My Most Recent Cuts Are The PRETTIEST Shade Of Red Right Now God I Wish They Could Stay This Way

i'm considering trying to improve. like in general. my mental health, my life, my attitude. another try won't hurt, will it?

how is one puny human supposed to manage playing genshin, hsr, r1999, pjsk, watching shows, reading, writing, knitting, embroidery and studying, all in one lifetime?

i'm such a coward

△ basic intro post ▽

(i'm too boring to make this cool)

my name is arashel

i go by she/her

birthday: may 4th

taurus sun, gemini moon, and sagittarius rising

ISTJ

true neutral

hobbies: reading, singing, (occasionally) journaling

interests: bsd, ohshc, madoka magica, fruits basket, aot, horror, gore, salad fingers, arcane, tsitp, derry girls, reply 1988, the 8 show, genshin, hsr, pjsk, hamilton, epic: the musical, greek myths. (things in bold hold greater importance)

random likes: cards, dice, triangles, the wind, mild pain, water, milk, bread, blood, sharp objects, rocks, spiders

basic dni criteria, i block freely

dms/asks are open, i'm down for random conversations/friendship

if, for whatever reason, you want to see my reblogs, go to @megafirereblogs

when someone calls me self-obsessed but they don't know that my every thought ends with "i deserve praise for this" (i'm more arrogant than they ever could've imagined)

there are many feelings in my stomach at the moment and they are all bad

ugh just remembered my friend has other friends. why am i not enough? i'm literally the best. whose company would she prefer over mine? this makes no sense. whatever she was annoying anyway i'm better off without her

i had a WHOLE conversation centered almost ENTIRELY on the person i was talking to. i'm SUCH a good friend, he's lucky to have me

what if everyone you've ever spoken to mysteriously drops dead and you're left with only me. what if.

the voice in my head always telling me to give up maybe i should just listen atp