i yell at my mother with her same ruthlessness and out-argue my father with his same logic.
you watch as the tall, mighty flame that i once was drowns in your cruel, unforgiving flood. and you enjoy watching all my glory turn to nothing but blackened scars.
my worst nightmare is being stuck in this terribly boring town doing something mediocre.
i feel my innocence slip away like a peaceful afternoon after a dreadful week.
i would rather bite off my own fingers, rip all my tendons, or claw out my insides than stay here in the prison you’ve forced me to.
i scream. i scream so loud. i scream so that my ears are ringing and my jaw hurts. i scream so that tears well up in my sad eyes. i scream my life away. for no one to hear a thing.
i have bookshelves of dreams. all dying to be the one i choose to live out.
heaven is over now. the party got shut down. the amphitheater is empty. the bars deserted. usually so full of life but now; deathly silent. but they’re waiting.
believe it or not, i am still very much in love with you.
you’ve ruined my life. i will say i love you until i am hoarse. i will kiss you until my lips are raw. i will cry for you until i cry a river. i will hold you until my arms can no longer hold themselves up. i will miss you until the sun sinks into the sky for the final time.
happiness is running away from me. and i am letting it happen.