaming down my face.

Khloe: Jerrell, I... I was just-

Me: You were just what? Huh Khloe!? You were what?!

Khloe: I don't-

Me: Man shut the fuck up!

She walked over to where I was sitting, tears still streaming down her face. I jumped up and looked down at her, I just couldn't believe this.

Khloe: Jerrell, I love-

Me: Man, fuck that.

I went to pick my phone up off the coffee table, when again her crying became hysterical. It took everything in me not to go swoop her up in my arms and hold her until she felt no pain; but then again I was feeling pain. What about me?

I didn't even look at her before heading to the door.

Khloe: Jerrell, PLEASE! *She yelled as though she was pleading with me*

Me: Please, what Khloe!? *I yelled while turning to face her*

The next thing I knew she was on the floor crying, and her mom was entering the living room.

Kathy: What's going on in here?

I looked at her mom, the turned back heading to the door.

Kathy: Jerrell, whats going on? Why are the both of you yelling and crying?

I stopped in my tracks and turned back around.

Me: Tell her Khlo.

Khloe: *Looking up at me with puppy dog eyes* She knows Jerrell. *She barely above a whisper*

She knew what she was doing, because I didn't hear anything after the word "she."

Me: What was that Khloe? She, what?

Khloe: She knows. * Again she was wiping her non-ending tears*

I looked at Mrs. Santiago like she had three heads.

Me: Wait, so you're ok with your daughter having an abortion without even telling the father of the child that the child was existent?

Kathy: Woah, I would never be ok with something like that. Khloe Maria Santiago, what does he mean when he says " without even telling the father of the child that the child was existent?", because you told me that he knew. You also told me that you guys agreed that it was for the best.

There Khloe went again with that loud ass crying.

Me: * Taking a deep sigh* Look I'm out, it was good to see you Mrs. Santiago.

Kathy: I'm so sorry baby, I thought you knew.

I gave her a hug then started walking. I didn't feel like taking the bus so I called Jason.

Jason: Yo, wassup?

Me: Can you come get me?

Jason: From where?

Me: The Metro

Jason: Iight, I'm on my way. 15 mins, so order me some crabcakes.

~20 mins later~

My phone was ringing, and I could only hope that it was Chase. I know the lord heard my prayers when I looked at the screen and saw his name.

Me: Yea?

Jason: I'm outside, you better have my crabcakes.

I hung up and ran out to the car, putting the crabcakes in the back seat and sitting there quietly. I had a feeling this quiet peace wouldn't last long when we got to our first light.

Jason: Aye, what's wrong with you bruh?

Me: Nothing, just get me home please.

Jason: Whatever you say young blood.

~The Next Morning~

Jerome's Point. Of. View.

Its 6 in the morning, so I knew no one would be up. I decided I was gonna go visit dad before anyone could wake up. I checked for the keys, but the rent-a-car key was no where to be found. I decided to just walk to Aunt Ray's house and ask if I can borrow her car. I think its funny how mom's little sister bought a house 2 blocks from dad's mom.

I rang the bell and waited.

Aunt Raven: Hey Rome, whats going on; why you here so early?

Me: I wanted to know if I could borrow your car.

Aunt Raven: Umm, why?

Me: To go see dad.

Aunt Raven: Oh, sure Romey.

We went inside, I gave her a hug and made my way to visit dad. Except someone had beat me to it, Jerrell was here before me.

Jerrell: Dad, I'm so lost and I don't know if I could ever forgive her. I know what you're probably thinking "go talk to Terry I sent him for you guys to have a father figure", but Terry isn't you dad. Sometimes I need a man of my own blood line to talk to me.

Me: I may not be what your looking for, but maybe I could help you.

Jerrell: You sure? Cause lately you been so in your feelings, not even mama wanna talk to you.

Me: Yea I know, but if you need me I'm gonna be here because you're my little brother.

Jerrell: Man stop being so soft.

Hmph. My little brother.

Me: Iight, so what's up?

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Once Rell had told me what happened I couldn't help but be angry. I'm gonna make sure my cousin finds out about this, because she's in deep need of an ass whopping and I don't hit girls.

Me: Yo, follow me to Aunt Ray's

Jerrell: Why?

Me: Cause I got her car, and I ain't got no other way to get to Nana house.

Jerrell: Silly if I got the car we gotta go back to Mama Philips house first.

Me: Just follow me lil' nigga.

Jerrell: *Sighing* Iight, lets go.

When we got there we decided to stop and say hi to Saraya.

.:: Side Note ::.

Saraya is 3 months younger than Jerome. Her name is a combination of her parents name. Her father being Samuel and her mother being Raven. The 'a' at the end is so that she wouldn't have the same nickname as her mother.

.:: Ok, Back To The Story ::.

Saraya: Hey uglies. *She said opening the door.*

Jerrell: Hi to you too short stuff

Me: Fuck outta here monkey ass.

Saraya: Aww, you guys must have missed me to make fun of me so calmly.

Jerrell: You mad?

Saraya: Nope.

We looked at each other then back at Raya.

Me & Jerrell: She mad. * We both laughed, because now she was getting mad.*

Saraya: Ugh! I swear ya'll so dumb.

Me: Anywayssssssssssss. * Put on the most bird like voice I could* I need a favor.

Saraya: Who you want me to fight?

Me: Why is that your first thought? Why I can't need a normal favor, like you lending me money or something?

Saraya: One, you always have a job, I bet you made your boss transfer you to a CVS in New York. Two, every time you ever need a favor I end up with my hair in a bun, some sweats and tims, oh and some girls face attached to my fist.

I had to laugh, that was so true. I always ask her to fight girls for me, but its just because I wouldn't dare hit a woman.

Me: Alright, that may be true.

Saraya: No, Its true.

Me: Ok, its true. I need you to handle-

Jerrell: Jerome no.

Me: Why not?

Jerrell: Just don't Jerome Damn!

Saraya: Umm, what's going on here.

Me: Jerrell's ex, current, whatever aborted his child without even telling him she was pregnant. *I blurted out as fast as I could*

Saraya: What?! Nah Rell, Imma beat her ass.

Jerrell: Look, my moms don't even know yet, and this shit I just can't deal with. Yea, I'm hurt but I still love this girl so whether or not we're together I don't want you to fight her.

Me & Saraya: Man, fuck that.

Saraya: Look at you over here defending her, when like you said you "love her". You think she love you? *She paused waiting for him to answer, but when he didn't she kept on.* If she "love you", why she didn't even have the decency to call you and say "I'm pregnant, and I want an abortion." ?

She had a point and whether or not he wanted to admit it, it was evident that he knew.

Jerrell: Like I said you're not fighting her... Yo I'm out, so if you want this ride lets go.

I got up and gave Raya a hug. Then she wispered to me, exactly what I expected her to say.

Saraya: Don't worry I'll handle it.

Me: Just chill... for now until he come to his senses.

She nodded, then I walked out to the car and got in without a word. Of course we drove in silence, Jerrell was in his feelings. Once he cut the engine off we got out the car and went inside.

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Today is Thursday and Jerrell hasn't spoken to me since Tuesday when I tols Saraya to fight Khloe. I mean, Khloe did some fucked up shit, but then again I knew where he was coming from. When I broke up with April, Raya went behind my back and jumped her in the school parking lot even though I asked her not to fight her.

I walked upstairs to the room Rell was in, me and Chase were staying in the basement while mama stayed at Nana's. I knocked on the door three times and waited to hear something.

Jerrell: Yea?

Me: Its me.

Jerrell: So?

I sighed then went in the room.

Me: Look I'm sorry iight? My heart told me that Khlo needed to be fucked up and I followed it, but I didn't think about how it would make you feel. I didn't think of how I felt when I walked out the school and saw Raya and her girls jumping April.

Jerrell nodded at me in understanding, I knew he'd forgive me but I wanted him to understand that I would always have his back.

Me: You know dad wouldn't like this, us making each other mad and shit... especially at a time like this.

Jerrell: Yea, he'd be on some shit like "Whatever ya'll feeling, gone head and feel it, just remember to let it go."

Me: Aw man,that used to be his favorite line. Well that and " If you're thinking with your heart and you're not in love you must be stuck on stupid." But yo, I got some apologies to make since I was all up in my feelings this week.

He gave me a pound(dap) and I left out to go see a bunch of people I was dismissing this week.

Come With Me - Chapter 2: The Reality

Jerrell’s Point. Of. View

  I just pulled up to Khlo’s house and was calling her on the phone. She ran outside wearing this outfit, that just happened to match mine. I swear I’m in love with her.She opened the car door, got in, and gave me a kiss.

Khloe: Hey babe.

Me: Hey, where to?

Khloe: To the Mansion.

Me: Ok.

I pulled off without hesitating, the Mansion was our spot.Everyone goes to the Mansion, thats where the best parties are.

Jerome’s Point. Of. View

Me and my boys stopped at McDonalds to rack up on food, man I love my crew…I’m not gonna lie though, I wish Relly was here.

Me: So where we finna go ya’ll???

Tyrone: You know we gotta hit the Mansion one time for your last night.

We got to the Mansion about thirthy minutes later and then I saw Terry’s Lincoln, and Khloe get out the passenger seat.I went over to it and gave Khloe a hug.

Me: Yo, I’m so glad you guys came, I was just thinking to myself that whatever I do tonight should be done with my brother.

Jerrell: Me too man.

We all began to walk inside, this night was gonna be great I could feel it. Then I knew it as soon as we got in and on the stage was mom and Tee.Rell and I began to wild out like some kids. Then we saw mom put the mic closer to her.

Faith: I wanna say that I raised some beautiful boys, and I’ve never had to do it alone. When they both were born their dad was there with me every step of the way. *She began to get teary eyed* And when he passed, their grandmothers were here…both my mom and their dad’s mom, and now my wonderful husband Terry is his here. I’m so proud of the men they are becoming, and thats why I had to throw this going away party for them.

Me and Jerrell stood here in the middle of the dance floor with tears running down our faces. All eyes were on us and I’m not gonna lie, I wanted to just breakdown…but I held it together, not for me, but for my little brother.

Terrence: I love my beautiful wife, and these wonderful boys. They accepted me for who I am, and I do my best for them. They may not call me dad, but they’re my sons…MINE. To love, to care for, and to protect under any and evey circumstance possible. These boys deserve that, and I just hope I’ve done a great job providing them with it.

Jerrell and I wipped our eyes and went on stage to say a few words our self. I let Relly go first.

Jerrell: Umm, I don’t know what to say…Thanks mom

Me: And Pops

Jerrell: Yeah, and Pops, for throwing this party for us…Thank you everyone for coming, and we are really gonna miss you guys out here. Oh! I forgot to thank my baby Khloe for being a part of this surprise, and yeah.

Me: Umm everything thing he said, minus the “my baby” part and adding our loving grandparents, thanks everyone for coming to support us.

I put the mic down and reality set in…this is really our last night.

Faith’s Point. Of. View (There Won’t Be Much Of These)

Nearly an hour and 1/2 had passed. I was sitting with my mother just letting this proud moment soak in.Then Terry tapped me on my shoulder.

Me: Yea hunny

Terrence: I think we should take off now, and come back later to make sure everything was good. ;-)

When he winked his eye, I knew what time it was.

Me: Relly did drive right

Terrence: Yupp

Me: And Naya did go to your mom’s house for the night.

Terrence: Correct again

I looked to my mom, then back at Terry.

Me: Mom do you need a ride? Or are you going to stay with Mama Philips?

Grandma Johnson: I’m fine right here, you guys go, enjoy your last night.

Me: I love you ma.

I gave my mom a kiss on the cheek, gave Terry the car keys, and we were on our way. We only made it to the driveway, but I loved it. After that we went inside and straight to the shower, it was just like when we first got married. I swear I love this man. After all of that we took real showers and headed back to the party.We got there in perfect time because it was 10 minutes away from ending. We went in, took pictures with the boys, and made sure nobody left anything behind.

Jerome: Mom, give me the keys to the Audi, I’ll drive home.

Me: Boy get the keys to the Lincoln from your brother, then take Khole, your Nana, and Mama Philips home.

Jerome: Ok mama.

First thing in the morning take the cars to get cleaned. -I told myself.

I went and kissed Maine’s( the boys’ father) mom  and my mom before getting in the car with Terry. What a night if I do say so myself. I hope the boys had a good night.

Jerrell’s Point. Of. View

We had just dropped both of our grandmothers and Khloe home, and now we were on our way home.

Me: Did you notice how at the end of the party mom and Terry were wearing completely different outfits??? 

Jerome: Now that you mention it, yea… and she didn’t want me to drive the Audi home.

Me and Rome at the same time yelled “Ughhhhhhh, that’s nasty”

Jerome: Don’t say anything, we could use this later in life

Me: I’m way ahead of you.

We laughed about a few things, then it all came to a stop when Rome parked.

Me: This is really it huh?

Jerome: I think so.

We sat there in silence for a few more minutes, then we made our way to the door. When I put my key in the door I realized that this was the last night I’d ever use my keys for this door.

Me: I call the shower first.

Jerome: Stupid Imma shower in the guest room.

Me: Oh yea, Nay’s not home…forget it then.

Jerome: Old habits

Me: Yea.

We then went inside our officially old house.

I Think Imma Go Ahead & Scrap This Wack Ass Story. Maybe I'll Bring It Back & Write It Over One Day...

But Make It Better. It'll Most Likely Have The Same Theme, Just Better Writing.

However I Am Devoting My Time To A Story That Will Be Wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy Better. =D

This Can't Be Life...I'm Weak.

#Repost I’m crying. (Taken with Instagram)

The greatest scene in all animated movie history.