the burdened:
“ being alive is exhausting. ”
“ i ruin everything i touch. ”
“ no one ever helped me when i needed it. so, i just. try to do my best to keep others from feeling that kind of loneliness. ”
“ i feel like the pain is all i am anymore. ”
“ i wish i remembered anything other than loneliness. ”
“ i’m not a particularly good person. but sometimes i wish someone would think i am. ”
“ i’m just always the one who gets left behind. ”
“ i never seem to belong anywhere. or to anyone. ”
“ i’m alone. and it’s my own fault. but it doesn’t make it hurt any less. ”
“ i don’t know how to just live. i constantly feel like i’m waiting for the other shoe to drop. ”
“ i always expect people to hurt me. because they usually do. ”
“ i don’t know how to let go of my trauma. i don’t know what i am without it. ”
“ it’s better if i’m alone. i can’t hurt anyone if there’s no one close enough to get hit by the debris of my fuck ups. ”
“ there are just too many people depending on me. i can’t rest. i can’t let them down. ”
“ i don’t have anything or anyone left anymore. ”
“ i’m not strong. or brave. i survive ‘cause there’s not really any other choice. ”
“ i tried to give up before. but the universe just didn’t let me. ”
“ i just want to be done. i’m tired. i’m so, so fucking tired. ”
“ i know it’s selfish. but i wish someone would just take care of me. ”
“ every time i start to feel like things are getting quieter and i can feel safe, something bad always happens. ”
“ i tend to love people more than they love me. and it’s okay. i don’t mind but…it can be lonely. ”
“ i just don’t feel like my life makes any difference to anyone. i’m just here. ”
the comforter:
“ hey, look at me. i’m listening. you can tell me anything. ”
“ how can i help you feel less alone? ”
“ i’m here and i’m not leaving or letting you change the subject. now talk to me. ”
“ i know you feel like you’re alone and i’m not going to invalidate that. but i can tell you that i’m here. and i know there are people who want to care and help if you’ll let them. ”
“ whatever it is you’re struggling with, i want to help and it’s not going to make me look at you any different. ”
“ i like having you around. and not because of what you can do for me or give to me— i like you. i value you as a person. ”
“ i just need you to know that you’ve never been ‘nobody’ to me. you’ve never been nothing. ”
“ you’re important to me. you hear me? you’re important. and that’s never gonna change. ”
“ i’m not going anywhere until you get some sleep. ”
“ i want to take care of you. please, let me. ”
“ no one is meant to be all alone. that’s not how humans are built. you don’t need to do all this on your own. ”
“ you don’t deserve the bad things that happen to you. you never did. ”
“ i can’t promise you aren’t going to have any more hardship. but i can promise i’m gonna be right here to get your through it. ”
“ you make a difference in my life. i’m not just saying that. it wouldn’t be the same without you here and i don’t want to find out what it’d be like to not have you around. ”
“ next time it gets this bad, you call me okay? now you just sit there and i’m gonna make you some tea and soup and we’re gonna talk this out. ”
“ is it getting bad again? ”
“ you are so much stronger and braver than you think. ”
Them: Why do you listen to music in a language you don’t even speak?
Me:
Me: wHy dO yoU liSteN tO mUsiC iN A laNguAGe yOU dOn’T eVen sPeaK?
member: haechan / nct
genre: fluff, comedy
word count: 1.4k
summary: lee donghyuck is a class clown without a care in the world— so why does he suddenly care about you? (or, in which donghyuck is a little shit but you kinda like it)
playlist: x
a/n: this can be a part 1 if enough people want a part 2 !!! aCK this was so SICKENINGLY cute i was dying the whole time i wrote it uwu. this was based off of this post !
It’s not like Donghyuck liked you. No, nothing like that. You just… always had a leaf in your hair or a smudge on your face, or he was staring at something behind you.
He definitely, absolutely, decidedly, did not have a giant crush on you.
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cyno x gn!reader
General Mahamatra’s significant other is here.
Most Akademiya scholars, for all their pride in being well-read intellectuals, have little to no clue on how a person like you managed to have a relationship with the intimidating Matra. You were… well, in most circumstances, they wouldn’t hesitate to judge you based on your background—or lack, thereof, in terms of your studies—but as stated earlier, Lord Cyno is Intimidating.
They watch you bid him goodbye with an embrace and a far too large grin on your bubbly-looking face. Cyno, for his part, returns your embrace stiffly, a rare smile brightening his usually stoic expression. The scholars watch the interaction with barely hidden interest, pretending to read a book or, in one woman’s case, pretending to sweep the floor.
They all collectively cringe inside when they see you trip on your own robes and nearly fall face-first onto the floors if you hadn’t managed to grab onto a table for support. You were just so… they hastily flick their eyes to Lord Cyno in case he magically heard their thoughts, only to see him watching you with a fond, out of place look in his eyes.
Right. There’s the issue of that too. He’s soft when you’re around, less unapproachable to others. But then there’s the issue of you and your general… you-ness.
You’re by the archway leading to the exit a few feet away from him, waving your hand in the air like a child. Then you stop as if an idea has formed in your head, and within this moment and the next, you bring your palm to your lips and blow a kiss in General Mahamatra’s direction, an exaggerated mwah! sound echoing through the chamber.
Most scholars have agreed to never speak of you in a bad tone after seeing what Lord Cyno did to the last person who did so. It’s best to just turn a blind eye to most of the things you do that would normally have them raising an eyebrow like the haughty intellectuals they are.
But this thing they’re seeing right now? It’s absurd enough in their eyes that a few don’t manage to contain the scoff that spills from their lips. (Cyno sweeps a chilling gaze over them and memorizes each face frozen in horror over what they’ve just done.)
Much to the shock of everyone within vicinity of such a display, Cyno doesn’t turn around and ignore your childish act. Instead, he brings his hand up and pretends to catch your kiss, bringing it to his lips before blowing one right back at you. All of this is done with a straight face that would have normally sent a young student running in the opposite direction.
You catch it with both hands and place them right in front of your chest, pretending to swoon as you slowly walked away. It brings the smallest of smiles to Lord Cyno that doesn’t disappear until you’re gone from eyesight.
They have a brief moment to sigh in relief at the thought of them being in the clear.
But then he turns to them with a dark look that has their knees shaking in fear.
“I heard those scoffs.”
They all send a short prayer to Greater Lord Rukkhadevata.
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It had been a week since A died, and B had finally gotten around to cleaning out their room. They finished packing the last box around midnight, and got up from the floor. As they stretched, they felt something move behind them. B whirled around and to their shock, A was standing behind them.
"A?" B choked out, taking a hesitant step forward. For the first time in a week, happiness bloomed in their chest. A smiled at them and reached out, as if to touch B. "A-are you alive?"
A's smile faltered. "I'm afraid not," they said, stretching out a hand. Hope died in B's heart as they noticed the transparency of A's fingers. B let out a sob.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I couldn't save you."
"Hey, it's okay," A said. "You couldn't have done anything. B, listen, it's wonderful to see you again, but I have to warn you. Something's coming. Something bad. You and the others have to get ready."
"What? I-I don't understand."
A smiled. "That's why I'm here. Come on, B. Let's work together, one last time."
-Mod Minita
(190911) the 9th s05e01 : hyunjin.
EMOTIONALLY CHARGED SENTENCES STARTERS
❝ i need you. don’t you get that? ❞
❝ i’m right here. i’m always here right in front of you but you never see me! ❞
❝ you’re my person. ❞
❝ no, i don’t wanna have to talk to anyone else right now. i just want you. ❞
❝ i know you’re busy and i don’t want to bother you i just— can i just sit here with you while you work? ❞
❝ are we okay? ❞
❝ honestly, i’m always there. in my head. the scars on my body might’ve healed but i never really walked away from it. ❞
❝ do you want me to make the others leave? or we could go, get some fresh air. ❞
❝ look i’m not coddling you, i’m just trying to help. i wanna take care of you cause i, you know— care about you. ❞
❝ alright, here’s your coffee. are you ready to talk or should i find something to ramble about for a few minutes? ❞
❝ eventually, you just gotta learn to let go of the past. it’s always gonna hurt, but you can choose when to start focusing on something other than the pain. ❞
❝ hey, just breathe. look at me— look at me. in and out. breathe with me okay? ❞
❝ keep your eyes on me— just focus on me. we’re gonna be okay. ❞
❝ no, i’m not okay. nothing is okay. it never is. but that’s just how i function most days. so i’ll be fine. ❞
❝ i’m not gonna pretend anymore. i’m still fucked up from it all and i don’t know when it gets better. ❞
❝ if you keep waiting until you’re done ‘working on yourself’ before you let yourself be with the person you love, you’re never gonna be with them. and they’ll find someone else who is brave enough to give them a chance to love them exactly how they already are. ❞
❝ why do you stick around? what is it you think you see in me? ❞
❝ not everything needs an explanation. i care about you. i don’t have to sit here and figure out why. i just do. so maybe you should try just accepting it too. ❞
❝ i don’t need your permission to fall in love with you. you don’t gotta love me back, but it isn’t gonna stop me from being here when you need someone. ❞
❝ you love me too much. i know how that sounds but— fucking hell. you shouldn’t care that much about someone like me. ❞
❝ i don’t care if loving you hurts me. the world already has enough pain to dole out for no reason, at least i’ll have gotten these scars from something beautiful. ❞
❝ if people can hate for no reason, than i can love for no reason too. ❞
❝ one day you’re gonna need me and i’m not gonna be there to fix it. ❞
❝ no, i can’t fix everything for you this time. it’s your mess. clean it up. ❞
❝ i dunno who taught you that love comes with conditions and limitations, but mine doesn’t. not when it’s you. ❞
❝ i don’t know how to ask for help i just— i’ve never had anyone to ask for help from before. so…this is me trying i guess. i need it and i’m afraid to ask for it. that’s the best i can do. ❞
Crumpling to the ground
Might hit their head going down
Catching themself before falling completely
On a wall
A friend
A handrail
Etc.
Leaning against something for support
Faux casual, everything’s fine, but it’s impossible to miss the way they’re shaking
Forearm against the wall, breathing raggedly
Slumping completely into support
Back to the wall
Sliding down the wall as their legs buckle