hobbies don’t have to be witnessed to be valid.
please: read, game, run, write, take photos alone. these things and their results don’t always have to be shared; doing them for yourself is good.
do want to share them? that’s good too
& you know what it actually IS lifechanging to smile at strangers & say please & thank you & goodmorning & compliment someones outfit & help someone in need & be more accepting of loving other people just because they are other people!!!
afterall, feeling understood is the greatest form of love.
common origins of suffering, euphoria, and ferret
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why is life sooooooo beautiful and profound and sad and completely empty
another important thing to remember is 1) u can pick up any hobby at any point in ur life and get outstandingly good at it & 2) the project u've been working on & aren't pleased w the current outcome so far will not be your last. u will draw/crochet/paint/sculpt/write another piece, and another, and you will have many chances to be fully content w your craft. so you should cherish the joy of making art instead of worrying ab the results & think ab how lovely it is that we're all vessels for artistry and we can share the divine act of creation!!!!!
Jack Gilbert, from Collected Poems; "Waking at Night"
been thinking a lot about anticipatory grief lately. i love you so much that i know losing you will devastate me. i haven't lost you yet but i already miss you. we still have time, but it won't be enough. i think about what i would say at your funeral, and say some of it to you now cause i need you to know how loved you are before you go. you will go where i cannot follow, but you will never really leave me. it won't make it hurt less but it is a part of healing somehow.
a god hurt me, i fell - a web weave
for my OC: Elara Miracle (🪻\🪡)
Sources:
Unknown
The Living Series, Jenny Holzer
Poppies, Holly Warburton
poetry is stored in the tags
English Song, Fernando Pessoa
Vox Machina, Critical Role (Episode 63)
The Wing, Xooang Choi
Portrait of Illness as Nightmare, Leila Chatti
Unknown
The Sacrificial Lamb, Josefa de Óbidos
helen of troy cleans up after the barbeque, Maria Zoccolo
Harrow the Ninth, Tamsyn Muir
How To Rest, The Crane Wives
fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘i am an observer, but not by choice.’
[text id: my fist has always been clenched around the handle of an invisible suitcase. / i am always ready to leave. / there is not a single room in this world where i belong.]
i’ve heard a lot of people say “don’t reach out to your friends first and see how many people will remain in your life. those are your true friends” and i get it. it sucks and it’s tiring constantly being the one to message first, to initiate hang outs but don’t take this so literally. some friendships require initiation. i have lost touch with so many people who genuinely cared about me and wanted me in their life because i stopped reaching out. it’s a hard pill to swallow but honestly some people just suck at it and it doesn’t mean they don’t love and value you. i’ve reconnected with some people over the past few months and it’s crazy how genuinely happy they are to see me and how engaged they are in the conversation. i just think sometimes we’re too harsh on each other & too quick to emphasize other peoples flaws and remove them from our lives but then we’ll all be alone and what’s the point of life then!!!!