Writing At 2am, Listening To Claire De Lune, Wishing My Lover Had Fallen Asleep Beside Me Tonight.

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oh no i think i just reblogged this so many times on accident while scrolling to get to my first post imma cry

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"all i wanted to say was that i fucking love you, it should be obvious that its not important to say. its the only thing i'm ever going to say thats not important. me saying that i love you doesn't mean i'm unhappy, or that, idk, i miss you with my whole heart (which i do but meh), i'm very happy, i've been hanging out with friends, i've finally started a group sketchbook, i'm doing photography again and i'm taking it serious. i found hobbies to fill time that i've gained since i stopped hanging out with you. i'm really happy. but i still love you. and that isn't dumb, actually. its vulnerability, and i trust you, even if i shouldn't, because you've always been nice to me. you're chill. and i love you. so. yeah."

i feel like i'm the only person who gets so so lonely to the point their anti-social but like they so want to talk to someone or have someone come over so they can just sit with someone else in silence. like i just got so lonely in the space of five minutes of my mother being rude to me and now i'm sitting here and all i want is a hug and to be able to be silent with someone. i want to fall asleep but wake up and someone will be there and we can just be quiet but together. thats what i need right now...i wish someone could provide that...

so y'all know that "met my dad in 1985" trend. well, 1985 was the year a lot of my favourite albums were realised. my dad was 18 in 1985. my mum was 21. those are the two best ages, you're finally going out of the house, going to parties. i would have loved to be both my parents in the 80s, like, just imagine it... and my parents had pretty cool childhoods and when they were becoming adults their lives were just really cool and it makes me sad that i'm never going to experience life like it was then...

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Lina looked down at the table, she was nervous for when John arrived, she didn’t know if he would even turn up. She thought it would be embarrassing if he stood her up but how they left the relationship they were in felt awkward and wrong. Lina had been blocked from contacting him for about a month or just over and the amount of days she hadn’t slept just worrying about him felt unreal and left her in a daze. The bell over the door brought her back to her surroundings and the smell of coffee hit her fast, and she felt dizzy. Lina looked up. John was standing in the doorway looking around, presumably for her. She raised her arms over her head “Hey John! I’m here!” John looked over and smiled, his hair was windswept and she looked out of the window realising it was a storm outside. The weather said is would be warm with short spells of showers but it turned out to be wrong, once again. John started walking over and Lina stood up awkwardly “Hey Li, how are you?” He asked her. She gave him a shrug and mumbled she was fine, John just rolled his eyes and hugged her. “We can still talk you know, you’re my friend and that won’t change,” he said to her, Lina looked up surprised “Wait, actually?” He flicked her shoulder “Nah I hate you, dummy.” Lina giggled and they sat down to discuss how they had been, making sure not to talk about their relationship, trying their best to start from scratch.

Trope of the day is... exes to friends. Not all relationships have to end badly, not all exes have to hate each other. Being amicable exes who still trust and respect each other and who are just better off as friends should be more included in fiction.

Songs that give me flashbacks of a better time and have a deeper meaning to me: Bonnie & Clyde - YUQI Escape - Rupert Holmes Some Heroes Don’t Wear Capes - Callum Beattie Weak - AJR This Afternoon - Nickelback Wildest Dreams - Taylor Swift Prom Queen - Beach Bunny Rumors - NEFFEX Everybody Talks - Neon Trees Mr. Blue Sky - ELO Drivers License - jxdn Heaven Is A Halfpipe - OPM Cheerleader - OMI (Felix Jaehn Remix) Oh, Death - SUGR? La Di Die - Nessa Barrett, jxdn