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i'm attending my first 18th birthday party this weekend and i just want to cryy😭😭 the girl who invited me is so sweet but i've never been to one before and i've got nothing to wear (nor have i the idea of what im supposed to wear + clothes in normal stores usually don't fit me), i'm not able to do my own makeup and, worst of all, im not so sure about the gift im bringing her.

what makes me so sad is that i've tried to ask for help to my mother, my sister and two girls who are supposed to be my best friends and none of them cared AT ALL. every time i talked to them about it they just made me feel like a burden and that i was stressing them by following them around like someone who doesn't get that they are not wanted

i only want to make a good impression and don't want to look weird😭 why does nobody care about me

also, one of those two girls is in my same class, ive considered her as my best friend for years now and not only she made me cry on my last birthday, but also forgot about it this year. i mean i'll be 17 next week but i heard her today talking to a classmate of ours: they were planning to hang out together with other classmates RIGHT next to me and they were deciding between doing it this saturday or the next one - which is my birthday. well my friend insisted on doing this meet up next weekend - i repeat, the day of my birthday - as she is gonna be busy on this one. in that very moment my heart shattered. what the hell like what do you mean??? she has done things like that before and whenever i succeded in bringing it up - it's very difficult for me to talk about what upsets me and she knows it - she just told me that she obviously didn't do that on purpose and that she only forgot about it/me. it didn't come to her mind at that very moment. as if it weren't even worse

we get down every friday night

you know it's bad when you stop the true crime podcast you're listening to and you try to understand maths by watching some random youtube videos

how morning will look when I'm free

i will do all i can to keep you by my side

just 'cause i know it feels right 𓆩❦︎𓆪

OMGGGG i never posted like this but I don't know anyone I can show my excitement to, I just won a scholarship!!!!!! I'm going away for one month this summer, I still don't know where but I worked so hard for this, I CAN'T BELIEVE I DO DESERVE THIS, I'M CRYING

and if you're ever tired of being known for who you know, you know, you'll always know me 💌🍂

the blue lady 🧿𓂃 ࣪❄️

white lines, pretty baby, tattoos𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.

(pictures are not mine!!♡)

sad she won’t call sad I ate sad about school sad about summer sad about the heat and the girl and the tests and the food sad about her and the meal and the grades and the weather