I Must Take Painkillers. Painkillers Are The Pain Killer

a world without trans people has never existed and never will

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liked one post about radical feminism and now i’m being shown posts from terfs 🫤

I think kafka’s diaries are the strongest evidence that journaling is not necessarily good for your mental health

Haven't and am not watchihng th HBO version of TLOU, nor am I promoting it, bc not only does S2 change so much to the point where it doesnt feel right but also, Neil Drunkmann is a zionist that donated money to Israel! However! I keep thinking about why the idea of Abby being as small as she is in the show bothers me so much and its not just because they did the thing where they take a conventionally "unattractive" woman and change something significant about her to make her more palatable to men, that is part of it, but another reason is simply the fact that game Abby is genuinely frightening. We saw her kill Joel, we see the way she fights - she didnt NEED that man to be injured to take him down that was the whole point of her getting as big as she did. What Abby did to Joel in the game was calculated. It was planned to be that way because she wanted that man to suffer in death. You don't shoot a guy then tourniquet his leg right after because you want him to die fast.

She could have shot him, slashed him with an axe/machete/knife, hell she could have pummeled him with her bare hands and gave him a quicker death if we're being honest, but she didn't? Why would she? He put her dad down like a sick dog and Jerry couldn't really do anything to fight back. She made sure Joel would feel similarly to how her father probably felt in that moment - useless to help himself. And then she beat him into a pulp. It was personal. It felt personal. She looked pained and hurt and angry and even later in the game (before Lev) we see her doubt herself in regard to it.

When we get to show Abby the reasoning for shooting him falls apart in a way? And considering thatt so much of her arc is shaped by Joel's murder it makes her story feel less thought out. Like I said I havent seen it so I could be missing key details (which I doubt), but not only did they apparently make her weirdly attracted to the man that murdered her father but they also just made her utterly unintimidating. That "Abby" didnt have a choice but to shoot Joel first because she simply doesn't look like she has the strength to take him down. It feels less personal based off that alone. And I can't imagine what it's gonna be like near the end where she takes down the rat king or when she and Ellie are fighting (pre rattlers) - and speaking of rattlers - how the fuck do they intend on recreating tht feeling of "Oh my god, thats...that can't be Abby" that myself and I'm sure most people playing the game felt when Ellie cut her down from the post on the beach. I don't know it just sucks seeing one of my favorite games not only be surrounded by and in some ways rooted in zionism, but just seeing this happen again, where the story of a female character is changed significantly from something solid and well written into some fuck shit because they're too scared to show a "unattractive" woman on screen. People suck, I hate it here

The Handmaiden (dir. by Park Chan-wook, 2016)

i was intrigued…

Marie Sauvage x Bernardin Décalogue

not now sweetie, mom’s getting really annoyed by the way some so-called “femmes” on here treat and talk about butches like we’re only here to serve them as kink, sex, money and physical labor dispensers.

we’re people too, with feelings and wants and needs. we need protection, we need nurturing, we need the humanity so many others fail to grant us. we turn to femmes for that humanity when the world takes it from us.

you’re not protecting us when you’re asking us to throw our personhood away. you’re not protecting us when you project an unrealistic idealized version of butchness (read: sanitized masculinity) onto us of some short-cropped, perfectly muscular and suave persona with a bottomless wallet. you’re not protecting us when you ask us to go against the very morals that form the makeup of our identity.

don’t forget the dynamic goes both ways.