I’m Putting Up This Nativity Scene This Year

WELCOME BACK / THANK YOU FOR YOUR COOPERATION.

you have seen, many times, the phrase love your body! and every time, like rainwater, it glides off you. not because you cannot love it - you mostly, like, tolerate it - but because of the word "your".

is this your body? when you were 11 you had to start shaving your legs because other girls found it gross you were hairy. when you were 12, you had to stop wearing v-necks because of your chest - people were staring. your mother didn't let you dye your hair. your first boyfriend makes you dress up in skimpy clothes for him, then hated when other people coveted you. what you wear and how you present determine whether or not people find you funny or annoying or arrogant. other people get to determine if you are pretty, a court of opinion so loud it blots any good intent.

when is the body yours? magazines and instagram and tiktok endlessly advising you to "take care of" (starve) your body as if it is a weed. you must hack and slash at it, defend yourself from its wanton desires. it is a shameful, greedy thing. it is more like an art piece. you are keeping it or being kept-in-it.

you try to language it to your therapist - it's not that you don't recognize yourself in the mirror, it's more just that the thing that is in the mirror - it isn't you. that's why it's so easy to take apart: you're vaguely aware of the shape, but it feels like you are an animal hiding in the back of this cavern, snarling.

obviously you're like stuck in it. it often hurts a lot, buzzes with pain and a strange numbness. so it is your body when it's painful. that makes sense. otherwise - how many times have you been told to save yourself (your body) for marriage. for someone else. you are just borrowing it.

love your body! is so funny. somehow, without meaning to, the phrase reminds you - it isn't you. you're just inside it.

my job on the commune is gonna be the guy who eats all the mysterious plants for everyone to see if they're poison and then dies

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RIP Sheska you would’ve loved Ao3

Toby has spoken

Making some pancakes but not gonna overcook them no no no these if I dare say it will be amazing and perfect I am going to go flip them now

I'm on the edge of my seat anon

Canada 😌: Maybe everything that dies someday comes back.

America 😎💣: I hope so! I have been preparing for a Zombie apocalipse for a long time now. It's time to kick some zombie' ass!

I’ve been waiting a year to post this

I survived because the fuck it we ball inside me burned brighter than the it's so over around me