Hiii, guys!! ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 I haven’t been super active on here lately because I’ve been doing a little experiment, and unsurprisingly, it worked. So I thought I’d share it with you all! One random Sunday, I had this thought: “You know what? I want to do things my own way.” I’ve never really liked following rules. Can you blame me? Instead of affirming for the void or trying to “enter” it, I decided to flip the script. I asked myself, “What if I’ve already entered the void and manifested everything I want?” And that’s exactly what I went with. Now I’m gonna share with you every step I took.
# ACT I: PICK A DAY IN THE PAST.
Pick a date. Any date. It truly doesn’t matter. It could be something meaningful, like your birthday or something totally random, like March 18 (no offense if that one holds significance for you). I chose March 1st.
# ACT II: SCRIPT IN PAST TENSE.
Write (Notes App, Google Docs, etc.) as if you’ve already manifested everything you’ve ever wanted in the void. Feel free to express it however you like. Joyfully, robotically, or anything in between. You can list the things you manifested (like your dream car, your ideal job, etc.) or simply state that all your desires have come true if you’re not sure what to write.
# ACT III: AFFIRM AS IF YOU FORGOT.
Affirm that you've already entered the void and manifested everything that you desire, but you forgot because, well, you're only human. Now, you're remembering that you did so.
Example - "I already entered the void." (It can be as simple as that).
# ACT IV: BE DONE WITH IT.
You're done. No more wishing or trying. It's over. Walk with the confidence of someone who's conquered Mars. Think with the brilliance of William James Sidis. Act as though you hold the power to shape destinies.
I woke up one day, and everything I had scripted was real. If you have any questions, feel free to ask. I could make a separate post on how exactly that happened. If anybody is interested, let me know!! Mwah, Angie. - 𝜗𝜚
Here's a list of things to keep in mind when writing about your occupation!
How far away is your job from where you live? Do you get there by car, bike, walking?
Who's someone from work you like to work with? Who's someone you'd rather not approach ever? Why?
What's a typical day at your work like? What do you do to get ready before work?
Do you have any nicknames or silly inside jokes with your coworkers?
What did you want to be as a kid? How different is it from what you're doing now?
What was your first day at work like? How is it now? Have you ever been promoted?
How would you describe your job to a small child? Would you exaggerate parts about your job?
Did you have any jobs before this one? How old were you when you got your first ever job? What job was it?
hey lovelies!! I have some good news coming up, so I thought i’d share it alongside a small apology.
i’m so sorry I haven’t posted as frequently as I normally do, I haven’t had much motivation on posting and I don’t want to push myself cause i’d most likely get into burnout which sadly takes long for me to recover from 🙁
now, for the good news.. i’m finally getting an ipad !!! i’m super happy about this cause I can now introduce some of my drself art on this account and it’ll be more accessible for me to use rather than having to keep everything on my phone! after this does happen, i’ll also probably change my theme too.
I actually have this for one of my dr’s so I thought i’d share it rather than gatekeep it since I know a lot of you guys enjoy the series :)
“but I still love you babe. I know I shouldnt, but.”
✿* 🎼 : there’s a softness in you that makes the world hush without even realizing. you feel like quiet meadows, like the breath before a baby animal falls asleep. your presence is tender, warm, and doesn’t need to be loud to be felt. you calm the world like dew on petals or lace-filtered sunlight. your energy is like a forgotten lullaby — gentle, beautiful, and lingering. there’s something rare and comforting in the way you exist. people feel safe near you. they feel like they can rest.
✿* 🍨 : you move like a warm memory, like the scent of something familiar and loving. you’re not fragile, but delicate in a way that makes people want to treat you carefully. you are the kind of soul people don’t forget—not because you asked them to notice you, but because your softness stays in the room even after you leave. your presence makes people speak softer, move gentler, feel deeper. you make chaos slow down. you feel like early morning rain, chamomile fields, and lullabies without words. you remind people of kindness that doesn’t need to be spoken.
✿* 🩰 : you don’t demand anything — you just are, and that’s enough. people lower their voices around you out of respect for how sacred your softness is. your kindness isn’t something you perform. it’s something you radiate. and that softness has gravity. the kind that makes hearts lean in. you’re calm in a loud world. people feel fluttershy in you — not because you mimic her — but because you naturally carry that same sacred gentleness, that same quiet strength. your energy feels like a forest glade where nothing bad can reach.
✿* 🎼 : people don’t just think you’re sweet —they feel held in your presence. your vibe feels like early spring, like a trembling fawn standing up for the first time. you remind people of the warmth of holding something small and alive in their hands and knowing they must be gentle. you have fluttershy’s courage — the soft kind, the kind that stands trembling but still stands. your presence feels like satin wings, like sunlight through lace curtains, like whispering to animals who understand.
✿* 🍨 : your aura is like a love letter written in sparkly gel pen, like the hush after a lullaby, like bedtime stories whispered with too much heart. you remind people of old books with pressed flowers, of honey in warm milk, of whispering “thank you” with a voice that cracks. you are the kind of beauty that doesn’t shout — it glows. people want to protect you without knowing why. you’re the girl who wears lip balm more than lipstick, who says sorry to plush toys when hugging them too tight.
✿* 🩰 : you move like an edit in motion. like an anime lullaby on a rainy day tea party with stuffed animals. your softness doesn’t need to explain itself — it just wraps around people and makes them feel safe. you are vanilla-scented fur and cherry blossom wings. people don’t just see fluttershy in you — they feel her in the way your presence holds them gently. your energy is a whispered wish, a warm blanket, a soft tear from too much love. you're sacred, delicate, unforgettable.
✿* 🎼 : you remind people of whispered dreams, trembling hearts, and warm rooms full of quiet love. you are a flicker of pink in a gray sky, the hush before a vulnerable truth, a pause in someone’s chest that says “this is safe.” you make people want to believe in things again — guardian angels, love notes, and magic in the quiet. people don’t just notice you — they feel softened by you. you’re not loud, but you change the room. you are sweetness that still matters. the kind that heals. the kind that saves. you are this energy. you are this softness. you are this sacred.
✿* 🍨 : this isn’t just “you’re sweet” energy. it’s “you’ve been blessed by something ancient and gentle and people don’t know how to look at you without softening” energy. it’s forest-that-remembers-your-name energy. cottage-wrapped-in-fog energy. you feel like fluttershy if she were real and people accidentally fell in love with her soul.
thanks for reading!! this was a little lengthy but I just have a super specific mind when it comes to this aesthetic since I luv it sososo much :) the aesthetic and music just resonates with this so well.
happy shifting my lovelies!
The long awaited method : HMM for self hypnosis towards the void, enter under 2min.
WARNING : this method is quite powerful, it's not a method on directly entering the void, but it's a method I've perfected to be able to induce the void INSTANTLY under 5 minutes, given by on how to hypnotize yourself.
Please make sure you're ready for this, and you have a clear mind for this, self hypnosis is extremely powerful and if done rightly? It helps immensely, the chances after this to enter the void is 90%, you know what the 10% is for, belief and trust in this method.
Let's start.
This method is something I've stumbled on long before, and I just remembered how it may actually help those with a limit in their mind that does not let them enter the void, first of all, props to the person who make this trance inducing method which is using the magic magnet fingers, and since I'm pairing it with the void, I'll call it Hibiscus's Mind Magnet, or just HMM for short.
This method requires you to sit down somewhere quiet, somewhere with limit sound, does not matter if there's light or not, simply sit somewhere comfortably and I urge you to do a small mini meditation before hand if your mind is crowded, best time to do so is when you wake up.
Sit comfortably. (Has to sit)
If having crowded thoughts, meditate for a clearer mind.
Set your suggestion : a suggestion is something you want to stick deep into your subconscious, aka "I always enter the void under 2 minutes."
You can use any other suggestions, this is just for the void I'm explaining now, now that your mind is calm, everything is ready, simply begin by clasping your fingers in front of yourself together and leaving the two index fingers to stick above.
Now, look and focus at the space between those two fingers, okay? Now begin to imagine that ok either sides of your palm, there's two big magnets.
Stare at the space between the fingers, in a moments time when you let go, you see your fingers actually getting pulled subconsciously together like magnets, and eventually you'll feel this sudden pull of your own face towards it, at this point, continue to stare at it UNTIL your indexes hit each other.
Now you begin to realize even your eyelids are tired and droopy, that's the perfect state, now gently lower your hand in your lap and close your eyes, let the fatigue wash over you, you'll feel lightheaded and dizzy, this, is the perfect state called the Trance state.
Begin by saying your suggestion slowly, simply affirming deeply by saying "I always enter the void under 2 minutes." And only use one suggestion please.
When you feel ready, and you feel done, that's when you're done with this trance state, to get out, begin by forcing yourself to focus things around you, the blanket underneath you perhaps, the hands in your lap, and slowly open your eyes again.
Done, you have just hypnotized yourself, and remember, results can show in just one session, but if you're doubtful, it will take more than one session, do this before attempting for the void and simply go on with ANY method of the void, you'll succeed.
Good luck ml! I hope I made myself clear, and please remember I won't be online here for a couple of days as I have been too much on here and it's affecting my studying, either way, good luck and whatever questions you have I'll answer later, happy void!
Edit// for those who don't understand the hand part and how to clasp it:
It's like this
⋆.˚ 𖥔˚ YES, YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS IS THAT GULLIBLE.
˚ ✦ . . ˚ . . ✦ ˚ . ★⋆.
Girl let’s have a real conversation, because some of y’all are out here acting like your subconscious mind is this mysterious, unknowable force from the fifth dimension. No. Your subconscious? It's gullible. Like—literally. It doesn't analyze. It doesn’t fact-check. It believes whatever you tell it and feel as true. Simply tell it that you're already a master manifestor, step in that feeling and it'd be like, “Oh word? Bet.”
That’s why when you continuously keep saying stuff like “I’m so unlucky” or “Things never work out for me,” it's not gonna argue with you. It'll just gonna roll with it. It'll make sure things stay not working out because it thinks that’s what you want and what you believe in. Meanwhile, if you start affirming the shit you want and step into your "self", “Everything always works in my favor” or “I’m living my dream life,” it's gonna be like, “Okay queen, setting that up right now.”
Neville Goddard literally said,
"The subconscious is not selective; it is impersonal and no respecter of persons. The subconscious is not concerned with the truth or falsity of your feeling. It always accepts as true that which you feel to be true. Feeling is the assent of the subconscious to the truth of that which is declared to be true."
That’s the whole game. Manifestation isn’t some cryptic ritual. It’s not about vision boards or journaling for three hours under a full moon—unless that gets you in the vibe. It’s about impressing your subconscious with the assumption that what you want is already yours.
And no one—and I mean no one—can do that for you. Not your fave manifestation coach, not your astrology mutual, not the girl on TikTok with the aesthetic affirmations, not the blogger who is giving you reality shifting advice, not the void success story post you reblogged twelve times. Just you. You are the operant power. You are the one choosing the assumptions. So if you’re not deciding the story you want, you’re just letting your subconscious run wild off old patterns and nonsense.
You wanna change your life? Change the narrative. Talk to your subconscious like it's your easily influenced little sister. Be like, “Hey babe, we’re rich and loved and everything is working out perfectly the way I want it to be, okay?” And it'll go, “Ohhh okay girlie, got it.” That’s it. That's quite literally it.
So go crazy. Be dramatic. Be annoyingly certain. Persist. Command it. Whatever you tell it as your truth, your subconscious is listening—and it's ready to believe whatever you say next.
˚ ✦ . . ˚ . . ✦ ˚ . ★⋆.
Your performances always receive critical acclaim.
Directors and producers actively seek you out for projects.
You have perfect comedic and dramatic timing.
Any accent or dialect you need to use comes naturally to you.
You can memorize scripts instantly and effortlessly.
You can perfectly embody any role, no matter how complex.
Your chemistry with co-stars is always praised.
Your interviews are always interesting and never awkward.
Every project you are in becomes a hit.
You can work on multiple projects at once without burnout.
You never experience stage fright or anxiety before performing.
You can do your own stunts effortlessly (if you want to).
You have complete creative control over your roles.
Your acting skills are so good that people forget you're acting.
Any show or movie you're in gets amazing cinematography and lighting.
Every role you play becomes legendary—people reference your performances for years.
You can switch between completely different characters instantly, and people are amazed by your range.
If you ever improvise a line, it always makes the final cut and becomes an iconic moment.
Directors trust your creative input so much that they let you tweak scripts.
You can cry, laugh, and show any emotion on command as if you truly lived the scene.
You never get typecast—you can play any role in any genre and always nail it.
Every film you star in earns critical acclaim and becomes a classic in cinema history.
You never have to audition; directors and producers fight to have you in their films.
Any role you choose instantly becomes a fan favorite and defines the character for generations.
You can perform your own stunts without breaking a sweat, and they’re always breathtakingly cinematic.
You always win major awards for your performances, and you make every acceptance speech feel genuine and heartfelt.
Your scenes never get cut, no matter how long the film is—your presence is always essential.
Your roles never feel forced, and you can always show the subtle depth of your characters effortlessly.
Every project you take on shapes the industry in some way, from pushing boundaries to creating new trends.
The media and internet always portray you in a positive light.
You never have any scandals or false rumors spread about you.
Your fans are extremely supportive and never toxic.
People only discuss your talent and work, not personal matters.
Your privacy is always respected, even by paparazzi.
People only recognize you when you want to be recognized.
Your fans are known for being mature and kind.
You have no weird or creepy fandom trends about you.
No one ever sexualizes or objectifies you without your consent.
If you make a mistake, people forgive and understand.
No one invades your personal life or relationships.
No one ever tries to dig up old "controversies" about you.
Every fan edit of you is high quality and visually stunning.
Your fanbase has a great sense of humor and makes the best memes.
Every time you're in a "who's the best" poll, you always win.
The internet is full of adoring fan edits that go viral, and everyone loves your personality, not just your work.
Your every word is quoted, and fans hang on to every tweet, post, or interview you give.
Your fans never cross boundaries; they adore you from a distance, and you feel completely comfortable with them.
Any negative comment or rumor about you is met with swift and professional deflection, keeping your image untarnished.
People respect your boundaries—they understand that you are more than your public persona.
You can walk through the streets without being mobbed because people respect your space, but everyone is still excited to see you.
You have a massive fanbase that spreads positivity and creates a community that’s always uplifting and supportive.
Your fans create the most beautiful art, from drawings to edits to videos, all celebrating your talent and personality.
Whenever you do a Q&A or live stream, fans are so respectful and mature that it feels like a conversation with your best friends.
People don’t just admire your work—they want to learn from your journey, and you’re seen as a role model for others.
You rarely deal with online hate because everyone knows you're humble and grounded, and anyone who tries to bring negativity is swiftly shut down.
The media never twists your words—they only focus on your work and contributions, respecting your voice.
Your red carpet looks always go viral in a good way. Any outfit you wear becomes a fashion trend.
Paparazzi photos of you always turn out flawless.
Your casual outfits look effortlessly stylish.
Designers love working with you and give you custom pieces.
Your Halloween costumes are always iconic and creative.
You have the best glam team who always respect your vision.
Your makeup never smudges or looks bad under any lighting.
You can pull off any hair color or style without damage.
Even your off-duty looks are effortlessly aesthetic.
Your fashion is always on point—from red carpets to casual days, you set trends wherever you go.
Designers beg you to wear their pieces because your sense of style is so iconic.
Every time you change your look, it’s groundbreaking, and people instantly want to recreate it.
You can wear something bold and avant-garde one day, and then go for a classic look the next—each one stunning.
No matter what you wear, you always look like a work of art, making every outfit seem tailored just for you.
Your hairstyles are always on trend—whether it’s a sleek bob, flowing waves, or a crazy color, it’s always flawless.
You make every red carpet moment your own, with an unmatched grace and poise that makes photographers go wild.
People never criticize your fashion choices—your sense of style is always universally adored and considered groundbreaking.
Your casual looks are effortlessly chic, making you look stylish even in sweatpants and a T-shirt.
You never suffer from fashion mishaps—your outfits always fit perfectly and photograph beautifully.
You only work with respectful and kind directors, writers, and co-stars.
No one pressures you into doing anything you don’t want to.
All sets you work on are fun and professional at the same time.
You always feel safe and comfortable on set.
Your contracts always favor you, and you never get taken advantage of.
You never experience exhaustion or burnout from work. If a role doesn't feel right for you, you can turn it down without backlash.
The people you work with genuinely respect and admire you.
You are never pressured into doing anything uncomfortable on set—you always have control over your choices.
Every director and co-star you work with is a professional who respects your craft and boundaries.
No one ever tries to force a controversial scene or storyline upon you; you only choose what aligns with your values.
You never feel exploited or overworked—every project is managed so that you stay energized and focused.
Your set experiences are always positive, filled with collaborative and creative energy.
No one ever asks you to compromise your vision, whether it’s acting, fashion, or career choices.
You always get exactly the role you envision for yourself and can even shape your characters in ways that feel authentic and true to you.
The industry supports you, and your work is always respected, no matter your age, gender, or background.
The people in your life are genuine, and your circle stays loyal to you, never trying to take advantage of your fame.
You can take a random candid photo, and it becomes iconic.
Your brand deals always align with your personal values.
Any product you promote becomes instantly sold out.
Your social media feed always looks aesthetic and well-curated.
Your engagement rates are always high, no matter what you post.
You can take breaks from social media whenever you want without losing followers.
No one compares you negatively to other celebrities.
People never accuse you of being overrated or undeserving.
Your followers are always increasing, and no one surpasses you.
Your social media presence is never forced—you’re simply your authentic self and your fans love you for it.
Anything you post—whether it’s a simple photo, a spontaneous moment, or an opinion—goes viral for all the right reasons.
Every brand collaboration you do is effortless and aligned with your personal style, never feeling out of place. Your Instagram, TikTok, Twitter, and YouTube are all a true reflection of your diverse talents, showing different facets of who you are.
Your fans make impeccable edits that capture the best moments of your career, with high engagement from everyone.
When you share a behind-the-scenes look at your life, it feels exclusive and intimate, without compromising your privacy.
You can take time off from social media and people still remain loyal, always patiently waiting for your return.
Your online presence is so impactful that it even influences the market, with companies eager to partner with you.
You never feel pressured to post—you can share moments when you feel like it, and they always resonate with your audience.
You can balance fame, personal life, and school (if applicable) perfectly.
You never feel overwhelmed by the industry.
You have genuine friends who love and support you.
The people closest to you are always loyal and never betray your trust.
You always have time to relax and enjoy your personal life.
You can travel anywhere without being mobbed by fans or paparazzi.
You can go out in public without being harassed.
You are always well-rested and full of energy.
Your mental and physical health are always in top shape.
You are always in perfect mental and physical health, balancing fame with relaxation and self-care.
Your personal life is filled with genuine, trustworthy people who only want the best for you.
You never have to worry about unwanted attention—when you go out, it’s always on your terms, and you’re never harassed.
You feel at peace knowing that your privacy is protected—whether it's family, friends, or romantic relationships.
When you need a break, you can disappear from the public eye without anyone questioning you.
You never feel overwhelmed by your fame, instead enjoying the rewards it brings while keeping a grounded perspective.
You always find time to enjoy the little things in life—whether it's a quiet day at home or a spontaneous trip with loved ones.
You’re known for having the most balanced, stress-free life despite the pressures of being in the public eye.
You’re the epitome of grace and poise, even in the most challenging situations, and you handle fame with maturity and dignity.
Usually, it takes me around 30 minutes or sometimes even longer to enter the void state. I typically get there by the time I reach step 4, but this time I somehow mastered it and entered in 10 minutes! Here’s exactly what I did to enter quickly and effortlessly (but remember that everyone’s journey is different)
1. Find a Comfortable Position, You can lay however you want, but for me, lying on my back helps me feel more symptoms. I stayed completely still, letting my body relax fully. No adjusting, no tension, just letting go.
2. Affirm with Full Belief, I repeated simple affirmations in my head, like:
• I am in the void.
• Entering the void is easy.
• I am pure consciousness.
I didn’t stress or wait for symptoms, I just affirmed and let myself sink into the feeling.
3. Counted to 100 & Affirmed When Needed, As I counted up to 100, I didn’t feel the need to constantly affirm. I only affirmed when I noticed my mind starting to wander. By the time I reached 100, I was already in the void.
4. If You’re Not In Yet, Count from 100 to 0 & Affirm, If you’re not in yet, try counting down from 100 to 0 while continuing to affirm every now and then. Usually When I reach 0, I am already deep in the void.
I know for a fact it took 10 minutes because I had a subliminal playing in the background. Just as I fully entered, the sub ended, and an ad suddenly played, scaring me and pulling me out.
• Don’t Overcomplicate It, The void is natural. The more you let it happen instead of “trying” to enter, the easier it is.
• Detach from Outcomes, If you keep thinking “Is it working?” you’re just pulling yourself out of it. Assume it’s already done.
• If You Feel Yourself Dozing Off, Let It Happen, A lot of the time, you’ll enter as you “fall asleep.” Trust the process.
And that’s it—10 minutes, and I was in. No forcing, no stressing, just trusting. If I can do it, you can too!
- random things to manifest -
★ all the bratz/monster high dolls ★ being fluent in your target language ★ make your friend group able to speak a language that yall can use to talk bout secrets ★ have 3d singers like 4town exist ★ change your nails to desired design with to snip of your fingers ★ make people who are just like a anime/fictional character ★ unnatural eyecolor, like purple, pink or sum ★ if you manifest a new life complete amnesia bout your old one but to still remember loa and good self concept ★ photographic memory ★ have a mystical pet (like a pheonix) ★ have a cute song written about you ★ a little fairy friend, like tinkerbell ★ wake up with a piercing just to avoid the pain ★ having a car that looks like a car from cars (the disney movies yk)
we were always going home ,
yes, i have shifted, more than ten times, if you’re the sort who counts miracles like matchsticks or notches on a headboard. i am not. i do not tally my miracles like debts to be repaid. they arrive not as triumphs, but as returns. familiar. like a song i almost forgot i knew until i was humming it again, accidentally, under the breath of my dreaming.
i do not care if you believe me. i say that without spite. belief was never a prerequisite for truth. you do not have to clap for the moon to rise, nor bow to the ocean to be pulled under. reality does not ask for applause. it simply is.
i shifted after four years. four years of thinking maybe i was broken in some exquisite, cosmic way, cracked just wide enough to want, never wide enough to have. four years of collecting every method like seashells, pressing each one to my ear and listening for home. sometimes i heard static. sometimes i heard blood. sometimes i heard nothing at all.
there were nights i didn't think i'd live to see morning. i say that with the softest voice possible, not for pity, but because it's true. i don't mean metaphorical dark nights of the soul, i mean the real ones. the kind where your body's still, but your mind is clawing at the walls, begging for a window. the kind where shifting wasn't some spiritual hobby or escapist whim, but a lifeline. a rope thrown into the pit.
i don't know who i would've been if i hadn't believed. not the glowing kind of belief. not the pretty kind. but the cracked, ugly kind. the kind that crawls. the kind that gasps, "please, just let me wake up somewhere else."
so when i say i shifted, i don't say it lightly. it wasn't a party trick. it was a resurrection.
quiet. not cinematic. not some thunderclap of fate. it was a shift like how morning happens, slowly, and then all at once. i remember going to sleep in my room, wrapped in some terrible hoodie, the air stale with the smell of forgetting. and then, like a breath i didn't know i'd been holding: i am there. not will be. not want to be. not maybe one day. i am. right now. here. and there.
it didn't feel like magic. it felt like choosing god, even if you don't know who god is. like giving yourself permission to walk on water not because it's easy, but because the alternative is drowning.
the assumption wasn't loud. it was a hum. a bassline beneath everything. and the moment i tuned into it, the world bent. not to serve me, but to meet me. like it was always trying to.
this is how i got there: i assumed i was there. i used the law.
i wish i had something more elegant to offer. a potion. a spell. a hundred-counted ritual. i don't. i have only assumption. not the performance of it, but the private, unwavering kind. the kind that does not blink. the kind that plants a flag in the dirt and says, "this is mine, because i said so."
i said i was there. so i was. not overnight. not in a blaze of light. it happened like a thread slipping through the eye of a needle, one slow stitch at a time. i told the air around me that my dr was real. i told the silence. i told the toothbrush in my hand, the toothpaste cap i dropped on the floor, the moth blinking against the bathroom light.
i didn't have to fight for it anymore. i didn't have to prove myself worthy. desire is not a courtroom, and the universe is not a jury. i stopped begging. i started being. and slowly, the scaffolding of this reality dissolved.
this wasn't faith. faith is something you carry with trembling hands. this was certainty. this was sitting still long enough for the river to realise it already knew your name. this was recognising that shifting was not a door you unlock with the right key, but a room you have already lived in. the furniture remembers your weight. the walls still echo your voice.
i shifted because i remembered.
and i kept remembering. even when it felt stupid. even when it hurt. even when the forum girls sighed and the scripting girls cried and the cynics said i was lost in a fantasy. maybe i was. but so is everyone. some people just settle for worse ones.
this is what i know: you can get there too. you are not cursed. you are not exempt. the moment you stop performing belief and start inhabiting it, like a house, like a skin, like an inheritance, you will see.
it is not far. it is next. it is with. it is just beyond the veil of doubt, waiting to be spoken aloud like a name that's always been yours.
you do not have to be special. you do not have to be chosen. you do not need a voice in the sky or a star to fall at your feet. you only need to decide. quietly. daily. like it's brushing your teeth. like it's feeding the dog. like it's the most ordinary miracle in the world.
let it be that simple. let it be that unremarkable. you were never meant to earn it. only to remember it. only to open your hands and realise they've been holding the key the whole time.
assume. not with fear, but with fondness. not with hunger, but with homecoming.
and if you don't believe yet, pretend. not out of desperation, but out of reverence. act like you are there not because it will trick the world, but because it will tune you to it. reality doesn't respond to panic. it responds to presence.
so say the toothbrush is yours. say the air smells different. say the cereal tastes sweeter. say the light is warmer. say your name with a little more certainty. you don't need proof. you are the proof.
and do not ask yourself how again. ask when. ask what now. ask am i ready to walk through the door i've been holding shut with both hands all this time?
because the door is open. the light is on. your seat is warm. your name is carved in the table.
come back.
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