Kevin Day:

i do not ghost purposely i just have no idea what to say ever

Okay, but Fourth of July by Sufjan Stevens is so kevjean coded.

YESSS, it’s in my andreil playlist

Drive by Halsey, Andrew Minyard

you see the vision

AHHHHH

the thing about neil and jean is that i very much feel like their relationship is mirrored in andrew & aaron's relationship. the 'misplaced forever partner' vs. 'the brother who was given away.'

the way neil was abused but he was KEPT, he had a mother who gave her life to fight for him vs. jean who was sold and forgotten and abandoned, stripped of his own name and his language, who had to survive riko and the master and the complicated dynamics of being perfect court but also property, who had to navigate the nest and all its horrors and hierarchy completely alone.

aaron who was abused, who was beaten and strung along and neglected, but who his mother came back for vs. andrew who was left behind, who never had a last name, who said 'please' so much at seven he can't stand the sound of the word at 21, who was willing to carve pieces from himself for the promise of a scrap of family.

andrew and aaron made a deal and hated each other for it. jean and neil were each others partners - your failure is my failure, your success is my success. andrew, who killed aaron's mother when he found out she was beating him, to hold up his end of the deal. jean, who held neil down to be carved, but who patched him up again after.

aaron, who killed his brother's rapist. and neil who did the same

The fact that JEAN said this to ANDREW about NEIL is actually fucking crazy

“I wouldn’t have given him to you if I’d known you would just throw him away so carelessly.”

Headcanon that Agent Browning has an exy-obsessed kid who thinks Neil Josten is the coolest thing since sliced bread and won’t shut up about him

you know what one really underrated but heartbreaking scene in tda is? that scene in lady midnight after mark comes back, when he lets the kids eat whatever they want for breakfast and makes a mess of the kitchen. everyone’s having fun but then julian comes and sees it and kind of just malfunctions and breaks down.

because julian can never be the fun one. he can never be the one who lets them eat syrup for breakfast, he’s too busy making sure they have actual food to eat for each meal of the day. julian can’t make a mess everywhere and leave it to clean later, he’s too busy running the institute and making sure the kids keep up with their studies and have clothes to wear and are as put together as they can be.

julian never gets to be the fun older brother, because he’s the parent. julian doesn’t get to take things lightly because he’s too busy holding everyone up. julian is serious because he stopped being a child when he lost his last parent aged twelve. julian is serious because the only person in the world he can open up to and share some of his burden with is the one person he can’t have without losing everything. cristina sums it up when she says to mark: he is envious because he loves them but cannot be their brother. he must be their father. in his mind, they dread him and adore you.

julian could never be the fun older brother. because he was too busy being the only parent the blackthorn siblings had left.

btw, still not over this

sometimes i randomly remember jean saying “your brisket lungs” to andrew motherfucking minyard and i LOSE MY SHITTTTTTT

Adam Parrish in a brown leather jacket…ronan lynch in a black leather jacket… the couple everyone’s afraid of…cunt4cunt