Romantic Things I Yearn For

i really dislike it when people don’t understand perfectionism.

like, it isn’t always “person who has tons of motivation and spends a ton of time making this thing *just* right”

wayyyyyy more often than not it’s:

”I know that if I try to make this thing, it won’t be perfect, so I simply won’t try.”

which definitely sounds bad, right? but when you realize that it doesn’t just apply to voluntarily making art, then you realize how perfectionism is not at all a good thing in any context. 

“i know that if I try to work on this assignment right now, it won’t be good enough, so i’ll wait until the last possible moment so that I have something forcing me to do it.”

”i know that I should start going to the gym, but I won’t see any improvement right away, so I just won’t.”

”i know that i should brush my teeth tonight, but that won’t be good enough to undo the fact that i haven’t brushed them 4 days in a row, so I just won’t.”

perfectionism isn’t the uncontrollable impulse to make things “just right”. (although it can occasionally manifest as this.)

perfectionism is the absolute, psychological inability to accept the concepts of “good enough” and “better than nothing”. even when you spell it out for yourself in a long text post like this.

my god. i dug through the jungle in my room and found reminders of all the trips and memories from the past and now i wanna scream and laugh and cry and smile all at the same fucking time and its overwhelming

The language of flowers..

Polite Society at Home and Abroad, 1891

warning, it’s long, but there’s a lot of really great specifics, like:

you are a fop good but odd you will cause my death I declare war against you intellectual but heartless false and gay handsome but dangerous your looks freeze me an enemy in disguise

Keep reading

i know i talked about buying the tweed jacket in the end but i didn’t have enough money so i bought a puma hoodie instead lmao

broke academia things

curling up in the corner of a public library and pretending you live there 

taking pictures of the ruins of your local cathedral because you need those aesthetic pictures for your blog

staring longingly at the tweed jacket you’ll never afford in the shop window

wearing the same red turtleneck (the only one you happen to own) in every outfit you can in a hundred different ways

staring longingly at the tweed jacket in the shop window

impulsively buying the tweed jacket and putting yourself in financial debt for the sake of aesthetic (totally worth it) 

september start, struggles and sixth form

the alliteration came so naturally to me i didn't even realise. soooo september has been something. starting sixth form has been striking to say the least. i thought i'd instantly take to my subjects but surprisingly i haven't. they've been engaging and i've definitely enjoyed media the most, i'm so stoked for when we actually get to make our own projects and such later on in the school year. i have somehow already managed to lose my fine art folder but it's just experimental work so it's whatever. why is september like january? speaking of september its officially autumn yayayayayayay. i can't wait to buy some jumpers and such to go with the brown and beige flares i bought!! i'm doing my best to channel my dark academia phase and romanticise school so i'll do better! oh and my math gcse was sent off for a remark - i was only two marks off of a 7 (A) so i'll tell you how that turns out when i hear back! i gtg catch up with sociology work, i'm sorry if this post was a bit bland but there's not a lot to talk about from this month. until next time! ~Amimi posting this a bit late because i forgot to queue this but oh well.

yk now that im thinking about it

ncs really was just love island but without the luxuries of living in habitable place

girls will have one (1) good day when they convince themselves they've never been unwell in their life and the next day the horrors will return

guide to being the dark academic you’ve always aspired to be

1. stand in the middle of a lake staring at the way the moonlight reflects off the blood on your hands

2. start using words with more syllables because it sounds smarter and you need everyone to know how smart you are so they won’t know you bribed your way into the gentleman’s club

3. cover your chin with a black scarf so people can’t see the scar you got from turning the pages of the encyclopaedia too quickly

4. clutter your room with things that you bought from old charity shops, so you can watch them collect dust (and so you won’t have to look at that mysterious red stain on the floor)

5. buy a coffin to sleep in (you can find one secondhand if it’s too expensive - don’t worry, that just adds to the mystique). 

6. string balls of cosy yarn across the floor, lest any intruders come. this way, you can catch them easily. 

7. spell your name wrong to prevent identity theft

8. cut all your hair off in an attempt to become someone else and then send the locks to your neighbours (don’t provide context)

9. dig yourself a grave four feet to the left of the nearest skyscraper

10. don’t look behind your shoulder or you’ll see her. donna. 

The Boy and The Beast (2015)

Following the story of Ren, a nine year old boy who runs away and becomes the apprentice of Kumatetsu, a brash beast. Together, they fight obstacles within themselves and one another amidst a journey to save the world. To be completely honest, I haven't watched any movies in a long long time, but I was on a nostalgic spiral the other day and one of my childhood youtubers TheAnimeMan recommended this movie in one of his videos. My interest in this film was further sparked as it's directed by Mamoru Hosoda, the mastermind behind Wolf Children (2012), a film which I love dearly.

The narrative takes an alternate twist on the structure of a Heroes Journey. I loved how Ren and Kumatetsu defy the typical dynamic of master and student, their dynamic fuelling their character arcs on both sides. Films within this genre often change the core personalities of their protagonists within their arcs, however Ren and Kumatetsu both remain lovably the same in that aspect,stubborn, boisterous and impulsive. The world of Jutengai is vivid, colourful and immersive, in both visuals and character. Soft world building is impeccably done and draws you in as you learn about the kingdom alongside Ren. His journey in identity as he wavers between the two worlds is something I relate immensely to. There's not a lot more I can say without giving away spoilers, but I will mention I love the dynamic between Ren and Ichirohiko, and the unexpected friendship between Ren and Jiromaru. Please do watch the film, I heavily encourage you all! As I've returned to tumblr with a warmth in my heart. I hope I can watch more like it. Until next time!! Amina

rediscovering my love of french and wanting to pick it up again, i used to hate it in school but now i realise how the structure of school and exams just ironically kills of the feeling of wanting to learn. please interact and tell me your fav methods of learning languages? or just your experiences with learning french in general?