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How to Deal With Being Overwhelmed

I heard this tip from a professor I had over the summer and I find it super helpful whenever I have something big that’s stressing me out. 

1. Place your hand directly in front of your eyes. Imagine that in your hand is everything that is stressing you out at the moment, whether it be tests, relationships, personal issues, etc

2. Breath in for a count of 4, and as you do so, move your hand farther and farther away from your eyes in a straight line until it’s as far from you as possible,

3. Hold for a count of 4. Take note of where your hand is now, how little space it takes up in your field of vision. Focus on other things in the room; the color of the walls, the shape of the furniture, the sounds going on outside.

4. Breath out for a count of 4. Your hand is everything that is stressing you out, and everything else you can see is the rest of your life. The things that are stressing you out right now can seem so immediate and overwhelming, but remember that it only makes up a small fraction of your life, and there are so many things left to look forward to. 

5. Repeat as needed. Remember, you’ve got everything well in hand.

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So. You want to garden.

For whatever reason. Right now as of uhhhh Friday March 27, of 2020, within the quarantine of COVID-19 you are most likely want to garden in order to feed your family as you want to save money from the grocery store. And to ya know. feed your family.

SO. Here’s some YouTube videos. Mainly from this one YouTuber since she runs her own farm. She talks about what to grow and how to grow as well as saving seeds. (Trust me, saving seeds is better in the long run.) You can also regrow kitchen scraps too if you feel like you’re unable to get any proper seeds. And for fun have a post apocalyptic type garden.

What to plant in a small garden:

Fast-food growing options:

The importance of Seed saving:

How to build an arched trellis for $30:

A complete guide to virtual gardening:

How to PLANT & GROW with cattle panel arched trellises:

14 store bought vegetables & herbs you can regrow:

Save your kitchen scraps, these 7 plants can be grown out of them:

9 survival gardening crops to grow in a post apocalyptic world:

very helpful, thank you so much, will utilize during the spooky months

Having Psychosis during Halloween

Having psychosis during the fall means having to face lots of spooky stuff. I don’t speak for everyone, but Halloween is a very tough time of year for me. Horror movies, trailers, decorations, and even pranks are pulled out for my favorite time of year. So here are some helpful hints that I use to keep myself happy, safe, and spooky!

🕸Stay away from things that may trigger you, no matter how small. Do not underestimate yourself. Even watching or reading something slightly spooky, when you know this is harmful, can bring up bad memories or start an episode.

🕸Install a ‘spoiler block’ on your laptop or computer. They can go by many names, but these apps block out keywords on all sites. Some can be more general, like topics instead of words.

🕸If you’re sensing that a jump scare is about to happen on what you’re watching, and can’t get out of the situation or want to continue watching, wiggle your toes, fingers, and chatter your teeth. This is what I do and it prevents me from jumping or flinching, which stops chest pain and episodes.

🕸Go to kid friendly parties! As a teen who cannot see bloody or gore-associated costumes, I go to family/all ages parties where costumes are all kid friendly!

🕸Watch kid friendly movies! It’s hard to not watch Halloween movies, but don’t expose yourself to horror if you can’t handle it! Movies like Beetlejuice, Hocus Pocus, Nightmare Before Christmas, and Halloweentown are lightly spooky.

🕸This might be just me, but I can convince myself that I have 'immunity’ to any bad stuff or danger (not all dangers, if that makes sense, but dangers as in my delusions and such) if I give myself a good luck charm or simply write “SAFETY CHARM” on a post-it and carry it around!

🕸Decorate with simple stuff! Some decorations might include bl**d, b*gs, and other horror stuff. Stick to simple things like orange/white lights, cartoon ghosts/pumpkins/bats, wolves/cats, and witch hats! Overall, keep things cartoony and basic! Or, even better, just get fall decorations, like leaves, scarecrows, and pumpkins!!

🕸STAY AWAY FROM HAUNTED HOUSES! I cannot stress this enough. No matter what symptoms you have of psychosis, a haunted house plays on them ALL. Voices/noises, jump scares, touch (some cannot touch you, but some can!), and even hallucinations (people running and hiding, so you may think it’s a hallucination, or you could see things in the dark)

🕸Go trick-or-treating in a kid oriented part of town! You’ll see fun decorations, cute costumes, and won’t be scared! Or go to a kid friendly party and have fun there!

🕸Participate in non-spooky fun! Bake spooky/fall themed foods, craft, make your own costume, and carve pumpkins!!

🕸Overall, know your limits and DON’T push them! Test your limit during a different season. Have fun, stay spooky, and enjoy your fall, everyone!

i am an idiot sometimes but sometimes i am an idiot to be funny you know? for the joke. and i want people to know the difference. sometimes my actions are purposeful. sometimes i think. i want you to know that. even when i am just being a regular idiot i choose to say things knowing i am an idiot. i am the chooser of my own fate. i am the god of my own reality.

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