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weird rules, social expectations and Being A Woman

you know, something that really pisses me off about Society (tm) is how normativity is just so mindlessly, happily rewarded, even by the most tolerant of people. specifically (but not exclusively) regarding to gender expression.

i am a woman. i was born a woman, i live as a woman, i am perceived as a woman, and i even identify as a woman. ill admit i also have some gender fuckery going on in here, but my internal identity is, frankly, nobodys business; im happy to be assumed a woman, because i honestly dont care how others perceive me in this regard. but. this doesnt mean that i am happy to do the whole nonsense routine that is required to be considered a Real Woman by almost everyone in this god darn planet. i dont do makeup, i dont like to style my hair, i mostly stopped shaving, and you couldnt pay me to care about clothes.

my mother is always telling me about how pretty i am. growing up, i heard it all the time. you have such beautiful curls, if i had hair like yours i would let it grow a lot longer (thanks, i like it shorter tho). im so jealous of your eyes, they are so blue! (haha yeah, i was born with them). i bet this dress would look so pretty on you, why do you never wear skirts? (they just make me uncomfortable, i like my own clothes anyways). if you wore makeup more often you would look so much more beautiful (i like how my face looks, thanks). you should shave your legs, they look bad like that (you never tell [brother] to shave his legs).

it is infuriating. i hate it so, so much. i am a woman, not a doll to play dress up with. and if i have to pretend to be a human, the least that society could do is to just let me exist in peace! it drives me crazy that all this is even expected. worst part, it is fucking Everywhere.

this christmas one of my cousins got me a new pencil case. it is pink and green, and has some cats and snakes and bugs and moons drawn on it. it is beautiful, and although i wasnt too thrilled about the color, i figured it was cool so i began using it. one of my friends saw me take it out during class, said oooo [name], thats so pretty! and gave me a Look. i dont know how to explain it without sounding crazy, but i swear it was like she was saying, so now you like Woman Stuff! you know what Look im talking about, right? when you finally cave in and do the feminine thing, and its like everyone is so happy that youre finally filling your expected role in life. it is weird as hell. i dont like it.

but like, this is my friend, who supports me being aroace and autistic and IS BISEXUAL HERSELF! something something, leftism leaving peoples bodies when a gender non-conforming person does something that is stereotypically associated with their gender. idk, its a bit like dog training when you think about it for a second. in animal training (and i mean proper animal training, not beating your dog until it stops barking), good behavior should be rewarded, while bad behavior is supposed to be ignored so the animal learns to only do the good behavior. you do the feminine thing, and you get smiles and compliments; you stop doing it, then suddenly gender presentation doesnt matter. and this... training behavior is, of course, mostly unconscious, with its perpetrators unaware that theyre even doing it. if i asked my friend what she meant by that, she would say that she didnt mean anything, she just liked the case. if i asked my mother why do i have to shave while my brother doesnt, she would say that its just how things are.

its just how things are. its how it always has been. its how it always will be. so just shut up, smile, and pretend it isnt happening. pretend youre not being trained like a dog to salivate at the sound of a bell. it doesnt matter, it isnt happening, so why bother thinking about it? dont think about it. stop thinking about it.

Blue wolf comin' though!

i think when people say AI art is ''missing a soul'' it's just a simplified way to say it lacks what we basically consider human effort behind it, all the subconscious and conscious processes that lead someone to create are gone, the only purpose of the image is to be consumed and discarded because there isn't any emotional context behind it, no past, no process, nothing further to gain from it other than what the computer thinks majority of people find generically pleasing. i genuinely see no cultural purpose in such ''art'', there is absolutely nothing to be gained from it other than ''computer can also make pretty image now''

Had a feeling there was some symbolism in those flowers. It immediately reminded me of that one side mission in Nier:Automata (Spoilers for that below)

Ouch, thanks for that Sega

"Cuz every time we touch, I get this feeling"

The last days of the petition against conversion therapy are FASCINATING to watch. I have been following it pretty closely for almost a year now, and the progress was, above all, steady. There was this jump when some algorithm in Finland picked it up, but even that was local.

And now, everyone is panicking.

Which really shows.

These past three or four days, multiple countries have reached the threshold. Even more notably, the number of signatures in total, the ones that we need to get one million of, are growing rapidly. There are only 400'000 signatures missing. Two days ago, it was closer to 600'000.

You can see the progress here:

eci.ec.europa.eu

European Citizens' Initiative

Give your support !

Consider joining the fun by making everyone around you sign it!

the fetishization of limb loss in media

why. literally why. like everyone has at least one oc with like a fake arm or leg. their disability is not seen as a disability because people think prosthetics like fix you or something. you never see someone with rotationoplasty or any limb difference that isn't at least half amputated. maybe someone lost a finger or toe and they wear a prosthetic??? why??? people don't do that. also. prosthetics don't move or work like natural limbs. god please stop. as someone with an upper limb difference, I can confidently say that people who use arm/ hand prosthetics are a minority. we have been using our arms our entire lives and where someone sees no hand, or a misshapen hand, we just see ourselves. we have adapted to life, we hold things strangely but we hold things. we don't need hunks of metal so people feel more comfortable with the way we hold shit like really?? maybe your oc with a bionic leg, doesn't have a bionic leg that looks identical to his other leg. maybe he uses a weelchair, or crutches. maybe your oc with a bionic arm, doesn't have a bionic arm and instead of pretending to have representation, actually do some research. maybe they have a club foot, maybe symbrachydactyly, maybe they are missing a finger and they don't wear a prosthetic pinkie?????????? food for thought xo

More of Venesse and Mickey!

Finally gave Sonic Frontiers Final Horizon a go and so far I’m having kinda mixed feelings.

Expand for big ramble

I’m excited we get to play as other characters again and exploring the island with them is pretty fun. But their gameplay feels a bit off? Unpolished? A lof of their platforming sections feel like I’m performing some kind of difficult glitch in an area I should be careful not to clip out of. I often feel pretty directionless too and only figure out things by accident. Or I find a way to fly over the challenge to skip it completely. This might just be me not having played for a while and being rusty, but after looking online, I’m glad I’m not the only one who noticed quite a difficulty spike.

At first when I switched back to Sonic I felt relieved. The spin dash is really cool and I figured that since the game is mostly designed around him, I’d get less frustrated. That quickly changed once I started my climb on the first tower though. After maybe ten tries or so I decided to put the game away for the time being cuz of getting too frustrated.

I don’t mind a challenge every now and then, but if I keep going “just gotta get through this and then we’re back in the flow again” over and over without getting in that flow again somewhere in between, that’s not fun to me. I really wanna enjoy playing this, but I dunno if that’s possible if the entire DLC keeps feeling like that for me