Recently I've Been Having Those Kind Of Dreams Where Its Just Better Scenarios Of Things I Regret And

london livelihood (the sequel)

carrying on from my previous post after leicester square we finally got to the most exciting part of the trip, winter wonderland. surprisingly a lot of people were only there for the food, which i was very surprised by, i think the main event is the rides, no? first up was the Eurocoaster, i went with two friends who i'm gonna name Tall and Blue at the time it seemed very scary but it was nothinggggg compared to the other two rides we went on after. it twists and turns and went up and down at the most unexpected moments, i think Tall was also wary of the fact she was sitting inbetween two motion sick people but thank gosh nothing went wrong. all three of us screamed our lungs out and then Tall said the ride wasn't even scary?? i think she screamed the most lolol. next up was my choice, The Boomer, a big 360 swing that also rotates the carriage so you're spinning upside down. this was without a doubt the scariest ride i've ever been on. i mean, go big or go home right?? when we first got strapped in i heavily regretted all my life decisions and chose that specific moment to tell Blue about my fear of height. remembering it gives me goosebumps. after all the mayhem, the ride came to a stop at the top and for a solid 5 minutes we had the best view of not only winter wonderland but the whole of london. i think for a few minutes i loved the height more than anything. we took a small break to cool off because that ride is exhilarating before walking around so Blue could have her pick. That ended up being the Munich Looping. I'm quite sad that I didn't get to keep the mid-ride picture because i managed to keep a straight face the entire time but alas! there is no proof. We explored the rest of the park after that! Took photos and met up with friends where we tried churros and macarons (overrated imo) I slept the entire ride home. I think it's definitely something I'm going to remember for a long time afterwards. The image of london from the top of the Boomer and the chill from the cold is engrained in the forefront of my memory until next time! Amimi

romantic things i yearn for

- dancing in the rain, no music, just heavy heavy rain - being surprised with glow in the dark stars stuck on the ceiling in pitch black while leaning on one another - learning to ice/roller skate with your partner - blanket forts and pjs, watching whatever cheesy movies you used to love as a kid - bike rides at night, preferably when its sweater weather season - nerf gun wars while diving behind furniture ( or level that up to paintballing as a team ) - aquariums ( standing together in dark spots surrounded by the dim glow of the tanks is the most romantic thing ) - last but not least, romantic and simplistic, just talking while sitting down and facing eachother for hours and hours (this wasn’t a dark academic post like normal but oh well lol - if you liked this post you’ll also like the post i did titled da dates noone will do w/ me - check that out!) - Amimi

Few of my favourite things from the fashion of dark academia

why is lightning constantly striking outside my window? gives me flashbacks of bangladeshi storm and having the entire building shake while huddled in a corner and my aunts just shrugging like we won't be possibly crushed to death by the house concaving

STOP WAITING FOR SOMETHING THAT WILL NEVER COME!

THERE WILL BE NO CALL TO ADVENTURE, YOU HAVE TO CHASE IT YOURSELF!!

to read *dark academic tastes*

- The Secret History by Donna Tartt - Absolutely anything by Oscar Wilde - Harry Potter - preferably all in one sitting (idgaf what anyone says its da) - Shakespeare, absolute classic because.. shakespeare - Allegorical Novels (like AnimAl faRm)    - so you can look smart while discussing politics and microcosms @mohkomx - Edgar Allan Poe (dark poetry is hauntingly enticing)  - The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini  (not da,just my own recommendation) - Hugo Caberet (again my own recommendation - Brian Selznick is a genius) - anything by Brian Selznick (just for good measure) i hope you liked this post!  Amimi

december daze (depressing af)

Wed, 22 Dec 2021 - 11:28pm -11:57pm 

damn that

alliteration

decembers been kinda dismal ngl,

(take a shot every time you read a word beginning with d on this post)

feel like i’m in a daze, these past 5 days of christmas break have been lying in bed and listening to p!atd and maggie lindemann on repeat.

(productive i know)

it’s crazy to think i’ll be finishing secondary school within the next few months 

i feel like i was robbed of two years of my life and it’s so weird because it’s like how can you feel nostalgic for something that was never there? 

nostalgia in definition is 

a sentimental longing or wistful affection for a period in the past 

that’s not quite what i feel. i have a longing for a period in my past that never happened. i don’t feel wistful affection. i feel grief and loss for a time that never was. i’m almost 16 but i don’t feel that way. i feel like i lost what would have been two of the greatest years of my life and it’s like damn, 2020 and 2021 happened in a blur. where did they go.

(love that over dramaticness for me)

exams will be done and over with within the next 6 months, i’d like to make the most of that time inbetween studying to experience what i lost in that time stolen by covid.

NOTE:

i’d like to do monthly diary posts like these as something for my future self to look back on - from now on i’ll be including the date and times i started and finished writing posts at the top.

til next time  ~Amimi

Ay, my heart is not beating Ay 심장이 뛰지 않는대 When I listen to music anymore 더는 음악을 들을 때 Tryna pull up It seems time has stopped 시간이 멈춘 듯해 Oh that would be my first death I been always afraid of If this can't make me cry 이게 나를 더 못 울린다면 If you can’t make my heart tremble more 내 가슴을 더 떨리게 못 한다면 Maybe I'll die once like this 어쩜 이렇게 한 번 죽겠지 아마 But what if that moment's right now, right now Only the sound of a slow heart in my ears, bump bump bump 귓가엔 느린 심장 소리만 bump bump bump Even if I want to escape, jump into that mouth, jump jump jump 벗어날래도 그 입속으로 jump jump jump I can't reach any song 어떤 노래도 와닿지 못해 Screaming a silent sound 소리 없는 소릴 질러 (these lyrics speak to me so much, and the video is so underappreciated, like can we gush about the artistry?) *no pictures or media is mine unless stated otherwise*

guess who's back, back again

this is one of many, many, many notifs. first corn accs now bots oml tumblr give me a break pls