Here’s A Small, Pretty Personal Comic, About How Growing Up With Undiagnosed Autism Has Led To Me Struggling

shoutout to offputting autistic people

if USPS has a million fans, I'm one of them

if USPS has 5 fans, I'm one of them

if USPS has 1 fan, that is me

if USPS has no fans, I'm no longer alive

if the world is against USPS I'm against the entire world

till my last breath I support USPS

I joke but actually USPS is the literal lifeline for so many housebound disabled people who receive lifesaving medications through it- especially housebound people in rural areas. so many private shipping companies do not serve rural areas. try getting anyone else to drive hours into the middle of nowhere to deliver. try it. not all disabled people live in urban areas. USPS saves disabled lives ‼️ without USPS many housebound disabled people will die.

USPS is a disability rights issue

(repeated like a mantra while rubbing my temples) i will stay silly and not allow the world to make me bitter and cruel. i will stay silly and not allow the world to make me bitter and cruel. i wi

Benefits of being chronically ill, it's normal to carry so many different prescriptions that you'll need throughout the day if anything happens to your body. 🫠

Anyways, I'm so tired...

SCREAMING INTERNALLY AND EXTERNALLY EXISTENCE IS PAIN

When trying to fall asleep,

NT brain:

Autistic/ADHD brain:

*music you heard an hour ago playing on repeat*,

*leaves one leg out of blanket to regulate temperature*,

"My neighbors are stomping their feet again and I can't sleep until they stop moving",

*events of the day come out in flashback moments*,

*that one tiktok video you saw keeps playing in your head*

*thinks about a hypothetical conversation with therapist*,

"sh*t I forgot to pee again",

"My hands/feet/lips feel very dry so I can't sleep",

"I feel thirsty, but my bladder is already full",

*thinks about events of tomorrow*

"Why isn't my sleep medication working?"

*starts to feel hungry*

*side turn, exchange the leg that was under the blanket*

*starts noticing their tinnitus*,

*wants to absolutely Google something, before I forget*,

*music keeps playing louder and starts vibing on it, until you remember you have to sleep*,

*shushes ownself in an effort to quiet brain down and fails repeatedly*

"Why am I in hell?"

i need people to understand that when a person with a chronic illness talks about the fatigue that comes with it, we're not talking about the tiredness that comes from a 10 hour shift at work, we're talking about the inherent exhausting heavy malaise that hangs on your entire body like a weighted blanket from the time you wake up in the morning and doesn't get any lighter as the day goes on.

fatigue doesn't come from exertion. it's just innate- and when it does come from exertion, it's been worse than the innate fatigue that was already there in the first place, and it adds on top of it, not replaces it.

My headaches have lasted since November 29th and it’s currently January 26th😞. It feels as if it has never stopped once and I honestly don’t remember what it’s like to not be in pain because of my head. I’ve had blood work and a ct scan done and everything comes back fine. Sometimes I feel like the doctors might think I’m faking my pain, but honestly why would someone do that for so long. I feel like my life is crumbling apart around me and no one in my family or friend group understands the pain I’m going through. Everyone tells me to get better soon but it hasn’t ever felt better and I’m getting annoyed at that sometimes. I know people just care and want to put in some motivation or what not but it just reminds me that I feel like I’ll never be the same again. I’m just praying for a diagnosis and to finally understand how to live my life again... but if anyone ever needs anyone to talk to about chronic pain or anything I’m always here for everyone. It’s hard and sometimes you just want a shoulder to cry on and I’ll be that shoulder if you ever need anyone 🥰💕

I like how the diagnosis thing for chronic migraines is like “15 headache days a month, each lasting more than 4 hours” like.

I don’t even have separate headaches it just. Doesn’t stop. It’s unending. Constant headache.

I’m up and active today? Doesn’t matter I’ve still got a headache. I’m talking and laughing and participating in my life? Still got a headache. It doesn’t stop. Sometimes it’s not as bad but it’s always there.

Lots of people (my mom included) don’t seem to understand that it literally never ends.

I don’t remember the last time I wasn’t in pain.

Genuinely.

I can’t remember.

Me: *knitting casually* LOUD THUNDER CLAP Me: 😱😬😳 *KNITS FASTER*