[!Warning Demon Slayer Manga Spoilers!]

Same, I’m a maladaptive dreamer and I mostly read fanfics and rarely watch’s porn or read comix. I like to be in the scene but it felt unnatural for me to do it with a person. But it felt right to masterbate. I don’t usually get crushes because I don’t find anyone sexually attractive except if they are fictional characters. That’s why sometimes whenever someone asked me who was my crush I would just point out the most obvious physically attractive person in the room, acting all “sameee” cause I know that they won’t stop bugging on who I like. And it took a few months to understand if I’m straight, bi or ace. But then I saw aegosexual and i like you it felt like it fit instantly. But I kinda conti plated a bit. Now I understand that I’m aegosexual.

An actual aegosexual experience

I wanted to get this written down because I don’t think I’ve ever REALLY seen one.

I’m a female. My first “crush” was on a guy when I was 12. My last “crush” was on a guy when I was 16 who basically ruined me from ever crushing on guys again. I’ve found some guys attractive but in the last five years: nothing. I had a “crush or squish” on a girl in my creative writing class when I was 18 and still in high school. Her leather jacket did me in. She was genuine to me and I held her hand on the last day of school when everyone was leaving.

Since then 3 years of college and: nothing

Now, in the past few years I’ve come to realize I am maladaptive daydreamer. I can go for hours listening to music, in my own world, creating character plots that are endless. Many times, these characters find love and sex and I have created many a sex scene in my head.

I also have found an affinity for reading erotica. Weirdly enough, or maybe not after I figured out my asexuality, I was always seeking out mutual masturbation stories. I think for the exact reason of aegosexuality: I liked the idea of sex but have no desire to “do it” with another person. The idea of “getting off” with another person and not touching them seemed great.

So that kind of leaves me here. In the complicated place of still not really knowing what I want out of sex and romance for my life. At the moment, I consider myself, but am not out to anyone else, as a biromantic asexual. Because even that will be easier to explain than being aegosexual.

I would love to hear other people’s experiences as well and would be grateful for some reblogs to get this out there for people to see

Don’t mind me just ranting because idk who else to tell this so why not at the internet where everyone can read at and possibly to the people who’ve i wish to not see this

I’m Bi, though i never been on an actual date with anyone. well one mutual flirt yea but i wouldn’t count that as a date when my mom is sick and i kinda ditched her to see him for the first time in 2 years of quarantine(im shitty ik, and no she’s not dead and is very healthy no). I even got my first kiss which wasn’t even magical at all. So yea i’m worried if im not Bi anymore since i have a boyfriend now, and the thing is he is loyal. I not saying i’ll cheat god no, but he just tired of people not noticing him and was hoping to have someone so that he won’t be lonely anymore, and I popped out of nowhere for him. You see Thing is I’m a believer of  nothing last for every and that’s okay cause that’s life, everything comes and goes. But he wants to stay, and i believe that we won’t last long, because we’re human beings and love fades whether we like it or not. I’m not saying i don’t want to spend the rest of my life with him, i want that too. Thou he has to realize that yea we had people left us before so why not accept it like i did? though i see he’s point and i have to respect he’s opinion. idk lolll i overthink alot like, what if yea he says he’s loyal but someday he’ll fell for some girl who he likes the most even if he got no chances with her, it still hurts that he’ll stay because i choose him and it felt like i wasn’t good enough and not what he actually wants in the first place. loll ik im making up stuff in my head but yea call me crazy, cause boi this boy drives me insane and i suck at showing or telling him that. I love him i really do and i just wish i can ignore all my thoughts and just focus o him. But the world doesn’t work like that sadly. I want to be with him, but we’re still kids and we know our priorities. 

lolll idk i just miss him since it’s almost 24 hours he hasn’t message backed or seen any of my messages.

Sis just won’t admit that it’s actually Pokémon fanfic

TMNT: Brother Moments PT. 3

Raph: *reading something off of Mikey's phone*

Raph: *suddenly reaches for the screen to scroll down*

Mikey, panicking: *screams and yanks his phone away*

Raph: *stares*

Mikey: *stares back*

Raph: Yo', why did you scream like that?

Mikey, bluffing: It's my "horror movie" scream. I'm... practicing.

Raph, doubtful: No, no... why, WHY did you scream like that? You hidin' somethin'?

Mikey, lying(?): porn.

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Hi so I just an idea of making my daily life thing a series here on tumblr, because why not and I’m pretty amused with myself so enjoy I guess.

Things that I forgot to do or bring whenever I’m going out: Series

#1 - charger of my flashlight tazer

So I just moved in with my dad’s place. Because I’m transferring to a new school for my 2nd semester. Due to not being about to afford the big ass tuition.

WHY IS NO ONE SCREAMING ABOUT THIS!!!HOHDYRDHCJHDJDKX

So...That striker character is real something huh? >\\\\\\\\\> Interested in a Striker Wanted Poster? They are on Etsy! Link

UPDATE: 5/15/2021 The posters have Sold Out!

🤍🖤HAPPY BIRTHDAY OBANAI IGURO🤍🖤

P.s i don't claim these images and gave credit to the original owners(who i forgot sorry).

GET 🗣️ HIM 🗣️ THE 🗣️ REDBULL 🗣️ SEAT 🗣️

Same. And it’s finally nice to now that I wasn’t the only who felt like this. I’ve felt like this for years. And it really made me question and doubt myself a lot. I knew I wasn’t into the shipping troops but some how the media influenced me. Some part of me things that society has reacted it’s goal and they have influenced me but part of me still say yeah you still don’t like it you’re just mirroring the reaction that they wanted you to do, It felt forced whenever that I do that. Because it was the only way for them not to think of me differently, I impulsively agree to everything they say so that they won’t hate or leave. I know that everything is unique in their on way, but sometimes it’s really hard to find the people or person who gets you.

And thank you to this post for having this awareness. It gave me relief and hope to see someone I can finally relate and now I don’t feel lonely as mush as I used to think I am. But believe me loneliness it’s still there it has never fully gone.

wanting and not wanting at the same time

a comic for asexual awareness week

And i'll gladly eat them

they look like white chocolate reese’s wrappers

If there's a possibility of future f1 movies

Cast Anthony Ramos as Lando Norris. yes

please

and thank you