we Were Always Going Home ,

   we Were Always Going Home ,
   we Were Always Going Home ,

   we were always going home ,

yes, i have shifted, more than ten times, if you’re the sort who counts miracles like matchsticks or notches on a headboard. i am not. i do not tally my miracles like debts to be repaid. they arrive not as triumphs, but as returns. familiar. like a song i almost forgot i knew until i was humming it again, accidentally, under the breath of my dreaming.

i do not care if you believe me. i say that without spite. belief was never a prerequisite for truth. you do not have to clap for the moon to rise, nor bow to the ocean to be pulled under. reality does not ask for applause. it simply is.

i shifted after four years. four years of thinking maybe i was broken in some exquisite, cosmic way, cracked just wide enough to want, never wide enough to have. four years of collecting every method like seashells, pressing each one to my ear and listening for home. sometimes i heard static. sometimes i heard blood. sometimes i heard nothing at all. 

there were nights i didn't think i'd live to see morning. i say that with the softest voice possible, not for pity, but because it's true. i don't mean metaphorical dark nights of the soul, i mean the real ones. the kind where your body's still, but your mind is clawing at the walls, begging for a window. the kind where shifting wasn't some spiritual hobby or escapist whim, but a lifeline. a rope thrown into the pit.

i don't know who i would've been if i hadn't believed. not the glowing kind of belief. not the pretty kind. but the cracked, ugly kind. the kind that crawls. the kind that gasps, "please, just let me wake up somewhere else."

so when i say i shifted, i don't say it lightly. it wasn't a party trick. it was a resurrection.

quiet. not cinematic. not some thunderclap of fate. it was a shift like how morning happens, slowly, and then all at once. i remember going to sleep in my room, wrapped in some terrible hoodie, the air stale with the smell of forgetting. and then, like a breath i didn't know i'd been holding: i am there. not will be. not want to be. not maybe one day. i am. right now. here. and there.

it didn't feel like magic. it felt like choosing god, even if you don't know who god is. like giving yourself permission to walk on water not because it's easy, but because the alternative is drowning.

the assumption wasn't loud. it was a hum. a bassline beneath everything. and the moment i tuned into it, the world bent. not to serve me, but to meet me. like it was always trying to.

this is how i got there: i assumed i was there. i used the law.

i wish i had something more elegant to offer. a potion. a spell. a hundred-counted ritual. i don't. i have only assumption. not the performance of it, but the private, unwavering kind. the kind that does not blink. the kind that plants a flag in the dirt and says, "this is mine, because i said so."

i said i was there. so i was. not overnight. not in a blaze of light. it happened like a thread slipping through the eye of a needle, one slow stitch at a time. i told the air around me that my dr was real. i told the silence. i told the toothbrush in my hand, the toothpaste cap i dropped on the floor, the moth blinking against the bathroom light.

i didn't have to fight for it anymore. i didn't have to prove myself worthy. desire is not a courtroom, and the universe is not a jury. i stopped begging. i started being. and slowly, the scaffolding of this reality dissolved.

this wasn't faith. faith is something you carry with trembling hands. this was certainty. this was sitting still long enough for the river to realise it already knew your name. this was recognising that shifting was not a door you unlock with the right key, but a room you have already lived in. the furniture remembers your weight. the walls still echo your voice.

i shifted because i remembered.

and i kept remembering. even when it felt stupid. even when it hurt. even when the forum girls sighed and the scripting girls cried and the cynics said i was lost in a fantasy. maybe i was. but so is everyone. some people just settle for worse ones.

this is what i know: you can get there too. you are not cursed. you are not exempt. the moment you stop performing belief and start inhabiting it, like a house, like a skin, like an inheritance, you will see.

it is not far. it is next. it is with. it is just beyond the veil of doubt, waiting to be spoken aloud like a name that's always been yours.

you do not have to be special. you do not have to be chosen. you do not need a voice in the sky or a star to fall at your feet. you only need to decide. quietly. daily. like it's brushing your teeth. like it's feeding the dog. like it's the most ordinary miracle in the world.

let it be that simple. let it be that unremarkable. you were never meant to earn it. only to remember it. only to open your hands and realise they've been holding the key the whole time.

assume. not with fear, but with fondness. not with hunger, but with homecoming.

and if you don't believe yet, pretend. not out of desperation, but out of reverence. act like you are there not because it will trick the world, but because it will tune you to it. reality doesn't respond to panic. it responds to presence.

so say the toothbrush is yours. say the air smells different. say the cereal tastes sweeter. say the light is warmer. say your name with a little more certainty. you don't need proof. you are the proof.

and do not ask yourself how again. ask when. ask what now. ask am i ready to walk through the door i've been holding shut with both hands all this time?

because the door is open. the light is on. your seat is warm. your name is carved in the table.

come back.

   we Were Always Going Home ,

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8 months ago

Awake/No visulization Method: The Pet Method

I’ve been trying some new things in regards to methods and I wanted to share one I’ve been fine tuning and had success with. Im calling it the pet method as I used my dog (Thanks Pumpkin for being the real MVP here) but a pet is not required, more on what you need is below. There is no visualization required just the belief that this IS an object (or animal) from your DR.

What you’ll need: an item that reminds you of your DR, an item that is a replica of something in your DR, or a pet that is in both your DR and your CR. The item could be a shirt, a book, a wand, a hat- anything really. IF you are using a pet it needs to be able to stay in a reliable down stay next to you as it is integral to this method. An alternative could be a small pocket pet that you can hold in your hand/arms but an object works just the same.

Optional: feel free to put on a shifting subliminal of your choice, white noise, brown noise, or music that reminds you of your DR if you would like. It’s entirely up to you!

1. Sit down in a comfortable place (couch, bed, floor, up to you!) and place your object on your non dominate side. This is the hand you don’t write with- if you are ambidextrous choose the side you use less. This is just to help your awareness switch over to your DR without doing any visualization. If you can’t do this or really want to use your dominate hand that is okay too- it’s more a suggestion.

2. Close your eyes. We’re going to start working on a meditative breathing pattern. We’re going to do 5 breath reps, with affirmations in between. Slowly breathe in for four counts, hold for seven, breathe out for eight. Affirm to yourself that you are in your desired reality. Repeat.

3. You should be feeling more relaxed. Return to your normal breathing pattern, reach your hand out, and gently begin touching the object/pet. If it’s small you can pick it up- just make sure your movements are slow and deliberate. You will keep passing your hand over the object for the duration of the method.

4. Begin counting. There is no need to affirm at this point, but keep touching the object. The goal here is to clear your mind. I would recommend counting to 100 but the number is up to you. Some people need more, some people need less. Trust yourself.

5. Once your mind is clear and focused (not jumping from thought to thought) you are going to start affirming again. However those affirmations are going to change to factor in your object, and if it helps you ONE thing you know you will see, hear, taste, or smell once you are there. “This is x from y reality.” “This is my x, I am in y, i hear z.” Word it however feels natural to you. I might affirm “This is pumpkin from my better childhood DR. I am in my room. I can hear my dad downstairs.” Or just “this is pumpkin from my better childhood DR.” (Again you do not have to actually visualize them, just affirm what you know is true) Affirm until you feel your surroundings change or have a clue (voices noise etc) that you are in your DR.

And that’s it! Good luck and go shift!

2 months ago
    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,
    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,

   reasons why you're waking up in your cr ,

if it's not happening, it's because you’re still treating the 3d like it's anything but your own assumption reflecting back to you. still assuming lack while saying abundance. still looking for signs instead of stepping into the thing as if it's already yours.

nothing external needs to change. your state does. and that can happen in one second, in one thought.

    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,
    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,
    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,

  you keep checking . . . ౨ৎ  the second you look over your shoulder to see if it worked, you're signalling it hasn't. assumption doesn't need confirmation. assumption doesn't peek.  ꒰  what to do , stop asking. stop waiting. decide it's done and get on with your life. keep walking. 

    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,

  subconscious doubts . . . ౨ৎ   somewhere deep, under the clean sentences you say out loud, there's a voice. 'what if it's not real?' 'what if i'm not good enough?' it camps out in the marrow, slowing you down before you ever start.  ꒰  what to do , rewire yourself. not once, not wistfully. daily, methodically. affirm it until it's more instinct than wish. 

    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,

  overthinking the methods . . . ౨ৎ  you're not assembling a bomb. you're not cracking the human genome. shifting isn't method worship. it's assumption.  ꒰  what to do , pick what feels natural. raven, lullaby, drift, whatever stops the noise. trust the simplicity. complexity is a coffin. 

    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,

  intellectualising it to death . . . ౨ৎ  you read every shifting post, watched every youtube guide, diagrammed every method.  ꒰  what to do , get out of your head and into your body. shifting is sensation before it's strategy. 

    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,

  fear of success or change . . . ౨ৎ  self-sabotage wears a hundred faces. sometimes it's something that says you're safer in longing than in arrival. the mind clings to its ruins because they are familiar. ꒰  what to do , dig out the rot. write out your fears like you're testifying. remind yourself that change is not exile. you're allowed to cross thresholds. 

    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,

  you want it to feel like magic . . . ౨ৎ  you expect fireworks. epiphanies. sensations. if it doesn't sparkle, you think it didn't happen.  ꒰  what to do , stop chasing signs. reality shifts quiet. like changing the channel. no drama, just difference. 

    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,

  impatience . . . ౨ৎ  you feel ready. you want it yesterday. but checking the oven every two minutes doesn't bake the cake faster. it breaks the heat.  ꒰  what to do , behave as if it's already yours. embody the arrival. impatience is a leak, seal it. 

    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,

  you think there's a gap . . . ౨ৎ  a gap between you and your desire. between thought and result. between you and your dr.  ꒰  what to do , there is no gap. the second you decided, it existed. the delay's a hallucination. 

    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,

  comparing yourself to others . . . ౨ৎ  watching other shifters score touchdowns doesn't mean you're fumbling. you're running a different play entirely.  ꒰  what to do , stay on your field. trust your timeline. celebrate every inch forward like you invented it. 

    reasons Why You're Waking Up In Your Cr ,
10 months ago

there is no original reality.

2 months ago

another reddit post ↓

kinda motivating as well, i’ve been detached from shifting for some reason, like i can’t find anything to do, i have free time but i also don’t have it 😭 please friends help me lol

Another Reddit Post ↓
2 months ago

emma. quick. short. sweet. baby (literally) steps. how to have an successful shift. now. (handing the mic to you) !

Emma. Quick. Short. Sweet. Baby (literally) Steps. How To Have An Successful Shift. Now. (handing The

how to have successful shifts , quick. short. sweet. fine. but first we bury the wellness girlies under the floorboards. we're doing this clean.

you decide , not in the hallmark way. not in the "i believe in myself <3" way. i mean you decide. like a court ruling. you don't wait for the "symptoms." you legislate the outcome. this is not poetry . . but policy. you assume , belief is nice. like good weather. but irrelevant. nobody asks the pilot if he believes in turbulence. it happens anyway. what matters is assuming. and you already do. the way your body knows how to flinch before the slap. the way dogs know when someone's evil. you don't have to "believe to assume" in the shift. you are the shift. ignore the 3d , as in: pretend the world is on mute. your current reality is not real if you think it's not. the 3d is just a reflection of your mindset. a card deck. shuffle. you shift because you said so , that's it. no further verification required. you don't need binaurals or scripts or a bedtime routine you just do it.

listen. everyone thinks this is about technique. it's not. it's about authorship. if your thoughts are the script, your assumptions are the director's cut. if your life is a book, you're the editor with the red pen. if you want, you tear the pages out. you burn them. you start again. that's shifting. that's all it ever was.  and if you want it in baby steps . . . 

   decide , assume , persist , ignore , done

 no magic. no candles. just force of mind. force of will.

Emma. Quick. Short. Sweet. Baby (literally) Steps. How To Have An Successful Shift. Now. (handing The
2 months ago
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𓇼 ⋆.˚ 𓆉 𓆝 𓆡⋆.˚ 𓇼

✧.* Welcome! ✧.*

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🀥 <3 Shifting, Loa, Manifestation, Lana Del Rey, subliminals, MCU (especially Natasha Romanoff, Harry Potter, The inheritance games, and every/anything to do with spirituality, witchcraft, astral projecting, quantum immortality and the multiverse theory <3

𓇼 ⋆.˚ 𓆉 𓆝 𓆡⋆.˚ 𓇼

ׂ╰┈➤ !dni: anti-shifter, anti-manifestation types, homophobes, racists, (duh) closed minded ppl (including closed minded people within manifesting and shifting community), republicans/trump supporters

5 months ago

I promise you, This is the only loa post you'll ever need.

I promised and I will deliver.

Law of assumption basically means - what you assume to be true is true in your reality. That's it. That's all there is to it. But you guys just wanna overcomplicate this so much when all you got to do is assume in your favour and move on with that. Assume that your desire is already yours and persist on that.

Manifestation is INSTANT. The minute you decided you wanted it, the minute you decided that it is yours - It was done. That was it. It's already done. That is your new assumption, that is your story. As long as you persist in this there is nothing on Earth that could stop you from having it. BUT, there is one thing that can stop you from having it.

YOU, IT'S YOU. YOU ARE THE REASON. What other answer did you expect it to be?

The only thing to know here is this : The 3D is not what we change when manifesting, we change the 4D. The 3D simply reflects it. That is all.

You guys are so obsessed with changing the 3d, "trying" to manifest something, clicking on every clickbait video that says this is the technique you need to manifest your desire in 24 hours and all sorts of shit.

GUYS, GUYS GUYS PLEASEEEEE, Stop it. You are only telling yourself how you don't have it. You have got to realise that by now atleast! I mean c'mon. This is your reality, ok? You create every single part of it. If you can create it unconsciously, you sure as hell can do it consciously. You have to realise now and now that you are the creator of your reality. Don't let anything or anyone convince you otherwise.

Ok now I understand that some of you may be struggling so I am gonna be real straight with you. You are the one going back to the old story again and again. You're the one who is just overconsuming information instead of actually applying what you know. Stop this cycle. Look every single question you ask me again and again is an affirmation. An affirmation that tells everyone how you don't have what you want.

I've been persisting for two years but I didn't manifest it - Affirmation It feels impossible - Affirmation. Why aren't my affirmations working - Affirmation. Am I even doing this right? - Affirmation.

You are doing this to yourself. You get that??!

If you want it, you have to be willing to change yourself, to change your thoughts, to stay discplined in the story that you want. There's no other magical way to it. This is it. If you want it bad enough, OWN IT. FUCKING OWN IT AND PERSIST ON WHAT YOU WANT.

You know why you don't have it yet?? CAUSE YOU'RE SO FUCKING RELIANT ON THE 3D. Stop it. You aren't trying to change the 3d. Your only job is to change your 4d - your thoughts , your attention and awareness. The 3d has no other choice but to reflect it. 3d has no power and yk why? Cause it's so malleable and all it can ever do is reflect your 4d, your imagination. But your imagination - NOW that is in your hands, You can choose to think what you want, You can choose to accept what you want as true and just let your sc mind do it's magic. Thats all you need to know.

Now I get it, circumstances may same really really bad like almost impossible for you to believe that the opposite of what is actually there is actually the real reality. But you're just gonna have to do it anyway. Imagination - IS THE REAL REALITY. And there is nothing you can do to change it. SO accept that and change your thoughts.

DO YOU KNOW WHY YOU'RE HERE RN? CAUSE YOU DID IT, YOU FOUND OUT THE ULTIMATE TRUTH OF LIFE. HOW YOU HAVE ALL THE POWER, HOW YOU ARE THE CREATOR OF YOUR REALITY.

Now if you don't believe in all this and sees this as some manifestation crap then I'm respectfully asking you to get the fuck off my blog, I don't need you here if you don't need me.

But if you know that this is it, this is true then I want you to read very carefully what I am gonna say next because THIS IS IT -

is loa real for YOU? (yes) is manifestation real for YOU? (yes) so is your imagination the real reality in your life? (yes) - so obviously what you assume has to be real too right? So it is real and it is yours. You have it and you have it now. That's it. That's all there is to it. If you believe in this, If you can know this, You have to know that this is it, what you assume is true, IS true in your reality.

All you gotta do is persist. Persist in your new story. It doesn't matter what technique you guys use. Just know that it is done. Stop treating it like a process - MANIFESTATION IS NOT A PROCESS, IT IS INSTANT, IT WAS YOURS THE MINUTE YOU DECIDED SO. CREATION IS FINISHED, IT IS YOURS.

Just know that it's done. You're not waiting for something to happen in the 3D - NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

YOU ARE THE VALIDATION. WHY ASK YOURSELF WHERE IT IS - WHEN YOU ALREADY HAVE IT.

Guys this is it, this is all you need, read it and reread it as many times you want to just get it in your head but trust me this is it.

You've got this!

Love, Shrads

2 months ago

y/n things to script about yourself ₊˚⊹♡

 Y/n Things To Script About Yourself ₊˚⊹♡

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。𖦹°‧ new kid effect. people wanna get to know you & are curious about you everywhere you go. you can’t help but lure people in.

。𖦹°‧ you have one feature that’s unnatural about you. want full on alexandria's genesis ? why not. slight “elf-like” ears ? sure. vampire fangs ? so cute.

。𖦹°‧ animals approach you. piggybacking off of that, they don’t have diseases & (wild) animals are very clean !

。𖦹°‧ you always find the coolest things. for me this would be something like thrifting some cool old lamp. but this can obviously apply to anything. a long lost one of a kind designer piece that fits you perfectly, perhaps. a stolen watercolor painting worth millions.

。𖦹°‧ clothes always look good on you. no tailoring needed. every piece of fabric you drape over your body looks like it was custom made for you & your body type.

。𖦹°‧ you know the best places. a train ride up to a quiet town that has the best homemade ice cream. an abandoned mall covered in vines with stores still stocked & untouched.

。𖦹°‧ you’re a local celebrity. or just very well liked. people notice you when you go out. people secretly take pictures of your outfits when your not looking. shops give you things for free. restaurants give you desert on the house just because.

。𖦹°‧ people associate you with things. your favorite singer or animal or smell. little things that make people think of you.

。𖦹°‧ heightened senses. really good smell or hearing. like animal level. smelling full on tectonic shifts before they happen.

。𖦹°‧ synesthesia. you can see auras around people & taste colors & see music in your mind.

。𖦹°‧ your words are like spells. whatever you say happens. very much seven rings “i want it I got it” coded.

。𖦹°‧ prophetic & meaningful dreams. you can see events before they happen sometimes. people even drop in to pay you a visit some nights.

。𖦹°‧ all your things smell like your signature scent. clothes. hair. school supplies. bag. sheets. pillows. could even rub off on people you spend a lot of time with. no perfume dupe for how you smell. can never be replicated. it’s unique to you.

2 months ago

things you could be doing and still shift:

being awake. being asleep. being half-asleep. being tired. being overstimulated. being underwhelmed. being mad. being sad. being bored. being blank. being burnt out. being busy. being lazy. being confused. being impatient. being scared. being sick. being numb. being annoyed. being full of doubt. being full of rage. being full of nothing. not scripting. not visualising. not believing. not trying. trying too hard. changing your mind mid-shift. not knowing which dr to pick. not having a method. switching methods mid-process. switching drs mid-process. falling asleep during a method. forgetting what you were doing halfway through. remembering after six hours and shrugging. affirming once. affirming a thousand times. not affirming at all. listening to music. scrolling your phone. crying. laughing. spacing out. spacing in. eating. walking. sitting. lying down. standing around. zoning out in class. working. not working. having an existential crisis. having a regular tuesday. thinking "this isn't working." thinking "whatever." forgetting about shifting entirely. remembering randomly. being at your mental best. being at your mental worst.

being literally any type of way. still shifting.

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