Me: Have Care How To Speak About Them, Akutagawa, Chuuya And Dazai Are My Children

I was always really interested in literature since I was a kid. And one of the first things I tried to read was Crime and Punishment, but I got bored of it and gave it up after thirty pages. I didn't like it at all (same with a lot of books similar to that). I can't explain it but I just don't like a lot of classics, they may be well written but I don't vibe with them you know. I have decided to pick up Dostoevsky again and when my dad asked what to get me for my birthday, I told him to give me a hardcover of Crime and Punishment.

And now he thinks I am starting to like Classics, particularly Dostoevsky and he is really hyped about it.

How do I tell my dad that I am reading Dostoevsky's books to understand the backstory, ability and make predictions about an anemic rat from Bungou stray dogs.

(I am gonna read Crime and Punishment while listening to "Bernadette" by IAMX on the loop. The Fyolai nation weeps)

Richard's unhinged energy is the most entertaining part for me beside the murders. Like the guy is an inspiration for chaotic people. He lies about his family life, pretends his rich father has business in oil (who irl has a petrol pump), lies to his part time employer to get money, goes on a 90s teen movie shopping spree, takes any free item from Judy, lies about going to a prep school, lives on a diet of wine and more wine, takes any pill anyone gives him, joins a cultish greek gang, lets Bunny die an aesthetically pleasing death and not to forget.....does cocaine in the parking lot of Burger King.

My mom thinks I am in a cult. No, The secret history, iwwv, and dead poet's society are not books/movie, it's a religion.

16 personalities as Mean Girls quotes:

ESTJ: Gretchen stop trying to make "fetch" happen, it's not going to happen.

ENFJ: Why does Caeser get to stomp around like a giant while the rest of us try not get smushed under his big feet. What's so great about Caesar? Brutus is just as cute as Caeser. Okay, Brutus is just as smart as Caeser. People totally like Brutus just as much as they like Caeser. And when did it become okay for one person to be the boss of everybody huh? Because that's not what rome is about! We should totally just stab Caeser!

ENFP: Hey Buddy you're not pretending anymore. You're plastic. Cold. Shiny. Hard Plastic. Did you have an awesome time. Did you drink awesome shooters and listen to awesome music, and then just sit around and soak up eachother's awesomeness?

INTP: Oh hi. Did you wanna buy some drugs?

INFP: I just wish we could all get along like we used to in middle school. I wish I could bake a cake made of rainbows and smiles and we'd all eat it and be happy

ISTP: She doesn't even go here!

ESFP: I'm sorry that people are so jealous of me. But I can't help it that I'm popular.

ENTP: I am so sorry, Regina. Really, I don't know why I did it. I guess it's probably because I've got a big lesbian crush on you. Suck on that!

ESTP: Talk to me again and I'll kick your ass.

ENTJ: You're like really pretty! (Thank you) So you agree? (What) You think you are really pretty?

ESFJ: Get in loser we're going shopping!

ISFP: I am kinda psychic. I have a fifth sense.

INTJ: Yeah I like math. (WHY?) Because it's the same in every country. (THAT'S BEAUTIFUL, THIS GIRL IS DEEP)

ISFJ: I am not a regular mom, I am a cool mom!

INFJ: I gotta say, watching the police search my house really was the cherry on top of a fantastic year.

ISTJ: (Where's Cady?) She went out. (She's grounded!) Are they not allowed out when they're grounded?

Who wants to be the main character? I want to be the omniscient narrator of someone's story.

Richard: hey guys do you want to...

Henry: We threw a bacchanal

Richard: whaaa...

Henry: Bunny saw us with blood on

Richard: wait what...

Henry: he blackmailed us for months and I had to shut his mouth by taking him on a trip to Italy.

Richard: why don't you go to the police?

Henry: police are not real, Richard.

Finally started my TSH re-read after a lot of procrastination!

I read until page 90, I was also taking running notes and making small annotations so it took more time than usual

I didn't want to forget any details I wanted to highlight for when I start the essay

Here are some notes I made while reading (only about Henry)

I find Henry hilarious for some reason while the entire time I was making observations on him

He's so dumb in a smart way! 😭

An INTP view of life: part 1

ENFJ: good morning my sunshine!

INTP: I just went to sleep.

ENFJ: It's 11 Am

INTP: time is an illusion.

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ESTJ: you have got to start your work.

INTP: nah

ESTJ: you have six hours till the deadline

INTP: six hours! I learned morse code in that time during a flight.

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ISTP: you know we can conserve more energy and live longer if we don't move

INTP: I guess so. You wanna live longer?

ISTP: are you kidding?

INTP: yeah, I know living is the root of all our problems.

ISTP: wait, what exactly is our problem?

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INFP: sometimes I see my reflection and feel sacred that no one will know the real me.

INTP: interesting

INFP: that I will live in a world full people who don't understand the reason of existence.....that we might have nothing to live for.....that everything is worthless

INTP: are you having an existential crisis?

INFP: yes...

INTP: happens to me six times a week, here have some tea.

INFP: maybe you understand me.

INTP: I am very good with people's thinking, I see through them.I just don't like to go near them. How about you don't hug me?

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ENTJ: I will become the absolute best version of myself!

INTP: so you mean, you are not the best?

ENTJ: the best version of MYSELF

INTP: so there's a lame you, a cool you, a stupid you, a nice you....wait nice one doesn't exist

ENTJ: when I will be incharge I will make sure you rot in a dungeon

INTP: well that's where the best ideas come from. I don't mind it.

ENTJ: I can't believe you infuriate and amuse me at the same time.

TSH but after Bunny's death, the rest of the gang start receiving mysterious messages about their secrets.

Like the twins are sleeping together, they killed the farmer, Richard isn't rich, Francis and Charles have a thing, they tried to escape jail by going to South America, Richard knew about the farmer but kept quiet, Henry and Camilla are secretly involved, Henry tried to kill Bunny with poison mushrooms, Henry and Julian's little kiss, Julian knew about the bacchanal etc.

At first they got these messages, they kept it to themselves. Finding letters and notes in their bags, pockets and books. They kept it to themselves until they went to Bunny's funeral.

And there one of Bunny's nephews runs to them and gives Henry a note addressed to them in a familiar handwriting.

"Did you think you got me buried under the snow? That you got rid of me? I am not gone bitches, I am still here, and I know everything.

- Kisses, B"

Things I have said or done as an INTP:

~ "It's not like I hate talking, you are just so boring. I don't even remember what you said two seconds ago. That's how unremarkable you are. So, it's not a ME problem, it's a YOU problem"

~ "I forgot to eat breakfast and lunch"

~ "Do I really need to wish someone their birthday? Do y'all like getting old?"

~ "Whenever I feel awkward, I imagine brutal ways to kill people"

~ "What do you mean I can't order from the kids menu? I eat like five things in my life"

~ "Sometimes I put on earphones just to avoid people"

~ "The T.V remote was too far away so I stared at the wall for five hours"

~ "I don't have enough energy to correct you right now, call me later"

~ *person says* "Hey, how are you?"

*ME* "Nice to meet you my name is just fine....wait"

~ "I am willing to die proving a point"

~ "I am not gonna study. What's the worst thing that happens? I fail. It's not like I am dying. I won't mind that either"

~ "I gave up on life when I was 11. The best decision I ever made"

~ "I am not sorry for coming late. I feel sorry that I came"

~ "I will touch grass when I am in the coffin"

~ "Well actually, everything you said was opinions, not facts. I don't care about how you feel, if you don't care about what I think"

~ "I pity how dumb you are"