Heyheylol - Untitled

Sometimes I still think your alive. Like Ive been punked. Like Im part of an elaborate rouse.

im not attracted to men because im not attracted to weakness. Men are weak in character. Weak in morals. Weak in values. Weak in wisdom. Weak spiritually. Weak in their capacity to be vulnerable. They have no honor, no integrity. they're a phallic attached to a headache and i want no part of it.

Most people spend their days and lives being run by their basilar instincts. Their want for love, sex, money, attention, joy, excitement, acceptance. When I gave my life to God, He slowly but surely began showing me that only He can provide for my needs in a way that actually satisfies. What happens when you don't need people to provide for you anymore? I don't need people so I started living FOR people. And don't get it twisted, I have a general dislike for people. They are disappointing, basic, annoying, unstimulating, and just overall lacking. But I have a deep love for humanity. Which is why my life revolves around making the world a better place and doing all I can to provide for the needs of my fellow man. Not because they deserve it, not because "it's just in me to do". But because we are all God's creation. May God continue to fulfill my needs so I don't search for fulfillment in people and things that can't do or provide a damn thing for me. But let me never lose the love I have for all of God's creature and never lose sight of my purpose on this earth.

It's a shame when youd give anything for one man to message you bakc.

You cant even fantasize about him anymore because youve changed so much and you know he must have too.

Complete strangers, and yet... You're a stain on my very existence. I stain on my heart.

I'd like to do something in the future that has real impact in peoples lives. I've done a lot that looks good on paper. I've participated in marches, volunteered, held summits, lead student organizations, etc and I'm sure on some level I've left people inspired or was part of something bigger than myself but I'd like to do something that actually has a real, measurable, positive impact on peoples lives in a tangible way. Hopefully something I can see because I selfishly want to know that what I'm doing matters. I just feel like my activism, community service, and various initiatives have been so superficial when I'm looking to make a deep and meaningful change in peoples lives.

no one can make you feel like a mid bitch without your consent eleanor roosevelt said that

Pathetic. Listening to sad love songs.

Why do I want to be a pathologist? Because I'm not interested in the day to day management of diabetes and hypertension. I dont want to spend the next 20 years of my life tending to sore throats, itchy rashes, and chronic disease. I am interested in diagnostics, not management.