the moon in paintings. x
What looks like a scene out of a J. R. R. Tolkien novel is in reality the natural phenomenon of Horsetail Fall at Yosemite National Park. In February each year for about two weeks, the angle of the setting sun, along with the shadow from El Capitan, come to the edge of the falls and set it ablaze. I met people who had been chasing the Firefall for years so I feel very lucky to have arrived when the conditions were perfect.
Please use these terms correctly. Not doing so will deeply harm the people who actually have experienced trauma, gaslighting, triggers, and people who have NPD.
Citrus blues.
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I climb mountains.
A resting place near a fountain
Under the willow tree.
Where you hear the shallow sea
Which scrubs the stony shore
Where sea urchins find home.
I have poppies around me
I snap their stalks and drink the milk.
The cobweb which is like the silk that stones me
Sometimes i have to.
Sometimes i don't.
But it's always there.
My flask with the teardrops for tomorrow. Sometimes worry, sometimes sorrow.
So may i borrow your time.
And put some lime in my eyes.
Until another day dies.
So I'm not saying goodbyes.
Im saying hello to your beautiful eyes.
And im asking for citrus blues.
Because i already have salt and tequila.
Hunches and cues with clues.
Left with tobacco crumbs and Shangri-La cruise.
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Poem by Marko Tivanovac
Background pic (pls if you know tell me)
Shifting Wings: Before the Raven Matthew, there was Jessamy, and Jessamy came with a little sister by the name of Adrienne. Dream adores his two little Ravens, but after over a hundred years of imprisonment and the death of Jessamy, Dream will find that he has not just lost his companion, but his beloved little Raven Adrienne no longer brightens the halls of his Palace. None of his staff wish to speak of where the Raven has gone, but the silent new resident of the palace is cause for question. After all, she was the one who aided in his release. If none of his subjects would help him find Adrienne, perhaps she could lead him to the whereabouts of the missing Raven. If only the woman wasnât so flighty and hard to track down.
Warnings: Angst, Language.
To Note: Morpheus/Dream x FemaleRaven!Reader, NAMED Reader (I like the name).
Word Count: ~2.3k
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She has not shown herself to you, because she does not wish to.
Lucienneâs words haunted Morpheus in an Endless pain he felt within his being. He had expected you to seek him out the moment he returned as you had always been faithfully by his side. Not to mention he had made a promise to you that he was not able to keep. Surely you were upset by that. No, he had expected everything to be as it was when he had left. Heâd been wrong. Lucienne changed. Cain and Abel changed. Fiddlerâs Green changed. It was a naive notion to think that you wouldnât change. Stewing in his morose thoughts, Morpheus decided he had brooded long enough. It was time he tracked you down, for Morpheus needed your comforting presence, even if you held nothing but animosity towards him. Even if all youâd allow was for the Endless to merely gaze upon you, that would be enough.
Rising from his throne, Morpheus stepped down the stairs and strode for the one place that would have the most clues regarding your whereabouts. Your studio. Striding through the palace, Morpheus pondered your absence some more, disturbed by your lack of appearance. Did you not love him as he thought you did? Had he not made his affections clear to you? Jessamy had certainly threatened him plenty over his intentions towards you. 106 years. How much could a person change in that time? Had your love dissipated and resentment taken shelter? Were you angry? Were you unconsolable? Did you want nothing to do with him and the palace after Jessamyâs death? Did you hate him? Perhaps you did if you refused his company.
He reached the door to your studio and paused. He couldnât feel your presence within, but several light orbs were softly illuminated indicating that you had been within your studio recently. Opening the door, Morpheus stepped into your art studio and ventured forwards. There were paintings and sketches scattered throughout the studio, you were clearly still painting and drawing⌠but all of your works now held a darker tone. Your artwork reflected a darkened mind crippled by pain, agony.
Walking around your work bench, Morpheus eyed the luxurious bed, expecting to see your nest of pillows, feathers, and down. But all he saw was a neatly made bed, devoid of indication that anyone used it. The studio was used, yes, but clearly you did not use it as you once had. He looked closer at your sketches, many of which were sketches of Jessamy, beautifully sketched and detailed. Your skill had only increased. It only felt like a night ago in which you were just starting to learn how to draw in your new body.
âYou look quite concentrated, little one,â Morpheus observed as he sat for you while you struggled to hold a pencil with your foot and draw his likeness. You growled under your breath and spit out a few curses which made Morpheusâs lips twitch. He doubted you noticed, but you truly came alive when you were focused on your art. The melancholy on your face faded and a spark of determination sparkled within the depths of your black eyes.
âThatâs because I still sometimes have a hard time grasping this stupid pencil,â You huffed back, gripping the small instrument in your tiny foot. You hopped several places and flapped your wings. âI can control it pretty well at times but then it getâs away from me and everything starts going awry!â
You let out a caw of frustration and threw the misbehaving pencil across the room. It was much easier to paint, in your opinion, than to draw. Youâd taken to the brush much quicker than the pencil, and your frustrations were starting to get the better of you. Morpheus rose from his seat and walked over to where you were standing, trying not to let your frustrations get the better of you.
âWhy am I even doing this?â You asked with an exaggerated sigh. Morpheus lifted a finger to your beak and tilted your head up.
âBecause you are determined, Adrienne,â He reminded you with a small smile. âAnd you are not one to give up so easily, your perseverance has brought you this far, has it not?â
You eyed your lord, seeing his provocative eyebrow raise. It ruffled your feathers and you huffed.
âI never said I was gonna give up, I justâI feel like I am not making any progress and itâs been decades.â
âAnd you have eons more to hone your skill, for I shall always look forward to your creations.â You eyed him carefully. Sometimes you really wished that you had your human body rather than a birds.
Donât be envious. Donât be envious. It wasnât like the dreams and nightmares throughout the realm had the pleasure of painting Morpheusâs portrait with the Endless sitting right in front of them. It wasnât like the Endless actively sought out their company.
âFine, fine, sit back down Iâm almost done with your general profile.â You ordered, having no issue ordering the Endless around. Morpheus, pleased that you had finally perked up, returned to his seat and watched as you fluttered to where your thrown pencil had ended up. Grasping it in your foot once more, you swooped back up to the easel and focused back on your sketch.
You were not a conventional lover, certainly if your relationship with him had grown more intimate. But at the time your company had been more than enough for him. Now all Morpheus wanted was to hear your comforting voice and see the familiar splash of midnight and pearl. Even if it was only to hear your thoughts of envy and yearning for what you had once had. He also owed you an apology. Not just for the fact that he had broken his promise to return with an hour, but your sister had been killed while in his service. It had been voluntary, but you would still feel betrayed.
Morpheus was about to leave the studio, not having garnered any new information from inspecting your studio, but then caught sight of a brighter light peeking out the trim of the small closet. Curiosity peaked, for why would you have the closet light so bright compared to the rest of your studio? Morpheus drew the slightly cracked door open and found his answer. Compared to the rest of the studio, the closet was far more homely and lived in. Down and feathers littered the floor, and there was a nest tucked in the corner. That was where you slept. But what Morpheus took notice most of all, was the obsessive amount of drawings of Jessamy.
They were everywhere, pinned on the walls, stacked on shelves, stuffed between books on a small bookshelf. He moved over to a stack that sat next to a bowl full of charcoal, clearly being used. On the top of the pile was a sketch of himself with Jessamy, the drawn lines darkened and clear, sharp. His eyes were the only hint of color on the page, an illuminating blue. By far your best work yet, not even Morpheus had seen you draw this beautifully. As Morpheus stared at the sketch, he spotted something at the edge of the page that should not be there. A charcoal fingerprint.
All who knew you, who lived within the palace, knew to never touch your artwork unless permission was given. Who would even think to enter a place so small and intimate, one you took shelter in, and touch your work? Certainly with charcoal on their fingers? Morpheus reached for a journal he had given you, inscribed with your name in gold lettering, and opened it. More pictures of him and Jessamy greeted his gaze. It was just as obsessive, and Morpheus could see your mental breakdown over the years. But even as he witnessed your breakdown through your drawings his eyes kept returning to the fingerprint upon your sketch. So journal and sketch in hand, he strode from your studio and headed for the library, determined to finally get answers.
Lucienne had been speaking with Mervyn about the newly rejuvenated gardens when their lord came striding into the library with a swirl of anger. Her brown eyes saw that he carried a leather-bound journal she often saw you drawing in, and a piece of parchment.
âSir,â Lucienne greeted, trying to keep herself calm. âIs there something you need?â Morpheus strode up to her and held up a charcoal drawing of him with Jessamy perched on his shoulder. âAh, I see you have discovered Adrienneâs artwork? She has much improved over the last century.â Lucienne said pleasantly, ignoring the charcoal fingerprint on the edge.
âTell me, Lucienne, who enters Adrienneâs studio and touches her work when we all know that is an egregious event?â Morpheus asked, his voice poised with a lethal edge of a dagger. Both Mervyn and Lucienne shifted where they stood.
âIâ I am not aware that anyone has entered Adrienneâs studio without permission let alone touched her work. We know she does not like it when her work is touched.â Lucienne replied evenly, reverting back to what was well known about you. âNot even to admireâŚâ Morpheus shifted his gaze to Mervyn.
âAnd have you, Mervyn, witnessed anyone trespassing these halls? Surely you have seen something, as Adrienne does not possess hands.â He was enunciating his words now, his patience dwindling at the lack of information on you. Where were you? Why had you not appeared before him? Did you truly hate him? Did you despise him for Jessamyâs death? Were you in such anger that you would refuse to grace his presence ever again? Mervyn rubbed the back of his head, not knowing what to say. The promise he made to you all those years ago to treat Adrienne as dead was still strong⌠but lie to his lord? That he could not do.
âWellâŚâ Mervyn sighed dramatically. âNo one has gone into her studio who shouldnât have, I can tell you that. Sheâd eat âem alive if they did⌠kinda anal about keeping people out actually. Sheâs gotten mean the past few decades,â He muttered while Lucienne forced herself to not facepalm herself in front of Morpheus. Mean. Adrienne had gotten mean. That was the first piece of true information Morpheus had gotten since coming home. But how could you have turned mean? You didnât hold one mean bone in your entire body.
âMervyn,â Your quiet, flat voice shattered the tension between the trio as you came striding into the library. The pumpkin headed janitor looked at you as you came to a stop. Your hair was ruffled and your clothes looked hastily put on. âI retrieved the sprite lantern from the relieving arch.â You announced. âIf you want the Hesperides to stop throwing the lantern up there, may I suggest moving it? They despise each other.â
âMove it?â Melvyn repeated, insulted at the idea. âThe whole point of having the spite lantern there is because of the waterâ ah fuck, Iâm really gonna have to find a new place for the lantern, ainât I?â
âIndeed,â You echoed, knowing that the janitor hated when he had to shift the homes of the residents of the palace around. They were quite persnickety about their place of home. You contemplated where the sprite lantern could be moved. âPerhaps the east end garden? I believe Lord Morpheus put in a new pond there.â
âYeah, yeah, good idea,â Mervyn agreed before glancing at Morpheus. âSpeaking of which, you met whitey here?â He asked, jerking his stick thumb at you. âSheâs kind of mean and never smiles, not that she can, but is one hell of a worker to have around. Sheâs kept this place running while you were gone.â
You blinked at Mervyn before looking at Lord Morpheus.
âWe have met before, though never the chance to formally speak,â You confirmed, then gave Mervyn an unimpressed look. âAnd I believe you mistake my frankness for me being mean, because that would imply emotions which you are aware that I do not experience.â As you stared at Mervyn who was scowling at you, you felt Morpheus gaze wearing heavily on your body. âIf you will excuse me, retrieving the sprite lantern from the receiving arch is not the only task I have do to this day,â You said before giving your lord a respectful nod. âLord Morpheus,â
You strode out of the library, heading for your next task. Morpheus stared at your back as you strode away, still feeling like there was something off about you. No, there was. He just couldnât put his finger on it, and it wasnât that you lacked empathy. It was something else. Something about you was hauntingly familiar, yet entirely foreign.
âWhere did she come from?â He asked, settling his gaze back on Lucienne and Mervyn. They shifted uncomfortably. âShe might be a resident of the Dreaming, but I have no memory of her. So tell me, exactly where did she come from? You say she has maintained my palace diligently all these years, yet I do not know her.â
âI just realized that I left the sprinkler on in the desert garden so Iâm just gunnaâŚâ Mervyn rambled while edging his way out of the library, Morpheus made no comment, his eyes locked with Lucienneâs, who was staring back and trying not to be daunted. A nearly impossible task, even for her.
âOnly a creature with wings, is capable of retrieving something from the relieving arch,â Morpheus stated, his eyes now hard. He was done asking questions. Yes, done with asking questions, worrying about where you were, wondering if you hated him, needing you⌠and would now demand answers. He demanded to know where you were, he demanded your presence. The secrets had gone on long enough. Even if you did in fact hate him, he still demanded your presence. âI expect Adrienne in my throne room tomorrow morning at ten oâclock exactly,â Morpheus decreed, then his eyes glowed silver in warning. âOr I shall summon her directly with my sand regardless of her wishes.â With that he strode away, coat billowing just as much as his anger.
Date Published: 7/5/23
Last Edit: 7/5/23
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Summary: After Morpheus cruelly dismisses you, you decide that you'll get back at him by staying out of the Dreaming one night for as long as you can. What you don't anticipate is letting your feelings get the best of you and getting very drunk instead.
Or, drunk shenanigans galore!
Word Count: 3.5k
Author's Note: I don't know what this is, y'all. I haven't written anything in more than a month, and it was so tough to even write this, but I wanted to write SOMETHING. As always, hope you enjoyed, let me know your thoughts, and likes, comments, and reblogs make my world go round.
ALSO! Dream logic applies here, in that you're still drunk when you reach the Dreaming.
Listen.
You know that certain coping mechanisms, like, say, going out clubbing with your friends and getting crazy drunk for the first time in a long time, arenât exactly healthy. But things have been difficult for you lately! Youâve been struggling a lot, in both your professional and personal life. These hardships are only compounded by the fact that the one person (or person-shaped being) in your life that you thought you could count on, your Morpheus, has been too busy to have time for you.
Literally. He said those exact words to you a mere three days ago, when you had found him in his personal study (a study that he almost never used) after what felt like a day spent chasing him around the Dreaming. You meant for it to come out as teasing when you took note of the fact that you hardly saw him around lately and that it felt like he was purposefully avoiding you, but he had sighed and glared at you before saying, âI have much to do, and I am far too busy to entertain you right now.â
You glowered, but, as he said, he was too busy to see it. Fine, you thought as you turned around and stalked out of his study. Leave him to his business.Â
Cut to today. When your friends asked if you wanted to go out with them, you almost said no, having gotten accustomed in the past couple of months to the routine of going to bed by nine oâclock in order to maximize time spent in your loverâs realm. But then, the more you thought about it, the more you realized that you didnât want to just continue sitting around in the Dreaming and hoping that Morphues would come out of whatever funk he was in. After all, why should you make an effort when he wonât? Youâre not about to beg for his attention.
With that in mind, you texted back that you very much wanted to go out with them and proceeded to get ready for a fun night out.
The plan was to have a couple of drinks, dance for a bit, and stay out of the Dreaming just long enough to make Morpheus sweat a bit.
But then shots had been ordered.
And your friend bought you a drink because they knew you had had a tough week.
And you bought yourself two drinks.
And a group of guys bought you another round of shots, and though you all laughed at the fact that they were not getting anything out of this, you still took them because you werenât about to turn down free alcohol.
This leads to you and your friends stumbling out of a bar at two in the morning, holding each other up as you do. Definitely not the plan, but whatâs that one quote about plans and mice and men?
âWhat about a mouse?â your friend asks from beside you, making you realize that you said that out loud.
âDonâ worry âbout it,â you say.
Somehow, you make it into a Lyft (thank the gods for friends who donât get carried away), and somehow, you make it into your home. Not without its difficultiesâyou dropped your keys multiple times on the walk to your front door, and there might be a you-shaped indent in the entryway wall from where you fell into it when trying to kick your shoes off.Â
When you reach your bedroom, you decide that actually, the floor looks comfier than your bed does. Youâre so drunk that the room feels like itâs spinning when you lay down, and you close your eyes to enjoy the ride.
âFuck, Iâm so drunk right now,â you say out loud, laughing at the sound of your slurred words.
You donât mean to fall asleep, really. You know that you need to crawl to the bathroom to wash your face and find enough dexterity to change clothes before hopefully sobering up just enough that you can make it to the kitchen to grab painkillers and water for the inevitable killer hangover youâre going to have tomorrow. The floor is just so soft, though, and you work yourself into a trance-like state by staring up at the ceiling fan and watching it go around and around and around. On one blink, youâre staring at your ceiling.
And on the next, youâre staring at another ceiling, one thatâs not really a ceiling at all, but an entire galaxy above your head.
Itâs easy to get lost in the magnificent colors swirling above you (especially in your current state), and you do, until you hear someone calling your name. When you look away from the universe, you see the love of your life looking at you, though at present, he is not reciprocating the heart eyes that you are always looking at him with.
âWhere have you been?â Morpheus demands.
âMorpheus, my love!â You throw your arms out and grin. âIâve missed you.â
âDo you have any idea how worried I have been? I sent Matthew to find you hours ago when first you were late, only for him to report that he could not find you at your home.â Youâre a little surprised that Matthew hadnât managed to track you down; your little raven friend was almost scarily good at finding people/places/things.
âAw, youâve missed me?â It makes sense, of course; after all, youâve missed him, so itâs only natural that he would miss you in return. Still, the sentiment makes you feel all warm and melty on the inside.
 Itâs obvious to anybody who actually takes the time to know Morpheusâa tiny list of people and beings, two of whom are in the room with him right nowâthat heâs fighting a war between wanting to scold you and wanting to hold you and check you up and down for wounds. Morpheus crosses the room towards you, and you ready yourself for the inevitable lecture youâre about to get, about how youâre just a fragile little human and he worries every moment that youâre away from him (yâknow, now that you have the clarity of a drunk person, youâre actually annoyed that this is constantly coming from the being thatâs meant to be your lover).
But thatâs not what happens.
Instead, you find his arms wrapped tightly around you and his face buried in your neck. Heâs hugging you, not the other way around. Heâs never done such a thing before, and you donât know how to react. What you do know is that any of the residual anger you had been feeling drains out of you like water from an unstoppered bathtub. You really didnât think that being away forâthe math isnât mathing for you currently, and you donât actually know how long itâs beenâa couple of hours would affect him this much.
âYou are the one most dear to my heart,â he mutters into your ear, cognizant of the fact that you are not alone in this throne room. âOf course, I missed you.â
âOh. When you said you were âtoo busy to entertainâ me, I just kinda assumed you wouldnât notice I was gone.â Though you donât mean to weaponize your words, the poison darts make contact with their target anyway, and Morpheus stiffens in your hold.
âAre you alright?â he asks instead, choosing to wait until a later time to have this particular conversation.
âAw, dream boyâ you coo, snaking a hand up to clumsily run it through his hair. âIâm okay baby, swear it! Like, absolutely, one hundred percent fine.â
Morpheus pulls away from you so that he can look you up and down to confirm that you really are okay. âYou smell like a pub,â he notes.Â
âHow can you tell that in the Dreaming?â
He ignores your question when a realization seems to hit him. âAre you inebriated?â
âNo, Iâm drunk,â you correct very matter-of-factly.
âThat isââ he stops, choosing instead to just shake his head.
âOh, dear,â Lucienne mutters from behind Morpheus, reminding you of her presence in the first place.
âLucienne! Hi! How have you been!âÂ
You crane around Morpheus to be able to see your favorite librarian, but you almost fall over in the process. Before you can tip too far over, Morpheus is there to right you again. When he does, he looks down at you with quite the serious expression on his perfect face.
âWho did this to you?â he asks, ready to punish whoever put you in such a state.
âVodka. Rum, maybe?â You think back on your drinks for the evening, though itâs hard to think back that far. âYeah, the second round of shots was definitely rum.â
âYou put yourself in this state?â
âYes?â Has Morpheus never heard of the concept of going out and getting shitfaced with your pals? âTo be fair, I didnât think that my drunkenness wouldâŚâ You search for the word that you want to use, but itâs just not coming to you! âUh, carry over?â
âPlease tell me you managed to make it home safely?â
You nod. âSure did! Pretty sure I fell asleep on the floor, though.â
Lucienne slowly begins to back up towards the door, and Morpheus stares at you for a long moment before sighing heavily.
âAre you mad at me?â you ask nervously, starting to get upset the longer the silence drags on. Did you say something that you shouldnât have? Is there a rule you donât know about against sleeping on floors?
Instead of answering you, Morpheus waves a hand in the air and says, âThis dream is over.âÂ
Youâre awake and once again staring up at your ceiling fan, only this time, Morpheus is also in your line of sight. Itâs impossible to stop yourself from touching him when youâre sober, so itâs not at all surprising that your hands go up to caress his face now when youâre drunk.
âHi cutie,â you greet, laughing in delight when he flushes just the slightest amount.
He grabs your hands and kisses the back of both before setting them against your chest. âWhy are you sleeping on your floor?â
âBecause,â is your simple, childish reply.
âThat is not a good answer.â
âItâs the one you get because itâs the one I have.â You throw in a peace sign to be extra spicy, but Morpheus, unfortunately, doesnât comprehend your 21st-century humor, and instead just segues into the next order of business.
âMight I help you up, so that we can get you properly ready for bed?â
âBut Iâm comfy,â you groan. Morpheus is not buying what youâre selling, unfortunately, so you sigh. âFine.â
Morpheus holds his hands out for you to take and helps you to your feet. Too fast, apparently, because the room begins to spin and your stomach tilts dangerously, making you clap a hand over your mouth.
âOh no. Dizzy, dizzy, dizzy,â you chant, squeezing your eyes shut and laying your head against Morpheusâs shoulder while you try to breathe through sudden nausea. You will not throw up on your super hot eldritch nightmare king boyfriend, you command yourself. Not tonight, and not ever.
âWhat is wrong?â Morpheus sounds panicked, and you want to reassure him, but you hold up a finger in the meantime.
When the nausea finally passes, you take a deep breath and slowly look up. âOkay, I think Iâm good now.â
âAre you sure?â
âIâm sure. Sometimes drinking too much combined with moving too fast makes people feel sick. Itâs my fault, but Iâll be okay.â
âAre you well enough to move?â
âYes, I promise.âÂ
To prove your point, you let go of his hand and start walking heel to toe as the police require during field sobriety tests (honestly, youâre a little surprised that you can actually do this right now). You can practically feel your lover's amusement behind you, but it proves to him that you are capable. Morpheus lets you walk to the bathroom on your own power, and you think the only reason he doesnât sweep you off your feet is because heâs worried youâll throw up if he does. He watches you intently the entire time, though.Â
You sit on the lip of the bathtub, watching Morpheus move about your bathroom as though he knows where everything is; he probably does, you realize, whether it be from that endless wealth of knowledge about everyone and everything that he possesses, or just his familiarity with your home. After rummaging around for a few moments, he comes back with a washcloth and your favorite pajamas. The sight of the familiar material makes you tear up, and you sniffle loudly.
Morpheus looks up in alarm. âAre you okay?â
âYou remembered my favorite pajamas,â you say, trying to not start crying. You can count on one hand the number of times heâs come directly to see you off to his realm, and youâve probably worn those pajamas twice. Yet he remembered the one-off comment you had made about how they were your favorite because of course he did.
His face softens. âOf course I did.â
You clear your throat and wipe your eyes. âSorry. Iâm okay! Just drunk.â
Morpheus hands you said pajamas before turning the faucet on and letting the water run. He seems to realize something after a moment and looks at you helplessly. âI do not feel temperature as you do. Is the water alright?âÂ
You grin and stick your hand under the faucet, moving the tap just a smidge hotter before nodding at him. âItâs good now. Thank you for asking.â
He begins to run the damp washcloth gently over your face, a barely-there smile appearing on his own when you wrinkle your nose at the cool sensations. Where this situation would be awkward with anybody else, it feels entirely natural with Morpheus. Youâll take these little moments of domesticity with him whenever you can get them, even when youâre still half drunk.
Even if you wanted to, you canât hold yourself back from saying, âYouâre so beautiful, do you know that? Seriously, youâre the prettiest man-slash-anthropomorphic-personification Iâve ever seen in my entire life.â The words are heavy on your tongue, but youâre pretty proud of the way you only barely stumble through âanthropomorphicâ.
âYou are still under the influence,â he notes.
âSo? Drunk words equal sober thoughts, right?â
ââA drunk mind speaks a sober heart.â Jean-Jacques Rosseau,â he supplies.
âSure, that. Iâd tell you how pretty you are even if I was sober, and you know that.â
âPerhaps.â He says it in that infuriatingly sexy way of his, the one that makes you want to tear his clothes off.
Instead, youâre the one taking your own clothes off, though not for any fun reason. Getting changed is not as difficult a task as it would have been when you first arrived home, with the benefit of time naturally sobering one up on your side. Morpheus still keeps a hand held out, just in case you lose your balance and need something to grab onto, but after youâve finished changing, that hand slips under your shirt and caresses your side.
âThought you were supposed to be helping me keep my clothes on,â you say with a shiver, grabbing his wrist and pulling the offending extremity out from under your shirt.
âApologies.â His tone implies that heâs not sorry at all, not that you would want him to be. âI simply couldnât resist.â
He looks down at you with so much love in those blue eyes of his that you feel like you donât think your mortal mind could ever truly comprehend it. Nobody has ever loved you the way that Morpheus hasâall-consuming and passionate. He told you once that many of his relationships had ended because he had been seen as too intense, too obsessive in his love. Bring it on, you had told him when he expected you to back down. To date, you havenât regretted that.
You donât think you ever will.
Now that you can see the end of your night in sight, tiredness begins to seep into your bones. Though your bed is just right through the bathroom door, it feels miles away. With that in mind, you ask, âWill you carry me?âÂ
âWere you not worried that you would feel sick?â
âYeah, but Iâm tired.â You pout (on purpose because you know what it does to him), and you can practically see his resolve break. âJust be careful?â
âAlways,â he promises.
And careful he is, slowly picking you up and waiting until you nod to carry you to your bed. He sets you down gently, Youâre thrilled to see a glass of water already waiting for you on your bedside table, Morpheus anticipating your needs before youâve even realized you have them in the first place.
Crawling under the covers after finishing your water, you motion for Morpheus to sit next to you on the bed. He does as you ask, and you move your pillows so that you can sit up and lean on him. When youâre comfortable, you say, âThank you for everything tonight. I know taking care of me wasnât what you had planned.â
âYou need not thank me. I enjoy caring for you, no matter the situation.âÂ
Your eyes flutter closed at the sensation of his hand carding through your hair, and you start to feel yourself inching closer to the Dreaming. Something keeps you from truly falling asleep, though, and when Morpheus shifts next to you, you realize what it is: the conversationâs not over. Morpheus is trying to figure out how to say what it is he wants to say.
Finally, he figures it out. âMight I ask you something?â
You open your eyes to give him your full attention and nod.
âEarlier, when you seemed surprised that I had noticed your absence. Did you do this,â âthisâ being getting very drunk, âbecause of what I said?â
âNo. I mean, I went out because I was mad at you, and I figured that me being a couple of hours late would make you learn your lesson, but I got drunk because I wanted to have fun with my friends and let loose.â
âAnd did you?â
âMaybe a little too much,â you admit cheekily.
âI apologize for my harsh words the other day. I have beenâŚfeeling burdened under the weight of my realm, and I took it out on you for no reason.â
âItâs okay, Morpheus. Youâre busy running an entire realm and overseeing the collective unconscious. I shouldnât be so needy.â
He shakes his head. âIt is not okay. I should never talk to you in such a way, and you should never feel as though I do not want you around. I do want you around, always.â
âPeople say things that they donât mean. That doesnât mean theyâre not worthy of forgiveness. But you gotta talk to me, okay? When youâre feeling stressed, or when things get to be too much. Iâm here for you, and I want to support you however I can.â
âI love you,â he says. The fact that heâs being so open with his emotions is a pleasant surprise; it took him so long to be the first to say it, and even longer to be comfortable with it. You smile up at him.
âI love you, too. Stay with me until I fall asleep?â
âOf course.â
Morpheus turns your bedroom light off without you needing to ask (seriously, you love him so much), and you close your eyes. Then, a thought hits you.
âHey,â you say, staring up at him in the dark and waiting until he looks at you to continue. âCan you get drunk?â
âNo.â
âWhy not? I mean, isnât there special alcohol for preternatural beings? Youâd think gods and goddesses wouldâve figured out a way to get turnt by now.â
Though he doesnât want to give in to your rambling when youâre meant to be trying to fall asleep, he canât help but indulge you. âGods and goddesses can. We, the Endless, cannot.â
âWhat? Thatâs so fucking lame. No. Thatâsâthatâs an injustice! Iâm so sorry.
âI promise, it is okay. Now, please go to sleep.â
You nod, but close your eyes for maybe thirty seconds before they snap open again with a realization. âWait.â
âWhat?â
âYou mentioned other gods and goddesses. How many are there? Are they all real? Is actual God real? I mean, I know the devil is real, you kicked their ass for your helm, but for some reason thatâs more believable thanââ
âGo. To. Sleep,â Morpheus commands.
âUgh, youâre no fun!â
âI am not afraid to use my sand if need be.â
âYou wouldnât.â You raise an eyebrow in challenge, and he raises one right back. After a brief stalemate, youâre the first to give in. âYou have to understand how world-altering this information is to a regular human like me, I meanââ
Youâre asleep before your head hits the pillow.
Have you guys ever noticed how many creatures are actually dogs in disguises? A dog in an alien body, a dog in a bug body, a dog in a dragon body, a dog in an alien body (because that happens so much). Everything is a dog! The cockroach from Wall-E, the alien from John Carter ⌠staaahp!
Iâm tired of seeing other creatures be really âdogsâ dressed up. Letâs get imaginative, people. I mean, I get why filmmakers and writers do it. Dogs are very common pets, so we relate to them and their behaviors, often on a personal level. But THANK YOU J.K. Rowling for not giving us yet another dog -_- and giving us creatures with unique, yet still relateable demeanors!
And guess what? You donât have to show a tail wagging or a scampering bow-wow to make a creature relateable. The reality is, weâve all seen and encountered a variety of animals and animal behaviors. Nifflers love shiny things. Cool. So do most birds. Cockatiels will sometimes try to steal earrings or jewelry off you. Mine has pecked off all the sparkles on my sandals before I could wear them twice. But guess what? The Niffler wasnât a bird in a Niffler body either. It had its own personality and body language.
I love when Newt tries to put Picket, the Bowtruckle, back on its tree, but it keeps moving from one hand to the otherâhow many times has that happened to us when trying to put a bug back on a plant? And Picket suffers from separation anxietyâlike a lot of pets. But notice that no bug suffers from separation anxiety from humans. So the filmmakers put two different kinds of relateable behaviors in one creature, instead of making the creature a direct copy of one we already know (or, alternatively, a shallow, obvious combination of two very specific animals -_- ) Also, wasnât the Occamyâs attentiveness with bugs something weâve seen in animals before too? Thatâs a behavior Iâve seen with dogs (but again, the Occamy wasnât a dog in an Occamy body like so many others.)
So you donât have to make your beast a dog to be relateable. Dogs arenât the only ones with endearing behaviors. Cats arenât the only others. Brainstorm fresh but relateable behaviors and figure out how to implement them in your creatures, without making your creature an exact copy. Itâs probably a good idea to also give them a behavior that is more foreign and alien. The Demiguise may resemble a monkey, but it can see into the near-future based on probabilityâno real animal does that. It also gives you something unique to play with. That, paired with their invisibility, make Demiguises very difficult to find and catch. Donât forget that one of the draws of fantastic creatures for your audience is a sense of wonder (or occasionally horror).
After you have some behaviors (and abilities), youâll want to see how you can take advantage of them for interesting effect and possible conflicts. Fantastic Beasts did a great job of taking advantage of a variety of animal behaviors and abilities. I mentioned that in my review, but really, guysâreally.
I talked about the Niffler and Bowtruckle above, but notice how each created a different kind of conflict? Chasing and trying to catch the Niffler is a nightmare! When Newt had to bargain with that goblin over Picket, it created a personal conflict of pain, because we knew how attached Picket was to Newt (k, am I the only one who totally fell in love with Eddie Redmayneâs rendition of Newt taking a moment to wipe his eyes and nose at that part, but soldiering on? It was perfection). But what would animals be without their whacky mating behaviors? Weâve probably all seen some weird ones on the Discovery channel. And the movie took advantage of that too, to create conflict. And of course itâs with an animal that can blow up. In fact, one of the reasons Erumpents are so rare is because the males frequently explode each during mating season.
The Occamy grows or shrinks to fit available space and Rowling took advantage of that too, having one grow to a huge size, which left the characters with the struggle of finding and getting it into something that would shrink it. The concept that certain animals grow to fit their habitat is nothing new, people claim fish and serpents do the same (which many argue against), so Rowling took that idea and brought it to the next level. And it had cool factor too.
Oh yeah, and lets not forget the one that was invisible.
Not all dogs have the same personality. Not even dogs of the same breed. Neither do fish. I keep an aquarium and Iâll tell you that even fish have different personalities. I had an algae eater once that was shy and would never want to go out and get food when all the other fish were eating it. The algae eater I have now is the exact opposite. It chases off all the other fish (and frog) from the food so it can eat it all. My parents have two dogs. One hates toys that have the texture of rubber. The other loves them. Picket is attached to Newt. The other Bowtruckles arenât. When talking about the Erumpent, Newt acknowledges its own individuality. âErumpent musk,â Newt says, âsheâs mad for it.â Sure, all female Erumpents will be attracted to it, but his tone of voice suggests that perhaps this one in particular likes it intensely.
Your creature characters shouldnât function as mere tools or possessions. Even the Swooping Evil, which is used awesomely and cleverly as an object, exhibits its own loyalty to Newt in choosing to listen to him over its yearning to eat brains.
I touched on this earlier, but with made-up creatures, it can be a great idea to give them a cool factor. The Swooping Evil is freaking cool. Itâs like a yo-yo pokemon butterfly with a skull (by the way, notice that complex contradiction? A butterfly creature? With a skull head?). But it also creates a sense of wonder or horror in that it likes to eat peopleâs brains. I sometimes talk about the cool factor on my blog, but the reality is you can have other âfactorsâ too. Frank the Thunderbird has a cool factor, but itâs kind of more of a âwowâ factor. Itâs a creature that audiences watch with a sense of awe. Not only is he gorgeous, but heâs majestic too.
You can have a cute factor. The Niffler is a perfect example of this. I saw the movie twice opening weekend, and both times the audience squealed over its cuteness, and online people are talking about how they wish they could buy one. You can have a horror factor. While this one didnât technically come from a beast, the Obscurus had a horror factor. You could give one to a creature too. Just look at Aragog. Basically a factor is a strong feeling that your creature elicits. If itâs cool, it needs to be really cool. If itâs wow, it needs to be really wow. If itâs cute, it needs to be really cute.
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