I Just Love Them, Very Pretty :D

I miss jay with ponytail and bangs, it was such a slay

My tone. Like a hundred times. I never mean it that way, it's just the way i speak

attention all autistics {?} [pt. 2]

what’s something an allistic has gotten pissed at you for and you had no idea what you did wrong (asking too personal a question, accidentally crossing a boundary, etc)?

💥SPIDER-PUNK💥

prints

I jist want to show them the excitement i have for this thing :(

I think what a lot of non-autistic people don't understand is the relationship between special interest and empathy.

I love hearing people talk about their special interests because it makes them happy, and it makes me feel good to see other people happy. I talk about mine with the understanding that even if they don't get the actual thing, talking about it makes me happy and they like to see me happy.

This works really well with other autistic people, moderately well with those who have other divergences, and is an absolute minefield when talking to neurotypicals.

When I talk about my special interests with another autistic person, there's an understanding that I'll talk now about mine, and it'll be their turn soon. If we have similar interests, it rapidly devolves into excited fawning over something. If they're different, I get to learn about something new from someone who loves that thing more than anything.

When I talk with someone with another divergence, like my friend with ADHD, there's an understanding that maybe what I'm doing doesn't make sense, but it makes me happy, and it's not hurting anybody. I'm more careful about picking topics that are "of general interest", and more attentive to cues that it's time to talk about something else, but any person in this category who I know well enough to get like that around knows to just tell me to stop in a gentle way. We acknowledge each other's differences and respect them.

I don't usually start talking about special interests around neurotypicals. Unless we already have a very close relationship, there's no way for them to get the kind of enjoyment I would expect an autistic person to get from seeing me so happy. If I try to ask leading questions to get someone to "take their turn" and talk at length about something that makes them happy, they generally don't get it, and the conversation fizzles. In addition, neurotypicals usually don't understand that I'm not going to notice their subtle hints to stop talking, and will start to get frustrated by the time they clearly ask me to stop.

The only neurotypicals who actually get this kind of empathetic enjoyment are those who already like seeing me happy, like my parents or siblings, and even then, I can't really tell if they're getting much out of it. Opening up that much is risky, and often just not done. I know to be careful.

Basically, all this led me to this idea: autistics want to talk about our special interests because we want other people to feel the joy we feel. Other autistics pick up on that. Other neurodivergents pick up on something, even if they're not sure what, and neurotypicals make absolutely no sense whatsoever.

A little sketch of Ian and Barbara I drew for my partner last year. Hopefully I’ll get the chance to paint it!

We love them, your honour.

*This poll is for how much trans swag a character has, canonical transness isn’t relevant to this particular poll

*Ranboo, the person who played c!Ranboo, is nonbinary and uses he/they pronouns. Misgendering them will be an instant block

good ending.

HELL YEAH

rb to have a super gay 2023

I can’t stop thinking about the role of the audience in genloss. Is the viewer complicit in Showfall’s crime? Or are they too, being manipulated? Every time the audience was referred to in an accusatory way, and it was kinda implied that they were to blame for the choices they made. But the one pointing that blame, was Showfall itself. Who we all know is sus af.

Those audience choices were intentionally rigged, right? You’re given option A) a bad thing happens, or option B) another bad thing huh. No matter what you choose, someone dies. Just like the choices that the characters made, all still led to the same fucked up situations. And who still points the blame - fucking Showfall.

In that final scene, the audience listens to gl!Ranboo. It’s haunting, in a way. Initially they vote for him to live, to have another chance to break free. They choose mercy, escape, keep trying please. They want him to have another chance: very different to the heartless image Showfall is implying.

Than gl!Ranboo begs to die, and they listen again. They vote die, and it’s the mercy he selected. And it’s their fault: you made a choice, viewer. But who made the options for that poll to begin with? And so, how can you not say that the Audience was also part of the manipulation. Yet another fourth wall that wasn’t able to be broken.

episode one: I can't actually think if any, most of the horror in this episode is implied with things from the next episode

episode two: death, blood, gunshots, there will be slight implications of gore and maybe even cannibalism, depends on how good your imagination is

episode three: blood, gore, emetophobia (hope that's the right name, basically a bit of mouth horror)

yeah that's what i can think of.

are there any content warnings i should be aware of before i start watching genloss?