Like This Is So Sad, Only People Who Have Been There Know How Much It Means.

Like this is so sad, only people who have been there know how much it means.

I remember being 4 yo and being hating my body since then. And I think now: I was four! 4yo aren't supposed to notice "blemishes" in their perfect tiny bodies like that, what the hell?! I remember, comparing my body to the slimmer girls on kinder garden. Remember my mother saying mean things. Remember my brother doing stupid jokes abt having a fat sister and posting them on fb. Remember my teachers being a-holes. Remember dancing on the border of eating disorders. Remember provoking me gastritis due to starvation in a stupid attempt to loose weight. And the list goes on.

And god, it hurts so much to remember how much I hated my body back then. I didn't deserve that, I was just a girl

I will never forgive society for conditioning me to look in the mirror and see my natural form as ugly from a young age