I Like Drawing Gudako

I drew Melt and then I was like, “well, now I have to draw ALL of my faves…”

… I guess I didn’t have anything better to do anyway

Hello! May I request Enkidu from fgo x fem!master reader who tries hard to convince them that they're a human - not just a doll or a weapon, but a person - and they are so worthy of love (and please love yourself and let me love you already)? From whose perspective is totally up to your inspiration. Fluff or hurt/comfort both work

Hi, hi, this took like a super duper long time, sorry for that! I'm not very sure if this is what you wanted, but here goes nothing.

Masterpost

Human or weapon?

Enkidu is a weapon, nothing but a weapon. He knows and has accepted that a long time ago. He has no likes nor dislikes, no dreams nor hopes. It does not change even when the Babylonia Empire no longer stands, when the Mesopotamia gods are no more.

Even so, the Master that summoned him is so very kind. She constantly looks for him, asking for his likes and dislikes. When he retorts that he is a weapon, that he has no uses for likes and dislikes, she merely smiles.

His Master says that since he has no likes nor dislikes, they should find some for him instead so she brings him what she likes and watches his reaction. When she starts to run out of things that she likes, he is both grateful and not.

He is determined not to succumb, to remain the weapon that he is and will always be and yet, he fails. The gods would laugh at him if they can see him now, a weapon of the gods, and yet he falls to a single human’s determination.

He continues to repeat that he has no likes nor dislikes, but he cannot help but wonder who he is trying to convince, his Master or himself? Surely himself, because he likes the way his Master smiles, brighter than the sun, he likes it when she laughs, for it is more melodious than a harp, he likes it when she looks for him, trying to get him to try something new in her never-ending quest to get him to finally admit that he likes something.

He dislikes it when she is not by his side, when she spends time with people that aren’t him, when she graces her smile to someone that isn’t him, when she laughs in the company of people that aren’t him. He dislikes it when she is sad, the days that her smiles and laughter does not come as easily as they usually do.

Maybe one day, he will finally confess that to her that she has changed him, for because of her, he now has likes and dislikes.

avengers must give what is possibly the most powerful second hand embarrasment in existance considering that unlike most servants they're completely unironic about how they love guda and dont keep the "im a weapon" mentality for too long. I walk into the chaldea mess hall and edmond literally morphs out of the table i sat at to be by my side and cuddle me while i eat breakfast. I do farming dailies and gorgon cant stop coiling herself around me and keeps saying its to more efficiently conserve mana. I bump into salieri in the hallway and he starts sobbing and thanking me for loving him. nobu for all their shits and giggles still feels the pain that comes hand in hand with avenger classing so they just like to have a book read to them quietly. angra beats me in a video game and starts apologizing about daring to try and ruin me. I walk into my room ready to enjoy my government sanctioned McChaldea Mcflurry and find jalter sobbing on my bed about how she doesnt matter. I give her the flurry. She cries into that too. Shes hugging me and crying but also spilling the flurry everywhere. All the other servants look at these displays and turn their heads bc emotional openness is the servant equivalent of being a loud shameless couple making out in public. Mash cant make eye contact with me anymore bc she thinks im banging all of them. it may be true

messy scribble because i slept through most of white day 

honestly dantes speech to guda about how they could be humanitys last and greatest avenger class servant is kind of cute. dantes was the first ever avenger servant in fgo and this far down the line he basically gathered all his other avenger friends to go "guda join us!!! we'll make you our grand servant bet those other loser ass classes wouldnt do that for you!! we all took a vote and decided we love you forever!!!"

i still think about this scene. chaldea has witnessed guda fight one too many battles that has them on the verge of getting killed. enough to the point where they believe in their inability to get killed (yet). when they temporarily left guda to the hands of the enemy, they really trusted that chance of them not dying within the timeframe given. they really believed in it despite the obvious possibility that one's fate can always change. with them making this decision, im concerned about chaldea's future choices more and more. guda already sees themself as a disposable master ready to be replaced by kadoc but chaldea having that logic of "as long as they arent in critical condition, theyre fine. they can come later." for them really worries me.

what happens if kriem decided to just kill them then and there when they got presented to her? what happened if salome just didnt resist seeing guda as jokanaan?

arent you guys getting too confident in that ability of guda's? are you going to hand guda to the enemy and pray that their infinite charisma saves all of them? you already know the side effects of using the Black Barrel, the least you guys could do is pull out all the stops to keep them safe

are you forgetting that theyre human in the end? a fragile one even as they have been shattered and remade again and again, human but put together with missing pieces, chipped and glued together but still usable

i wonder if romani and caster da vinci would have prioritized guda... i wonder how things would have turned out if current chaldea were much more careful than letting their most important field operative and cornerstone of their mission inject themselves with active ampoules again and again, even if theyre coughing up blood from exertion.

guda cant tell current chaldea about their insecurities already, and its painful to look at.

The Servants probably blame themselves when the protag doesn’t get out of a battle unscathed, huh

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