—  I  WANT  TO  COME  HOME

Been -- idk even how long but one thing remained and that is that I miss this place ... WELP, here comes dire need to re-make things around here; tags, Muse list etc.

And after all those years, he knows how to complicate things; intensely.

“ Well, well — , ” obnoxiously low tittering lengthened what was supposed to be 'announcement' of someone's presence, “ look who the cat dragged in! ”

Sylvia Plath, "The Jailor." Ariel

For no particular reason someone distantly stared at one of {older} Black's tattoos.

The grey entity's stare was as intense as any other personage's hiding behind the facade of the shadows. Where streaks of eyelashes would shut firmly during an instant moment, the austere exhale of air (accumulated in his cheek) would melt away any hint of tension on his visage. Subconsciously his palm tracked the pierced epidermis in absent rub over the area of the anonymous focus. Sirius could clearly feel where that stare aimed.

The left side of his neck. It carried something; a symbol carved in the flesh.

“ If you're staring at /THIS/ and even plan to ask about it, ” he quickly assumed whilst pointing digit at the tattoo, “ don't expect any good stories coming your way. That day I had more booze in me than I dare to remember. All about it; blackout. ”

It sounded convincing, didn't it? Maybe, or very likely -- not. Sounding like if he just remembered one of adventures during days of his youth. However, what Sirius brought up in a small cascade of harmless lie had a story much dreadful behind the markings of his tortured body. One thing never changed with elder Black, and that is -the urge to act a bit bratty whenever questioned about some of his bad experiences.

Thinking about Sirius' anger issues.

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messing up your hair because you think it looks cool to look like you’ve just got off your broomstick

bob morley as james potter

who do you think Sirius had healthy relationships in his family?

The healthiest relationship Sirius had with ( from his entire family ) was: cousin Andromeda and uncle Alphard. Surprisingly, or not so those from the Black family who ended up marrying a Muggle-born seemed like the only normal people. Their only crime against the family was the capability of love, fondness, and compassion for anything different than themselves. It was obviously already too much, so we know that things like marrying anyone whose blood is impure and being sorted in Gryffindor are a total catastrophe.

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𝐈. ) ᅠANDROMEDA While being cousins and close by age, the two would often exchange the looks of silent agonies towards each other amidst traditional family festivities where their parents obviously glorified their supremacist soire. The two would quite often share secrets with each other about their tripping in the muggle world among a few laughs. If there was someone who wouldn't judge Andromeda's sympathies toward Tonks it would be Sirius.

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𝐈𝐈. ) ᅠALPHARD The only adult Sirius could lean on for support. It couldn't be his father for obvious reasons. Young Sirius couldn't spend as much time as he wanted with him because his parents feared Alphard was already enough of a bad example, and his infectious habits would only worsen Sirius' image in society. In fact he was the first and most responsible inspiration. We know how Alphard ended, posthumously disowned all thanks to Walburga's effort, leaving Sirius under the impression that it happened thanks to the charity gesture towards him. I believe it wasn't just a decent amount but well - a lot. A crucial moment that provided him the right aid to not be dependent on Potters and ruin his family's expectations, for his defeated return from utter despair to the place where he wouldn't be accepted regardless, and that would humiliate him even further.

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𝐈𝐈𝐈 . ) ᅠREGULUS Regulus? Regulus ... the question mark remains there for a reason. While Sirius and Regulus shared the same noble lineage as members of the ancient and most pure-blooded House of Black, the two brothers could not have been more different in their temperaments and ideals. There were a few bright moments, but their relationship could not be considered healthy, no, but it was ... less tensed than with his parents, at least. Sirius was semi-aware of Regulus' good consciousness, but he couldn't forgive him for its deliberate suffocation.

Regulus, on the other hand, was Sirius' polar opposite in nearly every regard. The younger brother was a dutiful son, obedient and eager to please his family's elitist pure-blood mania. Where Sirius was a trouble-making non-conformist, Regulus was a stickler for rules and tradition. In appearance, manner and conviction, the two siblings were as different as night and day - one a shining star who refused to be constrained, the other a shadow who sought belonging within the confines of his family's rigid ideology. The chasm between them was wide and unbridgeable, a testament to the vastly divergent paths an upbringing can set for two brothers.