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one thing about gloria is that, she loves very intensely. it isn’t something fleeting that can be turned on an off like a faucet. yes, she can have a one night stand but it won’t mean a single thing to her…she won’t even get off. if she has feelings for someone and she isn’t sure they’d want her because they have not shown anywhere close to signs she would recognize, she won’t do a damn thing. but back to the point, they might not be able to handle the level of love she has to give. it’s consuming, it comes from the perspective of someone that leaves claw marks in things because she can’t hold onto things. people die, people fade and time is a luxury.
DR. MALIK AMARI STATUS: DECEASED. KEY NOTES: she wears a lot of his things; more specifically, a pair of his sunglasses and a braided leather bracelet. there are many things of his she keeps as mementos ( an bottle of his cologne she can't bring herself to smell, a few journals ) but most was given back to his family. gloria went through a lot of therapy to come to terms with and accept her grief. While Malik is someone she will carry forever, it does not keep her from giving all of herself to loving someone else. she does not bear his loss as a punishment for anyone who loves her. she will never make a single comparison or hold anyone to the standards set by malik. he is a component of her dedication to practice and a beautiful piece of her.
Gloria met Malik through her sister-in-law ( cat ), as he was part of her graduating class. his field of study was general surgery, but he changed his specialty to pediatric surgery, reflecting his character and the depths of a very caring, poetic heart. it was a slow start, but no less significant.
gloria was fresh out of her honourable discharge as a combat medic, nursing internal and external wounds as she began medical school, and he was at the start of his residency. their first conversation was of poetry wherein he teased her accent when she spoke arabic, and she shot back that his spanish could use some work. malik, in his smooth matter of existence, used this as a segway to pursue her because they would help one another speak the respective languages better. gloria agreed and from there, malik taught her that love could be patient, it could be gentle, but no less passionate.
he cradled her heartache and gave it a safe place to begin mending. they were living together within eight months of dating. he had proposed after a year and a half but they made the promise to wait until she began her residency to get married. nearly four years together, a home, a vast collection of records, literature, travel and trinkets.
malik completed his residency and was offered a position in New York, but he would accept it only after another tour with Doctors Without Borders. he and gloria had spent two summers volunteering. it was not out of the norm, not out of character for either. important for the proud son of a Palestinian mother to offer all he could back to what she had sacrificed. there were children around the world wrapped up in chaos beyond their control. malik went, gloria had stayed behind to begin her residency and their wedding date was reserved for his return.
malik never came home. he, along with several other practitioners, nurses and medics, were killed or injured by way of American-made bombs dropped in Syria. gloria would carry the rest of her residency in silent greif, detached from everyone around her to focus on her job, focus on others, focus on every other person outside of herself.
28. five most recent sent text messages @pittmade
Honestly, I can't even do five cause this is it.
15. bookcase. // HC @owestwind
BOOKSHELVES// she has a habit, a collection that rivals her record one. two points in her home have dedication to her literature. - a corner in her living room and a good portion of her bedroom. every single book is one she's read at least once before and there are favourites she revisits often. many copies that have seen combat and deployments and gotten her through difficult times. she's a fast, thorough reader and her taste varies, but this is a little snippet of some of her favourites.
30. netflix watch history. // HCS @pittmade
night shift makes sense for her because she's a night owl to begin with. night terrors are relentless even with meds, even with therapy ( clearly night terrors can't get you in the day time soooo ). her body, her brain and internal clock were re-wired in the military; she can survive off minuscule amounts of sleep and still be high-functioning. that never leaves her, but that doesn't mean she isn't perpetually exhausted. it makes her ability to pull working doubles very frequently seem superhuman.
hc + birth
HEADCANONS// ACCEPTING
I think theres a few scattered answers for her on that so i'll break those down. or i'll attempt to…
BIRTH ( medically ); it's another procedure she believes isn't taken as seriously as it should be. she was trained as any medic would be while serving but she didn't actually imagine she would be using this skill. she genuinely thought it would be a simplistic ( and horrifying ) as tournoquits, field procedures and stabilization. but when she was dropped into zones that required extra humanitarian aid, it was something she had to do and i think it was an absolute shock. you can say you understand that not every place in the world has the same access to medical care but when it was right in front of her in a hostile zone, you can't ignore it. she's delivered babies unsure of what happens to the mother and baby once they leave, and that gets brought back home with her. those are the moments that stick with her, and it becomes an advocacy point within her profession. if someone comes into the ER ready to pop, she's in there very calmly and focused on providing the best care with the best equipment that simply wasn't a luxury in a war zone. the matter of care for women, in particular within the medical system, is abysmal at best. the most dangerous thing a woman, or any person with the potential to give birth, can do is, in fact, become pregnant and give birth. alternatively, anyone who comes from a state where abortion isn't legal, she's working with efficiency and empathy to make certain the CHOICE is exercised and they are in control of their reproductive health. while i have not written her verse in its entirety, she would certainly be volunteering days and free time to women's clinics, shelters, veterans' hospitals and planned parenthood. this is an aspect she's willing to go to jail for or be reprimanded for.
BIRTH ( personally ): in saying all this, it's still something she wants for herself. she loves children, and her instincts to nurture are incredibly strong, but she doesn't ever imagine it's something she will get to do. the process itself, she would probably approach as very...clinical and almost obsessive in how she suddenly takes better care of everything within herself because she has a soul bound responsibility to her unborn baby.
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