Pure Satisfaction Feels Like:
Pure satisfaction feels like:
Coming outside on the balcony while I smoked a cigarette over the period of 2 hours, after you told me what you did. And what you're about to do, I thought I was going to get lectured about smoking again.
And said I was so shocked when you asked me for one because I always said I was so proud of the fact that you never smoked because you always made me feel like such shit about it because you knew I felt that shit about it. And I know you were always trying to motivate me in your own way but at what cost? Because my doctor with all the PhDs and letters and jurisdictions under his name said so? Because yeah I guess to you at least lol.
The best part is when you sat down and I said I'm going to keep my headphones on unless you want to talk and he said that was fine. I saw you just sitting there so I shoved the pack and this lighter towards you and even opened it for you. Because as someone who smokes when they're stressed, i'm not going to take that pleasure away from them.
You knew you really dun goofed because you know, no matter how sad you came to be, I would never believe that you would play me because I still think you're an honor roll person. Sorry I meant honorable but to you I guess it's the same fucking thing eh? Great job! @++ 🌟🏆🏅⭐ #isn't that what you want
From everyone but the person who would have done anything for you but was too tired to even stand up for themselves.
I will look back at these posts and smile only because I am smiling while making these posts.
And I don't care what you think you say you're going to do or don't, because just like you said you're never going to read any of my shit, or contribute or want to participate in it. Even when I was finally feeling like an artist that you always said you were going to push me to be and you always did push me to be.
Do you understand the mixed signals? Do you understand why? I think you might be on the spectrum? Not because I was trying to be hurtful but because I saw something and you that I saw in all the kids that I worked with. And you know how much I love the kids that I work with and the kids that I have in my life now even though I don't want to have kids.
I never needed you but I wanted to have you, but you fuck that up too eh?
At least I knew I'm not the only idiot dancing by themselves anymore, you've proven that you take that crown.
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Fate memes well
Or at least she tries
#someland #somedon't #i will still think I'm hilarious #tomyaudienceof1🥹
#population: ME ☣️☢️⚠️
#iseeyou #andfeelscene #warninglabelswerepeeling
#rubbedthembackon4u
#urwelcome
#generouskweeng
When I write as fast as I post them in the now what I see gorgeous stream of crazy conscious thought with subconscious neurons firing at F1 racing speed, cuz I guess I do need to drive to survive. You need a drive to survive because you know you don't have one. And that's pretty fucking sad guys. But not as sad as I feel right now for what you did to us.
I am sitting outside and writing. Finally. Is it a sitting outside and smoking my lungs out and during myself to jump?.
Sorry that was out of your depth. Can't imagine how difficult this new version of me must be
I truly hope you don't read any of this because I am speaking in anger, though it is currently my truth and exactly how I feel because like I said, it's all streams of thought that happened very fast. The fact that people can keep up with my messages when I'm voice typing them and they're reading them whenever they can, goes to show that not everyone communicates the same way. We need to be more understanding when people feel like they've discovered better ways of feeling like themselves in the world instead of hiding themselves to pretend like they're like every fucking person. The autistic kids always taught me more than I could have ever taught them, because I could never speak as quickly as they could in the little subtle movements and layers of behaviors that we fought every day to understand and supposedly fix so they could fit into.
I always saw the beauty in them like a lot of other people didn't. I always always one of the people who stayed late and came early. Not because I was getting paid for it because I damn sure wasn't. Even though it was a good work and work for every fucking supervisor and that company for 5 years and then never managed even get above them even though I could have done at least a few of their jobs better if not least not as bad. Or as bad. Whichever one is not as painful for you because I'm not trying to be mean, this is just how I feel at this moment. And then my change the next moment.
Is why a babble, because I know when I say something wrong and I can edit and change myself immediately. So my fault you have to type it out and then read it over 500 times to cash the edits. I make 500 times in a millisecond as the words tumble out of my mouth like diarrhea.
But this one I'm proud of. All poop is valid.
On no longer knocking, because we think we speak:
Different languages
slightly fluent in each others
but the vibe remains the same same (but different)
And I know that as soon as that bass drops, we both:
Wahoo! Happy to be here.
Those other guys are nuts or have nuts, I forget.
Either way, oooooOoo spooky.
I was gonna write more but Labrinth rips too hard so now I just wanna 🌬️ and bop.
Because I can't stop sweating funny thoughts
I just didn't know how much practice I got being sad for 20 years straight... No wonder I find myself funny you fuckin loser
You had no one else to compare to do it's not technically your fault.
But hey look on the bright side! You ended up on
And I will have to be my own:
Everything
Everywhere
All at once
But this time, I'm ready to fight 🖤
her consciousness consciously (daaaayyum!) you don't get it because it's not for you 🌚🌝 maybe yet, maybe never #ilovemyselftoday #notlikeyesterday #butevery1swelcome, FATE: Unfiltered and unedited like VPR Reunions on Peacock #you know what you signed up for "no bullies allowed"
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