Same, I’m A Maladaptive Dreamer And I Mostly Read Fanfics And Rarely Watch’s Porn Or Read Comix.

Same, I’m a maladaptive dreamer and I mostly read fanfics and rarely watch’s porn or read comix. I like to be in the scene but it felt unnatural for me to do it with a person. But it felt right to masterbate. I don’t usually get crushes because I don’t find anyone sexually attractive except if they are fictional characters. That’s why sometimes whenever someone asked me who was my crush I would just point out the most obvious physically attractive person in the room, acting all “sameee” cause I know that they won’t stop bugging on who I like. And it took a few months to understand if I’m straight, bi or ace. But then I saw aegosexual and i like you it felt like it fit instantly. But I kinda conti plated a bit. Now I understand that I’m aegosexual.

An actual aegosexual experience

I wanted to get this written down because I don’t think I’ve ever REALLY seen one.

I’m a female. My first “crush” was on a guy when I was 12. My last “crush” was on a guy when I was 16 who basically ruined me from ever crushing on guys again. I’ve found some guys attractive but in the last five years: nothing. I had a “crush or squish” on a girl in my creative writing class when I was 18 and still in high school. Her leather jacket did me in. She was genuine to me and I held her hand on the last day of school when everyone was leaving.

Since then 3 years of college and: nothing

Now, in the past few years I’ve come to realize I am maladaptive daydreamer. I can go for hours listening to music, in my own world, creating character plots that are endless. Many times, these characters find love and sex and I have created many a sex scene in my head.

I also have found an affinity for reading erotica. Weirdly enough, or maybe not after I figured out my asexuality, I was always seeking out mutual masturbation stories. I think for the exact reason of aegosexuality: I liked the idea of sex but have no desire to “do it” with another person. The idea of “getting off” with another person and not touching them seemed great.

So that kind of leaves me here. In the complicated place of still not really knowing what I want out of sex and romance for my life. At the moment, I consider myself, but am not out to anyone else, as a biromantic asexual. Because even that will be easier to explain than being aegosexual.

I would love to hear other people’s experiences as well and would be grateful for some reblogs to get this out there for people to see

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4 years ago

Same. And it’s finally nice to now that I wasn’t the only who felt like this. I’ve felt like this for years. And it really made me question and doubt myself a lot. I knew I wasn’t into the shipping troops but some how the media influenced me. Some part of me things that society has reacted it’s goal and they have influenced me but part of me still say yeah you still don’t like it you’re just mirroring the reaction that they wanted you to do, It felt forced whenever that I do that. Because it was the only way for them not to think of me differently, I impulsively agree to everything they say so that they won’t hate or leave. I know that everything is unique in their on way, but sometimes it’s really hard to find the people or person who gets you.

And thank you to this post for having this awareness. It gave me relief and hope to see someone I can finally relate and now I don’t feel lonely as mush as I used to think I am. But believe me loneliness it’s still there it has never fully gone.

Wanting And Not Wanting At The Same Time
Wanting And Not Wanting At The Same Time
Wanting And Not Wanting At The Same Time
Wanting And Not Wanting At The Same Time
Wanting And Not Wanting At The Same Time

wanting and not wanting at the same time

a comic for asexual awareness week

7 months ago
 GET 🗣️ HIM 🗣️ THE 🗣️ REDBULL 🗣️ SEAT 🗣️

GET 🗣️ HIM 🗣️ THE 🗣️ REDBULL 🗣️ SEAT 🗣️

3 years ago

Gwen and quartermaster’s favorite bonding show is sexy beast from Netflix


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3 years ago
4 years ago

Starting with cats

Ace culture is hating that many innocent things are heavily s*xualized.

3 years ago

Sis just won’t admit that it’s actually Pokémon fanfic

TMNT: Brother Moments PT. 3

Raph: *reading something off of Mikey's phone*

Raph: *suddenly reaches for the screen to scroll down*

Mikey, panicking: *screams and yanks his phone away*

Raph: *stares*

Mikey: *stares back*

Raph: Yo', why did you scream like that?

Mikey, bluffing: It's my "horror movie" scream. I'm... practicing.

Raph, doubtful: No, no... why, WHY did you scream like that? You hidin' somethin'?

Mikey, lying(?): porn.

3 years ago

I feel as though goth is the only subculture that has been bastardized by the mainstream into being nearly unrecognizable from its origins. Like yes from within the subculture and among those who are more knowledgeable about all kinds of music after the 1950s we know what goth music entails and the aesthetic and fashion that formed around it, but among "normies" it feels as though they only recognise the watered-down, soulless and fetishized version of "goth" that exists only to sell shitty, edgy fast fashion and pop music that just so happens to be in minor key. Like imagine if someone declared Avril Lavigne to be the ultimate, most important hardcore punk musician, at best they'd get laughed at by anyone with any knowledge of punk, and yet when someone declares that Fallout boy or Lil Peep are goth musicians it's the person who tried to correct them who often winds up at best being ridiculed or ignored. It's like people want to partake in this subculture without making the minimum effort to actually know what it's all about. To them goth is just a costume that they can buy off dollskill and then discard and then after a while describe that as their goth phase in a bashful manner.

I really feel that this quartering of goth has a lot to do with the use of the term in order to sell an aesthetic to people who want to appear different from the mainstream without delving too deeply into what makes a subculture as such, which of course would imply rejecting the current societal standards based around appearance and behaviour. All modern music-based subcultures are to a certain degree anti-capitalist and anti-consumerist, including goth; the goth aesthetics often reject gender binaries as well as current fads, whereas the music (derived from punk) has (save the mainstream success of several bands in the 80s) rarely been fit for the mainstream for its overall sound and lyrics, which often means that goth musicians release their music independently.

Not to mention that this uptick in "goth" aesthetics among the general public has also come accompanied by an even greater fetishism of goths, especially women, by outsiders. The more I hear "I want a big tiddy goth gf who will let me abuse her under the guise of BDSM 🥺" the more stories I hear from goth/alt women and gnc people being harassed by people with no respect or boundaries, both in real life and on-line. This selling of goth aesthetic without any ties to the subculture also means that this image is being shown to the public in association with behaviours and beliefs that don't inherently have anything to do with goth, but that are associated with promiscous behaviour packaged to the male gaze.

7 months ago

If there's a possibility of future f1 movies

Cast Anthony Ramos as Lando Norris. yes

please

and thank you


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3 years ago

Just a reminder do NOT interact with me if you ship/support m*xvid or any other minor x adult ship!! I will fucking block you!!!

4 years ago

[!Warning Demon Slayer Manga Spoilers!]

Okay uhmm hi for those manga readers and who watched the anime. so I noticed that after every episode of kny, we see those red spider lilies glowing in the dark...

I have a theory about these ⬇️

[!Warning Demon Slayer Manga Spoilers!]

Each of them symbolizes the deaths of:

Genya shinazugawa

Tamayo

Rengoku kyojuro

Shinobu kocho

Mitsuri Kanroji

Obanai Iguro

Gyomei Himejima

and Muichiro Tokito.

(For me tbh I haven't heard about it being canon so if it was please remind.)

Red spider lilies is a symbol of reincarnation, a final farewell, a sad memory, a loss memory, abandonment, passion, longing and lost .

For summary it symbolizes about death and the after life

to what comes next for fate has in stored for you to your next life.


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