I Am Full Of Love And Also Fatigue

plural queer system call that multifaggoted

System Ask Game #3

🦴 - Is anyone in your system dating? If so, who is the strangest pair?

💀 - Is there a particular source you have a lot of fictives from?

🪦 - Who has the strangest habits?

⚰️ - Do you have any nonverbal headmates?

🕷 - Who is the worst at masking?

🕸 - How did your headmates get their names?

☠️ - Do you have any headmates with colored hair,piercings, or tattoos?

🔪 - How consistent are you with logging switches?

🧿 - Is there anyone who spends most of their time in front complaining?

🎃 - Is there anything specific you do to help introjects feel more comfortable?

👻 - How did you discover your plurality/systemhood?

🩸 - Is there anyone who absolutely hates their source?

🦇 - Are there any songs that you associate with systemhood/plurality or your system as a whole?

🐈‍⬛- Is there anyone who identifies as otherkin/therian?

🔮 - How does your system determine who handles certain tasks/responsibilities?

🧟‍♂️ - Who is the most outwardly intimating? Are they viewed the same way within the system?

🕯- Do your system's littles use "Baby Talk"?

⛓️ - Funniest quote out of context

⬛ - Is there anyone who has a unique/ non-traditional role?

🪳 - How do you visualize your headmates? (Drawing them,picrew,etc)

something blue

Okay so hear me out.

What if I'm not a system, but I'm just genderfluid and also an age regressor and also extremely traumatized and just happen to dissociate a lot and talk to my own brain as a coping mechanism

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I'm listening to stairway to heaven

And it's my first time. My systemmate has heard it. I know that. But I never have listened to it while fronting and definitely not on these fucking headphones

dear god

it was not on wheat...

I wish people would stop saying to just "put it behind you" when someone is traumatized. That isn't possible. We sure as hell wish it were, but it isn't. Trauma changes everything. It wreaks havoc on our brain and bodies, on our self and lives. We can't just decide one day to simply put that behind us. We can't just shelf the nightmares, flashbacks, other forms of memory intrusion, intrusive thoughts, or the many kinds of instinct based & trained reactions we have. We can't just wish away all the emotions and thoughts and how our life has changed. It takes tons of effort to work through trauma. Months, years, a lifetime. We aren't being this way on purpose, and we sure as hell would change it all with one decision if we could. Deciding to go forward with life is important for recovery, but that isn't the same as "putting it behind you."