HENRY CAVILL As MIKE Hellraiser: Hellworld (2005) | Dir. Rick Bota

Conflicted Chapter 20🎀:

Maddy P.O.V :

I stormed out of the bathroom, heading directly for Axl.

He told everyone in the band, which was different than telling his girlfriend something so personal about me.

And Izzy’s ex…that was where I drew the line.

“Axl!" I yelled, watching him pause in the middle of a conversation with their manager and turn his attention to me, lifting an eyebrow at my grumpy attitude.

“You told your girlfriend that you’re in love with me?!?”

"What are you saying Maddy? And keep it down," he clinched his teeth as he led me into a secluded area away from the crowd.

“Angela told me that Erin knows that you're in love with me," supposedly." I scoffed, angered by his casual demeanor, knowing he was the one propagating our private secrets out to the general public.

"I never told Erin anything, Maddy. I swear. I'm not sure why she would say that," he murmured to himself, standing there with his hands on his hips, wondering what he had done to make Erin feel that way.

I stormed away, unaware that Erin was watching us, perplexed, given the fact that they claimed the two were good friends, but based on their recent chat, it seemed as though the two were a couple fighting only adding to her theory.

Which was that her boyfriend was in love with the bassist’s sister.

“Maddy where have you been." Duff asked, already on his fourth drink of the night, banging down on the bar counter for more.

“I've been gone. Not that you would care." I spat, irritated by his intoxicated conduct and the fact that he couldn't even hold a conversation with me, let alone Steven and Slash, and then there was Izzy, wait, there wasn't.

Where was Izzy?

"Hey have any of you seen Izzy?" I inquired with the three boys, who were completely wasted.

"I-z-zzz-y?..why are you t-two goin-g to fuck-k again?" Slash mumbled, smirking wildly at his choice of words,Duff barely noticed until he realized what he had said about his sister and Izzy.

“Shut the fuck up Slash!” the bassist shouted, immediately sobering up.

"Sweetie. Izzy is just over there." Steven pointed to a small area of the pub at a booth where Izzy was sitting with none other than Angela?

The way she giggled and slapped his chest made it seem like the two were having a funny conversation , and he smiled the entire time, not realizing how clear it was that she was flirting with him.

Angela instantly noticed me staring, which prompted Izzy to shift his head, but Angela caught it and kissed him forcefully, prompting him to back off and jump out of the seat.

"Maddy," he murmured to himself, noticing me observing the two and assuming the worst of what I saw.

He instantly raced over to me and explained what had happened, and I nodded, knowing he had done nothing wrong because I was actually standing there seeing Angela be a slut.

"Why does she like you so much? Why doesn't she go see Axl or Slash?" I wondered why she was constantly drawn to Izzy.

"She's been in love with me for a long time and I didn't feel the same way, so we became fuck buddies, but I got bored of her quickly, so I called it out, and she became heartbroken," he explained casually, as if it wasn't his first time leaving a female unhappy as a musician

"Oh." I responded instantly, feeling awful for the girl because I could easily be in the same situation.

It's possible that I'm already there without realizing it.

“I know what your thinking and no just drop it." He sighed, having dealt with enough, and approached his three wasted pals to participate in the fun.

I saw Axl emerge from the scene, an empty arm that no longer served Erin Everly, and he excitedly walked to his bandmates with a sneer on his face.

I had no choice but to join the guys because I had no other friends at all in the big city and I only knew them.

“The brat has joined us.” Axl scoffed, nonchalantly sipping a cool beer in direct contradiction to his drunken bandmates, notably Izzy.

He fell over the counter, almost dropping to the floor, when I caught him and moved him to rest his head on the counter.

“You'll be taking care of him like that for the rest of your life if you keep this relationship going," he whispered, taking little sips from his drink.

“What makes you say that?”

“He’s an addict and he’ll ruin your life too with his drugs.”

"Izzy's not an addict and I can take care of him perfectly fine." I naively defended, smoothing Izzy's hair away from his sweaty face.

“Yeah right.” he scoffed slipping off his stool to found someone to dance with.

"Izzy. Wake up, let's go home." I said to him, feeling his cheeks warm up to my touch and slumped over body.

"N-no just go without m-me." He murmured, fumbling over words and pushed me away with a rough hand.

“Baby, you don’t look so good. I think it’s better if I take you home.”

“Stop touching me!" he yelled, pushing me, causing me to trip on the liquid drink previously spilled on the floor and fall on the hard ground of the bar.

I shrieked, a crushing discomfort running through me and tears forming in my eyes, unable to hide the pain, looking up at Izzy to extend a hand, but he was so high on his drug of choice for the night that he didn't care.

"Maddy! "Are you ok?" I heard Axl call out to me, rushing up to pick me up.

“What happened!" Duff shouted and hurried over to me after seeing Axl kneeling down on the floor.

"I'm fine." I said, tears streaming down my cheeks, as I returned my gaze to Izzy, who was firmly placed on the counter, unconcerned about how he had treated me.

"That bastard. I'll fucking kill you for hurting my baby sister," he roared, grabbing Izzy's shirt and dragging him up to confront his towering frame.

“If you kill me, you'll hurt your sister even more," he replied, grinning at me.

“Fuck you motherfucker.” the bassist growled punching his band mate and knocking him down on his drunken state.

“Duff!” I squealed as I crouched down next to Izzy and his newly slit brow, which was streaming with blood.

"Leave him alone, Maddy. Let's go. Axl said this as he dragged me away from Izzy and picked me up in his arms.

"You just want to fuck her." Izzy mumbled under his breath, amused at Axl's concern for the girl he allegedly dislikes.

The Indiana native may not have heard because he did not intervene, but if he had realized his long-time friend was making such a statement about the sweet girl, he would have knocked him out for good.

“That is it! I've seen enough today. You are not to see Izzy again, and I forbid you from going out with him or any other fucking musician from now on!" Duff yelled, and I could only nod, unable to find the correct words to explain what Izzy had just done.

We all got into Duff's car, Axl and I in the back, as Duff drove us to Axl's apartment.

I felt Axl interlace his fingers with mine, holding my hand in his while I slipped into sleep on his shoulder.

What I didn’t realize was that when I would wake up the next morning, Duff would have my things packed and a flight back to Seattle set out for me.

18+ mdni

that reality check hitting after reading smut

crushing on my mans pt.2 😇😇

guys i found an interview of axl saying girl’s boyfriends would come up to him saying their gf went up to the hotel room w izzy & asking when is she coming bck & axl would say idk but not right now

like hello?? we been knew he was a man whore🤣🤣🤣🤣(i still want him)

Eddie Malluk 📸

Conflicted : Pt. 7🎀

Maddy P.O.V

Axl joined us a while later. It was peaceful but then Axl mentioned something about rehearsal and Izzy started arguing with him about it.

And instead of helping, Duff turned up the radio even more to drown them out leaving me stuck in the middle.

"Guys stop please!" I pleaded pushing them away from both sides.

“Sorry, Maddy. But my friend Izzy here has an issue with my singing, and I need to figure out why." Axl argued.

“That's because everytime something doesn't go your way you disappear and our fucking song goes unfinished!" Izzy yelled.

“Izzy stop.” I begged, pleading with eyes.

“Whatever.” he scoffed turning the other way to face his window.

Axl gave me a strange look, glancing at both of us before shrugging it off.

“Axl how are you and Erin?" I asked, not sure how else to start a conversation.

"She’s fine. Why do you care?"

“I was just asking." I said, rolling my eyes.

“So did you enjoy my L.A tour, or would you like another private one?" he grinned, scooting closer towards me.

I noticed Izzy shift in his seat when he heard Axl, so I played into it.

I laughed and twirled my hair with my finger before responding.

“Yes I would like that."

“Are you gonna wear that sexy outfit of yours that you wore last time?” he smirked.

“Okay that’s enough Axl. Leave the poor girl alone.” Izzy spoke.

“What’s wrong with you? You’re just jealous because you want her.” he retorted making Izzy scrunch his brows.

“I don’t!”

“Save it Izzy. I can tell the way you look at her you have the hots for your best friend’s little sissy.” Axl mocked.

“What are you gonna do about it?” Izzy asked putting an arm around me.

“Fuck off. She doesn’t want you.” Axl barked pulling me into his arms.

“She doesn’t want you either!” Izzy spat yanking me back towards him.

“STOP.” I yelled causing Duff to slam the brakes.

“What’s going on!” Duff yelled turning around to face Izzy, Axl and I.

“Nothing.” we all said in unison.

“Okay well not that any of you were paying attention but we’re here.”

We all climbed out of the car wanting nothing more than some fresh air.

Axl and Duff went running towards the beach but Izzy pulled me back behind a shed and shoved his lips on mine hungrily.

“Stay away from Axl.” he whispered pulling off my lips.

“You’re not my boyfriend.” I huffed crossing my arms.

“It doesn’t matter. Your mine.”

Duff P.O.V

I wasn’t a dumbass as everyone around me thought.

I saw the way Izzy looked at Maddy and I intended on letting him know to back off.

If there was one thing I was keen on, it was keeping family away from any of the guys.

Including Izzy.

He wasn’t exactly boyfriend material. And I saw the way he treated women like they didn’t mean anything to him.

I’m not saying I’m any better but I know I’m better than Izzy regarding women.

He didn’t even flinch when Angela was being shared between the guys.

It was a normal occurrence to him and I wasn’t gonna let him turn Maddy into a slut.

“Hey man you coming or what?” Izzy asked coming up behind me.

“Yeah. Hey Iz can I ask you a question?”

“Sure what’s up.”

“Are you seeing Maddy behind me back?” I asked scanning his face for any reaction.

“Maddy? Come on Duff she’s like a little kid.” he joked.

I saw Maddy listening to us out of the corner of my eye and once Izzy turned around she stomped off looking pretty upset.

What was that about?…

“Okay. I’m just making sure bro.” I told him giving a pat on the shoulder before joining Axl in the water.

Maddy P.O.V

I trudged around the water looking out to the waves when I saw Duff talking to Izzy with his arms crossed and brows furrowed.

“Are you seeing Maddy behind my back?” Duff asked giving Izzy a stern look.

But instead of admitting to it, Izzy gave a big laugh and shrugged it off calling me a little kid.

What the hell does that mean?

I stomped off annoyed by the attitude I was receiving from his and went to sit on the bench which was located on the other side of the beach.

This day sucked and I just wanted to go home and forget about all of this mess.

Clearly Izzy didn’t care enough to tell Duff about our relationship and I didn’t want to lie to my brother about it either.

So I decided I was going to call it quits with Iz.

I felt like that was the right thing to do.

“Maddy.”

“What do you want Izzy.” I sighed in defeat.

I quickly wiped the leftover tears off my face and scooted over allowing him to have a seat.

“I know you heard the conversation with Duff.”

“It’s fine. You did what you had to for your friendship.”

“I know but it was fucked that you had to hear that and so I’m sorry.”

“What exactly do you want me to say though?” I spat back.

“I just heard the guy I’m in love with talking in such a demeaning way about me.”

“You love me?” he softly asked pushing my hair out of the way so he could see my face.

“I don’t know what to say.”

“Just tell me you love me. Even if you don’t mean it please.” I begged letting a tear fall down my cheek.

“Fuck Maddy.” he shouted.

“You don’t even know what love is. You don’t know what you’re talking about.” he urged.

“This is humiliating. I have to leave.” I bawled getting as far away from him as far as I could.

“Wait.” he yelled but I kept running until I bumped into Axl.

“What’s wrong?” he asked pulling me into a hug.

“I-Izzy. Doesn’t love m-me.” I sobbed crying into his bare chest with my salty tears.

“He’s no good for you. I’ve known him ever since we were little. He’s never gonna change.”

“Maddy. What happened!” Duff called out grabbing my face between his hands.

“Nothing. C-can we go home?”

“Of course. Let’s go right now.”

Conflicted : Ch 17🎀

Maddy P.O.V

I woke up the next morning with Izzy draped over me, snoring loudly right by my ear, causing me to push him over.

Last night he had come to apologize but I felt as if he was forced to do it just because Axl told him so.

Nonetheless I accepted it because, an apology is an apology.

He looked so adorable sleeping that it almost made me forget that I was still pissed at him for letting a groupie suck him off.

I huffed and got out of bed not caring about the fact that Izzy could wake up and hopped in the shower to get ready for the day.

Hopefully he woke up by the time I was out so I could see the look on his face when I ignored him.

It was slightly amusing seeing the way he tried hard to get my attention but then again it was for a good cause and that was, to teach him a lesson.

Although I wasn’t so sure if I could avoid him after last nights cuddling.

I woke up in the middle of the night, feeling something hard poking my butt.

I guess he couldn’t control himself even in his sleep.

… … …

Duff was awake when I came into the kitchen for some breakfast, watching MTV which was currently featuring their new song, “Welcome to the Jungle”.

“Look it’s us!”

“Someone tell mom.” Duff exclaimed clapping with joy as he watched him and his band mates on national television.

“Um I don’t think so.” I scoffed, imaging how horribly wrong that would go if my mother ever got around to watching one of their music videos.

Which was filled with endless amounts of bad language, drugs and sexual innuendos.

“So I’m assuming Iz spent the night with you.” my brother asked seeing the black boots left by the front door.

“Yeah. He apologized.”

“And what did you say?”

“I accepted it but I told him we aren’t getting back together.” I sighed slamming the milk carton on the counter.

“He’s a great guy. Cut him some slack Mads.”

“What slack? Duff, he cheated on me with some trashy groupie!” I whined putting my hands over my eyes to prevent myself from crying.

If I had cried any more, my eyes would probably swell up and explode.

“Ahem.” Izzy coughed from my bedroom door.

I rolled my eyes upon seeing him, feeling angry as I made my way to the couch to sit next to Duff.

“Morning Iz. Want some cereal?” Duff mumbled through a mouth full of Fruit Island cereal.

“Nah I’m good. I’ll have some coffee though.” he muttered pulling out a cigarette.

“Maddy go make him a cup of coffee.” my brother insisted, too busy entranced by the models on the screen that were interviewing some rock band by the name of Motley Crue.

“Urgh. Fine.” I spat making my way to the kitchen and taking out some coffee I had just made.

“Y’know this is what it would be like if we were married.” Izzy smirked sitting down at the counter to watch me make his coffee.

“What? Being your slave…no thanks.” I scoffed turning around to grab some sugar.

“Quit it with the attitude. I said I was sorry already.”

“Don’t tell me what to do.” I huffed, roughly sliding the coffee to him, causing it to splash.

He looked at me enraged, wanting to tell me off but keeping his mouth shut because of Duff.

“Fucking brat.” he muttered grabbing the cup and leaving to sit by Duff.

He could be so mean sometimes.

But then he could be sweet, caring and charming which was the Izzy I fell in love with.

Not the Izzy that cheated on me and had bipolar mood swings.

I went back to the table they were sitting at to grab my cereal so I could retreat to my room but Izzy yanked me by the arm, pulling me into his lap.

“Ew. I’m out of here.” Duff revolted grabbing his magazine and leaving to his room.

“Why are you being so mean to me?” he asked twirling a piece of my hair in his finger.

“You’re the one being mean.” I exhaled playing with my hands in my lap.

He turned me around to face him and cupped both of my cheeks in his hands.

“I’m sorry for being such an asshole.” he said, kissing me in between every word.

“Just promise me that you won’t cheat on me again please?” I asked, blindly ignoring the cut he had left on my heart and accepting it for what it was.

“I won’t baby.” he promised.

“I missed kissing you.” he whispered, stroking my arm lightly.

“I-…I wanted to ask you something.”

He looked kind of offended that I dodged his kiss but nodded for me to continue on with my question.

“Do you think Axl loves me?” I shakily asked, not knowing if he was going to get mad at me or not.

The truth was, I was curious why Axl was being so caring and nice towards me recently.

And when Izzy told me last night that he almost beat him up over me, I definitely raised a few eyebrows over that.

“Why?” he sternly asked, his jaw tightening with anger.

“Because he almost killed you over what you did to me last night…remember?”

He scoffed pushing me back a bit on his lap but not all the way.

“Even if Axl loved you it wouldn’t be enough.”

“He has too much baggage from his past to maintain any relationship and will cheat on you as many times as he will tell you he loves you.” Izzy snorted laughing sarcastically about his dig towards Axl.

“I might leave sooner than expected to Seattle.” I interrupted.

“What why?”

“I haven’t really had the best time here. And I’m feeling homesick.” I replied, partly telling the truth and lying about the rest.

The whole truth was, that he ruined my desire to stay here any longer and I wanted to get away from Izzy, Axl and L.A. for awhile.

“You can’t just leave. What about us!” he snapped, his brows furrowed.

“I have school and other stuff…”

“So what….y-your just gonna leave me after I fuck up once and that’s it. No second chance?” he urged looking at me with his big hazel-green eyes that I loved.

I couldn’t come up with one correct answer so I kissed him, not knowing how else to cope with the fact that I might never see him again and put both of my arms around his neck.

“Fuck me Izzy.”

“What? Maddy-

“Make me forget about that girl please. Fuck me.” I begged, hoping it would help resolve some of the anger I was still habouring about him cheating.

And somehow convince myself that after this everything was going to be okay.

It didn’t take much to get me wet for Izzy, all he had to do was talk dirty to me and I was a mess down there.

“Take off your panties, quick.” he urged, pulling his cock out which was already leaking.

I took off my panties and let my nightgown fall back down to cover the fact that I wasn’t wearing anything down there and lowered myself onto his hardened cock, slowly.

“Ohh-“ I squealed feeling it stretch me out in a way I never had been before.

“Ride me.” he demanded letting his arms fall to my thighs, pressing small circles onto the warm skin.

“I don’t know how Iz…” I mumbled, embarrassed that we had to stop because of this.

“This Maddy.” he emphasized, grabbing my waist, which perfectly fit into his hands and grinding me down onto his cock before letting my pussy off his cock and slamming it back down with a squelch.

“O-Ow!”

“Just keep doing it until it feels good.”

I moved up and down slowly at first before releasing his cock all the way and then shoving myself back down the way he taught me, feeling my little nub touch the stray hairs at the base of his cock.

“T-That feels g-good.” I moaned,letting my eyes roll back as he took over, pounding up into me relentlessly.

“Yeah?” he coaxed, pushing my hair out of my face to stroke my cheek as he gripped onto my waist with the other hand.

I reached back down to grab the end of my nightdress pulling it up above my breasts, letting them bounce freely to put on a show for him.

He looked up at me while he took one in his hand and massaged them roughly, spitting on them and rubbing it in on my nipples.

“I want a kiss.” I whined grabbing his hand and interlacing our fingers.

“C’mere.” he cooed grabbing the back of my neck to push me onto his awaiting lips.

We were making out sloppily not worrying about hiding our moans, making me about to orgasm quicker with how roughly he was kissing me.

It turned me on whenever he grabbed me by my neck and took control but my euphoria didn’t last very long because right when I felt like I was about to cum I heard someone yell really loud.

Almost like a girl.

“OHH MY GODD.”

“BLEACH. SOMEONE GIVE ME A GALLON OF BLEACH NOW.” Duff screamed covering his eyes as he made a disgusted face at his sister who was practically naked, straddling her boyfriend/his best friend who was also half naked.

Izzy laughed upon seeing Duff’s expression remaining calm and in no hurry to cover up but I immediately jumped off him rushing to grab my panties and ran to my room.

“I’m going to tell mom! I cannot believe I had to see this.” Duff whined stomping his foot like a big baby as he grabbed a pillow and threw it out Izzy who didn’t seem to give any shit about being caught.

“And you!” he said pointing a finger at Izzy.

“You owe me for having to witness this shit. I want to barf right now.” he groaned kicking the couch with his feet to which Izzy thought was hilarious.

“I’m going for a run now. I need it.” Duff yelled slamming the door shut.

Izzy came into my room shortly after and pulled me up to straddle his waist.

“No Izzy I’m not in the mood anymore.” I whispered, avoiding his face.

“Okay fair enough. But were you serious about going back so soon?” he asked burying his face in the nook of my neck.

“Yes. I need to get away from you and from this place.” I sighed tugging at his arms to let me down.

He let me down onto the bed and ran a hand through his hair, staring at me baffled.

“So you’re just gonna leave us behind? I made one mistake for fucks sake!” he grunted pulling out his favorite anxiety medication, a pack of cigarettes.

“That doesn’t matter, why did you let that groupie give you a blow!” I shouted scrunching my face in anger.

“She doesn’t mean anything to me. It was just a blowjob and not even a good one.” he scoffed, blowing out the smoke.

“How would you feel if I got on my knees for Axl!” I retorted hoping he understood how I was feeling right now.

“I’d fucking kill him.”

“Exactly.”

“No. This is different because I barely knew the girl. Holy shit.” he huffed getting frustrated with my constant bickering.

“Get out.”

“Fine. Fuck this. I don’t need you when I have multiple girls who line up for us after every show.” he shouted on his way out.

I heard the door slam and buried myself into my bed, letting out a deep exhale as I looked out the window, wondering if I should leave sooner than later.

Just when I was about to grab my suitcase I got a call and got up to answer it.

“Duff’s not home-

“Maddy. I wanted to talk to you actually.” a deep voice spoke from the other side of the phone.

“Axl?”

“Yeah. Listen I know Izzy loves you and you love him but I have to tell you this to get it off my chest.”

“What is it?…”

“I think I’m in love with you and I was wondering if you would be willing to give us a chance?”

This had to be a dream….

Conflicted : Pt 12🎀

Maddy P.O.V

Izzy and I slipped back into the theatre without Duff looking at us twice.

Axl noticed though. He nudged me a bit and looked at me with a questioned look over his face.

“What?” I asked, not able to hide the wide grin that was apparent on my face.

“You guys fucked for sure.” he laughed causing Slash and Duff to look our way.

“Shut up Axl.” I huffed hitting his shoulder and turning the head away from the two boys.

“Axl your ruining the movie with your laughing.” Slash groaned pushing Axl.

Axl bumped into me causing me to fall on Izzy’s lap.

“Axl!” I yelled getting up from Izzy’s lap and standing in front of him.

“It wasn’t me. It was Slash I swear!” he shrugged putting his hands out to point at Slash who was cluelessly looking around.

“Come on. I’m sorry okay?” he apologized grabbing my hand to give it a kiss.

“Fuck off.” Izzy spat pulling Axl’s hand apart from mine and pulling me into his lap.

“Okay let’s just leave. Since no one wants to watch the movie.” Duff shouted rolling his eyes as he left down the stairs.

We all followed shortly after, deciding that we were all hungry and wanted to go eat at the diner.

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Axl had lodged himself right next to me, with Izzy on the other side, growing more irritated by the second of Axl’s growing affection for me.

“Maddy what are you getting?” Izzy asked looking up from the menu.

“Pancakes.” I grinned, looking over at the booth in front of us with a freshly stacked plate of buttermilk pancakes.

I hadn’t eaten this whole day so I was carving up a huge appetite.

“I want pancakes too.” Axl smirked looking at me.

Izzy rolled his eyes at Axl’s innuendo, putting his arm around me to pull me closer towards him.

“What’s the matter Izzy. Scared you’ll loose your girl to me.” Axl joked seeing how Izzy was trying to get me away from him.

“What’s your deal Ax. Why are you up on my girl all of a sudden.” he retorted looking at him stern faced.

“Because I can.” Axl replied pulling me to him.

“I can because I’m Axl Rose and I can do whatever I want, like this.” he said before grabbing my face and planting an open mouthed kiss.

“What the fuck!” Izzy shouted getting up from his seat to push Axl away roughly.

“Get up.”

“Izzy chill I was just messing with you.” Axl shrugged.

Before Axl could think of another snarky remark, Izzy punched him really hard causing his head to snap back.

“Izzy!” I squealed, staring at Axl’s bloody face in shock.

“Maddy why are you defending him.” Izzy spat looking at me with disgust.

“I’m not defending him but you shouldn’t have done that baby.” I said trying to grab his hand, but he pulled it away and excused himself to get up from the booth.

“Fuck him.” I heard Axl mutter as he scrambled to get himself up and grab a bunch of napkins.

“Here.” I said wetting the napkin with some water to get rid of the blood that was now stained and crusting a bit on the side of his face.

“M sorry about Izzy. I don’t know what came over him but you shouldn’t have kissed me Axl.”

“I’m sorry too. I’m just jealous that Izzy has someone like you.”

“What do you mean?” I asked looking up at him.

“You’re so kind, and caring and you’re not like those girls who sleep around. That’s pretty rare if you ask me.” he sighed.

“Thanks Axl. And I’m sure you’ll find someone great very soon. Your not a bad person like everyone thinks your are.”

“Thanks Maddy. That means a lot actually.” he said looking into my eyes.

I didn’t realize that we were both staring into each others eyes when Duff coughed all of a sudden, making us both jump.

“Maddy, Izzy left back home.” Duff said making me get up from the booth.

“Where are you going?” my brother asked grabbing my hand to stop me.

“Back home to Izzy.” I said before I left the diner and called a taxi, leaving the rest behind.

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“Izzy!” I shouted as soon as I entered the apartment, looking around for any signs of him.

I checked Duff’s room which was empty and the living room which was also empty of Iz.

“In here.” a voice spoke from inside of my room.

I opened the door to my room and saw Izzy sitting on my bed with the tv on.

He was watching Tommy.

It was one of his favorite movies from his childhood so I had bought it for him during my stay here in L.A. so we could watch it together on nights when we would both stay up late.

I climbed up on the bed and sat next to him, putting an arm around his waist to which he removed.

“Iz. What’s wrong?” I asked cupping his cheeks to face me.

He removed the grasp of his cheeks from my hands and scooted away a bit from me.

“Are you and Ax secretly in love with each other or something?” he spit quietly but harshly.

“Are you mad because I helped him! He was bleeding for god’s sake and I was worried.” I shouted sitting up on my knees to face him.

“I left Maddy and you didn’t even care. You were too busy kissing Axl and making him feel better.” he hissed staring blankly at the television screen.

“I love you.” I told him attempting to grab his face so I could kiss him but he kept moving away from me like I wasn’t his girlfriend and some annoying hooker that wouldn’t leave him alone.

“Izzy please. I love you.” I whined, tears dropping onto my cheeks from frustration.

“No you don’t. Or else you wouldn’t have let Axl kiss you like that in front of everyone.” he scoffed getting up from the bed and throwing the tv remote hard, against the wall.

I jumped a little from his sudden outburst and crawled further into my blanket, covering myself with it to drown out the noises of my sobbing.

I didn’t think that I liked Axl. I really didn’t but after he was treating me so nicely I couldn’t help but feel a little attraction towards him.

There was also the fact that I shared something so special with him like loosing my virginity.

But I loved Izzy there was no changing that. I just didn’t know how to let Axl down easy.

Conflicted Chapter 31:

Maddy P.O.V

“I love you so much baby.” Izzy groaned as he rammed into me continuously, rocking the bed by his speed.

“I love you t-too.” I whimpered feeling my orgasm about to take over.

“Your never gonna leave me again right?”

Not even for him?” he whined almost pleading me to answer.

l was too euphoric to mutter a response as I felt Izzy sucking the sensitive parts of my neck.

Leaving them all bruised and purple.

“Say something Maddy please.” he urged not letting himself release until he heard exactly what he wanted from me.

“Yes. It’s you Izzy. It’s always been you.” I croaked looking up at him, pouting and seeing his hazel eyes that I missed so much.

He leaned in and gave me the sloppiest kiss, leaving strings of wetness as he pulled away and came inside of me making sure I took every last drop.

“Such a good girl f’me huh.” he said giving my ass a slap and plopping down beside me.

I quickly covered myself feeling sudden shame from being naked like this inside of a trailer with Izzy knowing my brother still wasn’t talking to me and here I was slutting it up with one of his best friends.

“What’s wrong?” Izzy asked as he sat up, grabbing his pants and slipping them on, letting them hang loosely around his waist as he let up a fresh cigarette.

“I feel guilty for doing this while Duff is still ignoring me.” I sighed feeling my lips pout and tears silently rolling down my cheek.

“Your grown enough to make your own decisions Maddy.”

“If Duff doesn’t approve he needs to get over it.” he replied gruffly.

“I know but he’s my brother Izzy. If he’s upset then it affects me too.” I replied angrily.

“Why are you being such a little girl over it. I didn’t get with you to handle your tantrums.”

“Why are you being so mean.” I huffed wiping my tear stained cheeks and climbing off the bed to confront him face to face.

“I’m not. I just think you’re overly sensitive and I don’t want to deal with a cry baby post fuck.” he casually responded letting out a cloud of smoke as he ran a hand through his black locks.

“You’re such a jerk.” I cried pushing him out of my way to exit the trailer.

I didn’t even know where to go since all the boys including my brother were rehearsing backstage so I just waited outside feeling helplessly guiltier by the second.

I was just another idiot who decided to sneak away with Izzy back into his bed. I didn’t even wanna leave my brother while he was practicing his drums because I planned on talking to him once and for all to figure things out.

But instead he caught a glimpse of Izzy kissing all over my neck while gripping my ass as we both snuck away to go to his trailer which I doubt my brother didn’t know of.

I heard the trailer door open and close.

Izzy came out to let me know he was going back to rehearse with the boys and asked if I wanted to join.

“I don’t feel comfortable being near you while you’re mad at me.” I retorted rolling my eyes at him like the dumb little girl I was.

I wasn’t even that much younger than him.

It was only a 6 year gap which he made seem like it was ages apart.

Twenty five and Nineteen weren’t that far apart.

Right?

“Come on. You know Duff will kill me for leaving you all alone out here.” he groaned.

“You don’t even care about me.” I said feeling utterly rejected at that point.

He came over towards me in long strides and pulled me up harshly by my arms placing of his arms on my lower back squishing me all the way into him while having the other hand on my cheek.

“What don’t you understand Maddy. I don’t act this way with any girl.”

“I don’t even have any emotions towards the girls I fuck or that try and talk to me.”

“You make me feel so many different emotions at once I don’t know how to act sometimes. I know I shout at you but I really feel something for you that I’ve never felt with any girl which drives me crazy especially when Duff says I can’t be around you.”

“I’m so in love with you. I want to fuck you and make love to you at the same time all the damn time. I want to kiss you everywhere when I see you. You’re always so fucking beautiful and sexy. And you have the sweetest personality which is the total opposite of me. You’re so fucking nice it kills me sometimes because I could never be that nice to you but that’s why I want to be around you all the time because you pull me in with your sweetness. You make me feel so good about myself, like someone genuinely cares for me.”

“God I wish I could fuck you right here against this trailer so everyone can see how much I want to make you mine.” he grunted swiping his tongue on my lips until I parted them feeling his tongue against mine.

“Izzz. Someone will see us.” I giggled against his kisses.

“That’s what makes it so fun baby.” he groaned grabbing my legs to wrap around his waist as he grinded his erection against me.

The parking lot where all the bands had parked their trailers was silent expect for small “uh, uh, uh.” whimpers that left my mouth like a chorus.

Izzy had me pinned against GNR’s trailer with my tiny skirt hiked up, rubbing my pussy up and down his clothed erection keeping my legs tightly gripped.

“Give it to me baby. Cream all over my fucking pants.” he grunted pinning me against the trailer further to help grip me as I bounced up and down feeling my pussy get slicker with the friction of his jeans.

“Izzy?”

“Is that you man?” Duff barked as he saw me looking disheveled and seeing my ass out as I bounced up and down Izzy.

“S-stop stop. Put me down Iz .” I gasped slightly out of breath due to the nature of our activities.

“I’m gonna fucking murder you.” my brother muttered watching as I fixed my clothes into place while Izzy readjusted himself in his pants rolling his eyes.

“It’s not like she didn’t want it Duff.” he said shaking him off.

“Fuck you motherfucker.” was the last thing Izzy heard as he fell to the ground.

authors note

wht did we think :)) i’m back! i’ve been rlly busy w school so apologies!