December 17, 2024

may 12, 2025

i scream. i scream so loud. i scream so that my ears are ringing and my jaw hurts. i scream so that tears well up in my sad eyes. i scream my life away. for no one to hear a thing.

december 18, 2024

how tragic it is, that my own brain poisons itself.

april 18, 2025

if i showed you all my dark, im afraid you’d never be able to see my light again.

december 29, 2024

today i watched a video from my ring camera of you smashing my potted plants. the ones you gave me.

april 23, 2025

i think i hate hospitals, and the stinky hand soap, and a nurse’s fake smile, and the overhead lighting, and the quiet doctors, and the cold tile floors, and the cheap tissues, and the bland food, and the way you’ll never be the same.

february 14, 2025

another valentine’s day without you is another year of melancholy.

february 21, 2025

you at mine. and if the sun sets for the last time today, i will be happy knowing you are mine.

yesterday i read the notes on a life

that had just barely counted as one lived

the girl was far too tainted to be a wife

but she was a girl with much love to give

she talked like a true contrarian

eternally antithetical girl 

then her opinions flew with the herons

to a much kinder and comforting world

with time her smile faded into the gray

and she went aimlessly through the motions 

she joined other wretched souls yesterday

her eulogy murmured by the ocean

i suppose she always hung by a thread

i would’ve hung onto each word she said

the things of nightmares are the casual horrors that fill my days

may 13, 2025

people tell me i will survive. that i won’t be able to remember this one day. that i will get over it. and maybe i will. but i will not forget. my blood, and my bones, and my cells, and my sprint won’t let me. they will never let me recover from you.