Mike Nichols And Elaine May Photographed In A Bowling Alley In New York City, 1961

“My mom said: ‘Val has something to say to you.’ I was sitting on the stairwell, crying. And he knew right away that I was pregnant. He didn’t yell. He didn’t say anything. He just started pacing. But I knew what he was thinking: I was eighteen years old, I was his only daughter, and he thought that having a child would ruin my life. When he finally stopped pacing, he told me: you can either get an abortion or leave the house. I knew then that I’d be entirely on my own. I started saving money from each paycheck to spend on clothing and supplies. But I had no idea what I was going to do when the baby came. My father wasn’t speaking to me. There was no eye contact. No nothing. Not that he’d ever been good at expressing his emotions. His mother had died when he was a baby. He’d had a tough life. From the outside like he didn’t care, but my mother told me that he was crying himself to sleep every night. After a few weeks he began to soften. He asked to see the sonogram. It wasn’t exactly a celebration, but at least he asked to see it. On the day of my C-section, dad spent that day drinking alone, which he rarely did. He was pretty drunk by the time I left for the hospital. He didn’t say a thing. My mom just looked at him and shook her head. But I was in the hospital for five days after my son was born, and every day my dad would visit. He’d bring us food. He’d hold my son for hours at a time. And when I came back home, there was a letter waiting for me on my bed. I’ve only read it twice in my life. Because it makes me cry too much. But he apologized for his behavior. And he said that we were going to be fine. My son is eight years old now. And whenever it’s Father’s Day at school, he brings home art for Papa. The two of them are inseparable. They’re always playing something. My son is always giving him hugs, and kisses, and saying ‘I love you.’ And Papa says it back. It’s the only time he ever says it to anyone. With my son he has no choice. It’s not in Papa’s nature to be affectionate. But it’s my son’s nature. He’s so open and natural with his emotions. He’ll give love for no reason at all, and his Papa has no choice but to accept it.”

Oh. My. God.

Bernadette Peters recording “Rose’s Turn” for the Gypsy (2003) cast album

*Enters a bookstore*

me to myself: be calm

Astro Observations - Placements I Adore

The pictures used are not mine

Sagittarius placements - I have to admit I have a soft spot for all the mutable placements out there, but Sag... especially Moon and/or Mercury/Mars... y'all are insanely intuitive (big plus if you ask me), courageous, open minded (unless the native is unevolved and choosing the "I'm the only one who knows the truth so let me impose it on you" path), and just generally such a great vibe. I've always strugged to put my admiration for this energy into words because it's just... so great ugh

1st/7th/10th/11th house Venus - these people are generally so well-liked it's crazy. They have just the right type of natural charm about them that draws people in, and I'm here for it. They're charismatic, generally social and outgoing, and perceived in such a romantic light by the public.

Taurus and Leo placements - if you have both Taurus and Leo placements in your chart you've won the astrological lottery as long as I'm concerned. These two signs are each the culmination of something special - for Taurus, it's good taste, appreciation of nature, and food, animal love, fragrances. For Leo, it's creativity, joy, life, loyalty, and general warm infatuation with life - does this make sense to anybody else?

1st/4th/7th/10th house Mars or Saturn - Yes this energy isn't easy and needs a lot of attention and mastering from the native, so seeing it in full force, especially in someone who fully mastered it, is rare. BUT! An angular Mars or Saturn is so powerful and incredibly fascinating to observe. Tapping into this energy, if you happen to have it in your birth chart, is a game changer.

8th house Venus or Jupiter - They attract support and help with such ease. They get whatever they wish for. Others will easily show up for them whenever they need and they easily benefit from the people in their life (not in a manipulating type of way).

12th house Moon - another tough placement, however - once the native gets in touch with this energy and learns to use it for their benefit and spiritual growth, there's no stopping them. Possibly the most intuitive, spiritual, healing placement I have ever observed. They're in touch with their subconscious which makes any type of work on themselves much smoother.

Gemini placements - if you actually believe Geminis to be two-faced, you don't know what you're missing out on. The chameleons of the zodiac, these placements can talk their way out or into pretty much anything. They'll mirror your own energy back to you so maybe if you can't stand them it's time to do some inner work.

Prominent Neptune - dreamy, ethereal, spiritual, intuitive, poetic, and artistic - what more can I say?

Cancer Mercury - They'll intuitively know what you need and show up for you. They'll also destroy your life and burn your house to the ground if you cross them. Love that for them.

Virgo Sun - Virgos are underrated. I'm tired of all the neat-freak stereotypes, they carry such strong intellectual energy. They can easily get on top of most situations by simply following their instincts. They'll give you awesome advice based on the many rabbit holes they've gone through in the past five days online. They'll be there for you when you need them. Also, there's a strong sexual energy here I rarely see anyone talk about, so I could make a post about it if anyone's interested.

☽｡⋆ ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ ⋆·˚ ༘ astro notes ☽｡⋆ ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ ⋆·˚ ༘

pluto in 1st house/☌ asc

˚ ༘・❥・🗝️⋆｡˚ women ˚ ༘ 🗝️・❥・⋆｡˚

these women are popular loners. you only have a close circle of people that you trust, but somehow everyone is always up in your business and want to know everything about you.

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you might notice that you scare off men or give them a vibe that you’re not someone to be messed with. men, who are usually disrespectful, might feel threatened by your presence and suddenly act respectful towards you.

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you have a piercing gaze. resting bitch face. dark, exotic and sharp features. magnetic but also threatening aura.

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you might attract obsessive people, stalkers, people who would like to know your every step. people who constantly check your social media. these can be friends, lovers and strangers. but the same thing can be applied to you, when you’re a woman in love.

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you always carry receipts with you. many people have wronged you in your life, but you do not forgive nor forget and tell them off. you have the ability to cut everyone off and move on like nothing happened. this is the power that you hold.

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traumatic experiences have formed you into an independent and powerful women. you hold onto your power and are afraid to lose it.

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hey girl, unclench your jaw and drop your shoulders. I know you’re holding a lot of anxiety in your body due to the things you have experienced, it is hard for you to relax. not only for your body, but also your mind. constantly in fight or flight mode.

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have people told you that they felt an invisible string pulling them closer to you physically or are you not a plutonian woman?

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cold hands and feet all the time. you probably also like the cold, alone time and dark places.

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interest in the occult. the unknown. mysteries. crime. taboo. conspiracies. love for the night, for the sensual things in life, but also for the brutal and extreme things.

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people have probably told you, that they thought you were mean, rude, arrogant or scary before meeting you. they also have high expectations of you, because they see you as someone very powerful.

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you are great with secrets. you do not only keep your own secrets and your next step hidden, but also the ones people trusted you with. because trust plays a big role in your set of values.

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you might bring out the worst in people. or you can just see through them. people who were known as kind and unproblematic, might have shown their dark and rude side to you, but are somehow able to keep their mask on.

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how can you attract people, but at the same time push them away. people have a hard time figuring out if they hate you or love you. and even for you, there is a fine line between hate and love.

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you are passionate and might have known early on what you want to do in your life and who you want to become. though you may go through many transformations in your life, your goals always stay the same.

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probably was an ugly duckling, who transformed into a swan. this transformation has left people in your past speechless and sometimes even jealous.

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you had a phase in your life, where you became your worst self, your shadow self. this could be due to people in your life that had been demonising you constantly without a reason and you decided to finally give them a reason, because they would antagonise you anyways.

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you might have had trouble with authority figures, because you were not ready to give your power away or be overpowered by other people. You go your own way and do not want to be lead.

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there is also extreme stubbornness, because you think your way is the best way and when people don’t support you, you will do it by yourself. and when people forbid you it, you will do it in secret.

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wake up.

wake tf up right now. arent you sick of not feeling how you want to feel??? not looking how you want to look??? not being who you want to be? WAKE UP. stop complaining, stop complaining about not seeing movement about things not going your way etc. its okay to be in unfavourable circumstances, that's not your fault. but you have control. you have the power to change them in an instant. so get up and start acting like the most powerful person in the universe yk why? because YOU ARE. stop being like "oh nooo i'll wait till a full moon i'll do it tomorrow" shut your goofy ass up time isnt an excuse to not have your dream life. so youre here now and you're thinking, "what do i do?" what have you learnt??? AFFIRM AND PERSIST. do what makes you feel fulfilled and trust that you're doing everything right. even if youre doubtful keep persisting.

loass sayings that make it click for me

your subconscious doesn't have eyes.

the 3d is a mirror. your thoughts must move in order for the 3d to move.

manifesting is instant. the moment you decide that it's yours, it is. the 3d has no choice but to conform to your desires.

the only thing stopping you is you.

if you want it, you can have it.

what are you waiting for? start acting like you have everything you want. no limitations!

Gregory Peck as Joe Bradley Roman Holiday, 1953 Dir. William Wyler

Meeeeeeeeeee

MARS IN THE 1st HOUSE: Observations

Life is a battlefield for those with this placement, and they are in the mood to conquer. Their sense of energy is abundant and their incredible ambition allows them to achieve anything they set their mind on. Mars loves being in the first house and this offers the native many benefits. People with this placement live for an adrenaline rush. They can find this through risky activities and competitive sports. They love a good argument, to them it’s a game. They know that when it comes to a true disagreement there is no right or wrong answer, so they instead focus on being the best. Sometimes they can be quite ruthless in the delivery of their tactics, but ultimately these natives are pretty lighthearted. If anything, people who have Mars in the first house are just chasing after a good time. They uplift everyone’s spirits and motivate others to take action. Obviously, these people make for fantastic leaders. People with Mars in the first house know what they want and they know how to get it. They also have the energy to match this and will work hard to achieve what they believe to be rightfully theirs. This inspires others, people with Mars in the first house really are the blueprint. Sometimes there is a tendency to act without thinking, this can be good or bad. In situations where it is required to be quick on your feet, people with this placement rise to the occasion. However, in a situation that requires a sense of patience and tedious detailed efforts, they may struggle. These individuals may also struggle with high levels of aggression. It is common for people with this placement to be known for an act of violence that they inflicted. Even if those with this placement have never resorted to violence, others know that they are very much capable of it. These individuals also struggle with acts of violence being inflicted upon them, this is why they put up an aggressive front to protect themselves. They would rather swing first than take a hit. People with this placement also struggle with compromise. This can prove to be a major problem within personal relationships, and there is a tendency to dominate romantic partners. They can be possessive and don’t like the idea of others looking at their partner. They are pretty unapologetic and set in their ways, so it can be difficult to point this behavior out because they take it as a direct hit to their ego. These individuals need to remember that they still deserve love and appreciation even if they made a mistake. They want to punish themselves more than anyone, and when they do this they only set themselves back more. Failure hits them deep, but they bounce back quickly. People who have Mars in the first house believe in themselves on a fundamental level, and they always know that they could be better. They have the foresight to know when it’s the right moment to push past their own limits, especially when it comes to physical activity. These individuals are incredibly sexy, their bodies are sculpted to perfection. There is a sharp gleam in their eyes that excites others, and their smiles look dangerous. Even if they are not an athlete, others will assume so. People with this placement are just as thrilling to look at as their personalities are.