"all I Wanted To Say Was That I Fucking Love You, It Should Be Obvious That Its Not Important To Say.

the words you make me say

when the waters in my lungs

and i am drowning

and falling

are the words that hurt the most

but they are the words

that make my mind ache

with the buzz of the most deepest sincerity

you told me to live

and to feel

so i experienced all those things

without you

but for you

because you told me to

because of you

i stayed afloat

- BrontideRaven

what if every Tumblr user suddenly looses their mouse?

i love my friends so much. the fact that i know multiple people who have respect for me and whom have stood up for me, and the fact i share the same respect towards them. how they’ve always been there for me, even if they don’t understand in any situations i’ve got myself into. they are the people i trust the most, and i share my photography with them, my writing, my music. everything i create i always second guess until someone tells me its worthy of other people seeing it, and i don’t usually even show my parents or family what i make. when i show someone something before i post it that means i trust them with everything. i have social anxiety and a major part of that is a fear of peoples judgement and the fact i know my friends will never judge me. sometimes i fear they will but i know they won’t. my best friend has been in my life for almost seven years. god damn. i need to message my friends and tell them i love them. bye.

when i’m depressed, my bed is my best friend

when i feel like this

i sleep

when i identify as queer and get told i’m promoting people being called slur words like uhhhh that’s my whole identity you just knocked lmao i know a lot of gay people or people in the lgbtq+ community and a lot HATE the word queer but they would never judge me or say i’m wrong for wanting to be seen at that rather than fully labelled as biromantic asexual genderfluid biologically female. bitch i’m just queer.

anyway q*eer is a slur and privileged liberals made everyone believe its OK to call everyone that cause they watched a Ted talk in 2017. and if you don't know why at this point that's a you problem. look it up. or better yet, go the fuck out and talk to a LGBT person older than 30. unacceptable.

this user has escalaphobia

right now i really want to cry. i want someone to hold me close to their chest, so tightly that i can only hear their voice, their heartbeat and their breathing (and my occasional crackling sob). i want to feel someone care for me. because lots of people won’t believe me but that feeling...when someone holds you so tightly, and makes you feel so safe to just break in front of them...that is what someone caring feels like. you can actually feel it. i haven’t felt it in...over a month. i know thats a short period of time but shit, people don’t hug me. people don’t hug me like how he used to. he used to let me cry. he used to just sit there in silence with me because thats what i needed. i didn’t want to interact with people but i didn’t want to be alone. i’m sick of being alone. but i can’t even cry. because i have no one to hold me tightly. no one to murmur that they love me. i have no one. i have nothing. i have myself, and i’m not strong enough.

writing prompts dialogue -  (romantic angst/sad romance) “I would give my life to keep you safe.” “Aren't we in a good mood today?” “Oh, I get it. You're trying to weasel your way out of having to practice.” “I screwed up. I know.” “I did a pregnancy test.” “The way you flirt is shameful.” “I’m ready to try again, if you are...?” “I’ll find her and bring her home, I promise.” “Try focusing on your life more than mine.” “You’re still single? Its been more than a year.” “I don’t like your new shampoo.” actions -  Person A tries getting Person B out of bed and knows the only way they will is by hugging them. They haven’t been together in months now, sometimes things occur and they hang out and usually crash at each others places. Person A gets into bed beside Person B and hugs them, but ends up falling asleep too. All their friends are round and its awkward for Person A and B to see each other again but as the night goes on they all loosen up by playing games and drinking whiskey. About two in the morning they decided to watch a movie. Person B’s best friend is laid out on the sofa and they are sitting near each other, but Person A is also on the sofa and when everyone starts getting tired Person A instinctively out of habit lays their head on Person B’s lap and Person B does nothing to correct them or stop them and just tangles their fingers into Person A’s hair.

this user is claustrophobic

This user is super lazy

Requested by: @alliescryaura