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Conflicted Chapter 21🎀:

Maddy P.O.V:

I didn’t get the chance to say goodbye to anyone because Duff had called our mother and told her everything that happened.

My mother was furious and demanded to see me as soon as possible which is why Duff had already bought my plane ticket for Seattle.

When I first came, I imagined the city to be full of stuck-up people and fashionable drama queens who would look down on you if you were from another city, but I soon grew to enjoy the mountainous city with endless sandy beaches.

I didn’t want to leave.

“It is for your own good. I can't stand seeing you surrounded by drugs and men who can't treat you right." he insisted, driving us to the airport as I gazed out the window, taking in the city for one final time.

I wasn’t even sure if I would be back.

Maybe in a couple of years but for now it was goodbye for good.

We drove by the diner we used to go to with the boys, as well as the rehearsal studio where Axl and I had gotten caught.

And then we walked by the theatre where Izzy had taken me and we happened to have sex for the first time together.

Not how I had imagined sleeping with Izzy for the first time, but I guess it wasn't a huge thing to him because he had sex with women in all kinds of places and it didn't matter to him if we slept in a romantic setting or not.

“I know you probably hate me right now but I’m doing this for your own good.”

“Whatever.” I shakily spat, unable to control the tears that were flowing down my face.

“Maddy he’s no good for you! He’s a drug dealer for christ sake.” he shouted.

“I don’t care. I love him! It’s not fair that I couldn’t even say goodbye to him.” I sobbed, covering my face with my hands and not holding back.

Duff looked at me with shame and felt terrible, but he knew that if I stayed, I'd be dragged into drugs and something even worse, so he put his foot down and sent me back home.

“We’re here.” he muttered, putting the car in park and getting out to grab my things.

I walked out, disregarding my brother, grabbing my belongings from his hands, and followed behind him to avoid him and to get checked in for my flight.

He spoke with a few employees who were fans of their band and had a laugh, with some agreeing to take a picture, which irritated me even more because he appeared as if he didn't care that I was offended by his decision.

“Alright sir, your sister is all checked in and will need to proceed through this corridor to her gate.” the attendant said with a smile.

My brother turned to give me a hug, but I dodged it and huffed past him, stomping as I marched away from him, through the mass of people, while sobbing.

“I love you!” I heard my brother's voice shout, but I was too stubborn to glance back, and when I did, it was too late since Duff had vanished in the the crowd, and I couldn't tell him I loved him as well.

I began crying even more since I loved my brother and knew he was only looking after me, and I became enraged with Izzy for making me angry at my brother, but I eventually got over it, understanding that it was simply my fault for being like a disrespectful brat to my elder brother.

My flight was about to take off, and I had arrived just in time, shortly after crying in the airport bathroom.

I found my seat and sat down, grateful to Duff for choosing a window seat for me, and peered out as the plane slowly began to take off with everyone settled in.

I wondered how everyone else was doing as I took off, and if Axl knew I was going because he was the last one to speak with Duff.

I sighed at the thought of having to deal with my mother when I got home and glanced at the time.

It was 8 a.m., so I decided to nap until the plane landed, which would be in 3 hours and 45 minutes.

… … …

Izzy P.O.V

When I awoke the next morning, I had a terrible headache and had no recollection what the fuck happened the night before or how I ended up in a bed.

It wasn't the comfortable couch I slept on, but Slash's bed in his new home.

The same bed I was in with Maddy when I fucked her at the party.

I rubbed my eyes and gulped a few Tynelols mixed with some leftover whiskey Slash had left on his side table before getting up to wash my face and clean my teeth.

"Finally, you are awake. "I got my bed back." Slash cheered, dashing to his bed, and doing a back flip on it.

I rolled my eyes annoyed at his hyper attitude, still coming down from my headache.

"Dude you know what you did last night, right?" Slash remarked, raising one eyebrow at me.

“What do you mean?”

“You totally scared off Maddy, Axl had to come and save her from your heroin rage.”

“Oh and Duff hates your guts now.” he added at the end.

“I don’t remember any of that.” I murmured.

“You pushed her and she cried, then Duff and Axl came to help her. I would’ve helped her too but I was totally wasted which I regret because you were being a real asshole bro.”

“Where is she right now?” I worried, wondering why I was at Slash's place instead of Duff's.

“Maddy left this morning back home.”

I rushed down the stairs to get his house phone and phoned Duff, hoping he would pick up and that Maddy hadn't left yet, so I could persuade him to alter his mind.

“Yes Slash?” Duff answered.

“Where’s Maddy, can I speak to her please-

“Izzy, she’s gone and you don’t deserve to speak with her after what you did to her. You pushed her on the ground and when she was crying out for you, you ignored her.” he huffed, angry about how his sister was treated by someone he considered one of his best friends.

“Duff, I’m really so-

“Save it Iz. I’m just really disappointed in you.” he sighed, rubbing his forehead.

“Did she hurt herself anywhere? I hope she’s okay…at least you were sober enough to take care of her.”

“Axl and I were.”

“….Axl?…”I grumbled, imagining him rushing to her rescue and making himself the hero in front of her.

"I didn't even say goodbye to her." I mumbled to myself, loathing how she last saw me and how I treated her.

“Sorry man.” was all Duff said before hanging up the phone.

Fuck.

I was mad at myself but I was more mad at Duff for letting her go without getting the chance to say goodbye to her.

I didn’t even know her house number back home and there was no way that Duff would give it to me after what had just occurred between us.

I just hope she didn't forget about me when she returned to Seattle, because I could never forget her, no matter how hard he tried to keep us apart.

I loved that girl.

… … …

Maddy P.O.V

My flight arrived sooner than expected, given how cloudy the city was, a dramatic contrast to the blue skies of the Golden State.

“I hope you enjoyed your journey with United, and we hope to see you all soon. Welcome to Seattle, Washington. Enjoy your visit, and for those returning home, welcome back!" The flight attendant spoke with a cheery grin, opposite my look.

Which was gloomy, like my hometown, not because I was hated home, I love Seattle more than I loved California, but because of the wrath I was about to face from my mother.

My mother was waiting for me outside, so I grabbed my suitcase and proceeded to the exit to find my mother's car.

“Madalaine, is that you!” I heard my mother's angry voice ring in the cold breeze of the city.

“Yes. It's me mom." I murmured, already annoyed by how upset she was with me.

"I don't want to be here any more than you do." She persisted, collecting my belongings and leading me to her car as we both entered.

"We will chat when we go home, young lady. You can nap on the way home," my mother replied quietly, turning on the radio and hearing the booming voice of the local Seattle news station as we drove

I gazed out the windows, gazing at the familiar snow-covered mountains and green trees that loomed over every street, which always seemed taller than the mountains themselves.

“We’re home. Are you awake?” she asked, nudging my shoulder lightly.

I pretended to be asleep so I wouldn't have to deal with my mom later, but she knew better since she called me out and threatened to ground me permanently if I didn't get out of the car, so I jumped out right away.

We got situated in, and I hung all of my clothing in my closet because I knew if I didn't do it now, I wouldn't get around to it later due to laziness.

There was only one piece of clothing left and it was the tiny black dress I had wore that day when Izzy cheated on me with the groupie.

I made a face at it and knew if my mother saw it, she would scream, so I immediately flung it under the bed, hoping she would never have to check there, put my luggage on the shelf in my closet, and climbed into my bed, cuddling my stuffed bunny and watching TV to soothe me.

And when I turned on the television, there was a special screening of Guns N' Roses playing their songs on loop on MTV, which made me want to scream and yank my hair out when I saw Izzy appear on the screen.

He didn't even see me before I left for my trip because of Duff, which reminded me of how I felt on the way home, causing me to cry, and that's when my mother went into my room.

She stood quietly at the entrance, observing my face, as a song played in the background. My mom scoffed at "Paradise City".

“Yeah right! Madeline, don’t you think the girls are prettier in Seattle? My mother joked, attempting to lighten the mood given how distraught her daughter appeared over the alleged superstar her older son had called in about earlier.

“So, tell me, which one is he?" She demanded, sitting at the end of my blanket-covered feet as I watched the television in front of me, anxious for another look at Izzy.

“That one." I whispered as Izzy appeared quickly on the television screen in the music video for Paradise City, wearing red leather pants that contrasted with his white shirt, black vest, and bandana that was wrapped around his head.

"Hm." she paused, gazing at the man her daughter had fallen in love with before shifting her gaze to another who was dressed entirely in white.

“What about him?” she said, peering at the lead singer and winking.

"Mom." I grumbled, embarrassed that I had to have this conversation with her about the same males I had sex with, which my mother was absolutely unaware of, else she would have murdered me.

“I sent you to L.A. because I trusted you to spend time with your brother not so you could go fall in love with some guy who thinks he's a big rockstar."

“Mom you don’t even know him.”

“I know him enough to know that he’s no good for you.”

“How would you-

“I was a young girl like you once.” her mother, reacted to her foolish daughter, who assumed her mother was always this elderly.

“So…who was it?” I asked, raising an eyebrow.

“Elvis…..and no I didn’t sleep with him or date him but I know how it feels to have a crush!” my mom insisted.

“This is different.” I mumbled, curling up into a ball underneath my comforter.

“Honey, I know I was mad earlier but I realized that won’t solve our problem.”

“You have to tell me Maddy. So I can understand your feelings toward….Izzy? Is it?”

“Mom I love him.” I spat it out, feeling the need to get it off my chest, and burst into tears because I realized he wasn't with me and how much I missed him.

“Sweetie don’t cry. It’s okay.” my mom cooed rubbing my back, coming to cuddle with me.

“Are you sure you love him?”

“Y-Yes.” I sobbed, hugging my stuffed bunny tighter, wishing it was Izzy.

“Okay then why don’t I speak to Duff about this and have them all visit?”

“All of them?..” I asked, wondering why she couldn’t just invite Izzy alone.

“Honey I would like to meet all of them so I can see if they are respectful enough to be around my daughter or not." she said.

“That’s alright.” I replied, if it was anything to get Izzy back, I wouldn’t have a problem with agreeing to it.

Mean Girls (2004) dir. Mark Waters

Conflicted Chapter 23🎀:

Maddy P.O.V

The next morning, I awoke to the sound of the television blaring downstairs and the scent of pancakes filling my nose, leaving me hungry.

When I went downstairs, I expected to see all of the boys because I had heard such loud conversation, but there was only Axl and my mother.

"Madeleine, you're awake!”

“I made fresh pancakes for Axl, and you are welcome to join." My mother radiated as if delighted by the young redhead standing by her

“You're up early." I smirked and swiped a stack of pancakes from his plate.

"Well, I couldn't sleep in and miss this beauty." he cracked a grin referring to my mother, who was completely flushed.

“Okay, enough flirting young man. I am old enough to be your grandmother. Now sit and eat with Maddy." she said before turning off the stove and leaving us with orange juice and going to watch her favorite TV show that was airing currently, which was causing all the ruckus.

“I like your house. It’s very cozy.”

"Thanks. It's practically yours now; you're allowed to use it whenever you want." I smiled before biting into my maple syrup-soaked pancakes.

“I wanted to ask you something.”

“Sure.”

"We have a concert coming up here, so we decided to stay at yours until then, but I wanted to see the city and the people, and I wondered if I could get that favor relayed from when I took you out to see L.A." he chuckled, leaning forward on his hand and beaming at me, waiting for me to say yes.

“Okay deal." I responded, and he applauded and finished the remainder of his pancakes before putting them up.

"Izzy won't this like." I informed him, sighing as I remembered that I needed to tell him about this.

“What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him.” he shrugged, leaving to join my mother on the couch.

I shrugged his statement off as I hurried upstairs with a fresh batch of pancakes and fruit for Izzy, as well as some orange juice.

He was awake when I got in my room, and it appeared that he had already freshened up; his hair was wet from the shower, and the towel was loosely wrapped around his waist.

"I brought you some food baby." I murmured, coming to get on my knees behind him on the bed, where he was sitting on the edge of the bed, and wrapped my arms around his neck.

“I missed you.” he mumbled, tilting his head back to meet my lips in a kiss.

He gave me light pecks first before opening his mouth to give me wet French kisses, in contrast to my slow rhythm, which allowed him to control me.

I climbed around him to sit on his lap as he proceeded to kiss me, our lips clashing with a pop every time we pulled away.

“Eat first." I smirked, mocking him as I slipped from his lap and went to get dressed for the day, leaving him with a hard on and baffled.

"Maddy, come on please. You made me hard; jerk me off or something," he begged, rubbing himself to relieve some of his pain.

“How about I do this?" I chirped, kneeling in front of him, innocently staring up at him through my lashes as I caressed his thighs.

He pulled the towel off himself, letting it fall on the floor, before gripping the back of my head and thrusting his cock down my throat without warning.

“If you want to be a tease, you have to fucking deal with this,"

“I-Izz, -slow." I gasped, releasing his cock and coughing some of his precum and spit onto my shirt, which became moist.

“Take it off. I want to see your tits." he motioned for me to remove my shirt, exposing my breasts since I hated sleeping in a bra.

“Fuck no bra?" he moaned, twisting and massaging them before slapping his cock on my lips and sliding it between my pouted lips, teasing me before I put it inside my mouth.

I hallowed my cheeks and bobbed up and down quickly, using my empty hand to massage his balls in the same way that I had heard the girls at my school did with their boyfriends.

I let go of his cock, leaving it a slimy mess, then took one of his balls into my mouth, sucking and tugging at it like it was a tasty popsicle I couldn't get enough of, before switching to the other and stroking him off at the same time.

“Fuuckk. You're so good, baby, such a good girl sucking my cock like this," he groaned, clutching a fistful of hair.

I let go of his balls and returned to his cock, stroking the area that wouldn't fit into my mouth, and gazed up at him with lust ridden eyes, reminding him how much I enjoyed it

"Shit, you're so damn good at this. Better than any other girl I've had."

When I heard that, I pulled away and glared at him, awkwardly holding his dick in my hand.

“What’s wrong baby?” he asked, wondering why I had stopped and looked at him weirdly.

“Nothing…I just realized that I don't want to do anything under my mom's roof." I said gently just above a whisper, as I pulled my sticky fingers from his cock and quietly picked up my clothes before closing the bathroom door behind me.

“Maddy? Did I do something wrong?” he called out apologetically.

"Everything is fine." I said, brushing away my tears, and stepping into the shower.

I didn't want to make a big issue about it, but everything came crashing down when he told me I was better than any girl he'd ever had.

Which made me think about how many girls he's probably had in comparison to me, who's had zero.

And the first thing that sprang to mind when he said that was the groupie who gave him a blowjob, which immediately turned me off and made me unhappy.

It wasn't his fault, but I couldn't stop thinking about it.

And how he reacted when my mother mentioned marriage, he just laughed it off, which bothered me a lot, even though I didn't bring it up with him because I didn't want him to think I'm some obsessive love-stricken girl.

But I did believe that marriage was important, and that in the future, I would like to have one eventually.

I heard the door close, indicating that he had left, and sighed, turning up the heat in the shower and relishing the peacefulness of the water.

What I didn’t remember what was that our guest room which used to be my brother’s had a connecting door to the bathroom that I had.

So when the door opened from the other side of the bathroom and in walked Axl , I let out a scream upon seeing his shadow behind the flimsy bathroom curtain.

“Oh my god. Get out I’m taking a shower!” I yelped, almost slipping on the water that was gathered around my feet.

“It’s just me.” Axl shrugged off, like it wasn’t a big deal to him that he was inside the bathroom the same time as myself.

“I’m taking a shower!” I repeated.

"Izzy is hogging it downstairs and refuses to come out. I’m pretty sure I heard him jerking off..trouble in paradise?" he questioned, smirking behind the curtain, as I heard his pants zipper open.

"Gosh. Everything's fine, okay!" I grumbled fiercely clawing my head to remove all of the shampoo so that I could leave as quickly as possible.

… … …

Everyone was having a good stay so far at our house, and Duff and I finally got to talk in private to make up.

I apologized to him for my behavior at the airport, and he understood because I was rightfully unhappy at the moment.

He also apologized to me as we hugged it out, and I couldn't be happier that my brother and I were back on the same page.

In honor of that, Duff wanted to take the boys out for drinks because they were behaving and doing a good job of staying sober during their time here, so he decided everyone earned it, including Izzy, who happily accepted.

I didn't tell them I didn't want to go, but instead told them I wasn't feeling well.

Izzy immediately turned down Duff upon hearing this and said he would stay back to look after me, but Axl stepped in and told him he was staying back anyway because he was trying to rest his vocal chords before their gig, to which the boys blindly accepted.

Except Izzy.

Izzy and Axl were arguing over who would stay back to watch over me when Duff became irritated and told them both to figure it out like men, then stated he would wait outside for those who wanted to join.

I felt bad about convincing Izzy to join them so Axl and I could go out, but I needed to get this out of the way so we could enjoy the rest of his time here, by ourselves.

"Are you sure?" Izzy asked for the fourth time, gazing back and forth between Axl and me.

“I’m sure baby. Go have fun.” I smiled, kissing him on the cheek before gently pushing him through the door.

“Fine, but tell Axl to keep his hands off you. I don’t trust him." he told me, holding my hands in his as if begging with me not to do something.

“Don’t worry.” I said, and with that, Izzy was on his way to the bar with the boys while I was getting ready for my “outing” with Axl.

I kept it casual and wore my short white sundress, with some socks and black flats and tied my hair back in a ponytail.

He wore his ripped jeans and a graphic tee with some white sneakers and a red bandana was wrapped around his head.

“You ready?” I asked.

“Yes, ma'am. Lead the way.” he signaled for me to leave the home first, to which he followed me to the car, hopping in the passenger seat since he was the guest.

“Buckle up.” I muttered, pulling out of the driveway and heading to our first location on my list of places to see in Seattle.

… … …

"And lastly, this is the ferry which I used to ride all the time with Duff when we were younger." I emphasized showing him our final stop with the big neon lights that read OPEN illuminating the pier for locals to line up and patiently wait for the next vessel to return.

“Let’s go.” Axl grinned.

“You actually want to go on it?”

“Yeah. Why not.” he shrugged going up to the ticket booth to pay for two tickets and coming back to wait in line.

“You didn’t have to pay for me y’know.” I sighed.

“I wanted too. Especially when I have such a beautiful lady by my side tonight, I want to give her the best treatment.”

I could only smile as the person from the ticket booth came back shortly after to collect everyone's tickets, including ours, and begin boarding the small boat.

Axl guided me onto the boat, holding my hand as I climbed the steps, while he hopped in behind me and seated us on the top roof, where there were just a few couples sitting in the back, leaving the front wide open for us to sit freely.

The city lights shone brightly as the boat went off into the black waters, which were only illuminated by the approaching boats returning back to the dock, darkening the waters again when they left.

The boat operator told us about the history of the city, while Axl listened tentatively, as if he were genuinely interested in learning, which made me smile, knowing that he was enjoying this short ride as much as I did as a child.

As we further away from the city, it looked like a different planet and smaller than it appeared, as we went by the larger-than-life mountains, accompanied by a chilling breeze.

I wasn't prepared for the cold and shuddered a little as my dress flowed up against the hard winds. Axl noticed this and slid closer to me, wrapping an arm around me, which I hesitated before nestling in since I was so cold I could not take it any longer.

“You look beautiful tonight.” Axl whispered, while I stared at the distant city lights, accompanied by the water that was constantly sloshing against the small boat.

“Thank you Axl.”

“I think you’re one of the most beautiful girls I’ve ever met.”he said again, this time close enough to my ear that I could feel his breath on my bare neck and his fingers delicately placed on my collarbone, stroking it.

“T-Thanks.” I mumbled, scooting away from him, to which he frowned and slid back towards me.

“Look at me.”

When I turned to face him, I felt his soft lips on mine and a hand snake around my back, forcing me against him and his musky cologne.

He kissed me deeper and more firmly, when I didn’t pull away as if he had planned this for a long time.

“N-no." I said before racing off and down the boat's side staircase to the first floor balcony, hanging onto the railing, attempting to regain my breath after what I had just done.

“I'm sorry for scaring you off, but I'll do it again if it means you'll realize I love you." he sputtered out of breath as he ran down the steps after me.

“Axl, I know how I feel about you, and you do too, but we can't be together. It's not right." I blabbered, panicking over the idea that I had technically cheated on Izzy.

“It is right." he reassured me, grabbing my wrists and pinning me to his body.

“If you don't want this…then stop me." he whispered, moving my hair away from my face to display my eyes, which glinted.

“Your…..mine.”

“I-

He suppressed me with a kiss, gently tugging my bottom lip with his teeth before intertwining his tongue with mine, refusing to let go.

“Fuck, I know your Izzy’s but that wouldn’t stop me from fucking the shit out of you.” he groaned.

“Ahem.” a young boy said, making me jump unlike Axl who was still holding me in place.

“Is there a problem?” Axl asked, irritated at the little boy for interrupting his little moment with Maddy.

“U-uh no I was just looking for the bathroom.” the boy whispered, scampering off, scared by Axl’s deep voice.

“Axl that was mean.” I laughed pushing him off me and scrunching my face.

“What! He’s just a little rascal, he was probably watching you from far away anyways.”

The sound of the bell ringing from above us signaled the boat's arrival at dock, prompting me to reflect on the consequences of what was to come after what had just happened between Axl and me.

“We should go." I whispered my voice barely coming out, while I couldn't bear to look him in the eyes, feeling dirty from cheating on my lover.

Axl saw an abrupt shift in my behavior, which upset him, but he didn't nudge me further and instead gave me some space while continuing to walk beside me through the city.

We called an Uber home, and the ride back was completely silent as I slumped in the window seat, peering out at the metropolis that seemed as small as a bug in the sea.

When we came back to the house, the boys had already returned an hour before, and as soon as we opened the door and saw Axl walk in behind me, everyone raised their eyebrows, and Izzy was furious.

“Where the hell did you both go?” he growled, looking at the sundress I was wearing and the way I looked put together as if we were on a date.

“Chill out, Izzy!" I barked, glaring at him for being so irritating about Axl every-time we came into contact.

He looked horrified, as if I had cursed at him, but I was so confused with protecting Axl and feeling guilty that I hurried upstairs, stomping on the way.

“I told you to stay the fuck away from her.” Izzy spit, shoving Axl against the door causing him to groan.

“The fuck is your deal. We were just hanging.” Axl persisted driving his bandmate into the stair railing.

Izzy fumed as he fixed himself back up.

“Did you finally convince her to let you have another fuck or give you a blowjob this time?” the slim guitarist sneered, making Duff upset.

“Don’t talk about my sister like that.”

“I kissed her! Is that what you want to hear?” the redhead yelled, enraging the guitarist beyond belief.

“I knew it! I fucking knew it. Fuck you.” he grumbled shoving Axl and leaving the house with a loud slam.

“He’s definitely getting laid tonight.” Slash snickered.

Duff and Axl both looked at him and exhaled.

“I’ll talk to her.” Slash huffed walking in between both men to climb the stairs, stumbling on the way.

Axl dashed to the living room, collecting some beers from the fridge, and headed outside to sit on the pool recliners with a clear shot of the sky and the quiet sounds of the night to calm himself down.

… … …

“Maddy is it okay if I come in.” I heard Slash ask , hearing the door slowly creak open.

“Okay.” I murmured not trying to pull myself together as I lay sprawled over my bed, my face buried into the side of my pillow.

"Well, there was a fight and it was pretty interesting besides the fact there was no actual fight since Izzy disappeared somewhere and Axl ran off pissed." he sighed, as if he was waiting for a fight to start so he could pick who to root for.

“Did you want a fight to happen?” I giggled.

Slash was always joking, even in tough situations, which made me appreciate him a lot. He would often distract me from my problems by telling me jokes, which made me laugh.

“Sorry babe, I’m not good at this shit. I can’t even keep a girlfriend myself.” he sighed.

“It’s okay Slash. I appreciate you coming up here to try and make me feel better though.” I smiled.

“Of course. Your like my little sis. I can’t see you upset.” he said jumping on the bed making me squeal.

“Question though?”

“Hm.” I replied.

“I can tell you obviously love them both but who do you think you see a future with out of the two of them?”

“I don’t know I care about them both.”

“That’s true but when it comes down to it, who would you pick?”

“Axl.”

“Holy shit I knew it.”

hey guys i’m starting a new series about 80’s rockstar izzy stradlin & axl rose…hope u guys like it :))<33

original characters : maddy mckagan

i do not own any other characters!!!

summary 🎀 : Maddy Mckagan, a young woman, has an older brother named Duff, who is a member of the rock band Guns N' Roses. When Maddy is finally old enough to visit her brother in Los Angeles and discover the Sunset Strip, she develops feelings for Izzy Stradlin, one of Duff's best friends and band mates who is considered off-limits, but what happens when the lead singer, Axl Rose, falls for Maddy as well, causing her to become embroiled in a tug of war between the two rockstars?

Maddy P.O.V

"PLEASE!" I yelled tugging at my mother's cashmere scarf and pleading with her to let me go with my older brother Duff to L.A.

"Absolutely not young lady. There is no place for a young lady as yourself in a place like the Sunset Strip." she scoffed making a disgusted expression.

"Are you aware of what goes down on that god forsaken street full of egos driven by the devil." she sang going on and on about how dangerous they were and how the band KISS was all but a satanic cult.

"You're letting Duff go!" I whined on the brink of tears.

"That's because he is a grown man who is more than capable of taking care of himself rather than a 16 year old child as yourself."

"But mom-

"End of discussion Maddy. Enough!" my mother shouted slamming her hands on the island counter before trudging herself back into her room.

"URGHHH." I screamed running back up to my room and slamming the door shut.

I hate this.

I cannot believe my mother let Duff go by road to discover L.A and I have to be stuck in boring old Seattle.

1 year later (summer)

Don't ask me how I did it.

I single handedly convinced my mother to let me spend the summer in L.A with Duff since I was turning 17 soon.

Well not really single handedly because I might have made a few calls to Duff.

And a few days later I was staying with my brother in his lavishly renovated apartment he bought with his newfound fame as Duff Mckagan of Guns N' Roses.

"Duffy. This apartment is so rad. Mom would freak if she ever saw this." I exclaimed looking around the place which was covered in Duff's records from his band.

"Yeah I know." my brother grinned looking around at the larger than life living room.

"So when are your friends coming back to hang?" I asked suddenly more curious about the group of young men whom my brother considered band mates as well as best friends.

"Not sure."

"Izzy might come here to crash while he gets sorted out about his own place." he said while smoking a joint and washing it down with a Jack Daniel's.

"Mom would literally kill you if she ever saw what you and your friends do together." I sighed staring at my brothers hands which were occupied with my mothers worst enemy.

"Don't tell me what to do Maddy. You're like a child telling a grown adult what to do.”

“I'm four years older than you.. don't forget that."

"And don't act like such a prude when my friends are around. It fucking kills the mood."

"I love you but loosen up a bit." he smiled giving me a kiss on the forehead before retreating back to his room for the night.

I scoffed.

I was the complete opposite of my brother. Whereas he was the extrovert outgoing one.

And I was the quiet and reserved one.

But not on purpose. I just didn’t know how to make friends as easily as Duff did.

He always had the girls going crazy and he never had a problem fitting in with the cool crowd.

"Maddy can you get the door please. For gods sake." my brother yelled snapping me out of my thoughts.

"ALRIGHT." I yelled making a dash for the door not even bothering to think twice before opening it.

"Oh hey. Is your brother around?" Izzy asked.

Izzy

Izzy was one of my brothers band mates and also one of my biggest fucking crushes ever since I had met Guns N' Roses.

He had a natural charisma about him that made me very attracted to him.

"Duff. Izzy's here to see you." I said to my brother who was busy getting crossfaded in his room.

"Coming!" he slurred.

"You can come in." I smiled nervously.

"Nah it's okay. I can't stay for too long." he told me, briefly scanning over my half exposed pajama set.

“Oh s-sorry. I didn’t know Duff would have company.” I apologized pulling my shirt down to cover my wedgie in the front and back….

"I don't mind." he smirked taking another sneaky glance before nodding at Duff who finally arrived stumbling out of the room.

"Maddy you're barely wearing any clothes. Get inside." he grunted shoving me towards my room.

I happily obliged unable to face Izzy any longer with my attire or with my face which was definitely as red as a tomato by now.

I closed the door behind me and couldn't wipe the big dumb grin off my face.

Izzy was going to be the best part of this whole trip. I just knew it.

i’m so excited to go out in cute outfits this summer

Conflicted Chapter 26🎀:

Maddy P.O.V:

Izzy led me to a dark corner of the corridor, where he pulled me against the wall and began kissing me. We made out for a bit before he pulled away and explained the issue to me in between kisses, assuring me that Pamela meant nothing to him and that I meant everything to him.

I let it go, persuading myself that I was overthinking, seeing them together in the hallway earlier, and allowed him to sweet talk his way into a quick fuck before we returned to where the boys were.

Axl had gone outside for a smoke break while everyone else was relaxing in the dressing room, with a couple of groupies hanging around, primarily Slash.

Izzy went to sit on the couch in the corner, where no one else was and played his guitar lightly, while I sat next to Duff.

“How was the show?” he asked with a big grin.

“Great. I really enjoyed seeing you live.” I gleamed, even if I let my anger cloud some parts of the show.

“Hopefully you’ll be able to see us again soon.”

“What do you mean?… I-I thought maybe I could go back with you to L.A.?” I pestered, scooting closer to tug onto his arm.

“I don’t know…, I don’t feel comfortable after everything that’s happened.” he spoke, sneaking a glance at Izzy who was knocked out, with his sunglasses miraculously still on.

“I promise I’ll be good.” I squeaked, jumping up and down, hoping to convince him that I should come back to stay with him.

He sighed and looked around for someone to support his decision, but Slash was too fucked, and instead, laughing his ass off with the random groupie he allowed to entertain him for the night.

And Steven was clearly not the best pick for an important choice.

“Where’s Axl when you need him.” he huffed, leaning back onto the couch.

“I’m right here.” Axl’s voice boomed, strutting in confidently.

“I was being sarcastic…”

“Well? I heard my name, so I have a right for you to tell me now.” the redhead demanded towering in front of my brother with his arms crossed.

“Do you think Maddy should come back with us to L.A.?”

“Nope. I don’t think she is capable enough to control herself around Izzy.” he snorted.

“What do you mean?” I spat.

“I passed by catering to look for my white jacket because some jackass on our set had misplaced it after the show, and when I found it, I was heading back when I heard Izzy fucking Maddy behind that long hallway where there's a small corner," he spilled, acting as if it wasn't a big deal, whereas Duff had already started fuming as soon as he heard the word fuck.

“Maddy is this true?” he asked through flared nostrils.

“What is your deal!” I shouted at Axl, completely ignoring my brother, too stunned to comprehend.

Izzy woke up after hearing me yell at Axl and rushed towards the scene, slightly irritated because he had been startled out of his sleep.

“What’s wrong baby?” he asked, putting his arm around my waist to pull me from Axl.

“You.” Duff sneered, getting up from the couch and pushing on the lanky bassist's hollow chest, causing him to stagger back, loosing grip on my waist.

“What do I do. He’s the one who’s always causing shit.” Izzy retorted, pushing Duff back, referring to Axl, who stood there with a smug expression on his face as the scene unfolded in front of him.

“You're fucking my sister backstage and making her into some cheap groupie whore. What if someone saw?"

“No one saw us.”

“That doesn’t matter Iz. You’re being a bad influence on her and it’s showing.” my older brother argued, poking a finger into him.

“She’s not a fucking mute y’know. I’m sure she can speak for herself. Maybe ask her instead of bothering me.” he shouted, throwing his arms up in the air.

“Nope. That’s the end of it. You’re not coming back with me and you are breaking up with Izzy right now!” my brother commanded.

“You can’t do this..”

“Break up with him now or else he’s out of the band!” he concluded, making me go silent.

I shifted my gaze between my enraged brother and Izzy, who gave me a sympathetic look that made me roll my eyes.

Of course, he would choose the band over me.

I was just a naive little girl to believe that he would drop everything for me if given the chance.

“Okay..I agree.” I sighed shakily, tugging on my lower lip as my nostrils flared and tears welled up.

“It’s for your own good.” was all my brother said before storming out.

Izzy only stared at me in silence; he didn't have much to say, so I walked out of the room, unable to deal with the awkward quietness.

“Hey, wait up!”

“What do you want asshole?” I growled, ready to start fighting the man in front of me.

“Relax, I’m just looking out for you.” he smirked, catching a lock of my hair and tucking it behind my ear.

I swatted his hand away making him laugh before he put both hands on his hips and stared at me.

“What!”

“I guess I’ll just miss seeing your beautiful face around.” he playfully sighed.

“Are you a narcissist asshole or something? What is wrong with you.” I yelled making him roll his eyes.

“Sweetie. Your dear Izzy won’t even remember you after a few months. I’m only doing you a favor.”

“Who are you to tell me that?”

“I’ve known him the longest. That’s why you should trust me.” he urged.

“You’re just trying to get in my pants…..nice try.” I scoffed, as I walked away, he grabbed my waist and pushed me against the wall, just like Izzy had, earlier.

“I’m serious. I care about you.” he whispered, gazing at me with those soft green eyes of his that often changed colors depending on his mood.

“Get….off.” I muttered through gritted teeth, pushing him off me, making him pissed off again.

“Izzy isn’t the guy for you….he‘ll forget about you and he won’t look back.” he yelled.

I dashed outside the arena, looking for a pay phone so I could contact my mother to come pick me up because I was not in the mood to talk to Duff.

It felt like it was freezing outdoors, but I was too stubborn to go inside and let anyone see or speak with me. And It didn't matter anymore whether my mother caught me wearing this outfit that I had sneaked out in because it no longer meant anything to me.

… … …

(ik this chapter was short but anyways,, this was mainly supposed to be an izzy fic but,, im very much considering axl to be the main character ,,, thoughts? 🫣🫣🫶🏼🫶🏼🎀)

Stranger Things | 3.01 ⤷ Billy Hargrove, Hawkins' hottest lifeguard

He's so cute I just want to cup his face and kiss him over and over until I fall asleep🤍

Conflicted Chapter 27🎀:

Maddy P.O.V

The drive home from the concert was, to put it mildly, awful. I had no idea if I would be able to heal from the heartbreak I was currently experiencing.

I recalled hearing my friends talk about how heartbroken they were when they broke up with their lovers for the first time back in school, but I never realized how terrible it hurt until today.

But now I knew I had to stay away from L.A. for as long as possible in order to purge any memories of Izzy or anyone else from that band.

For sure I was going to miss Slash and Steven, but I honestly didn't want anything to do with them, and the best thing for me right now was to entirely disconnect from the group.

To tell the truth, I wasn't even sure if I wanted to see my brother again because he was the cause of everything that had gone wrong today, but it wouldn't have changed Izzy's decision to stay even if my brother had not said anything.

I guess I was rather irritated because my brother pointed out that Izzy did not love me enough to leave the band, which was not his fault.I suppose I was just a dumb young girl after all.

Axl P.O.V

To say I was upset at Maddy's decision to leave was an understatement, given that she was one of the rare girls I had met who, on occasions, I imagined having a true relationship with because she appeared to be and was different than every other girl I would stumble upon, who just slept around.

I knew she and Izzy were going to break up eventually, which is why I was trying to help her come to a swift decision, but instead she lashed out at me. If only she know I was only trying to help her, because, I didn't believe that Izzy would be as faithful as he appeared in front of her while she was away back home when we went on tour soon.

I've known him long enough to know that when he gets bored on the road, he likes to have company, specifically Pamela, and I knew Pamela was here for a reason, but when she saw Maddy, she became reluctant and backed off, not that Izzy was going to stop her advances regardless.

Izzy clearly cared about the girl, but I had the impression that he did not get along with her as well as I did. I believe we had something more unique than him, and I sensed it from the moment I met her.

“Bastard.”

“What?” I scoffed.

“I’m letting you know one last time to back off my girl.”

“Your girl?…Please, I saw you practically smoothing on Pam.” I scoffed.

“Oh man. Don’t act all innocent like you wouldn’t entertain it if a girl was coming into you, especially if they looked like Pam.” he retorted.

“Not if I had a girl like Maddy as my girlfriend.” I responded by immediately walking away from him, unable to handle being around him any longer without wanting to hit him square in the nose.

He followed after me, quickly, spinning me around roughly by my shoulder.

“The fuck.” I spat, shoving his hand.

“Listen motherfucker. Stay the hell away from my fucking personal life.” he roared, his eyes popping out, nostrils flared, and face flushed crimson with anger.

“No, you stay away from her.” I spit, getting in his face to let him know that I wasn’t intimidated.

“You just want to fuck her.”

“I already did.” I smirked, watching his face scrunch up with pure hatred.

“Your a piece of shit Axl.”

“You’re the one who was ready to take your pants off for a few quick seconds with Miss Pam.”

“You don’t know me.”

“I know you better than I know anyone.”

“…..If you think Maddy is in love with you than good luck.” he snickered, walking back to the dressing room smugly.

… … …

The next morning we awoke in Los Angeles. After such a lengthy absence, I was pleased to return to the city. But it didn't feel the same now that Maddy wasn’t here.

The city felt very different, a cold and lonely feeling she left behind, when her brother decided it was best for her to leave her, as for, Iz, to my surprise he was taking it hard and attempting to cope his feelings with whatever substances he sought.

Everyone was concerned about Iz and his recurring drug problems; not that they didn't have their own, but Izzy would usually take the most harsh substances and wind up messed up, which was bad for him and the band.

Duff and I weren't very concerned, though, because, well, for one, he had been too angry to care about his best friend’s drug problem, and he was still angry at his younger sister.

As for myself, I was in love with the girl the guy had broken up with, so I didn’t have a reason to care.

I sighed as I got out of bed and decided it was a good time to call Maddy and see what was going on with her. I grabbed my phone book and began searching through names and numbers to find Maddy's in order to get ahold of her before a drunken Izzy called her and professed his love over the phone only to wake up the next morning and never call her again.

After losing hope, I couldn't think of elsewhere to go until I came across for familiar name of her mother which was Alice.

It was definitely her mother, it had her home address on it.

I quickly grabbed a pen and scribbled down the phone number to the home address, and then hiding it somewhere Izzy couldn't get to, if he came over, and punched in the numbers, carefully punching in the numbers, picking up the device attached to the long spiral cord.

Brrrr

Brrrr

Br-

“Hello? Alice speaking.”

“Mrs. Mckagan, It’s Axl.”

“Oh, what a surprise! How are you doing honey?” her mother cheerfully asked.

“I’m good.” I chuckled.

“I was wondering if I could speak with Maddy by any chance?”

I wondered if she had told her mother what occurred that night.

"Oh, sure…..but, make sure Izzy isn’t around. I don't want him around her after seeing how upset she was the night I picked her up after their fight that night. She wouldn't even speak to me." she sighed, adjusting the phone cable to conceal the sound and signaling for Maddy to come down to answer the phone call.

“Hello?”

“Maddy….Its Axl.”

“I’m aware.”

“I wanted to ask how your doing and all y’know after tha-

“Good.” she interrupted, rather irritated that the touchy subject was brought up.

“Look, I was wondering if you would come visit me in L.A.?”

“Are you crazy!”

"My brother has basically blacklisted me from there, and I don't think I want to be around Izzy," she explained, her face sour at the mention of her now ex-boyfriend.

“Who gives a shit. You’re old enough to make your own goddamn decision.”

“And y’know, I was hopping maybe we could talk?” I added.

“Talk?”

“Yes.”

“Hm….so, what about?”

“Us.”

“There is no us Axl.” she huffed.

“Why do you just shut me off everytime the topic of us comes around?”

"I appreciate how much you care about me Axl but I think I need a break to think about everything before I decide to get into another relationship." she sighed.

I love you.

“But y’know how I feel about yo-

“I love you.”

The silence on the other line made me regret what I had said, but then she responded quickly with...

“I love you too.”

(short & sweet chapter …this series will end at 30 chapters so this is mostly a filler ! :))))

Izzy Stradlin:

Series:

Conflicted 🎀

chapter 1 : https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/749591332196155392/hey-guys-im-starting-a-new-series-about-80s

chapter 2: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/749715581290315776/conflicted-part-2-izzy-pov-sohow-long

chapter 3: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/749898549731426305/conflicted-pt3-maddy-pov-when-i-woke-up-i

chapter 4: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/750045918555947008/conflicted-pt-4-maddy-pov-we-all-went-back

chapter 5: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/750133841665114112/conflicted-pt5-maddy-pov-i-woke-up-the-next

chapter 6: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/750174277300633600/conflicted-pt-6-an-i-couldnt-sleep-so-i

chapter 7: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/750230488794431488/conflicted-pt-7-maddy-pov-axl-joined-us-a

chapter 8: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/750399121413832704/conflicted-pt-8-i-have-2-chapters-for-yall

chapter 9: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/750414033322164224/conflicted-pt9-maddy-pov-fuck-you-izzy-i

chapter 10: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/750510529101086720/conflicted-pt-10-maddy-pov-i-didnt-recognize

chapter 11: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/750691727868903424/conflicted-pt-11-i-rewrote-this-bcuz-the-other

chapter 12: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/750853959527366656

chapter 13: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/751122209617149952

chapter 14: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/751266890766237696

chapter 15: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/751541175968808960

chapter 16: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/751597540686839808

chapter 17: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/751719183121874944

chapter 18: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/751783447211737088

chapter 19: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/751900459002970112/conflicted-chapter-19-maddy-pov-we-arrived-at

chapter 20: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/752025711243558912/conflicted-chapter-20-maddy-pov-i-stormed

chapter 21: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/752147143409745920

chapter 22: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/752230751683182593/conflicted-chapter-22-maddy-pov-my-mother-was

chapter 23: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/752384589718257664

chapter 24: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/752426252573491200

chapter 25: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/752960476997189632

chapter 26: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/753204706318450688

chapter 27: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/753554621409247232

chapter 28: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/753864240544268288

chapter 29: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/77246890303202918

chapter 30: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/773105392879370240/conflicted-ch-30-maddy-sat-at-the-edge-of-the

chapter 31: https://www.tumblr.com/angelllbby222/778446988907806720/conflicted-chapter-31-maddy-pov-i-love-you-so

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