Oh to be Jack Bauer holding Dennis' hand.
"finally"
I've convinced myself Mac wasn't aware of his crush on Dennis until his dream in PTSDee. It's all in his eyes when Dennis first goes in to kiss him, even if it's only a moment concocted by Mac's unconscious mind. His eyes tell us everything.
So much is said in the way Mac looks at Dennis here. It's like something clicks. Dennis is holding onto Mac's face and Mac sinks into Dennis' touch, realizing this is something he has been wanting to experience for a while, even if he has not always been consciously aware of it. While I do believe Mac has had feelings for Dennis long before this dream, I don't think these feelings had ever been fully realized until now, even after coming out.
But then Mac wakes up from his dream as if it were a nightmare. It's as if the idea of having feelings for Dennis shocks him awake, causing him to gasp for air. He is being suffocated by his own realization.
He wakes up in bed with Dee and Old Black Man. This is how he knows he's no longer in a fantasy. In his dream, he was back at the apartment, waking up in his own room. He was back to living with Dennis, the pair of them alone together. Mac looks around for Dennis but finds that Dennis is not in bed. He gets up to search for Dennis, ultimately finding Dennis practicing his dance in Dee's living room, just like he had been doing in Mac's dream.
Mac watches Dennis dance, confused yet intrigued. It's like he's waiting to see what will happen, or more likely he's waiting to see if his dream will come true. Dennis dances towards Mac and throws his hands up on the doorframe. Mac's no longer looking at Dennis in confusion but rather in desire. He knows what he wants now. He knows he's always wanted it. Mac smiles when Dennis comes closer, evidently excited at the prospect that Dennis will make a move. He wants Dennis to kiss him.
But then Dennis doesn't. Instead, he slams the door shut in Mac's face. His dance wasn't meant for Mac. Mac's dream would not come true, at least not entirely. Dennis doesn't love Mac, but hell, Mac certainly loves Dennis.
Sorry to be the billionth person to bring this scene up, but the way Mac looks at Dennis after he tells Dennis he loves him eats me alive. The jaw clench, the flustered eye contact, the way he glances down at Dennis' lips for a split second, Dennis' reaction?? SEDATE ME.
this specific way mac sits is my own personal brand of heroin
I love the Lead Cast of It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia…that’s certainly all of them!
Charlie and Dennis giving in to Mac
Dennis probably went with Mac on Mac's 18th birthday to watch him get his first tattoo — do you think he got the shamrock first? the hawk? did he try to cajole Dennis into getting one too? did Dennis sit there wide-eyed swallowing thickly, watching Mac's face contort in pain as the ink went in?