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Conflicted: Pt 11🎀

(i rewrote this bcuz the other version of this chapter lowkey didn’t make sense to me!!!)

Maddy P.O.V

The next day I decided to spend the day with Izzy since Duff knew about our relationship now.

I wanted to make the most out of it because I had no idea what I was going to do when I left L.A. after the summer was over.

“Are you ready?” Izzy yelled causing me sped up the rest of my makeup routine.

“Yes!” I replied shoving myself into my sundress and combing my hair.

“Finally. I’ve been waiting for like 30 minutes.”

“Geez. I’m sorry.” I spat grabbing Duff’s keys.

“It’s okay. Next time be quicker or else I’ll leave with Angela.”

“What!” I yelled staring at him with a confused look on my face.

“I’m only kidding Maddy.” he laughed coming up to kiss me.

“I love you.”

“I love you too.” I grinned kissing him before we both left to go to the movies.

On the way there I could see the hills in the background of L.A. peek out and it reminded me so much of home but instead of hills we had mountains back in Seattle.

“This reminds me so much of home.” I sighed leaning against the window.

“Your from Seattle right? I’ve heard so many good things about it from Duff.”

“Yeah. I love it there. It’s definitely not as glamorous as L.A. but that’s my home.”

“I feel you. Sometimes I miss Indiana too but then I remember there’s nothing for me over there. My future lies in L.A.”

“Yeah and me of course!” I winked causing him to let out a a little laugh.

“So I wanted to ask you something?”

“Yeah. What?” he asked raising his brow.

“What’s gonna happen to us when I go back to Seattle?” I asked wondering whether or not he would tell me something I wanted to hear or the opposite.

“I don’t know Maddy. I guess time will time.” he sighed shaking his head.

What does he mean by that.

As he turned the corner the movie theatre came into view and on the sign outside in big black bold letters read “BATMAN”.

“HEY GUYS!” I heard as soon as we stepped out of the car.

Oh my god. What was Duff doing here with Slash and Axl?!?!?

“Izzy did you tell them we were coming to watch a movie.” I whined stomping my foot.

“I swear I didn’t say a word.” he shrugged putting his hands in the air.

“Soooo guys what movie are we watching!” Slash grinned with his dark black shades covering his eyes.

“Batman.” Axl replied looking rather angry.

“Hi Axl.” I waved, rather nervously after what had happened between us both.

“Hey.” he harshly replied before walking off with Slash to go get tickets.

“The fuck.” Izzy responded looking off at Axl in confusion.

“I-It’s fine let’s just go.” I said tugging on Izzy’s arm to follow them in line for tickets.

“We’re all going to see Batman. Looks like we’ll be in the same theater room.” Duff grinned holding up all our tickets.

“Did you do this on purpose!” I huffed scrunching my nose in anger at my older brother.

“No Maddy I did not.” he replied rolling his eyes at me before walking off to the ICEE machine.

“Look at my mouth guys!” Slash laughed sticking out his tongue which was now a dark blue color due to the raspberry ICEE he was slurping on.

Axl looked and rolled his eyes at the scene.

I noticed Axl didn’t have anything in his hand so I offered to get him something.

“Axl did you want anything? I was gonna go get some candy?”

“Coming from you. No thanks.” he scoffed crossing his arms.

“Did I do something?” I asked wondering why he had this sudden attitude change.

“Nope. Not at all.” he replied casually walking past me with Duff and Slash to the theatre.

“Forget about him Maddy. He’s not your problem.” Izzy groaned grabbing my hand in his and leading me to our seats.

I squinted my eyes trying to look at the dimly lit theatre to see where exaclty and seat was and you can imagine the shock on my face when I see my seat is right next to Axl.

And Izzy is right next to me. Making me the monkey in the middle.

Great.

“This will be interesting.” Axl smirked shifting in his seat towards me.

Wasn’t he just mad earlier?

“Keep your eyes on the movie Axl.” Izzy threatened giving him a stare.

Axl just rolled his eyes and grabbed a handful of popcorn shoving it in his mouth.

“Hey! That’s my popcorn.” Slash whined grabbing it and putting it away from Axl.

“It’s mine too. I paid half!” Axl argued grabbing it again causing some of the popcorn to go flying in the air.

“Guys! Behave for god’s sake.” Duff shouted as the movie lights became even dimmer and eventually shut off completely, signaling the start of the movie.

Izzy and I got comfortable in our seat and I leaned my head against his shoulder halfway in the movie trying hard not to fall asleep.

I could feel Axl staring at us throughout the movie as we cuddled but I ignored it not thinking too much about it.

“Can you guys move please. I have to pee.” Axl groaned shoving my legs aside to get through to the stairs.

“You could’ve waited.” I thought rolling my eyes as Axl’s childish behavior at times.

“Don’t worry about it. He’s just an ass like that.” Izzy said noticing the look on my face.

“It’s okay.” I said giving him an assuring smile.

“I love you.”

“I love you too.” Izzy grinned.

I leaned in and gave him a kiss unable to control myself when he started at me with those soft eyes of his.

He was so handsome.

“Your so handsome Izzy.” I moaned deepening the kiss and grabbing at him to pull him closer towards me.

“Ew!” I heard my older brother spat making me pull away quickly and sheepishly grin.

“I don’t know. I thought it was hot.” Slash smirked giving me a wink.

I blushed and looked away towards the movie screen seeing Izzy with a similar smirk plastered over his face.

“Tell Duff you have to use the restroom.” he whispered as he got up and left quickly so Duff and Slash wouldn’t notice.

“D-Duff. I have to go pee.” I muttered not giving him a chance to reply as I rushed down the stairs and opened the exit door, letting the cool air touch my skin.

I didn’t see Izzy so I continued walking down the narrow corridor of the theatre when I ran into Axl by accident.

“Watch where you’re going sweetie.” he said giving me a tight lipped smile.

“What’s your deal! I haven’t done anything to you today and your being so mean.” I shouted.

He looked rather harshly towards me at my behavior and grabbed my arm really tight to pull me aside.

“Why are you with him?”

“Izzy?”

“Yeah. I thought you two broke up after what happened.” he said referring to what conspired between the both of us.

“I love him. You know that.” I replied stern faced.

“I could treat you way better than Iz.” he whispered twirling a lock of my hair in his finger and caressing my arm with his fingertips.

“Axl stop. I’m with Izzy.”

I pushed him away from me and ran off desperately trying to find Izzy.

“What’s wrong?” Izzy asked catching me at the end of the corridor.

“N-nothing. Was just looking for you.” I lied not wanting to tell him about my encounter with Axl.

“C’mere.” he tugged, taking me to a corner of the corridor where no one could see us.

“You looked so good in this dress. I had to take you out for a bit so I could play with it.” he mumbled playing with the lace fabric on the ends.

I stared up at him with my big brown eyes waiting for him to do something as I had always secretly dreamed about in my bed at night.

He leaned in slowly and brought his lips to mine, capturing them in a french kiss.

“Taste so good. Like strawberries.” he said, licking my lips with his tongue before messily pulling me back into a sloppy kiss.

He ran his hand up my thigh letting go of the lace to slip a finger into my panties testing how much I could take.

“Fuck I wanna take you from behind right here.” he groaned feeling how nicely my pussy sucked in his finger.

“I’ve been waiting for you to fuck the shit out of me from the day I met you.” I whined looking up at him and spewing out all of my dirty thoughts which were coming to mind at a rapid rate everytime his finger curled upwards in my pussy.

I didn’t hold back and he could see it the way I was begging, whining and breathing out for him basically like a bitch in heat.

“I’ve turned you into a bad girl huh. What happened to my innocent little baby” he asked with a smug look on his face.

“I’m still your good girl but I wanna be a dirty girl right now for your cock.” I mumbled looking at him rather seductively as I had seen on television.

“Be quiet or else someone will hear.” he spat, roughly grabbing a handful of my hair and pulling me close to his face so he could swallow all my moans with his lips.

“I don’t care if Duff sees me. I want you.” I moaned feeling myself getting tighter around his fingers.

“Wait don’t cum yet. Get on your knees.” he said pulling on my hair to yank me down.

“You have to suck me off before I fuck you hard or else it’ll hurt.”

“O-okay.” I nodded looking up at him with big doe eyes as I took his jeans off, suddenly feeling a new sense of confidence, wanting nothing more than to please him.

I had no idea what I was doing but I nodded at everything he said wanting to please him as I looked up at him like a deer in headlights.

“Baby just suck on it like a lollipop okay.” he cooed noticing my behavior before he cupped my cheek and rubbed his dick between my lips, slapping it a few times on my cheek.

I let out a big glob of spit and let it run down his dick before rubbing it in with my hand and giving it a few kisses on the tip like I would on his lips.

I slowly stared sucking on it as much as I could fit in my mouth while rubbing off the part that wouldn’t fit.

“Fuck just like that baby. You look so looking sexy like this with my cock in your mouth. Like a dirty little slut.” he groaned bucking his hips forward.

He let me suck on it for a few more seconds before choving my head forward causing me to choke and then letting me up to breathe.

“Turn around baby.”

I lifted up my dress and put my hands on the wall so he could easily take me from behind.

I wiggled my ass for him as the puffy pink lips of my pussy were on display for him and the moment I had been waiting for ever since we met was finally happening.

“I don’t think I can be gentle with you.” he grunted shoving his cock inside me roughly.

Even though I wasn’t a virgin anymore I still felt the occasional pinch whenever he went deeper and I couldn’t help but out let tiny squeals causing him to slow down occasionally.

“Not even a virgin and I still have to fuckin open this pussy up huh?” he said spewing out all these filthy phrases I’d never heard before or experienced, making me go dumb.

“S-so big.” I babbled unable to think straight as I felt his girth stretching me out way more than Axl’s.

“Did Axl fuck you like this?” he asked grabbing my hair in a ponytail and jackhammering into my pussy.

“F-Feels so good I-Iz.” I sobbed hearing the wet sounds of his cock going in and out my pussy.

I could feel my arousal coating my thighs.

“Answer me.”

“N-no no he didn’t. I didn’t get f-fucked this good.” I whined, talking obscenely on the brink of orgasm.

He pulled out abruptly and turned me around to face him before sliding back in.

“Wanna see you when you cum.” he whispered kissing me and letting his tongue mix with mine.

“Faster Izzy. I’m gonna cum.” I whined as my back arched and my eyes rolled back involuntarily.

“Fuck yeah take my fucking cock. Cum all over it baby.” he grunted leaving red imprints on my waist from gripping it so tight.

“Uhnnn- I’m cumming.” I squealed before my vision went black and my legs shook rapidly.

“Shit shit shit.” he said before releasing inside me.

He let me down allowing me to fix my dress while he pulled his pants up and grabbed my shaky hand to give it a soft kiss.

“That was so good Iz.” I giggled with my newly flushed face and reddened cheeks, all of a sudden too embarrassed to look him in the eyes after all the dirty things I did.

“Yeah? I’m glad.”

Conflicted Chapter 21🎀:

Maddy P.O.V:

I didn’t get the chance to say goodbye to anyone because Duff had called our mother and told her everything that happened.

My mother was furious and demanded to see me as soon as possible which is why Duff had already bought my plane ticket for Seattle.

When I first came, I imagined the city to be full of stuck-up people and fashionable drama queens who would look down on you if you were from another city, but I soon grew to enjoy the mountainous city with endless sandy beaches.

I didn’t want to leave.

“It is for your own good. I can't stand seeing you surrounded by drugs and men who can't treat you right." he insisted, driving us to the airport as I gazed out the window, taking in the city for one final time.

I wasn’t even sure if I would be back.

Maybe in a couple of years but for now it was goodbye for good.

We drove by the diner we used to go to with the boys, as well as the rehearsal studio where Axl and I had gotten caught.

And then we walked by the theatre where Izzy had taken me and we happened to have sex for the first time together.

Not how I had imagined sleeping with Izzy for the first time, but I guess it wasn't a huge thing to him because he had sex with women in all kinds of places and it didn't matter to him if we slept in a romantic setting or not.

“I know you probably hate me right now but I’m doing this for your own good.”

“Whatever.” I shakily spat, unable to control the tears that were flowing down my face.

“Maddy he’s no good for you! He’s a drug dealer for christ sake.” he shouted.

“I don’t care. I love him! It’s not fair that I couldn’t even say goodbye to him.” I sobbed, covering my face with my hands and not holding back.

Duff looked at me with shame and felt terrible, but he knew that if I stayed, I'd be dragged into drugs and something even worse, so he put his foot down and sent me back home.

“We’re here.” he muttered, putting the car in park and getting out to grab my things.

I walked out, disregarding my brother, grabbing my belongings from his hands, and followed behind him to avoid him and to get checked in for my flight.

He spoke with a few employees who were fans of their band and had a laugh, with some agreeing to take a picture, which irritated me even more because he appeared as if he didn't care that I was offended by his decision.

“Alright sir, your sister is all checked in and will need to proceed through this corridor to her gate.” the attendant said with a smile.

My brother turned to give me a hug, but I dodged it and huffed past him, stomping as I marched away from him, through the mass of people, while sobbing.

“I love you!” I heard my brother's voice shout, but I was too stubborn to glance back, and when I did, it was too late since Duff had vanished in the the crowd, and I couldn't tell him I loved him as well.

I began crying even more since I loved my brother and knew he was only looking after me, and I became enraged with Izzy for making me angry at my brother, but I eventually got over it, understanding that it was simply my fault for being like a disrespectful brat to my elder brother.

My flight was about to take off, and I had arrived just in time, shortly after crying in the airport bathroom.

I found my seat and sat down, grateful to Duff for choosing a window seat for me, and peered out as the plane slowly began to take off with everyone settled in.

I wondered how everyone else was doing as I took off, and if Axl knew I was going because he was the last one to speak with Duff.

I sighed at the thought of having to deal with my mother when I got home and glanced at the time.

It was 8 a.m., so I decided to nap until the plane landed, which would be in 3 hours and 45 minutes.

… … …

Izzy P.O.V

When I awoke the next morning, I had a terrible headache and had no recollection what the fuck happened the night before or how I ended up in a bed.

It wasn't the comfortable couch I slept on, but Slash's bed in his new home.

The same bed I was in with Maddy when I fucked her at the party.

I rubbed my eyes and gulped a few Tynelols mixed with some leftover whiskey Slash had left on his side table before getting up to wash my face and clean my teeth.

"Finally, you are awake. "I got my bed back." Slash cheered, dashing to his bed, and doing a back flip on it.

I rolled my eyes annoyed at his hyper attitude, still coming down from my headache.

"Dude you know what you did last night, right?" Slash remarked, raising one eyebrow at me.

“What do you mean?”

“You totally scared off Maddy, Axl had to come and save her from your heroin rage.”

“Oh and Duff hates your guts now.” he added at the end.

“I don’t remember any of that.” I murmured.

“You pushed her and she cried, then Duff and Axl came to help her. I would’ve helped her too but I was totally wasted which I regret because you were being a real asshole bro.”

“Where is she right now?” I worried, wondering why I was at Slash's place instead of Duff's.

“Maddy left this morning back home.”

I rushed down the stairs to get his house phone and phoned Duff, hoping he would pick up and that Maddy hadn't left yet, so I could persuade him to alter his mind.

“Yes Slash?” Duff answered.

“Where’s Maddy, can I speak to her please-

“Izzy, she’s gone and you don’t deserve to speak with her after what you did to her. You pushed her on the ground and when she was crying out for you, you ignored her.” he huffed, angry about how his sister was treated by someone he considered one of his best friends.

“Duff, I’m really so-

“Save it Iz. I’m just really disappointed in you.” he sighed, rubbing his forehead.

“Did she hurt herself anywhere? I hope she’s okay…at least you were sober enough to take care of her.”

“Axl and I were.”

“….Axl?…”I grumbled, imagining him rushing to her rescue and making himself the hero in front of her.

"I didn't even say goodbye to her." I mumbled to myself, loathing how she last saw me and how I treated her.

“Sorry man.” was all Duff said before hanging up the phone.

Fuck.

I was mad at myself but I was more mad at Duff for letting her go without getting the chance to say goodbye to her.

I didn’t even know her house number back home and there was no way that Duff would give it to me after what had just occurred between us.

I just hope she didn't forget about me when she returned to Seattle, because I could never forget her, no matter how hard he tried to keep us apart.

I loved that girl.

… … …

Maddy P.O.V

My flight arrived sooner than expected, given how cloudy the city was, a dramatic contrast to the blue skies of the Golden State.

“I hope you enjoyed your journey with United, and we hope to see you all soon. Welcome to Seattle, Washington. Enjoy your visit, and for those returning home, welcome back!" The flight attendant spoke with a cheery grin, opposite my look.

Which was gloomy, like my hometown, not because I was hated home, I love Seattle more than I loved California, but because of the wrath I was about to face from my mother.

My mother was waiting for me outside, so I grabbed my suitcase and proceeded to the exit to find my mother's car.

“Madalaine, is that you!” I heard my mother's angry voice ring in the cold breeze of the city.

“Yes. It's me mom." I murmured, already annoyed by how upset she was with me.

"I don't want to be here any more than you do." She persisted, collecting my belongings and leading me to her car as we both entered.

"We will chat when we go home, young lady. You can nap on the way home," my mother replied quietly, turning on the radio and hearing the booming voice of the local Seattle news station as we drove

I gazed out the windows, gazing at the familiar snow-covered mountains and green trees that loomed over every street, which always seemed taller than the mountains themselves.

“We’re home. Are you awake?” she asked, nudging my shoulder lightly.

I pretended to be asleep so I wouldn't have to deal with my mom later, but she knew better since she called me out and threatened to ground me permanently if I didn't get out of the car, so I jumped out right away.

We got situated in, and I hung all of my clothing in my closet because I knew if I didn't do it now, I wouldn't get around to it later due to laziness.

There was only one piece of clothing left and it was the tiny black dress I had wore that day when Izzy cheated on me with the groupie.

I made a face at it and knew if my mother saw it, she would scream, so I immediately flung it under the bed, hoping she would never have to check there, put my luggage on the shelf in my closet, and climbed into my bed, cuddling my stuffed bunny and watching TV to soothe me.

And when I turned on the television, there was a special screening of Guns N' Roses playing their songs on loop on MTV, which made me want to scream and yank my hair out when I saw Izzy appear on the screen.

He didn't even see me before I left for my trip because of Duff, which reminded me of how I felt on the way home, causing me to cry, and that's when my mother went into my room.

She stood quietly at the entrance, observing my face, as a song played in the background. My mom scoffed at "Paradise City".

“Yeah right! Madeline, don’t you think the girls are prettier in Seattle? My mother joked, attempting to lighten the mood given how distraught her daughter appeared over the alleged superstar her older son had called in about earlier.

“So, tell me, which one is he?" She demanded, sitting at the end of my blanket-covered feet as I watched the television in front of me, anxious for another look at Izzy.

“That one." I whispered as Izzy appeared quickly on the television screen in the music video for Paradise City, wearing red leather pants that contrasted with his white shirt, black vest, and bandana that was wrapped around his head.

"Hm." she paused, gazing at the man her daughter had fallen in love with before shifting her gaze to another who was dressed entirely in white.

“What about him?” she said, peering at the lead singer and winking.

"Mom." I grumbled, embarrassed that I had to have this conversation with her about the same males I had sex with, which my mother was absolutely unaware of, else she would have murdered me.

“I sent you to L.A. because I trusted you to spend time with your brother not so you could go fall in love with some guy who thinks he's a big rockstar."

“Mom you don’t even know him.”

“I know him enough to know that he’s no good for you.”

“How would you-

“I was a young girl like you once.” her mother, reacted to her foolish daughter, who assumed her mother was always this elderly.

“So…who was it?” I asked, raising an eyebrow.

“Elvis…..and no I didn’t sleep with him or date him but I know how it feels to have a crush!” my mom insisted.

“This is different.” I mumbled, curling up into a ball underneath my comforter.

“Honey, I know I was mad earlier but I realized that won’t solve our problem.”

“You have to tell me Maddy. So I can understand your feelings toward….Izzy? Is it?”

“Mom I love him.” I spat it out, feeling the need to get it off my chest, and burst into tears because I realized he wasn't with me and how much I missed him.

“Sweetie don’t cry. It’s okay.” my mom cooed rubbing my back, coming to cuddle with me.

“Are you sure you love him?”

“Y-Yes.” I sobbed, hugging my stuffed bunny tighter, wishing it was Izzy.

“Okay then why don’t I speak to Duff about this and have them all visit?”

“All of them?..” I asked, wondering why she couldn’t just invite Izzy alone.

“Honey I would like to meet all of them so I can see if they are respectful enough to be around my daughter or not." she said.

“That’s alright.” I replied, if it was anything to get Izzy back, I wouldn’t have a problem with agreeing to it.

Conflicted : Pt. 2🎀

Izzy P.O.V

"So..how long is your sister staying with you?"

"Why?" he asked narrowing his eyes towards me.

"She's 16 Izzy and Maddy is my baby sis. So it'll never happen." Duff remarked rolling his eyes and scoffing at me.

"Chill man. I was just curious." I replied nonchalantly.

"I've been staying with Angela and she's been a real pain in the ass lately."

"It's only a matter of time before she gets enough of me and throws me to the curb." I groaned slumping further into the couch.

"You know you're welcome here anytime Iz . But my sis is taking the guest room so I guess you could take the couch." he shrugged getting off the couch to get some water.

Maddy P.O.V

I woke up in the middle of the night to some noise out in the living room.

I groaned and got out of bed to tell Duff to shut up but instead I saw someone I didn't expect.

"Izzy?" I softly called out.

"Hey Maddy. Sorry did I wake you?" he asked peeking up from the guitar he was lightly strumming.

"No it's okay." I stupidly grinned even though he did indeed wake me up.

Whenever Izzy was around I always went dumb like a schoolgirl with a silly crush.

That’s probably how he saw me anyways.

"I couldn't sleep so I thought I would play some notes to finish this fucking song for Axl.”

Axl…as in Axl Rose the lead singer of Guns N’ Roses.

I had met Axl along with Izzy when Duff formally introduced me to all of them the day I arrived in L.A and the first one to introduce himself was Axl.

He was extremely flirty but I couldn’t tell if he was like that with everyone or just to me.

I couldn’t help but get giddy since I hadn’t ever gotten any attention from anyone at school since they all thought I weird just because I was shy and quiet.

Being around the guys boosted my self confidence and made me feel like I was pretty and wanted.

Something I also felt around Izzy.

I came around to where he was sitting forgetting that I was in the same pajamas he had seen when he first came.

"Shit." I giggled.

"What's wrong?" he asked looking at me with a big grin.

"My clothes aren't really appropriate." I quickly muttered pulling my pajama shorts down to cover my ass.

"I don't mind Maddy." Izzy shrugged wondering why she kept repeating herself.

He thought she looked sexy.

"How long will you be staying with us till?" I asked.

"Probably not too long."

"You can stay here as long as you need. I'm sure Duff won't mind." I said giving him a soft smile.

"Just to see that smile I might extend my stay here." he grinned not forgetting to look me up and down.

"Izzy...my brother-

"Chill Maddy. You're basically like a little sister to me and besides your 16." he nonchalantly shrugged.

Is he being serious right now?

He’s only like 3 years older than me since I’ll be turning 17 soon. That's practically nothing!

"Izzy you're only 3 years older than me technically since I’m turning 17 soon. It's not even that big of a deal." I unintentionally whined as my bottom lip pouted.

He saw that and smirked.

"Little Mckagan thinks she's grown." he joked giving me a similar pout to mock me.

"Come on Maddy. Be real. You're a fucking child." he spat out quite harshly.

"If I’m a child than what are these." I spat back yanking up my overly tight pajama top and exposing my bigger than normal breast.

"Maddy I-" he stopped when he looked and saw my hands holding my breasts together.

"Fuck." he muttered placing his hand over his crotch to hide any evidence of a growing buldge.

"Get out of here Maddy."

"Why. You’re the one who’s staying in Duff’s apartment. I should be the one to tell you to leave.” I retorted yanking my shirt back down and crossing my arms.

“What’s your deal?” he asked giving me a questionable look.

“You know how Duff feels about me hanging around you alone or any of the other guys.”

“Especially Axl.”

“Why does Duff have to control who I can and cannot talk to.” I huffed getting up from the couch and stomping back to my room.

“Don’t know ask him.” he silently muttered before laying down on the couch to sleep.

As I closed the door behind me I let out a squeal of frustration.

“I totally embarrassed myself out there.”

“I don’t even know what got over me to flash him. I’ve never been that bold to any guy in my life. Hell I don’t even talk to any boys anyways!”

“Whatever!” I thought climbing into my white comforter and calling it a night.

hope u all enjoyed🎀💞💘

Conflicted Chapter 31:

Maddy P.O.V

“I love you so much baby.” Izzy groaned as he rammed into me continuously, rocking the bed by his speed.

“I love you t-too.” I whimpered feeling my orgasm about to take over.

“Your never gonna leave me again right?”

Not even for him?” he whined almost pleading me to answer.

l was too euphoric to mutter a response as I felt Izzy sucking the sensitive parts of my neck.

Leaving them all bruised and purple.

“Say something Maddy please.” he urged not letting himself release until he heard exactly what he wanted from me.

“Yes. It’s you Izzy. It’s always been you.” I croaked looking up at him, pouting and seeing his hazel eyes that I missed so much.

He leaned in and gave me the sloppiest kiss, leaving strings of wetness as he pulled away and came inside of me making sure I took every last drop.

“Such a good girl f’me huh.” he said giving my ass a slap and plopping down beside me.

I quickly covered myself feeling sudden shame from being naked like this inside of a trailer with Izzy knowing my brother still wasn’t talking to me and here I was slutting it up with one of his best friends.

“What’s wrong?” Izzy asked as he sat up, grabbing his pants and slipping them on, letting them hang loosely around his waist as he let up a fresh cigarette.

“I feel guilty for doing this while Duff is still ignoring me.” I sighed feeling my lips pout and tears silently rolling down my cheek.

“Your grown enough to make your own decisions Maddy.”

“If Duff doesn’t approve he needs to get over it.” he replied gruffly.

“I know but he’s my brother Izzy. If he’s upset then it affects me too.” I replied angrily.

“Why are you being such a little girl over it. I didn’t get with you to handle your tantrums.”

“Why are you being so mean.” I huffed wiping my tear stained cheeks and climbing off the bed to confront him face to face.

“I’m not. I just think you’re overly sensitive and I don’t want to deal with a cry baby post fuck.” he casually responded letting out a cloud of smoke as he ran a hand through his black locks.

“You’re such a jerk.” I cried pushing him out of my way to exit the trailer.

I didn’t even know where to go since all the boys including my brother were rehearsing backstage so I just waited outside feeling helplessly guiltier by the second.

I was just another idiot who decided to sneak away with Izzy back into his bed. I didn’t even wanna leave my brother while he was practicing his drums because I planned on talking to him once and for all to figure things out.

But instead he caught a glimpse of Izzy kissing all over my neck while gripping my ass as we both snuck away to go to his trailer which I doubt my brother didn’t know of.

I heard the trailer door open and close.

Izzy came out to let me know he was going back to rehearse with the boys and asked if I wanted to join.

“I don’t feel comfortable being near you while you’re mad at me.” I retorted rolling my eyes at him like the dumb little girl I was.

I wasn’t even that much younger than him.

It was only a 6 year gap which he made seem like it was ages apart.

Twenty five and Nineteen weren’t that far apart.

Right?

“Come on. You know Duff will kill me for leaving you all alone out here.” he groaned.

“You don’t even care about me.” I said feeling utterly rejected at that point.

He came over towards me in long strides and pulled me up harshly by my arms placing of his arms on my lower back squishing me all the way into him while having the other hand on my cheek.

“What don’t you understand Maddy. I don’t act this way with any girl.”

“I don’t even have any emotions towards the girls I fuck or that try and talk to me.”

“You make me feel so many different emotions at once I don’t know how to act sometimes. I know I shout at you but I really feel something for you that I’ve never felt with any girl which drives me crazy especially when Duff says I can’t be around you.”

“I’m so in love with you. I want to fuck you and make love to you at the same time all the damn time. I want to kiss you everywhere when I see you. You’re always so fucking beautiful and sexy. And you have the sweetest personality which is the total opposite of me. You’re so fucking nice it kills me sometimes because I could never be that nice to you but that’s why I want to be around you all the time because you pull me in with your sweetness. You make me feel so good about myself, like someone genuinely cares for me.”

“God I wish I could fuck you right here against this trailer so everyone can see how much I want to make you mine.” he grunted swiping his tongue on my lips until I parted them feeling his tongue against mine.

“Izzz. Someone will see us.” I giggled against his kisses.

“That’s what makes it so fun baby.” he groaned grabbing my legs to wrap around his waist as he grinded his erection against me.

The parking lot where all the bands had parked their trailers was silent expect for small “uh, uh, uh.” whimpers that left my mouth like a chorus.

Izzy had me pinned against GNR’s trailer with my tiny skirt hiked up, rubbing my pussy up and down his clothed erection keeping my legs tightly gripped.

“Give it to me baby. Cream all over my fucking pants.” he grunted pinning me against the trailer further to help grip me as I bounced up and down feeling my pussy get slicker with the friction of his jeans.

“Izzy?”

“Is that you man?” Duff barked as he saw me looking disheveled and seeing my ass out as I bounced up and down Izzy.

“S-stop stop. Put me down Iz .” I gasped slightly out of breath due to the nature of our activities.

“I’m gonna fucking murder you.” my brother muttered watching as I fixed my clothes into place while Izzy readjusted himself in his pants rolling his eyes.

“It’s not like she didn’t want it Duff.” he said shaking him off.

“Fuck you motherfucker.” was the last thing Izzy heard as he fell to the ground.

authors note

wht did we think :)) i’m back! i’ve been rlly busy w school so apologies!

i’m so excited to go out in cute outfits this summer

Conflicted Chapter 23🎀:

Maddy P.O.V

The next morning, I awoke to the sound of the television blaring downstairs and the scent of pancakes filling my nose, leaving me hungry.

When I went downstairs, I expected to see all of the boys because I had heard such loud conversation, but there was only Axl and my mother.

"Madeleine, you're awake!”

“I made fresh pancakes for Axl, and you are welcome to join." My mother radiated as if delighted by the young redhead standing by her

“You're up early." I smirked and swiped a stack of pancakes from his plate.

"Well, I couldn't sleep in and miss this beauty." he cracked a grin referring to my mother, who was completely flushed.

“Okay, enough flirting young man. I am old enough to be your grandmother. Now sit and eat with Maddy." she said before turning off the stove and leaving us with orange juice and going to watch her favorite TV show that was airing currently, which was causing all the ruckus.

“I like your house. It’s very cozy.”

"Thanks. It's practically yours now; you're allowed to use it whenever you want." I smiled before biting into my maple syrup-soaked pancakes.

“I wanted to ask you something.”

“Sure.”

"We have a concert coming up here, so we decided to stay at yours until then, but I wanted to see the city and the people, and I wondered if I could get that favor relayed from when I took you out to see L.A." he chuckled, leaning forward on his hand and beaming at me, waiting for me to say yes.

“Okay deal." I responded, and he applauded and finished the remainder of his pancakes before putting them up.

"Izzy won't this like." I informed him, sighing as I remembered that I needed to tell him about this.

“What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him.” he shrugged, leaving to join my mother on the couch.

I shrugged his statement off as I hurried upstairs with a fresh batch of pancakes and fruit for Izzy, as well as some orange juice.

He was awake when I got in my room, and it appeared that he had already freshened up; his hair was wet from the shower, and the towel was loosely wrapped around his waist.

"I brought you some food baby." I murmured, coming to get on my knees behind him on the bed, where he was sitting on the edge of the bed, and wrapped my arms around his neck.

“I missed you.” he mumbled, tilting his head back to meet my lips in a kiss.

He gave me light pecks first before opening his mouth to give me wet French kisses, in contrast to my slow rhythm, which allowed him to control me.

I climbed around him to sit on his lap as he proceeded to kiss me, our lips clashing with a pop every time we pulled away.

“Eat first." I smirked, mocking him as I slipped from his lap and went to get dressed for the day, leaving him with a hard on and baffled.

"Maddy, come on please. You made me hard; jerk me off or something," he begged, rubbing himself to relieve some of his pain.

“How about I do this?" I chirped, kneeling in front of him, innocently staring up at him through my lashes as I caressed his thighs.

He pulled the towel off himself, letting it fall on the floor, before gripping the back of my head and thrusting his cock down my throat without warning.

“If you want to be a tease, you have to fucking deal with this,"

“I-Izz, -slow." I gasped, releasing his cock and coughing some of his precum and spit onto my shirt, which became moist.

“Take it off. I want to see your tits." he motioned for me to remove my shirt, exposing my breasts since I hated sleeping in a bra.

“Fuck no bra?" he moaned, twisting and massaging them before slapping his cock on my lips and sliding it between my pouted lips, teasing me before I put it inside my mouth.

I hallowed my cheeks and bobbed up and down quickly, using my empty hand to massage his balls in the same way that I had heard the girls at my school did with their boyfriends.

I let go of his cock, leaving it a slimy mess, then took one of his balls into my mouth, sucking and tugging at it like it was a tasty popsicle I couldn't get enough of, before switching to the other and stroking him off at the same time.

“Fuuckk. You're so good, baby, such a good girl sucking my cock like this," he groaned, clutching a fistful of hair.

I let go of his balls and returned to his cock, stroking the area that wouldn't fit into my mouth, and gazed up at him with lust ridden eyes, reminding him how much I enjoyed it

"Shit, you're so damn good at this. Better than any other girl I've had."

When I heard that, I pulled away and glared at him, awkwardly holding his dick in my hand.

“What’s wrong baby?” he asked, wondering why I had stopped and looked at him weirdly.

“Nothing…I just realized that I don't want to do anything under my mom's roof." I said gently just above a whisper, as I pulled my sticky fingers from his cock and quietly picked up my clothes before closing the bathroom door behind me.

“Maddy? Did I do something wrong?” he called out apologetically.

"Everything is fine." I said, brushing away my tears, and stepping into the shower.

I didn't want to make a big issue about it, but everything came crashing down when he told me I was better than any girl he'd ever had.

Which made me think about how many girls he's probably had in comparison to me, who's had zero.

And the first thing that sprang to mind when he said that was the groupie who gave him a blowjob, which immediately turned me off and made me unhappy.

It wasn't his fault, but I couldn't stop thinking about it.

And how he reacted when my mother mentioned marriage, he just laughed it off, which bothered me a lot, even though I didn't bring it up with him because I didn't want him to think I'm some obsessive love-stricken girl.

But I did believe that marriage was important, and that in the future, I would like to have one eventually.

I heard the door close, indicating that he had left, and sighed, turning up the heat in the shower and relishing the peacefulness of the water.

What I didn’t remember what was that our guest room which used to be my brother’s had a connecting door to the bathroom that I had.

So when the door opened from the other side of the bathroom and in walked Axl , I let out a scream upon seeing his shadow behind the flimsy bathroom curtain.

“Oh my god. Get out I’m taking a shower!” I yelped, almost slipping on the water that was gathered around my feet.

“It’s just me.” Axl shrugged off, like it wasn’t a big deal to him that he was inside the bathroom the same time as myself.

“I’m taking a shower!” I repeated.

"Izzy is hogging it downstairs and refuses to come out. I’m pretty sure I heard him jerking off..trouble in paradise?" he questioned, smirking behind the curtain, as I heard his pants zipper open.

"Gosh. Everything's fine, okay!" I grumbled fiercely clawing my head to remove all of the shampoo so that I could leave as quickly as possible.

… … …

Everyone was having a good stay so far at our house, and Duff and I finally got to talk in private to make up.

I apologized to him for my behavior at the airport, and he understood because I was rightfully unhappy at the moment.

He also apologized to me as we hugged it out, and I couldn't be happier that my brother and I were back on the same page.

In honor of that, Duff wanted to take the boys out for drinks because they were behaving and doing a good job of staying sober during their time here, so he decided everyone earned it, including Izzy, who happily accepted.

I didn't tell them I didn't want to go, but instead told them I wasn't feeling well.

Izzy immediately turned down Duff upon hearing this and said he would stay back to look after me, but Axl stepped in and told him he was staying back anyway because he was trying to rest his vocal chords before their gig, to which the boys blindly accepted.

Except Izzy.

Izzy and Axl were arguing over who would stay back to watch over me when Duff became irritated and told them both to figure it out like men, then stated he would wait outside for those who wanted to join.

I felt bad about convincing Izzy to join them so Axl and I could go out, but I needed to get this out of the way so we could enjoy the rest of his time here, by ourselves.

"Are you sure?" Izzy asked for the fourth time, gazing back and forth between Axl and me.

“I’m sure baby. Go have fun.” I smiled, kissing him on the cheek before gently pushing him through the door.

“Fine, but tell Axl to keep his hands off you. I don’t trust him." he told me, holding my hands in his as if begging with me not to do something.

“Don’t worry.” I said, and with that, Izzy was on his way to the bar with the boys while I was getting ready for my “outing” with Axl.

I kept it casual and wore my short white sundress, with some socks and black flats and tied my hair back in a ponytail.

He wore his ripped jeans and a graphic tee with some white sneakers and a red bandana was wrapped around his head.

“You ready?” I asked.

“Yes, ma'am. Lead the way.” he signaled for me to leave the home first, to which he followed me to the car, hopping in the passenger seat since he was the guest.

“Buckle up.” I muttered, pulling out of the driveway and heading to our first location on my list of places to see in Seattle.

… … …

"And lastly, this is the ferry which I used to ride all the time with Duff when we were younger." I emphasized showing him our final stop with the big neon lights that read OPEN illuminating the pier for locals to line up and patiently wait for the next vessel to return.

“Let’s go.” Axl grinned.

“You actually want to go on it?”

“Yeah. Why not.” he shrugged going up to the ticket booth to pay for two tickets and coming back to wait in line.

“You didn’t have to pay for me y’know.” I sighed.

“I wanted too. Especially when I have such a beautiful lady by my side tonight, I want to give her the best treatment.”

I could only smile as the person from the ticket booth came back shortly after to collect everyone's tickets, including ours, and begin boarding the small boat.

Axl guided me onto the boat, holding my hand as I climbed the steps, while he hopped in behind me and seated us on the top roof, where there were just a few couples sitting in the back, leaving the front wide open for us to sit freely.

The city lights shone brightly as the boat went off into the black waters, which were only illuminated by the approaching boats returning back to the dock, darkening the waters again when they left.

The boat operator told us about the history of the city, while Axl listened tentatively, as if he were genuinely interested in learning, which made me smile, knowing that he was enjoying this short ride as much as I did as a child.

As we further away from the city, it looked like a different planet and smaller than it appeared, as we went by the larger-than-life mountains, accompanied by a chilling breeze.

I wasn't prepared for the cold and shuddered a little as my dress flowed up against the hard winds. Axl noticed this and slid closer to me, wrapping an arm around me, which I hesitated before nestling in since I was so cold I could not take it any longer.

“You look beautiful tonight.” Axl whispered, while I stared at the distant city lights, accompanied by the water that was constantly sloshing against the small boat.

“Thank you Axl.”

“I think you’re one of the most beautiful girls I’ve ever met.”he said again, this time close enough to my ear that I could feel his breath on my bare neck and his fingers delicately placed on my collarbone, stroking it.

“T-Thanks.” I mumbled, scooting away from him, to which he frowned and slid back towards me.

“Look at me.”

When I turned to face him, I felt his soft lips on mine and a hand snake around my back, forcing me against him and his musky cologne.

He kissed me deeper and more firmly, when I didn’t pull away as if he had planned this for a long time.

“N-no." I said before racing off and down the boat's side staircase to the first floor balcony, hanging onto the railing, attempting to regain my breath after what I had just done.

“I'm sorry for scaring you off, but I'll do it again if it means you'll realize I love you." he sputtered out of breath as he ran down the steps after me.

“Axl, I know how I feel about you, and you do too, but we can't be together. It's not right." I blabbered, panicking over the idea that I had technically cheated on Izzy.

“It is right." he reassured me, grabbing my wrists and pinning me to his body.

“If you don't want this…then stop me." he whispered, moving my hair away from my face to display my eyes, which glinted.

“Your…..mine.”

“I-

He suppressed me with a kiss, gently tugging my bottom lip with his teeth before intertwining his tongue with mine, refusing to let go.

“Fuck, I know your Izzy’s but that wouldn’t stop me from fucking the shit out of you.” he groaned.

“Ahem.” a young boy said, making me jump unlike Axl who was still holding me in place.

“Is there a problem?” Axl asked, irritated at the little boy for interrupting his little moment with Maddy.

“U-uh no I was just looking for the bathroom.” the boy whispered, scampering off, scared by Axl’s deep voice.

“Axl that was mean.” I laughed pushing him off me and scrunching my face.

“What! He’s just a little rascal, he was probably watching you from far away anyways.”

The sound of the bell ringing from above us signaled the boat's arrival at dock, prompting me to reflect on the consequences of what was to come after what had just happened between Axl and me.

“We should go." I whispered my voice barely coming out, while I couldn't bear to look him in the eyes, feeling dirty from cheating on my lover.

Axl saw an abrupt shift in my behavior, which upset him, but he didn't nudge me further and instead gave me some space while continuing to walk beside me through the city.

We called an Uber home, and the ride back was completely silent as I slumped in the window seat, peering out at the metropolis that seemed as small as a bug in the sea.

When we came back to the house, the boys had already returned an hour before, and as soon as we opened the door and saw Axl walk in behind me, everyone raised their eyebrows, and Izzy was furious.

“Where the hell did you both go?” he growled, looking at the sundress I was wearing and the way I looked put together as if we were on a date.

“Chill out, Izzy!" I barked, glaring at him for being so irritating about Axl every-time we came into contact.

He looked horrified, as if I had cursed at him, but I was so confused with protecting Axl and feeling guilty that I hurried upstairs, stomping on the way.

“I told you to stay the fuck away from her.” Izzy spit, shoving Axl against the door causing him to groan.

“The fuck is your deal. We were just hanging.” Axl persisted driving his bandmate into the stair railing.

Izzy fumed as he fixed himself back up.

“Did you finally convince her to let you have another fuck or give you a blowjob this time?” the slim guitarist sneered, making Duff upset.

“Don’t talk about my sister like that.”

“I kissed her! Is that what you want to hear?” the redhead yelled, enraging the guitarist beyond belief.

“I knew it! I fucking knew it. Fuck you.” he grumbled shoving Axl and leaving the house with a loud slam.

“He’s definitely getting laid tonight.” Slash snickered.

Duff and Axl both looked at him and exhaled.

“I’ll talk to her.” Slash huffed walking in between both men to climb the stairs, stumbling on the way.

Axl dashed to the living room, collecting some beers from the fridge, and headed outside to sit on the pool recliners with a clear shot of the sky and the quiet sounds of the night to calm himself down.

… … …

“Maddy is it okay if I come in.” I heard Slash ask , hearing the door slowly creak open.

“Okay.” I murmured not trying to pull myself together as I lay sprawled over my bed, my face buried into the side of my pillow.

"Well, there was a fight and it was pretty interesting besides the fact there was no actual fight since Izzy disappeared somewhere and Axl ran off pissed." he sighed, as if he was waiting for a fight to start so he could pick who to root for.

“Did you want a fight to happen?” I giggled.

Slash was always joking, even in tough situations, which made me appreciate him a lot. He would often distract me from my problems by telling me jokes, which made me laugh.

“Sorry babe, I’m not good at this shit. I can’t even keep a girlfriend myself.” he sighed.

“It’s okay Slash. I appreciate you coming up here to try and make me feel better though.” I smiled.

“Of course. Your like my little sis. I can’t see you upset.” he said jumping on the bed making me squeal.

“Question though?”

“Hm.” I replied.

“I can tell you obviously love them both but who do you think you see a future with out of the two of them?”

“I don’t know I care about them both.”

“That’s true but when it comes down to it, who would you pick?”

“Axl.”

“Holy shit I knew it.”

Stranger Things | 3.01 ⤷ Billy Hargrove, Hawkins' hottest lifeguard

Conflicted: Pt 6 🎀

A/N: i couldn’t sleep so I wrote this & now i’m sleepy asf so it helped , also i hope u all enjoy !!!<333 also this one is a bit longer than other chapters i’ve written!!!

Maddy P.O.V

I spent the whole night tossing and turning unable to sleep thinking about what happened between Izzy and I at the diner.

I knew I had to tell Duff one way or another but I wasn’t so sure if that was a conversation I was ready to have.

Duff convinced our mom to let me stay here in L.A under his care and I knew indefinitely I would be shipped back home the same day if he found out about Iz and I.

My pillow wasn’t doing any justice to helping me sleep either.

I huffed and got up from my bed opening the door to grab a pillow from the couch where Izzy was sleeping.

“Iz? Are you asleep?” I whispered looking at Izzy’s lifeless body in front of me or so it seemed.

I guess that’s how he slept at night.

Like a corpse.

“No. I’m wide awake Maddy.” he mocked turning on his other side away from the peering light through my cracked room door.

“Do you have a pillow I could borrow. I can’t sleep with the one I have.” I pestered placing both hands on his shoulder that was upright at his current sleeping position.

He turned back around to face me with his squinted expression and grabbed a pillow from behind to extend it out towards me.

“Thanks.” I squealed eagerly grabbing out to it.

“Not so fast.”

“You’re gonna have to take it. If you want it so badly.”

“Izzy come on. I’m sleepy.” I whined lightly stomping my foot.

“Hey I was too! You woke me up so you have to do what I say. It’s the rule.” he remarked.

“Fine.”

I went forward and tried to grab the pillow when he grabbed my waist and pulled me onto him.

“Stop. Duff will wake up.” I squealed scrambling to get out of his strong grip.

“I’ll let you go if you give me a kiss.” he smirked.

“Just one kiss Iz.” I strictly replied.

“Fine by me. As long as I get a kiss.”

I carefully leaned in, angling my lips to his, when he slammed into mine. I was about to pull away when Izzy placed his blanket over both of us, and the warmth was too appealing to leave.

I decided to get comfortable and straddled him while he inserted his hot tongue into my mouth.

He let go of my lips but moved on to my neck, leaving little hickeys against it.

When he discovered my sweet spot, I began whimpering, and he sighed into my neck sucking harder.

I couldn't help but let out a tiny sigh and involuntarily began grinding myself against him, causing him to breathe out and hungrily return to my lips.

He briefly stopped kissing me for a second before continuing and stopping again.

"Maddy, do you know how to tongue kiss or do you just not enjoy my tongue?" he questioned, gazing at me strangely.

How can I tell him that I have absolutely no experience with boys? I don't even know how to kiss correctly.

The only reason I got away with kissing him before was because it never got too serious.

“Uhm I-I’ve never really kissed a boy before.” I mumbled hoping he didn’t really understand what I said.

“I’m also a virgin.” I cringed wondering what his reaction would be.

“That’s pretty obvious now.” he said, looking at me with a puzzled expression.

"What's wrong?" I asked, immediately convinced that he would not want me anymore given his extensive experience.

"If you're a virgin then I can't be with you."

"What do you mean?" I asked, suddenly becoming defensive.

“I don't want you to loose something as special as that to someone like me which will eventually happen if you keep this up with me." he groaned, pushing my body off of him.

"Izzy, why are you acting like I can’t think for myself?”

"You can’t make that decision for me." I spat strongly.

“I’m not good for you, Maddy. You deserve someone like yourself.”

“Not a junkie," he conceded.

“Can’t say I’m surprised.” I retorted immediately regretting coming out here for a pillow in the first place.

“You’re right. I don’t deserve a junkie like you.”

I ran straight into my room leaving the pillow behind and vowing to never talk to Izzy again.

Why did I even think that he was different. Maybe because of his nonchalant demeanor it just never seemed like he was using.

But now I knew I couldn’t even trust Izzy. I never had a great relationship with drugs. Not that I did any but I saw the way they affected Duff.

That was all the reason I needed to hate them.

The next morning I woke up ready to ignore Izzy and see his reaction but to my surprise he was doing the same.

He acted as if I wanted even there.

“Sis. Do you wanna come with Iz and I to the beach?”

I was desperately wanting a day all to myself to go to the beach but I couldn’t be left alone in such a big city.

And the company wasn’t exactly the ideal people I thought of spending a relaxing day with since Duff and Izzy were the most chaotic duo I knew but I sucked it in and agreed to come along.

“Oh and Axl is coming too.” Duff added before disappearing into his room to grab some things.

Perfect.

Axl coming was the best thing to happen ever since my mom let me travel to L.A.

I could use Axl to make Izzy jealous and realize that he wanted to be with me as badly as I wanted him.

My closet was awaiting and so were the cute bikini’s I decided to pick for the beach.

Duff wouldn’t be too pleased but I didn’t care because the whole plan was to make Izzy jealous and I was willing to do anything for that.

“I’m ready.” I told Duff coming out of the room in tiny shorts and my red bikini that I had bought from a sale at the mall here.

“Aren’t you gonna wear a shirt over that Maddy.” Duff groaned rolling his eyes at Izzy’s sudden behavior change.

“No. I think I’m pretty comfy.” I smiled walking past them both and out the door.

When we got in the car Duff had been trudging a huge bag full of soccer balls, volleyballs and other junk he had wanted to do at the beach.

“Duff I’m not sitting in the back with this stuff!” I stomped looking at the backseat which was halfway covered leaving little room for me to sit.

“Okay fine. You’ll have to sit with Maddy then Iz.” he said turning to look at Izzy.

Izzy didn’t say anything but nodded helping Duff push the stuff in the passenger seat before he closed the door and hopped into the backseat where I was sitting.

I hated in the middle since I usually got annoyed from having to deal with people on each side of me but I had no choice because Axl would be joining us soon.

“Are you both comfy?” Duff asked peering at us through the rear view mirror.

“Yeah. Fine.” Izzy muttered spreading his legs out and getting comfy.

Duff started playing some punk music really loud and completely drowned us out.

I felt Izzy’s leg’s touch mine each time the car went over a bump.

I huffed and moved over a little so there could be some room between us but for some strange reason the universe did not want that

And all of a sudden Duff made an abrupt right turn practically throwing me onto Izzy’s lap face first.

Izzy smirked before pulling me up and stroking my hair asking if I was alright.

“Stop.” I spat shoving his hand away from me.

“Come on Maddy. Don’t be like that.” he cooed grabbing onto my thigh tightly.

“Duff’s not even paying attention to us. Can I get a kiss?”

“No! You’re the one who didn’t want me last night because I wasn’t your perfect little fuck buddy.”

“I never said we had to fuck. But we could still mess around.” he said grabbing a piece of loose hair to twirl around in his finger.

I looked towards the front of the car where Duff was driving and noticed when he made the turn that one of the things he had brought was blocking him from seeing the backseat.

“Are you guys good back there. I know I can’t see you guys but I hope you both are comfy.” Duff asked.

“Yeah we’re good.” Izzy replied giving me a grin.

I rolled my eyes and pushed away from him but he was persistent on keeping me close so he grabbed my thigh and pulled me right next to him.

“Why do you keep moving away from me?” he asked pushing my hair out of my face and cupping my cheek.

“Iz you literally told me last night that you didn’t want me because I was a virgin.”

“I only said that because you’re so naive Maddy.”

“I don’t think you’ll be happy if you loose it to me. I think you’ll regret it.” he remarked to me with a sigh.

“I won’t. I promise. I like you a lot Iz. I wouldn’t want to do it with anyone else.” I murmured looking into his eyes with a hopeful gaze.

“Take these off.” he whispered tugging at my tiny shorts.

“Are you crazy. What if Duff sees!” I panicked.

“He won’t Maddy. Just do what I say.” He casually shrugged as if he understood what he was doing.

I slowly peeled off my shorts making sure they pooled around my ankles just incase Duff wanted to look back but Izzy yanked them off my ankles.

He parted my thighs so that one of them was resting in between his thighs and the other was spread wide open.

He dipped his fingers into his mouth to wet them and reached down inside my underwear, running his wet fingers up and down my pussy before coming to my clit and rubbing it quickly and harshly in circles

"Izzy." I gasped involuntarily, bucking my hips against his fingers. I gazed up at him with lust-filled eyes and kissed him messy with my tongue, doing my best to leave a spit trail when I pulled back to look down at where he was touching me.

“You like that?" he muttered, leaning in closer to feel every jerk my body made in response to his finger movements.

“Maddy?” he asked.

“Y-Yes. I love it Izzy.” I moaned

“Maddy!”

“What Izzy. What’s wrong?” I asked looking up at him through my lashes.

“Maddy! Are you okay!” Izzy asked shaking my body to wake me up.

I jerked upwards crashing into Izzy’s forehead.

“Owww.” I hissed.

“Fuck. I was just trying to wake you up. You fell asleep out of nowhere so I got worried.” he groaned rubbing his forehead where I had hit.

“Sorry.” I apologized reaching out to help him but he rejected my hand and scooting back to where he was sitting.

Duff was still listening to his punk music with the radio blasting but there was nothing blocking his view of us?

Did I just hallucinate Izzy finger fucking me in the backseat just now?

I looked at him a little too hard earning a weird look from him which caused me to look away.

He was still ignoring me like he was when I came out to the kitchen in the morning.

I let out a frustrated sigh and scooted away from him and towards the window.

It wasn’t fair how he was treating me even though I was literally giving myself to him.

And it wasn’t even in a sexual way for me. It was more the fact that I finally found a man I felt safe with that I could trust with my body.

I guess he wanted something different.

Conflicted : Pt 12🎀

Maddy P.O.V

Izzy and I slipped back into the theatre without Duff looking at us twice.

Axl noticed though. He nudged me a bit and looked at me with a questioned look over his face.

“What?” I asked, not able to hide the wide grin that was apparent on my face.

“You guys fucked for sure.” he laughed causing Slash and Duff to look our way.

“Shut up Axl.” I huffed hitting his shoulder and turning the head away from the two boys.

“Axl your ruining the movie with your laughing.” Slash groaned pushing Axl.

Axl bumped into me causing me to fall on Izzy’s lap.

“Axl!” I yelled getting up from Izzy’s lap and standing in front of him.

“It wasn’t me. It was Slash I swear!” he shrugged putting his hands out to point at Slash who was cluelessly looking around.

“Come on. I’m sorry okay?” he apologized grabbing my hand to give it a kiss.

“Fuck off.” Izzy spat pulling Axl’s hand apart from mine and pulling me into his lap.

“Okay let’s just leave. Since no one wants to watch the movie.” Duff shouted rolling his eyes as he left down the stairs.

We all followed shortly after, deciding that we were all hungry and wanted to go eat at the diner.

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Axl had lodged himself right next to me, with Izzy on the other side, growing more irritated by the second of Axl’s growing affection for me.

“Maddy what are you getting?” Izzy asked looking up from the menu.

“Pancakes.” I grinned, looking over at the booth in front of us with a freshly stacked plate of buttermilk pancakes.

I hadn’t eaten this whole day so I was carving up a huge appetite.

“I want pancakes too.” Axl smirked looking at me.

Izzy rolled his eyes at Axl’s innuendo, putting his arm around me to pull me closer towards him.

“What’s the matter Izzy. Scared you’ll loose your girl to me.” Axl joked seeing how Izzy was trying to get me away from him.

“What’s your deal Ax. Why are you up on my girl all of a sudden.” he retorted looking at him stern faced.

“Because I can.” Axl replied pulling me to him.

“I can because I’m Axl Rose and I can do whatever I want, like this.” he said before grabbing my face and planting an open mouthed kiss.

“What the fuck!” Izzy shouted getting up from his seat to push Axl away roughly.

“Get up.”

“Izzy chill I was just messing with you.” Axl shrugged.

Before Axl could think of another snarky remark, Izzy punched him really hard causing his head to snap back.

“Izzy!” I squealed, staring at Axl’s bloody face in shock.

“Maddy why are you defending him.” Izzy spat looking at me with disgust.

“I’m not defending him but you shouldn’t have done that baby.” I said trying to grab his hand, but he pulled it away and excused himself to get up from the booth.

“Fuck him.” I heard Axl mutter as he scrambled to get himself up and grab a bunch of napkins.

“Here.” I said wetting the napkin with some water to get rid of the blood that was now stained and crusting a bit on the side of his face.

“M sorry about Izzy. I don’t know what came over him but you shouldn’t have kissed me Axl.”

“I’m sorry too. I’m just jealous that Izzy has someone like you.”

“What do you mean?” I asked looking up at him.

“You’re so kind, and caring and you’re not like those girls who sleep around. That’s pretty rare if you ask me.” he sighed.

“Thanks Axl. And I’m sure you’ll find someone great very soon. Your not a bad person like everyone thinks your are.”

“Thanks Maddy. That means a lot actually.” he said looking into my eyes.

I didn’t realize that we were both staring into each others eyes when Duff coughed all of a sudden, making us both jump.

“Maddy, Izzy left back home.” Duff said making me get up from the booth.

“Where are you going?” my brother asked grabbing my hand to stop me.

“Back home to Izzy.” I said before I left the diner and called a taxi, leaving the rest behind.

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“Izzy!” I shouted as soon as I entered the apartment, looking around for any signs of him.

I checked Duff’s room which was empty and the living room which was also empty of Iz.

“In here.” a voice spoke from inside of my room.

I opened the door to my room and saw Izzy sitting on my bed with the tv on.

He was watching Tommy.

It was one of his favorite movies from his childhood so I had bought it for him during my stay here in L.A. so we could watch it together on nights when we would both stay up late.

I climbed up on the bed and sat next to him, putting an arm around his waist to which he removed.

“Iz. What’s wrong?” I asked cupping his cheeks to face me.

He removed the grasp of his cheeks from my hands and scooted away a bit from me.

“Are you and Ax secretly in love with each other or something?” he spit quietly but harshly.

“Are you mad because I helped him! He was bleeding for god’s sake and I was worried.” I shouted sitting up on my knees to face him.

“I left Maddy and you didn’t even care. You were too busy kissing Axl and making him feel better.” he hissed staring blankly at the television screen.

“I love you.” I told him attempting to grab his face so I could kiss him but he kept moving away from me like I wasn’t his girlfriend and some annoying hooker that wouldn’t leave him alone.

“Izzy please. I love you.” I whined, tears dropping onto my cheeks from frustration.

“No you don’t. Or else you wouldn’t have let Axl kiss you like that in front of everyone.” he scoffed getting up from the bed and throwing the tv remote hard, against the wall.

I jumped a little from his sudden outburst and crawled further into my blanket, covering myself with it to drown out the noises of my sobbing.

I didn’t think that I liked Axl. I really didn’t but after he was treating me so nicely I couldn’t help but feel a little attraction towards him.

There was also the fact that I shared something so special with him like loosing my virginity.

But I loved Izzy there was no changing that. I just didn’t know how to let Axl down easy.

Conflicted: Pt.3 🎀

Maddy P.O.V

When I woke up I found some leftover cereal in a bowl and a few bottles of beer scattered around the place.

I went around the kitchen island and found a note attached to the fridge.

“Went to rehearsal with Iz. Be back soon sis.” Duff wrote.

I rolled my eyes and crumbled up the paper throwing it in the trash.

“What am I supposed to do all by myself!” I groaned looking around the quiet and empty apartment space.

I planned on waking up early and spending some time with Duff but I knew how important the band was to him and I wasn’t going to be a pain in the ass about it.

I just missed my brother which is why I wanted to be around Duff.

“DUFF OPEN UP. I’VE BEEN TRYING TO CALL YOU ALL MORNING.” yelled a deep voice from outside.

I opened the door and was met with a fiery redhead who upon seeing my face softened his features and raised an eyebrow towards me.

Axl.

“Is Duff around?” he asked leaning an arm against the door frame and peeking around the apartment.

“I thought he was with you rehearsing? Izzy went with him too.” I told him.

“Those fuckers. I knew it.” he barked kicking his foot against the wall.

I jumped up a little at his sudden outburst and backed away from the door.

“Shit. Sorry Maddy I didn’t mean to scare you.”

“It’s just, we’ve been trying to work on a new song but instead of including me they go by themselves because apparently I have anger issues and spaz out when things don’t go my way.” he huffed

Anger issues? That’s for sure…

“That sucks.” I muttered staring down at my feet kicking the air softly.

“You probably don’t get it. I don’t know why I even told you.” he laughed giving me a look.

“Okay well Duff isn’t here so you can leave.” I huffed angrily.

“Could I still come in?” he asked giving me puppy eyes.

“Fine.” I said letting him through to Duff’s apartment.

“So what’s a girl like you doing in L.A?” he asked looking me up and down.

It felt like everyone in L.A dressed glam and metal except for me.

Duff and I were from a small town in Seattle and I didn’t really catch the whole punk vibe being from there but instead I had my own style.

I was a girly girl but not in a shove it in your face type of way.

I believe everyone has their own unique style and people shouldn’t be shamed for having a different style than others.

“I’m here to see Duff and spend some time with him.” I told him handing him a glass of water which he generously gulped down.

“Hm. Well since Duff isn’t here maybe I could show you around?” he asked with a smirk.

“I’m not sure if Duff will like that.”

“Oh come on. I’m not a bad guy. I won’t try to hit on you or anything but I can’t keep a promise.” he joked winking at me.

Duff P.O.V

Izzy and I had left to practice some lyrics and come up with a catchy riff for our next song without anyone else or Axl.

I didn’t really have anything against anyone but it was more peaceful when Izzy and I were the only ones recording in the studio.

The rest just brought chaos with them especially Axl.

Every-time a certain part of the song wouldn’t go his way or he wasn’t feeling in good shape to sing he would just throw a tantrum and end up leaving an unfinished song for us to finish.

Which is why I convinced Izzy to wake up early and help me finish this song for our next album.

“Can we go home now. I’m hungry.” Izzy whined pulling out a new pack of cigarettes and lighting one up.

“Yeah man. Let’s get out of here. I hope Maddy made something to eat.” I said hearing my stomach grumble as we both exited the recording studio and headed towards my car.

“Oh shit. I forgot my hat. Wait here.” Izzy said rushing back in the studio.

I groaned and started to make my way towards my car when I heard a deep laugh and a giggle accompanying it.

“Axl. We should get back now.” the familiar voice echoed.

“Got it!” Izzy yelled coming out of the studio fairly quickly with his hat in the air.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw two heads whip in our direction and that’s when I saw Axl and my little sister practically holding hands with how close they were.

“Axl Rose you motherfucker.” I yelled.

Maddy P.O.V

Axl and I were walking down the same street that they would go to record music often.

“Axl are you sure we won’t run into them here? We should get home now anyways.” I told him worried that Duff would show up any minute now.

“Nah. Don’t worry. I doubt they’ll see us.” Axl said shrugging me off and walking ahead.

“Are you sure?” I asked again catching up to him.

He leaned in close so that our hands were practically touching about to tell me something when I heard….Izzy?

“I got it!” Izzy yelled.

And when I turned around I saw my brother standing by his car shooting Axl the meanest look I’ve ever seen on his face.

Fuck.

“What the fuck do you think you’re doing so close to my little sis.” he yelled shoving Axl causing him to tumble over a trash can.

“Stop it Duff. He was just showing me around the city since you decided to ditch me with Izzy.” I yelled at him while helping Axl up.

I could see Izzy giving me looks from behind Duff not saying a word.

“Relax Mckagan. All I was doing was showing her a bit of L.A.” Axl groaned rolling his eyes at my brother.

“Yeah right. And then afterwards you were gonna take her to your bed. Isn’t that right Axl?” Duff retorted grabbing me by the arm and moving me away from Axl while accidentally shoving me right in front of Izzy.

“Duff I think you’re overreacting. Besides I’m with Erin and she’s the only girl for me.” he told my brother as they got into another argument completely ignoring Izzy and I.

“S-sorry.” I mumbled staring at my Mary Jane’s which were accompanied by frilly white socks in contrast to the dark black rocker boots Izzy wore.

“It’s fine.” he murmured putting his cigarette to his mouth and blowing out away from me.

Axl was a handsome guy. But for some reason I never felt shy or awkward when I was around him or any of the others except for Izzy.

He had that effect on me where I went dumb and didn’t know how to speak properly.

“Cute outfit.” he said with his iconic smirk tracing his eyes over my pink mini skirt and white top.

“Thanks.” I blushed looking away from him and towards the other duo that were busy talking each other’s ears off.

“So how was your date with Axl?” he asked nudging me lightly on the shoulder.

“It wasnt a date. He was just showing me around!” I protested turning back around to give him a stern look.

“Axl doesn’t just take girls to see L.A.”

“That must mean you have something or look like something he wants.” he joked looking at me with an eyebrow raised.

He took another long drag from his cigarette before dropping it on the floor and stepping on it, coming close to my ear.

“If I were you I’d be more careful near Axl.”

“Especially when you wear tiny clothes like these.” he whispered bringing his hand out to play with the mini skirt I was wearing.

“Izzy.” I breathed out but before I could get another word out my brother stopped me.

“Come on Maddy. We’re going back to the apartment.” he said leading the way for all 3 of us to follow.