At This Point I'll Just Start Writing My Own Fanfics, Where Are The Nick Fanfics???

Can I get a fic where male reader has had an attitude all day and Nick decided to fuck it out of him and overstimulate him. (So there is like a lot of teasing and maybe he gets like tied to the bed?)

All I Need.

Summary: after telling you all day to behave, Nick grows tired of you attitude and decides to fuck it out of you.

Tw: NSFW, cursing, a few spanks, Nick calls reader slut a few times.

Note: I tried to keep the readers body as vague as possible so everyone can enjoy this :3 also, i wrote this with that outfit on mind.

There was no reason for me to be grumpy, I just woke up this way, sadly for everyone else today was a busy day.

‘’What do you want to eat?’’ Nick looks down at his phone scrolling throw the ordering app.

‘’I don’t know, whatever.’’ He slightly raises his eyes to look at me, his brows a bit frowned.

‘’I’m asking you, what do you want to eat?’’ he asks again and I let out a huff.

‘’Whatever.’’ I roll my eyes at him and cross my arms.

‘’Don’t talk to me like that… I’ll order and if you don’t like I don’t wanna hear you whinnying about it, got it?’’ he looks back at his phone ordering our breakfast.

When the food arrived, I don’t want to eat it. I just stare at it while Nick eats from his sandwich.  

‘’Why won’t you eat?’’ he finally asks after a while, I just shrug my shoulders and he lets out a sigh.

‘’Don’t want to.’’

‘’You could have told me that.’’

‘’Whatever.’’

‘’Don’t whatever me. What happened today? Why are you so moody?’’ he’s frowning, the muscles of his face tensing and I don’t know why, but it makes me feel grumpier.

‘’I don’t know, leave me alone.’’

His jaw tenses and then he speaks softly. ‘’Okay.’’

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It was a long day, photoshoot after breakfast, lunch with friends, afternoon meeting to discuss the next merch drop, and at night dinner with friends again. Normally this wouldn’t have bothered me, but today I just can’t seem to be able to take it.

‘’Boy, what’s wrong with you?’’ Tara who is sitting besides me asks.

‘’I don’t know. I woke up with the worst mood ever, I am so grumpy for no reason.’’ I grumble to her.

‘’I get it, it sometimes happens to me too. Wanna tell me about it?’’ I do, I talk to her about how I feel and I start to lighten up, feeling like the burden of the day is leaving my body. We start to laugh and joke about our grumpy moods. From time to time I feel Nicks intense stare from across the table, but I decide to brush it off.

‘’Give me a second, I’ll go to the bathroom.’’ I stand up and walk to the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror and move my hair a bit, I hear the door opening and I see Nicks reflection on the mirror.

‘’So, you are not grumpy anymore?’’ I look at him on the mirror, his arms are crossed over his chest and he looks mad.

‘’Maybe, I don’t know.’’

‘’Oh, I think you aren’t because you were laughing a lot with Tara out there.’’ I turn around and also cross my arms, my chin high and a grin on my face.

‘’Yeah, she’s really funny.’’

‘’Is that so?’’ he raises on eyebrow, slowly walking towards me. ‘’Does she make you laugh more than me?’’

‘’Not really, but she knows how to handle me when I’m grumpy.’’ Both of his hands are on my hips, his gaze piercing throw my soul.

‘’And I can’t? are you saying I can’t handle you?’’ Nicks voice is low, his grip on my hips tightening and I gulp nervously.

‘’Maybe if you feel that way it’s because it’s true…’’ I smile playfully and he growls.

‘’You were being a brat all day, you are so fucking spoiled you think you can get away with everything. Don’t make me get angrier because you won’t like how I am planning to make you behave.’’ My cheeks turn red, he knows just how to handle me, he knows exactly what to do and say to make me melt on his hands. But I want more, I want to see how far a can push.

‘’You hallow threats don’t scare me.’’ I walk away from his grip and to the bathroom door. ‘’Also, I think you look hot when you try to be dominant.’’ I wink at him and walk out of the bathroom; I hear a faint mumbling inside of it and I giggle as I make my way to the table.

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‘’Want me to drop you off?’’ Matt talks softly to me when we everybody is standing outside the restaurant, saying goodbyes, seeing of they will go to their homes.

‘’I already ordered an uber for us.’’ Nick says standing besides me, his hand on my waist, pressing me against him.

‘’You staying the night there?’’ Matt asks again and Nick hums. ‘’Okay, see you then. Bye.’’ Then he walks besides Chris who was saying goodbye to everybody.

When the car arrives Nick and I sit in silent, both of his hands on his knees, he seems grumpy. I might have flirted a bit with Jake to see how he reacts, but I don’t think he is too mad… is he?

When we arrive at my apartment, I thank the driver and we walk in silence to my place. I feel his gaze on my back as I unlock the door slowly, regretting a bit my actions.

‘’I-… Nick.’’

‘’Shut up.’’ He pushes the door open and shoves me inside too. He closes the door behind him, takes of his jacket and hangs it on the coat hanger. ‘’Go to your room, take off your clothes, leave your boxers. I want you on your knees on the floor when I arrive. If you are not doing it, I swear…’’ he takes a deep breath, he is not looking at me, he is massaging his forehead with one hand, my legs shake as I nod even when he can’t see me. ‘’Go, 10, 9…’’ I sprint to my room, undoing my pants and taking of my shirt on the way there. I slam the door open and throw my shirt somewhere, quickly shoving my shoes out and then taking off my pants, I try to steady my breath as I kneel on the floor in front of my bed.

I hear the faint steps and counting getting louder and louder. ‘’1 and 0.’’ Nick enters the room, his tie undone and his shirt undone a few buttons. ‘’Oh, so you can be obedient.’’ He sits at the edge of the bed in front of me, my cheeks turn red and I nod slightly. ‘’You made me really mad today, being a brat all day, you think that I was going to let it slide?’’ I shake my head. ‘’And then it seems like nothing happened, like you weren’t a fucking whinny bitch all day, you go and laugh your ass off with Tara, and then you fucking flirt with Jake, in front of me.’’ I gulp and look down at his boots. ‘’Maybe I have been too nice with you lately and you have forgotten who you belong to.’’ I shake my head. ‘’Words, slut.’’ His hand grips my jaw, forcing my head up, meeting his eyes that seemed darker than usual.

‘’N-no. I’m yours.’’

‘’Well, you aren’t acting like it. I’ll have to fuck you into my good boy again, don’t I?’’ I nod the best I can with his iron grip on me. ‘’That’s it.’’ His hand leaves my jaw, it goes to his pants to undo them and lower them enough so he can take his dick out. ‘’Come closer, crawl.’’ He pats his thigh, and I crawl closer to him, his hand gripping the base of his cock, pumping it a few times. ‘’Go on, suck it.’’ His hand leaves his dick and makes its way to my head, grabbing me by the hair and pulling my face closer to him, I open my mouth and take him. I move my head up and down slowly, his hand is still on my hair, not pushing or pulling, not yet. ‘’Shit, that’s it. Faster.’’ I obey, moving my head faster and deeper. He lets out a growl, I look up at him, his head is throwed back and his eyes are closed. Then I feel it, his grip on my hair tightening, he starts pushing and pulling my head, using my mouth just for his pleasure, I feel the tip close to the back of my throat, my eyes are watery and I gag with every thrust. He looks down at me, biting on his lip. ‘’God, my slut taking that cock so well in his mouth. Fuck, you look so pretty with your mouth full.’’ He pulls my head backwards, with my tongue out and a few tears running down my eyes I pant, looking up at him with my teary eyes, I feel his precum on my cheek and nose, I can taste it on my tongue.

‘’Shit. So pretty when I use you, so fucking handsome. Is that all you needed to shut up? You needed my dick on your mouth to finally shut up. Tell me baby.’’ I close my mouth, licking my lips and nodding. ‘’That’s it, good slut.’’ I place my head on his thigh and he pats my head softly. After a few seconds my breath is steady again, he wipes the tears that fell down my face. ‘’On the bed, now.’’ I stand up, slowly laying down on the bed. My legs are clenched together trying to find a bit of friction. I see Nick taking his tie off. ‘’Arms up.’’ As soon as he says it my arms are above my head, my wrists together, and he softly but efficiently ties my hands together.

His hands roam my body, his teeth and lips leaving red marks all over my body. He doesn’t miss a single spot, my arms, my neck, chest, belly, thighs. My body squirms and shivers with his touch. Moans slipping from my mouth. ‘’Please, need you.’’

‘’But baby, don’t you remember? You were a fucking brat today; you don’t get to decide what you get… but maybe if you beg I’ll consider letting you cum.’’ He bites my thigh and slaps it.

‘’Please, I need you. Please, I’m sorry, won’t do it again, just please, want you so bad.’’ I feel him smiling against my skin. Nick bites the hem of my boxers and slides them down, my breath hitches at that sight.

‘’God, you are a mess. So, fucking needy.’’ he reaches out to my nightstand grabbing a bottle of lube that he left last time, he coats two of his fingers on it. ‘’Knees to your chest.’’ He demands, I pull up my legs the best I can without the help of my hands. ‘’Good job. Fuck, look at you, all wet and ready for me.’’ His fingers make their way to my entrance, slowly drawing lines and circles on in, making my legs tremble. Slowly he pushes the two fingers in, making my back arch a bit, my mouth opening and a soft moan escaping my mouth. His fingers start making scissor motions for a few seconds, then the introduces another finger, and this time he stars pumping the three of them at an ungodly pace. My back arching more, mouth and pleads leaving my mouth. ‘’Keep your legs up, come on.’’ His other hand on one of my knees, keeping it against my chest.

"Can’t. Fuck, I can’t. Please, please, can I cum?’’

‘’Go ahead baby.’’ a few quick pumps more and my legs were shaking, my head pressed against the mattress, but his hands didn’t stop, he started pumping faster, his fingers curling just the right way hitting all the right spots inside of me. ‘’Fuck, Nick. Please!’’ My eyes get watery, my hands gripping the sheets below it.

‘’I wanna hear you, don’t hold back. Make sure everyone hears how much of a slut you are for me, want everyone to know how good I make you feel.’’ My legs can’t stop shaking. I can’t control my moans. My thoughts are incoherent and my words too.

‘’Please! too much. So good.’’ I feel my stomach tightening again, and once again I let myself go on his hand. But this time he pulls his fingers out.

‘’Good fucking slut.’’ He kisses my cheek. ‘’My handsome pretty slut.’’ My chest goes up and down heavily. ‘’Can you keep going.’’ I nod. ‘’Words baby, need you to tell me what color.’’

‘’Yes, yes. Green.’’

‘’Good job.’’ He kisses my cheek again. ‘’On all fours.’’ He whispers against my hear. Letting go of my thighs he lets me roll around and I try to hold myself up the best I can with my shaky legs. I feel one slap on my ass and then the same hand gripping my hip. ‘’Say please, tell me you want me inside of you.’’

‘’Please, please. Want you, need you, need you inside. Please…’’ I move my hips backwards searching for his warmth and he slaps my ass again.

‘’So, fucking needy. Arch your back a bit more for me.’’ I do the best I can, my legs still a bit weak. ‘’So pretty…’’ I fill the tip entering my hole, I bit my lip, then he slams his hips hardly into me knocking all the hair out of my body. ‘’Go on, fuck yourself on my cock.’’

‘’Ah, fuck…’’ I moan against the pillow, rocking slamming my hips against his, going dumb on his dick. My movements are messy and my legs grow tired of moving. ‘’Can’t! please, fuck me. Please.’’

‘’God, you are so useless without me, aren’t you? Need me to fuck you, baby?’’ I moan loudly as a response. ‘’What a slut, my slut.’’ Another slap on my ass, his hands gripping my waist, pulling me in every time he thrust so I feel him deeper and rougher.

‘’Fuck. Nick!’’ my legs give up on me, I don’t fall because his strong hands are keeping me up.

‘’Didn’t give you permission.’’

‘’Sorry. Couldn’t wait, too good.’’ His trusts slow down and he starts to rub my back soflty.

‘’Wanna help me finish?’’

‘’Yes, please. wanna help you. Need to.’’ I feel a soft kiss on my shoulder and a small bite too. His hips start moving faster, it gets messy and rough again, the room filled with wet noises and moans from both of us.

‘’That’s it, so good for me. I just needed to fuck you properly for you to behave. My good boy, my good fucking slut.’’ His hands grip my waist tightly, my mind is dizzy and I can’t take it anymore, but it feels too good to stop. ‘’Shit baby, that’s it. Can I cum inside?’’

‘’Please, yes, need it inside. Please.’’ his trusts get messier, uneven and slower. His fingers digging into my flesh, probably leaving red marks I will see tomorrow.

‘’Fuck baby, cum with me. Do it. Fuck.’’ he gives two slow but deep trust and then pulls out, my legs are trembling, my breath is shaky. He helps me lay into my back and softly starts untying my hands. ‘’That’s it, good job baby. Good fucking job.’’ He kisses my cheek softly. ‘’Did so good, suck a good boy for me.’’ When my hands are free, they immediately wrap around his neck, nuzzling my face against it. ‘’I know baby, I know. I was a bit mean, but you know what bad boys get… now it’s time for me to take care of you, I’ll go get some water and something to clean us up.’’ I shake my head against his neck. ‘’Not yet? Okay, just a few seconds more, I have to get you some water baby.’’

His hands rubs my sides, his strong sent making me feel safe and warm. Nick knows exactly what to do to shut me up and make me his good boy again. He knows exactly what I need because he is all I need.

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911 has prominent married lesbian couple that has always been in the show since season one, a gay man that works in dispatch, one of the firefighters has just discovered his bisexuality thanks to another gay character that was in some like two flash back episode before making an appearance in the new season 7 ( the lesbian couple and bi!man are main characters )

On tik tok 911 is nicknamed the gay firefighter show

They also have a spin off show called 911 lone star that has a gay couple and a trans man as mail characters.



OMG, that’s so coooooool. love the representation it has, really cool.

i think ill be watching the show soon, sounds reallh cool

ftm!readers first time with nick topping?? pretty pls for the trans besties :(

My Pretty Boy.

Summary: you and your boyfriend Nick have been talking about being more intimate, since you have been dating for a while, tonight he’s staying at your place, so you guys planned a romantic night and let things flow.

Tw: cursing, general nsfw.

Note: reader IS FTM, so afab body parts will be described in certain parts of the fic.

I look at myself in the mirror, it’s like the third time I change shirts, I want to look nice, but I don’t want to overdress. I let out a frustrated sigh and picked one of the t-shirts Nick has bought me, he says this color looks nice on me, so I guess that’ll work.

I rush to the living room, turning the volume of the tv up a bit, our shared playlist surrounding the living room and kitchen. I cheek my phone, and it starts ringing, it’s Nick, I answer.

‘’HI! I’m on the elevator.’’ A ding sounds. ‘’Never mind, I’m on your floor, open the door.’’

‘’Okay.’’ I walk to the door and open it up. Nick is walking down the hall with his backpack on his shoulder, a bag with snacks in one hand and the other one holding his phone up to his hear.

‘’Thanks love.’’ He whispers into the phone and closes the call. When he’s in front of my I wrap my hands around his neck and kiss his cheek.

‘’Hi.’’ I smile against his cheek. ‘’Let me help you with that.’’ I grab the bag and walk inside my apartment, putting it in the kitchen counter. Nick closes the door, putting his backpack on the couch.

‘’God, I love that song.’’ He says stretching his arms out. ‘’So, we watching a movie or what, wanna skip straight to the fun?’’ he wraps his arms around me I blush and scoff.

‘’You can’t wait a minute; you just entered my house and want to undress me.’’

‘’What can I say? You just look really cute tonight.’’ he hides his face into my neck.

‘’Thanks. You do too.’’

‘’I know, I choose this outfit for a reason.’’ He kisses my neck and backs off.

I roll my eyes and turn around, leaning in on the counter, arms crossed. ‘’Let’s just take things slowly.’’ I mumble.

‘’Of course, don’t worry about it. We’ll take all the time you need.’’ he puts his arms on the counter, caging me. I jump and sit on top of the counter, putting both of my hands on his shoulders.

‘’Great.’’ I say, he gets closer to me, standing on the gap of my legs, his hands travel from the counter, to my thighs to my waist.

‘’You really look cute tonight, my pretty boy.’’ He whispers and kisses me softly. I wrap my arms around his neck, softly playing with his hair. ‘’Can I carry you to the bed?’’ he whispers between kisses and I now. Wrapping my legs around him, Nick lifts me of the counter with no problem, I give him softs kisses all over his jaw and neck on the way to my room. When we arrive he drops me into the bed gently, climbing on top of me while taking of his jacket and tossing it on the floor. I grab his face and pull him into me and kiss him against, this time a bit less soft, more tongue and messier. Nicks hips start to rub against mine and I let out a breathless moan.

‘’Wait.’’

‘’Want me to stop?’’ he stops moving, looking at me in the eyes.

‘’No, feels good, just… do it slower, please.’’ he nods and kisses my cheek, then connect out lips moving them slowly against mine, his hips move again, this time slower, making my back arch a bit. After a while my body needs more, I start moving my hips too, searching for more contact. My hands travel to his hands, guiding them under my shirt.

‘’Want me to take it off?’’ he asks me, his hair was messy, his lips red and swollen, his breath unsteady, I nod.

‘’Yes.’’

‘’Arms up.’’ I put my arms over my head and he raises my shirt a bit, massaging the sides of my waist and then taking it completely off. He leans in kissing my shoulder and neck. ‘’So handsome.’’ He whispers against my skin. He starts biting down on my neck, making me gasp and moan. His hands are now on my hips, playing with the hem of my pants. ‘’Can I?’’ he says between bites and kisses. I tell him to do it, he slowly takes my pants of, tossing it on the floor, leaving me in only my boxers.

Nick stops for a few seconds, looking me up and down, breathless. ‘’Fuck, you are so hot.’’ He groans. He kisses me, roughly, messy, his hands feeling every inch of my body, until his right hand stops on top of my clothed clit, he starts drawing circles on it and I moan against his mouth.

‘’Nick.’’ I moan.

‘’What, baby? You like it?’’ I nod eagerly, whinnying at the feeling of his fingers. ‘’Yeah? Feels good?’’ he smirks looking down at me.

‘’Yesyes. Love it.’’

‘’I’m glad baby.’’ he kisses me again, this time his hand leaves my sensitive areas and go to the hem of my boxers pulling them down a bit. This time I’m the one that breaks the kiss.

‘’Please, take them off.’’

‘’As you wish.’’ He kisses my cheek, sliding my boxers out. He takes his belt and jeans off, I can see the bulge on his boxers, and I feel it rub against my inner thigh. Unconsciously I start rubbing my hips against it. ‘’Fuck, wait. Baby.’’ Nick moans, being caught of guard, he grabs my hips, making them stay in place, he presses himself down on me, so I can feel him, he starts moving his hips, making me moan and scratch down his clothed chest.

‘’Feels good?’’ he says in a low voice. I nod and moan. He kisses my jaw and whispers against my ear. ‘’Want me inside?’’

‘’Yes, please. Need you.’’

He backs off a bit, looking down at me biting his lip. Then asks me to open my mouth, putting two of his fingers inside for a while, I suck on them while they are inside and when he takes them out, he quickly puts one inside me, pumping in and out slowly. I bit down on my lip and whine when he puts the other finger inside, pumping faster this time. My back arches and I cover my mouth with one hand because I were moaning uncontrollably. ‘’Don’t do that or I’ll stop, I wanna hear you.’’ I uncover my mouth and cover my eyes, to shy to look at him or at what’s happening.

I feel his hands pull out of me, I move the hand out of my eyes, I look at him, he’s no longer wearing his boxers, the hand that use to be inside of me now is around his dick, coating it with my wetness. He kisses my forehead, lining himself with my entrance, I feel the tip rub against my clit a few times making me whine. ‘’Take deep breathes for me baby.’’ I do it, and I feel how he slides in slowly. ‘’Fuck, that’s it. Good job.’’

After a few seconds he starts moving slowly, until he finds a steady pace, every ingle sense of my body is flooded with him, his lips against mine, moaning into each others mouths, his hands all over me, my ears listening to his grunts and whines.

When his hips start moving faster and deeper, his hand travels back to my clit, drawing messy shapes over it, making my back arch, my whines get higher and my moans more uncontrollable.

‘’Nick. Please, close.’’ He kisses me, lovingly. My legs start trembling and I can’t stop moaning, I let out one last loud moan against his lips and my back touches the bed again. He pulls out and I feel a warm liquid hit my stomach.

‘’Good job baby.’’ he kisses my cheek, the both of us are sweaty, trying to catch out breaths. ‘’I love you, thank you for letting me do this with you.’’

‘’Love you more.’’ I mumble.

‘’My pretty boy.’’ Another kiss on my cheek. ‘’I’m gonna get something to clean you up and then I’ll bring the snacks, don’t move, I’ll be back.’’

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request !!

nicks bf has struggled with an0rexia in the past and nick finds out hes been st4rving again and nick finds out and its cute fluff

Take your time.

Summary: Nick notices you haven’t eaten all day, so he helps you out with that.

Tw: talks about eating disorder, throwing up mention, cursing, mention of reader seeing a psychologist.

Note: this is more of a 'Nick helps reader to eat' than a 'Nick tell reader it's okay and comforts them' bcs when i have hard days i need people to help me eat and not comfort me, but that is my expirience, so i hope it's close to what you had i mind when doing the request.

"You aren’t having lunch with us?" My friends look at me as I walk besides them and I shake my head.

"I'll have lunch with Nick." I give them a weak smile and they nod. It has been a while since I have felt this way, my phycologist says its normal to have step backs in the process of healing, but it’s really shitty to feel like I haven’t improved at all. My phone dings and it's Nick saying that he was outside my waiting for me, after saying goodbye to my friends I walk outside campus and see Nick standing outside Matt’s van. I smile and walk up to him and hug him.

"Hi, how have you been? excited for vacations?" he whispers to my ear.

"Yes, I can’t wait to go to the beach next week." I kiss his cheek quickly and enter the car. "Hi Matt, where is Chris?"

"Hello." Matt says looking at me from the rear-view mirror. "He is already on the park with everyone else."

"Cool, let’s go then." to be honest I was excited for the picnic, but yesterday something happened, I don’t know what, I don’t know why, but I don’t want to eat today, I don’t feel like it, I feel like I will cry if I do. Nicks hand grabs mine, kisses my knuckles and places our hands on his leg to play with my fingers.

once we arrived to the park we walk to a quiet part, where our friends were setting the picnic up. Chris come up to us and hugs me.

"Hiiiii! How was your exam? I hope fine, I bought you a drink." I wrap my arms around him and pat his back twice, he then let’s go and hands me a carton juice.

"Thanks Chris, and it was fine, I passed."

"GREAT! let’s eat to celebrate." Chris walks to the group again and sits beside Matt.

Nick and I sit next to Madi, who was talking with Nick about out trip to the beach next week. I sit between Nicks legs, his back against a tree, my back against his chest. I look down at the food Infront of me and gulp, the smell and all the food together make me feel sick. I look down at the juice Chris gave me and start playing with it, moving it around and tossing it here and there.

"Hey, you, okay?" Nick whispers to my ear. I turn my face a bit and look at him in the eyes.

"Yeah, just kind of tired. I’m okay."

"Okay." he kisses my cheek and keeps talking with someone, I don’t know who, my face goes back down to my hands.

"Hey, you aren’t hungry?" Madi’s voice is soft against my ears. I feel my stomach turn and I shake my head.

"No, I... I had lunch at uni."

"Oh, okay. If you want any snacks there is plenty." she gives me a warm smile that I try to give back.

"I’m going for a walk, be tight back." Nick stands up and grabs my hand making me stand up too. "Let’s go."

We walk around the park for a while. Nick buys a sandwich on a local restaurant nearby and we sit on a random bench.

"Did you really eat at uni?" he looks at me in the eyes and I feel my eyes water, I look down at my hands. "Don't lie to me, don't do that." I shake my head slowly. "Did you have breakfast?" I push my lips to the side and he lets out a sigh. "Okay, I know you had dinner, we ate together... Baby, look at me." I raise my head again, looking at him in the eyes. "Did something happen?" I shake my head. "Okay... you have you eat you know it." I nod, his faces seem hurt. "Help me eat this, okay?"

"Nick, I don't know if I can." I whisper.

"Just help me, we will do it together, okay?" I nod slowly. He opens the juice he also bought and handed it to me. "Drink first, it will help with the taste." I drink a bit of the orange juice, and let out a sigh as I watch him unwrap the sandwich.

"You've got this. We will take as long as you need."

if you struggle with an ed i just want you to know that it's okay. It's okay to have bad days, it's okay to eat, your body needs it, your mind needs it. Take your time, reach out to people who cares about you. You are not alone, you'll get thru this<3