#StoriesFromTheCloud

#StoriesFromTheCloud

It’s 3am and my mind feels like it’s time to let go 🌬

I went through a silent ❤️ battle.. I may not be sure if it was my best, but I fought hard.

I’ve been arguing with my feelings since the day I felt that something’s “more” towards this person. Well, he’s a typical guy everyone would like to hangout with. But a superb friend, rarest of his kind, who everyone would love to keep.

Fast forward, we somehow got stuck with each other for a little number of years. Whew, I also didn’t imagine it will last for some time because we were like from different planets, timeframes and peers. We were great companions and party magnets. Haha and we lived that long without a label. Neither his friends nor mine could determine the real score between us. Perhaps, neither could either of us (?) Heh.

So here’s the thing. He tried to pursue on several ladies during those times, and I was one of his peers who supported him. We go out randomly just to talk about anything under the sun, his happy days and struggles. We were both unplugging from stress. We were like free individuals living with less pressure. But little did we know, we became different persons after a span of days, weeks, and months.

We are very open to each other. Hmm. But there’s one topic that we never discussed — us. Every time I try to open it up, it’s just not the right time. He slips and disappears. I can also feel like we’re building gaps whenever I attempt to ask about us. We tend to have lesser communications. But why do things had to happen like this? 🙃

Well..that’s about it! The rest, as they say, is history. Guess what silent battle did I fight for?

It’s fighting for the remaining relationship I have with this person. I accepted defeat even if there’s no visible and direct enemy. And it’s way harder because I never tried to pursue on him. Perhaps, I wanted to keep our friendship and consider all things platonic.

I fought hard only to realize that we’re not going to be something beyond each other’s ideal romantic relationship.