pairing: hyunjin x afab!reader
genre: smut, fluff
synopsis: you wake up craving your boyfriend.
wc: 1.3k
warnings: oral (m), somnophilia, unprotected sex, creampie
a/n: i usually don't do requests, but an anonie sent in an ask for their birthday and i wanted to write something for them, if you're reading this i hope you like it and it's what you wantedđ«¶đ» happy bdayđ
~masterlist
The warmness of the sun was peeking through your curtains, warming you up even further than you already were.
With all the blankets thrown over you and the warm body pressing against your backside, you were more than comfortable.
Your lovely boyfriend finally had a few days off and he wanted to spend them attached to your hip, which of course you were excited about.
As you were slowly waking up, your eyes still closed, the familiar smell of you and Hyunjin was enveloping your senses and making you tingle.
Hyunjin had his arms around you, his hand on your breast of course, 'for emotional support', as he'd say and you pushed back into him, your core throbbing with want.
You listened to his slow deep breaths, realizing he was fast asleep, not moving a muscle but still as you wiggled your ass against his crotch, you could feel him getting hard, his cock pressing against you.
Arousal pooled on your panties, waves of hotness running over your body, you were needier than ever.
You managed to slither out of his arms somehow (after lots of struggling because he didn't want to let go of you), turning towards him as he grunted a little, smacking his lips before continuing to sleep.
Perfect, you thought, your eyes raking all over his frame, he looked so beautiful, angelic even, a vision of everything you love right there in your bed.
You didn't want to waste much time as you felt impatient, your hand reaching out for his bulge as you grabbed it gently, palming him for a few moments.
Hyunjin moaned in his sleep, pushing up into you without even realizing it.
You hooked your fingers in his boxers and slid them down, his cock slapping against his abdomen, hot and heavy, so delicious just for you.
You leaned in as you wrapped your fingers around the base, your tongue darting out to pick up the pre cum oozing out of his tip.
The salty liquid woke your taste buds up, spurring you on as you started swirling your tongue around his head.
Hyunjin's breathing became ragged but he was still asleep, his fingers twitching by his side as you played with your tongue, dipping it into his slit and down his sensitive underside.
Hyunjin's legs trembled as you wrapped your lips around the tip, sucking on it, your free hand fondling his balls.
"Mm... ah!" he moaned, jolting into you when you squeezed him, slowly taking more of his length in.
His hips moved involuntarily, lifting up to meet you half away as you started sucking on him slowly, the tip of your tongue running over the prominent vein gracing his entire length.
"L-love..." he was waking up now, blinking before looking down at you with a mix of lust and confusion that almost made you laugh, but he was too deep inside your mouth so you just hummed around him.
"Oh! That feels good." his head fell back into the pillow, his voice deep and laced with sleep, his hair a mess around his face which was now twisted in pleasure as you started bobbing your head faster.
"Fuck, darling!" he whined, his hand tangling in your hair as you kept taking him in, the tip of his cock hitting the back of your throat, making your eyes water but it only made you even more hungry to have him inside you.
You lifted off of him and he whimpered, looking at you like he was completely lost in you and the pleasure you were giving him, his brain still in the state of sleep.
"I need you, Jinnie." you slid your shirt off, before hooking your fingers in your panties.
"I'm right here baby." he said, lifting up but you pushed him down with your hand on his chest.
"Lay back, lover." you smirked at him and he groaned, his head hitting the pillow once again.
Tossing your panties somewhere behind you, you threw your leg over him, grabbing his cock and running it over your wet folds.
"Ah please, put it in." Hyunjin whines, hot and bothered from the way you woke him up.
You moan in response, slowly sinking down on his cock, the stretch is always delicious as you take him in all the way until his tip kisses your cervix and you sit on him, circling your hips a little to adjust.
Hyunjin's eyes roll back, his hands on your thighs as he grips the flesh.
You start to slowly move your hips, lifting up only a little and Hyunjin is already a moaning mess, his eyes falling down as he stares at the place where the two of you are connected.
He looks mesmerized as you fuck yourself on him, his big hands running all over your thighs to your waist and up to your breasts as he squeezes them, playing with your perky nipples.
Your eyes flutter closed as you lose yourself in the feeling of Hyunjin filling you up perfectly, his cock stretching you just right and touching you in all the right places, like it was made just for you.
You start fucking on him harder, lifting up more as your juices coat his length and drip down into his trimmed bush, you keep taking him in deeper as your hips smack down on his deliciously.
Hyunjin groans, his eyes shut tight, brows furrowed, his middle lifting up into yours, meeting your movement as his skin glistens with sweat.
You look down as you keep rocking on him, your eyes caught on the little hairs sticking to his sweaty forehead, the way his eyelashes lay on his skin, the way he keeps licking and biting at his lips, little moans and gasps of pleasure leaving them.
Your eyes fall to his neck, his adam's apple bobbing up and down as he swallows and you clench around him, making him whine.
Hyunjin opens his eyes and looks at you, almost crossed eyed from the pleasure and something burns inside his soul when he sees the way your eyes travel all over his body, the way you fuck on him, taking him so well, your titties bouncing with every movement.
He grips your hips and starts fucking up into you harder, the bed creaking under you and you almost fall apart when he starts abusing your hole like that.
A string of loud moans and curses leave your lips as you become putty in his hold, your pussy clenching around him, his pelvis stimulating your clit as it keeps rubbing against him.
You cry out as you come, squirting on him with tears of pleasure gathering in your eyes and Hyunjin groans, fucking up into you hard twice before you feel his cock twitch followed by hot spurts of cum filling you up to the brim.
You whine, riding out your high as you keep moving against him, milking him dry.
"B-baby..." Hyunjin whimpers, his whole body shuddering against the bed and you lean down to capture his lips in a passionate, loving kiss.
You lay on top of him as he slips out, and you can feel his cum seeping out of your fucked out pussy, both of you wet but you don't care, you need to be close to each other.
His arms wrap around you as he gently caresses your hair, carding his fingers through it, leaving little kisses on your head.
You listen to his heartbeat, almost falling asleep against him until he giggles.
"What's gotten into you? Not that I'm complaining, just curious." Hyunjin smiles cutely as you look up at him.
"I just needed you." you pout and he chuckles again.
"My sweet girl. You can take me whenever you need me." he grabs your face gently, guiding you to his lips. "I love you."
"I love you so much, Jinnie." you mumble against his lips.
"That was the best way to wake me up, but tomorrow morning I'm returning the favor." he smirks and you laugh happily, kissing him again.
You're in no hurry to get up, even if you need to wash up and eat because stealing as many moments as you can with Hyunjin is more meaningful than anything.
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pussy drunk!bang chan
pussy drunk!chan who is absolutely addicted to you. the moment he gets a taste, itâs over for him. he would start all slow and controlled, wanting to savor your reactions. but the second you moan his name or tug at his curls, his self control shatter.
heâs sloppy with it, getting so into it, he doesnât care about how messy he gets. lips and chin completely covered but he loves it. he practically drowns himself between your thighs, gripping them so tightly as if heâs afraid youâll slip away.
he gets lost in you, moaning against your skin, eyes fluttering shut. when eventually pulls away for air, his voice is breathless, pupils blown wide. âYou taste so fucking good, babyâ he groans before diving back in like heâs starved.
heâs always talking between kisses, between long strokes of his tongue. whispering how much he loves this, how good you are for him, how he never wants to stops. when you pull his hair or grind against his faceâhis nose rubbing hard your clitâhe whimpers, low and desperate like heâs the one being ruined.
if you try to push him away when it gets too much, he wonât budge. his arms will lock around your thighs, keeping you there as he murmurs âJust one more, babyâŠ. just one more for me.â but itâs never just one more. once isnât enough. twice isnât enough. he could spend the entire night between your thighs and still wants more. heâll kiss his way back up your body, his lips swollen and voice husky and plead, âagain?â
he gets smug when your legs start to shake. he open his eyes briefly to watch as you grab at the sheets, his shoulders, your pillow, at anything you can. he loves watching you fall apart for him, because of him. âThatâs it, let me hear you.â
and thereâs no way he isnât turned on while doing this. he gets hard from just eating you out. if he has you on your back, heâs grinding into the mattress, into the sheets. if heâs got you sitting on his face, heâs rutting up into nothing, only feeling the slight shift of his sweatpants when his hips thrust upwards. sometimes, he doesnât even realize heâs doing it until he gets embarrassingly close.
If you ever just grab his hair and hold him there, heâs a goner. his moans get louder. vibrating against your folds. Iâm a firm believer in Chan being a pleasure dom. he loves making you feel good, that includes you using him for your pleasure.
Iâm also a firm believer in Chan having a praise kink. I feel like heâd rather be praised than degraded. the second you call him goodâyour good boy, good babyâhe loses it. gripping your thighs even harder, pulling you closer and working his tongue even faster to make you come undone. He lives for your praise, and heâll do anything to earn it.
once heâs finally had enough, heâs pressing soft kissing into your thighs, rubbing soothing circles into your skin as you slow your breathing. heâd be so gentle afterwards, holding you close and whispering how perfect you are, how much he loves you. and if you let him, heâs falling asleep with his head still inbetween your thighs, completely spent but happy.
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assassin!hyunjin x journalist!yn. slow burn. suggestive and angsty at times. she/her pronouns. 7.4k.
it is perhaps the most decisive night of your life. what are the odds that at the same time and place, it happens to be hyunjinâs too?
warnings: mention of alcohol, guns, bruises and injuries. brief talks of grief.
a.n: this is prompted by how hot villain hyunjin looks in the ate era đ it was supposed to be a drabble and i didnât plan on it to be this long.. but i hope youâll enjoy reading tehee itâs different from anything iâve ever written so please feedback would be so appreciated,, muah muah đâŁïž
A ruby red lipstick.Â
Your first childhood dream was to become a journalist, but not the complacent, obedient kind. You wanted to shed light on uncovered events, dig into the raw truth with your claws, and hold it up for the entire world to witness. You craved justice. You never believed in letting things flow their way, like a current that morphs into a torrent, destroying everything in its path.
No, you were a dam, forcing the water to change its trajectory. After all, you have always believed that all it took for change to happen was a trigger, a single flicker that would in turn burst into flames.
You wished to be it.
It was hard to grow into this specific kind of journalist, though. Not because you lacked drive, passion, or discipline. Especially not because you werenât curious enough, brave enough. You were Seoul Pressâs youngest and brightest reporter, after all.
But in a highly competitive field, you still needed your big story, your breakthrough which would put you on the radar of esteemed awards that all journalists venerate. Though you deemed it much easier to obtain a Pulitzer than to squelch your heartâs quest for truth, justice, and most importantly, in an unpredictable curb that life threw at youâ revenge.
Your second childhood dream was to put on ruby red lipstick. Your thirteen-year-old self deemed it the ultimate show of power and confidence, each time you saw your aunt wearing one to her most important meetings. You dreamed of the day you could put it on as well, on your way to uncover the truth.Â
And tonight, as you applied your ruby lipstick precisely, gliding the vibrant color across your lips, you felt nerves tighten like thorny vines in your stomach, puncturing your tender skin and leaving you a bloodied mess from within.Â
Tonight, in your black gown and your ruby lipstick, in San Heoâs mansion, your countryâs most prominent presidential candidate, and the man who ruined your life, it seemed like you were about to achieve both dreams at once.
âŠÂ
The clock hand points nine on Hyunjinâs Tank Louis Cartier watch. He throws a fleeting glance at the Victorian watch, before eyeing the people mingling at San Heoâs party.Â
He knows all of the guests, memorized their faces and their habits. He knows the school where they drop off their kids and what bar they frequent every Sunday. He memorized their mannerisms and antics, knows what set them off and what did not.
This is the fruit of two years of work, after all.
He knows exactly why everyone is here, tonight particularly. Three politiciansâ families and friends gathered as a show of power, to prove that they werenât afraid of whoeverâs been forcing politicians to come clean about their crimes for the past three months.
In the least glamorous manner, at that too, to put it delicatelyâten bloodied tapes sent to the countryâs most prominent media channels, where ministers and heads of multinationals are bound by ropes to a chair, recalling their most heinous crimes: money laundering and embezzlement for most, theft and murder for some.
The latter is Jung Choâs case, Sanâs most successful competitor for the presidency, who has also mysteriously vanished from the policeâs grasp since the release of his tape. No one can get a hold of poor Jung Cho anymore.Â
Hyunjin smirks lightly to himself. His knuckles seem to have healed well since he last dislocated Jung Choâs jaw. Well, that was before he shot him through the roof of his mouth.
The golden cuffs of Hyunjinâs Versace blazer reflect the light of the dangling crystal chandeliers, and he runs a weary hand through his black locks. He never chose to gel them back; he wasnât one for structure, preferring the feeling of his silky strands brushing against his fingers.Â
His eyes catch those of Sanâs across the room, who tips his glass of whiskey towards Hyunjinâa job well done, he reads in Sanâs stare. Hyunjin raises his red wine back, before settling it across the table once more.
It is a boring half an hour that awaits Hyunjin.
That is until he sees you.
You werenât here two minutes ago, Hyunjin is sure of this. And, judging by the way you are leisurely sipping your sparkling water, your eyes gliding across the room in search of someone in particular, you had just stepped foot into the party.
Fashionably late, if he were to add.
But that is none of Hyunjinâs concern. What intrigues him the most is that your face isnât familiar to him. That isnât normal.
You werenât supposed to be here, then.
Who are you?
As if hearing his question, your gaze locks onto his. He cocks an eyebrow at you; you mirror the gesture like clockwork.
Thus ensues an intense game of eye contact. You donât break away from his gaze until two minutes later, a light scoff escaping your lips that he can discern even from afar. You then turn to look at San, your eyes morphing into something fiercer, more determinedâ a sniper finally locking eyes on its target.
Hyunjin feels a slight headache growing at the base of his temple. He downs his drink, before taking long strides towards you.
Itâs official, youâre going to be his nuisance for the night.
27 minutes.
âCare to dance?â Hyunjin inquires as he materializes before you, a hand extended towards your body.
âPardon?â
âA dance? To the lovely music we are hearing right now?âÂ
âI know what you mean,â you roll your eyes, leaning your body against the chair right next to you. Hyunjinâs eyes glaze over your legs peeking through the high slit of your dress. Had it been another setting, the sight of your black sheer tights would have made this night turn much differently.
Your voice dispels his thoughts like morning fog. âI mean why are you asking me?â
âBecause Iâm bored.â
âHow flattering,â you grin sarcastically and Hyunjin feels the smallest urge to return your smile, although he knows it isnât genuine.
âI know. Shall we?â
Your gaze flees to San once again, seemingly debating something in your head before finally sighing.
In the few seconds of scrutiny you consecrate to his boss, Hyunjinâs gaze lingers on your bright red lipstick, and the way you tuck your lip slightly into your mouth as you ponder.
A beautiful nuisance, he corrects himself.
âFine,â You place your manicured hand in his in response.
âWhatâs your name?â he asks, as he settles one hand atop your waist. The fabric of your black dress is too thin, he can feel the heat emanating from your body seeping through his palm.
Focus. You need to discover who she is.
âJulia,â your hand settles atop his shoulder, while the other entwines with his. âAnd you?â
âSam. What are you doing here?â he quickly inquires.
You shake your head slightly, gliding your hand from the base of his neck to the end of his shoulder.
âIsnât it my turn to ask you a question?â
Hyunjin tilts his head curiously at you, before smirking slightlyâ âYes maâam.â
âWhat do you work for?â
âIâm Mr. Heoâs political adviser.â
âYouâre quite young, though,â you note.
âI know.â
âAnd I donât see you by his side a lot.â
âI work in the background, mostly. I donât do well with the cameras.â He spins you around, picking up speed as the orchestra picks up the violin. âHow do you know Mr. Heo?â
âIâm Kangâs niece, you know, Mr. Heoâs economic adviser? Uncle Kang is ill, and my father is out of the country so both of them chose not to come.â
Hyunjinâs memory faintly brushes off Kangâs single niece, completing her architectural studies in Parisâ Sorbonne.Â
âCâest beau Ă Paris?â Is it beautiful in Paris?
You donât even blinkâ âMĂȘme magnifique, tu devrais visiter.â Marvelous even, you should visit.Â
Checks out.
âIâll hold you on to that offer,â he says, before spinning you around, your chest settling across his back. Hyunjin ignores how his heart skips a singular beat at your proximity.
âSo, what are you doing here?â he asks, his lips tantalizingly close to the shell of your ear. He watches as your chest rises once before your airy voice floods his ear.
âNetworking, though you didnât quite allow me to speak to anyone but you,â you tease slightly.
âI fail to see what an architect has to do with politicians,â he muses, as he sways you gently from left to right.
âI want to oversee the building of Jamsil Sports Complex.â
âSo youâre using your father for work connections?â he taunts and you swivel around, placing both your hands on his shoulders before interlinking your fingers behind his neck, caging him within the notes of your perfume.
âIs it a crime?â your voice is airy, too airy, everything you say sounds rehearsed, you donât seem intimidated by him, by this setting, as opposed to how a newly graduated student, one who grew up away from her fatherâs world should.
âDepends on your definition,â he counters.
âDo you regard it as such?â
Hyunjinâs gaze flickers all over yours. He senses something urgent in your gaze, as if you are pushing for more, beyond what this simple question entails.
When he remains quiet for a tad too long, you let your hands drop by your body, taking a step away from him.
âI need to go,â you say. He grabs your wrist instantly. âWhere to?â
âBathroom.â And with that, you quickly turn around and walk away, leaving behind notes of your floral perfume and ghosts of your ruby lips.
Hyunjin steals a glance at his clock. 09:13 p.m.
He drags a hand across his forehead wearily. He wonât let you ruin this night.
17 minutes.Â
You are washing your hands obsessively in the bathroom, lost in thought as you gaze at your reflection, all blurry from your unfocused eyes. You only turn off the water once your skin starts to sting from the force of your touch.Â
The orange-scented soap doesnât seem to get rid of the stench of blood.Â
A week ago.Â
âI don't understand your obsession with Mr. Heo,â Christopher Bang calmly removed his glasses, placing them next to the shiny placate reading âEditor in Chief of Seoul Pressâ.
âHe is corrupt.â
âAs all politicians are,â he spoke matter of factly, and it angered you how unfazed he seemed before your, you admit, far-fetched request.Â
âYou donât understand, sir. Heâs different.â
âDid he do something to you?â Chris asked, leaning back against his chair. You felt exposed all of a sudden, like a flower left bare without its stem.Â
âWould my answer change anything?â You inquired tentatively.Â
âIt would explain many things, yes actually,â he got up from his chair, before sitting on the one right across from you. âYou are a talented journalist, Yn.â
âThank youââ
âBut you are utilizing the companyâs resources to conduct your personal investigation on San Heo.âÂ
He knew.Â
âYouâve been working on his case from the day you joined our media. Which was exactly 389 days ago. I know that youâve managed to uncover quite some dirt, one that would make an explosive case if you get more information. Thatâs why I turned a blind eye to everything you did because I trust your skills and integrity.âÂ
You remained silent.
âBut now, youâre asking me to completely disregard my deontology by finding a way for you to break into Mr. Heoâs mansion. That is a crime.â
âNot break in. I want an invite to his party, it is the first time he organized one in his home, probably the last time, it is my only chance toââ
âDetails,â he waves a hand disinterestedly in the air, cutting you off. âYour intentions arenât to mingle with politicians, it is to dig in his office and find something of substance. While I admire the lengths of what you want to go through, I must stop you here.â He leveled his eyes with yours. âThis can land you in jail, he is the most important man in our country right now.â
âWhat if I tell you he did something to me, that he ruined my life? Would you help me then?â your voice was hoarse, tears pricked your eyes as you tried your best not to avert your gaze. You hated displays of weakness, despised them even more in professional settings.Â
âWhat did he do?âÂ
You bristled at the question, ugly memories flashing before your eyes like a blinding light, your body begging you to flee away from this question and the heavy response it entailed.
Still, you spoke.Â
Christopher remained silent as you recalled what happened on your doomsday, the night in which your world ceased to spin, and simultaneously, the reason why you joined his company, to begin with. When your sniffles subsided a few minutes later, he gently handed you a napkin, a silent invitation to wipe away the tears that had escaped.
He sighed deeply, running a hand through his weary face before finally speaking.Â
âIâll give you the invite tomorrow. Say that you are Kangâs niece, her name is Julia. She went to Paris for architectural studies, and that you are back for a vacation. Kang is ill these days, he wonât attend the party, and his brother is out of the country, no one will question you.â
âHow do you know this?âÂ
âBecause I know them,â he toyed with his lower lip lightly before a tiny smile drew upon it. âAn eye for an eye, right? Iâm Kangâs cousin. I changed my last name because I didnât wish to deal with them anymore.âÂ
âSo Bhang isnât your real last name?â
âNo.â He ran his thumb across his lower lip, seemingly debating adding something. âSanâs office is on the far end of the third floor.âÂ
You heaved a sigh of relief.Â
âThank you.âÂ
âDonât get yourself killed.â
13 minutes.Â
It was one thing to stare at photographs of San seared behind your reddened eyelids or to stand at the far end of his press conferences. It was another to step foot into his mansion, to stand amidst powerful people who are capable of ruining your life had they known of your motives.Â
But you didnât have time to dwell on your personal feelings. Fear, nerves, all of those feeble emotions pale before the chance you have today. So, you nod at your reflection in the mirror, count to three in your head, and finally head out of the bathroom.Â
âFive minutes, were you crying?â Samâs bored voice startles you as soon as you set foot outside. Heâs leaning on the wall across from the door, hands deep into the pockets of his suit.
Not again.Â
âI know that Iâm very pretty but donât you have better things to do than to follow me?â you ask, pausing right in front of him.Â
âIâm not following you, I just happen to be particularly fond of the architecture of this corridor,â he jokes and you ignore his words, walking past him with a renowned determination. He pushes himself off the wall, only to grasp your wrist once again, spinning you around until youâre facing him.Â
He chuckles softly, tilting his head to the side. His icy blue contacts pierce through your skin like a puncture needle. âYou know, Iâm curious, Julia. You seemed very eager to get away from me.â
You take a step forward, closing the distance between you two. âHave you considered that I found your company utterly boring?â
âYou wound me,â he places a hand on his heart, any trace of humor absent from his voice. His grip tightens on your wrist for a millisecond. A warning. âI need you to leave.âÂ
âIâm sorry?âÂ
âIâm serious. You shouldnât be here tonight.â
âAnd why should I listen to you?â you challenge and his eyes darken further.Â
âI canât tell you.â
âThen let me go,â you mutter, slipping your hand away from his grasp.Â
âJulia,â he says sternly, pulling you back till your back is against the wall, his hands rooted on either side of your body.Â
It is a dimly lit hallway, and the sound of the orchestra barely reaches you. Your worry intermingles with a new kind of nerves, all orchestrated by his proximity, and the way his gaze brushes against your body like a skilled painter.Â
âIâm not joking, leave.â His voice is much softer when he adds, âItâs for your own good. What will happen later doesnât concern you.â
He knows something that you donât know, something that, from his tone, none of the guests are aware of. You see something human in his eyes, in the slight crease doting his eyebrows. He seems genuinely worried for the innocent civilian he thinks you are.Â
Your eyes turn to look at his hand near your head, only to notice his faintly bruised knuckles, shades of purple and green doting a delicate porcelain skin. They have healed well, then.Â
Should you unearth the memory from two weeks agoâ pleas for mercy, a deafening gunshot, and an excruciating silence afterward, the quiet after the murder that you remember most?Â
Then, another scene rings in your head like bells of an ancient churchâ a bruised hand brushing against your own in an art gallery from two days ago, raven locks, and familiar, melancholy-tinted eyes.Â
Could it be?Â
Your voice turns sweet, tender, âshould I trust you for the night?â your thumb brushes against the skin underneath his eye, wiping away the concealer you knew you spotted.
There it is, the eye mole you thought he covered.Â
It clicks in your mind in an instant, pieces of a puzzle falling into place, there are still a few missing but you manage to grasp the bigger picture.
If heâs not letting you go then he could be of good use.Â
What other choice do you have but to gamble with a killer?Â
Your sharp nails drag across the nape of his neck, before settling right beneath his jaw. You mimic a gun, his eyes narrow in response.
âIs this how you killed Jung Cho, Hyunjin?âÂ
You feel a cold barrel instantly press against your stomach. âPolice officer?â he asks.Â
âNo.â
âJournalist ?â
âYes,â you slowly mutter.
âWhatâs your name?â
âI donât wish to tell you.â The gun only presses further onto your skin. You feel a cold bead of sweat roll down your exposed spine.Â
Breathe.Â
âItâs Yn.â
âWhat do you know?â
âItâd be easier for me to talk if you removed the gun,â you smile lightly and Hyunjin only leans further, a distance as thin as a blade between you both.
âSpeak.â
âYou killed the only candidate that stood a chance in front of San. You drove him to the empty deposit near Inwangsan Mountain, tortured him for three days, filmed his confessions, and then sent them to many media outlets. Ours included. I know it because I followed you.âÂ
âWhy did you follow me?â he questions. Your eyes flee to the end of the corridor where an impossible staircase sits. You are wasting your time.Â
âBecause I am investigating San. And through following him I ended up getting to know you. You are different from everyone he meets. Very secretive. So I figured itâd be worth a shot following you too,â you explain as calmly as you can. Youâre sure the barrel of the gun will leave a bruise on your skin.Â
âAnd why didnât you write a piece about me? Everyone is dying to know who I am.â
âI have, I just havenât released it. If I donât come back home in an hour my head chef will post the video of you murdering Mr. Cho on every SNS. The public loves you for what youâre doing. But the politicians will come together to kill you. They have a price on your head. You are threatening everything they ever built.âÂ
Hyunjin drags his gun up your stomach slowly, trails it across your collarbones before it settles on your jaw.Â
âI could kill you too, right now.â His tone is cold, evil. Very different from the man who asked you to dance. You know that I can.âÂ
âMy death would only sign yours.â
Hyunjinâs forehead rests on the wall right next to your head. You can hear him inhale deeply, hear the gears turning in his head. âFuck, you are driving me crazy.â
He drops the gun and takes a step back. âWhy didnât you expose me?â
âYou are not the one that matters to me.âÂ
âWhat do you want from me then?âÂ
âThree minutes. Open Sanâs office, and then Iâll go. No one will ever know of your identity.âÂ
He remains silent.Â
âHyunjin, please.âÂ
âFuck, fine. But whatever happens next youâll have to trust me, okay?â his hands settle on your shoulder, his eyes leveling with yours, âif youâre not leaving then youâll have to trust me enough, for tonight.âÂ
8 minutes.Â
âAfter you,â Hyunjin bows slightly as he opens the door to Heoâs office. You step in first, and he steals a quick glance behind himâno oneâs here, for now.
âThat saved me the hassle of breaking the door.â
âYou know how to do that?â he asks, slightly impressed.
âOne of my hobbies,â you shrug before walking directly to the desk. Hyunjin leans against the wall, watching as you lift your dress slightly, revealing a small packet tucked into your garter. The sight drives Hyunjin a little crazy, and he closes his eyes for a second.
He really, really wishes he hadnât met you here tonight.
You take out a listening device, tapping the bottom of the desk until you find a suitable spot, and then you stick it in place.
âAnother one of your hobbies?â he smirks.
You giggle. âMm, arenât I the most fun?â
âYou are,â his eyes drag across your figure, and he notices a slight falter in your posture, âthe most beautiful too.â
You blink, and heâs suddenly in front of you, trapping you between the auburn desk and his toned body. You donât seem intimidated, placing a palm on his chest as you tilt your head to the side.Â
âArenât you curious why Iâm going after San?â
âNo, he angers a lot of people.â His thumb caresses your cheek, a touch so soft in contrast to his next words. âA lot of people fantasize about his death.â
âAre you one of them?â you question, cocking an eyebrow at him.
âRight now, all Iâm fantasizing about is you.â His voice is husky, and he finds it comes out much easier when he actually likes the person heâs attempting to seduce.Â
It takes you a few seconds to speak again. âIs that so?â
âMm, letâs dance.â
âDidnât we dance downstairs?â
âThat was Sam and Julia dancing,â he says as he entwines his fingers with yours. âYou see, Hyunjin is a different kind of dancer.â His hand presses against your back, snaking against your bare skin. âCan I pull you closer?â he asks, and you simply nod, eyes fleeting widely all over his face.Â
His chest presses to yours, so close heâs sure your hearts are syncing with one another, his inhales alternating with your exhales.Â
âYn,â he whispers your name, as you look up at him through the curve of your eyelashes. Â
âYes, Hyunjin?â His name sounds soft as it stumbles from your ruby lips, innocent from all the blood that drenches his soul.
âI like the way you say my name.â He glances at his watch above your head. 9:57.
âHyunjin,â you repeat, as your hand drags up his neck, grabbing a fistful of his hair and gently dragging it backward, exposing his enticing neck to you. âYou are always looking at your watch, what are you waiting for?â
He chuckles faintly, grabbing both your hands and spinning you around till his chin rests on the small of your shoulder. âYouâre perceptive,â he mutters, as his fingers drag down your bare arms. âBut so am I,â he says coldly as he grabs both your hands, bringing them behind your back. âLook, your hands are shaking just from my proximity. I donât think you have it in you to film me killing Jung Cho. I donât think you have it in you to watch me torture someone for three days.â
Click. Cold metal wraps around your wrist in an instant, handcuffing you to the leg of the table before which youâre standing.Â
âI think you lied to me, Yn. I donât like being lied to.â
âWhat are you doing?â you ask disoriented, panic spilling from your being like an overflowing cup.
Hyunjin pays you no mind, taking out his phone and dialing a number. âBoss, we have a problem. I caught a journalist trying to get into your room,â he taps his chin slowly as he looks at you. âNo, no need for security. Just come alone. Donât alarm the guests.â
2 minutes
âAre you serious?â you ask as soon as he hangs up, a prominent lump in your throat. âYou told me to trust you.â
âDid I say I was worth that trust?â he pouts, seemingly mocking the vulnerable ordeal you found yourself in.Â
A loud chuckle escapes your lips, your head thrown back as if before a hilarious spectacle of sorts. Hyunjin frowns, crossing his arms in front of his chest as your giggles slowly quiet down.Â
âYouâre a peculiar person, arenât you Hyunjin? You need to hide your identity but you crave normalcy still, so you open your art gallery. You go to crazy lengths to cover your moles and wear contacts because you wish for people to look at you with admiration in their eyes, kindness. But you donât deserve it.â There is a fire lit in your eyes, flames latching into his black suit and burning his already scarred skin. âYouâll always be as evil as them.âÂ
Hyunjin doesnât respond for a while, his eyes simply softening at your words.
âI know,â he whispers.Â
âWhoâs this?â Sanâs voice booms loudly as he sets foot into the office. Hyunjinâs eyes break apart from your figure to look at San, bowing slightly to greet him.Â
âJulia, she infiltrated the party,â Hyunjin explains, stealthily locking the door behind San. âSheâs been investigating you for quite some time now. And⊠She knows about the murders.â
âMm, sheâs clever. Should we hire her?â San jokes and Hyunjin smiles politely, dragging his eyes over your face. You simply roll your eyes, seemingly more bored than scared.Â
Cute.Â
âAnyways,â Heo stares at you for a fleeting second before tapping Hyunjinâs shoulder. âShe looks easy to kill. Just get rid of her. But donât stain my carpet though, it's expensive.â
âSure thing,â Hyunjin nods, taking out his gun and pointing it at your temple. He steals a final look at his watchâ 9:30 p.m. he reads.Â
Timeâs up.Â
âYou didnât think Iâd let you go?â Hyunjin mocks, cocking his head at you. In a split second, a bullet ricochets loudly, but not at you. It grazes Sanâs ear, making him pause near the door, his back towards you both.Â
âRight boss?â Hyunjinâs tone is slightly whiny, annoying is the best way to describe it. You can hear police sirens blare loudly outside, see the red and blue hues reflect off the window. Loud shouts erupt downstairs, Hyunjin leisurely reloads his gun, one hand deep into his pocket, Sanâs posture slightly falters, his fingers digging into the skin of his palm.Â
âDo you hear that Heo? Your mansion is surrounded. All your filthy dirt is exposed. The police officers are arresting everyone downstairs right now. And theyâre coming for you. The man of the hour.â Hyunjin makes a show of curtsying deeply. You stifle a giggle at his theatrics.
âYou dare turn your back on me?â San yells, pivoting around to face Hyunjinâs barrel, the latter simply yawns as if itâs a regular Saturday activity for him.Â
âOh, donât get emotional on me,â Hyunjin pouts, before his eyes narrow down coldly. âNow kneel. Letâs end this without staining your carpet.â
You see San slowly lowering himself to the ground, Hyunjinâs gaze sets on you for a millisecond, his pupils dilated in apology, in concern, you donât know, you don't get to decipher his look because San is taking out his gun from his back pocket, aiming it at Hyunjin. âWatch outââ is all you manage to shout, and hyunjin ducks in an instant, propelled by the sound of your voice to the ground.
He could have died, he could have died because he looked at you.Â
It all happens so fast, Hyunjin diving into San to take away his gun, both their weapons flinging into the air, San punching Hyunjinâs mouth and the latter retaliating by flinging his fist up against his nose. Youâre struggling with your restraints, trying to reach out for the lone gun that fell to your right.Â
A bit more, tune out the sirens, tune out the punches, slowly, only a few centimeters left, your wrist is on fire but that is the least of your concern, almost, there, you grab it.
You fire the gun.
Itâs quiet once again, for the first time in two years, it is quiet in your head.
Itâs over.Â
You close your eyes, tilting your head back into the desk. The sound of your motherâs laughter floods your ears, her airy giggles as she brushes your hair and tucks you into her chest, her being a vision of beauty underneath the sunâs caress.Â
âAre you okay?â Hyunjin kneels before you, wiping away the tears rolling down your cheeks with his bruised knuckles. He is worried, even behind those icy blue contacts, you can still grasp his worry.
You nod, swallowing the sob that is lodged within your throat. Hyunjin is quick to unlock your handcuffs, entwining your fingers with his as he pulls you off the ground.Â
You slightly push him aside, your eyes set on Sanâs bleeding figure. Heâs still alive, rugged breaths escaping his chest, his palm pressed to the bullet that punctuated his stomach.Â
âI want him dead,â you mutter, grabbing Hyunjinâs forearm to support yourself, âbut I want him to rot in prison too.âÂ
âHe will, for all his crimes. I have it all documented. The police have it too,â his palm rubs soothingly against your back, you lean further into his touch.
âHeâs a monster.âÂ
âI know. They all are. Thatâs why I killed them,â he simply says, before guiding you back to a couch on the right of the office. He shrugs off his suit, draping it over your trembling shoulders.Â
âGive me a minute.â
You watch as he grabs the gun you fired off of the ground, before taking a handkerchief out of his pocket. He wipes your fingerprints, making sure to leave his all over the gun. He then walks to the table, taking away your listening device and crushing it to the ground.
Heâs calm and collected as he rearranges the scene to his liking, it looks like he has done this a million times before, as if this is the element in which he thrivesâ a sunflower turning to face the sun, at long last.Â
He kneels before your freezing figure one last time, tilting your chin to the side so youâd look at him.
âI fired the gun. You had no idea any of this would happen, youâre just an ambitious journalist who wanted an insider scoop.â He senses youâre somewhere far, pulled by the ropes of memories that had long haunted your dreams. His warm palm presses to your cold cheek, your eyes are glossy as they rest on him.Â
âYou didnât do anything. Iâm the one who used you as a scapegoat to bring San up here, just like I agreed with the police. Alright? You did nothing.You know nothing.âÂ
âAlright.â
Hours pass in a cold blur, the weight of time lost on you as three police officers take turns questioning you. You repeat the lines Hyunjin taught you, your voice flat, devoid of emotion. Even as you step out of the police station, with Hyunjin's hand resting gently on your back, you feel nothing. A slight tremor runs through you when he mentions that San survived and will be transferred to prison once he's healed.
You donât know why youâre disappointed you didnât become a killer.
You donât know anything, donât feel anything as Hyunjin drives you home. You donât question how he knows your address or the code to your elevator. Itâs only when you unlock your door and he starts to pull away that reality snaps back.
Without thinking, you grab his wrist, suddenly aware of the loneliness that awaits you inside, an uninvited guest preying on your vulnerable heart.
âWould you like some tea?â you ask, your voice tinged with hopelessness, knowing just how silly you sound. Why would he stay? He has so many loose ends to thread after his finishing blow, you know heâs part of something far larger than you.Â
As if mocking your question, his phone buzzes for the tenth time in the span of five minutes.
But then, to your surprise, he turns it off.
âYeah,â he says with a soft smile, âIâd like some tea.â
As you bring the water to a boil, Hyunjin rolls up the sleeves of his white shirt, casually wandering around your apartment as if itâs not his first time setting foot in here. Heâs always at easeâ with a gun pointed at him or while looking at the souvenir magnets on your fridge.Â
His calmness helps instill some peace in your heart too.Â
âI like your apartment,â he says, accepting the cup of chamomile you hand him. âItâs cozy, feels like a home.â
âThank you,â you whisper as you sink into the couch, your head hung low. So much has happened in just half an hour, too much for you to fully comprehend and process.
âLet me see,â he says a few sips later, as he gently removes the cup from your clutch, before sliding his thumb across your right wrist. The bruises have already begun to form, the red marks from the handcuffs clear evidence of your struggle to reach the gun.
âIâm sorry I involved you in this,â he murmurs, frowning as he avoids your gaze, staring intently at your wrist as if he could will the blue hues away. âI didnât plan for you to be at the party.â
âI involved myself,â you chuckle softly. Youâre not one for physical touch, but you donât feel the usual urge to pull away from his grasp. His hands are warm, the roughness of his fingertips a stark contrast to the softness of your skin.
âYouâre a stubborn journalist,â he says with a small smile, finally meeting your gaze. you suddenly yearn to look into the rich brown of his eyes once more. Was its shade as deep as you remember?
âAnd youâre an excellent painter,â you retort, eliciting a surprised laugh from him. The sound is unexpectedly endearing, and youâre caught in a whirlwind of contradictions. Is this really the same man you saw taking a life? The same man now holding your wrist as if it were made of porcelain?
âRight, you figured out my identity. What gave me away?â he asks, still smiling.
âI heard about this new gallery where the artistâs only clue to his identity was the name signed on his paintings. So, I decided to see for myself. While everyone else was captivated by the artwork, I noticed you, standing in the corner, observing the reactions of everyone around. You smiled when someone smiled, and your grin grew wider with each compliment. Thatâs when I started to suspect that the artist was you, all along.â
âI remember it now. I bumped into you as you were leaving,â he says, and you nod.
âWhat stood out to me were your sad eyes. Thatâs what I remember most. Well, besides your bruised knuckles.â
âAnd thatâs how you connected the dots.â
âYes, and your eye mole, too. Even though you tried to conceal it with makeup, it still showed.â
âVery perceptive,â he says with a grin.
âThank you.â
âArenât you worried Iâll expose your identity?â you ask, as his hand gently slides into yours, his fingers resting lightly on top of yours. A simple, innocent touch, yet it stirs something unknown in the pits of your stomach.Â
âI trusted you when you said Iâm not the one who matters to you.â
âWhy would you trust me?â
âI donât know. Maybe because I miss putting my faith in someone, even if they end up failing me. Isnât that the most human trait of all?â
How could an assassin create such heartfelt paintings, overflowing with emotions too hard to explain with words, let alone colors? Perhaps because this isnât the life he always wanted.
âDid you choose this?â you ask softly, your voice barely a whisper. Maybe itâs the exhaustion from the interrogation, or the near brush with death, or perhaps the relief that this chapter is finally closing for both of you. But something compels you to keep talking, to ask, to hold on to Hyunjin just a little longer.
âBeing a killer, you mean?â His voice carries a tenderness that seems at odds with the weight of his words. Heâs a walking contradiction, balancing two identities within himselfâHyunjin and Sam. One feels heavier on his bones than the other.Â
âI grew up in this world,â he continues. âMy parents run a large network of assassinsâor vigilantes, depending on how you see it. Some people hire us, and sometimes we act on our own when we see injustice or corruption festering for too long. We conduct thorough background checks. We only kill those who truly deserve it. We always make sure of that.â
âAn eye for an eye.â
He nods, his gaze dropping to the floor. âI always feel good in the midst of a case. One less evil in the world. But after, thereâs just this emptiness. Now what? I always wonder. So I try to fill the void with painting.â
âNow whatâŠâ you repeat, your voice trembling as a lump forms in your throat. âNow what? What should I do now?â Tears well up and spill over suddenly, streaming down your face in an unstoppable torrent. âSan is behind bars, but my mom isnât coming back. So what now? What was all of this for if I canât get her back?â
You find yourself burying your head in the crook of Hyunjinâs neck, his arms wrapping tightly around you, holding you close as if he could contain your sadness, preventing it from seeping from your soul and reaching your mother, wherever she may be.
You havenât allowed anyone to hold you like this in two years, denying yourself any comfort until you could bring your motherâs killer to justice. It was a promise you made to yourself after San drunkenly ran her over and fled the scene, leaving you alone to hug her cold body in that sterile hospital room.
âIt drove me crazy,â you sob, your words broken and incoherent. âHe bribed everyoneâthe doctors, the paramedics, the stores nearby. Everyone acted like my mom didnât d-die because of h-him,â you hiccup, and Hyunjin only holds you tighter, closer, enough to stitch your wounds with time, only if he remains this close to you. If he wishes to, if you allow him to.
âBut now heâs behind bars, and I still donât have my mom. What do I do now that I canât bury myself in revenge? Hyunjin, what should I do when I miss her so much and I canât see her?â
Five hours later.
âThe article is perfect, no corrections needed,â Chris says, removing his glasses and looking at you with approval. âExcellent work, Yn.âÂ
âThank you,â you nod, feeling a mix of relief, but mostly exhaustion. âI stayed up all night working on it.âÂ
âGoid, itâs only 6 a.m. so we know that no other media outlet has touched this yet. Our article will be the one to shape public opinion. This is a big win for us. Itâs a thorough investigation, and Iâm confident youâll get the recognition you deserve,â he writes something down onto his notebook before looking at you once more. âTake a few days offâyouâve earned it. Iâll reach out if anything urgent comes up.â
âThank you, sir.â You bow slightly before turning to leave the suffocating office. Or maybe itâs your own mind thatâs suffocating you. You donât have time to dwell on the question before Chris speaks again.Â
âOh, Yn?â Chris calls out just as your hand touches the doorknob. âOne last thing, did you ever figure out who was behind all those tapes?â
Your grip on the doorknob tightens imperceptibly. âNo sir, no clue.âÂ
One month later.Â
Itâs a few minutes before the art gallery closes when you walk in. Hyunjin spots you before you see him, your distinctive walk etched in his memory as vividly as if it were only yesterday that he had seen it.
He approaches quietly, stopping behind you as you gaze at the newest addition to his collection.
âIs this us?â you ask, not turning around. Hyunjinâs eyes follow yours to the abstract painting of a couple waltzing in a ballroom, their hands intertwined just like yours were, four Saturdays ago.
âYes,â he replies softly.
âIt seems I left an everlasting impression on you,â you tease, he can hear the smile in your voice without seeing it.Â
âYou did. You looked beautiful.â
âSo did you.â
âIâm glad you came,â he says sincerely. âI missed you.â
âBut we only spent a day together,â you giggle quietly, and Hyunjin wishes he could capture your laugh and tuck it away in the veins of his heart.
âDidnât that day feel like a year, though?â he muses, resting his chin gently on your shoulder. You lean back into him, closing the space between you.
âIt did,â you admit before nervously clearing your throat. âAre you free right now? We could grab a drink, if youâd like?â
âChamomile tea?â he chuckles, and your laughter vibrates through his being.
âNo, something stronger this time.â
He hums, hesitating as he despises the words that would stumble out of his mouth. âI have some things to handle tonight. Urgent matters.â
âAh,â your voice dips slightly, the disappointment clear in your tone. âWell, itâs okay. Iâll see you another time, then,â you say, finally turning to face him.Â
He really missed you.Â
âOkay. Iâll see you.â
âOkay.â
âCongratulations on your award, by the way,â he says, watching your expression soften, a delicate smile forming on your lips.
âYou saw it?â
âI did. I read your piece, too. Iâm sure your mom would be proud of you.â
Tears of gratitude well up in your eyes, and you squeeze Hyunjinâs hand tightly as you whisper, âThank you. Really. Thank you, Hyunjin.â
Hyunjinâs words linger in your soul, echoing through your mind for the rest of your day, his voice the only sound that seems to fill the silence within you. That is until three loud knocks resonate through your apartment, just minutes before midnight.Â
You open the door to find Hyunjin standing there, a fresh bruise marring his jaw, his knuckles freshly scraped and bloodied.
âLet me guess, you had nowhere else to go?â you joke, trying to regain your composure at the sight of him once more.
âNo,â he replies, his tone earnest, âI wanted to come to you.â
Your smile falters at the sincerity in his voice. You canât quite place what it is about Hyunjin that pulls you toward him, how amidst everything thatâs happened in the past month, the most vivid memory is how he held you gently as you cried and cried.
âI forgot something,â he says, pulling a tube of cooling cream from his back pocket and offering it to you. âI meant to give this to you for your bruised wrists.â
Heâs a month late, you both know your wrists have long since healed.
âI⊠yeah,â he sighs before your silence, turning to leave, a light blush tinting his cheeks. But before he can, you drop the tube and grab his hand, spinning him back around.
âI forgot something too,â you say quickly before pressing your lips against his.
You donât fully understand what draws you to Hyunjin, but you know his lips taste as sweet as cherry chapstick, that his hand around your waist feels like water flowing gently over your skin, warm and encompassing. That his brown eyes remind you of sunlight dancing on autumn leaves, that no one has touched your soul as deeply as he has.
You know you wish to make him feel as human as he makes you.
Preview: Sweet as Cherry Wine
In which the cold librarian's heart gets melted by his best friend's sister
Synopsis: Kim Seungmin was the assistant librarian at your uni's library and the love of your life. Oh and also your brother's best friend.
Pairings: Seungmin Ă fem!reader, includes rest of skz, Winter (aespa)
Warnings: brother's best friend trope, a play on Hades and Persephone, secret relationship, flufff, seungmin is a menace, SMUT MINORS DNI, p in v sex, oral (m receiving), verryyy little choking, slightly sub minnie?, just a lot of me simping after his fingies, semi public sex (in the library)
A/N: whadup mona fam. Surprised im alive? yeah me too honestly lol. anyway im very sick rn BUT i wanted to complete this because this shit has been stuck in my wips since september 2023 and anyway it's my Minnie phase. Please look forward to the full fic!!!
STATUS: Coming on 23/10/24 (Subject to change)
TAGLIST: Open
âAnd how she let the pomegranate juice,
Drip from her smiling lips,
Even Hades trembled under sweet Persephoneâs gaze.â
The tantalising smell of old leather and paper hugged your nostrils as soon as you crossed the threshold of the outdoors into the library. The entire room had the faint smell of sandalwood wafting through it as well, which your lungs appreciated as you breathed the air in.
Having spent only six months in your university as a freshman, you had never dared to step foot into the universityâs famed collection of books more than five times. You were far too intimidated by it. That, and also the fact that you had a tremendous amount of work hanging over your head. And you certainly did not want to disappoint your parents, who worked day and night in ensuring that you had a proper education.
âY/Nnie come on!â Your friend, Jeongin, grabbed your hand and dragged you further into the grand building. Jeongin was the first friend you had made in college, having argued furiously with him in your sociology class on the modern feminist forms of thought. Deciding that he was smart enough to never keep you bored, you promptly shook hands with him. He must have thought so too, because the very next day, he introduced you to his band of friends, with whom he had grown up since childhood.
And now, you could see one of those friends waving to the both of you from a very large table. It was Lee Minhoâdance prodigy, archeology student in his third year, frequent arson enthusiast and a cat dad. That was what you had gotten from him, six months into your friendship
âHyung!â Jeongin practically leapt on the stunningly beautiful man as soon as he came near him, âIâve missed you so much!â
Minho made a face of disgust, but you could see the faint smile threatening to spill out as he hugged Jeongin back.
âLet go of me before I suffocate you, brat.â Minho said, giving you a smile as Jeongin reluctantly pulled back, âAlright, Y/N?â
âGood as always.â You responded with a grin. âOh, congratulations on your win at the Dance Masters by the way!â Minho tilted his head at you as a âthank youâ, with his ears turning furiously red, and his smile widening.
âAnd what about me?â A smooth voice made you jump as the ever-present smile of Hwang Hyunjin appeared before your eyes.
âGive me a warning before you pop out of nowhere!â You laughed, being engulfed into a tight hug by Hyunjin, âAnd congratulations to you, as well.â
âWhy thank you.â Hyunjin did a dramatic sort of curtsy after unleashing you from his arms, âHyung, have you seen Lix anywhere? He forgot his keychain with me.â
âHeâs still stuck in class.â Minho muttered, raising his arms up abruptly and stretching with a very loud sigh, âMy bones are so stiff, I swear to God.â
âCould you keep it down, old man?â
Perhaps the most annoying voice in the entire campus rang in your ears as you spun on your heel to see the bane of your existence. The worldâs most insidious bastard faced you, in the form of a 5 '10, history-majoring, glasses-wearing, probably drinks pomegranate juice in the morning sophomore.
Kim Seungmin.
The universe couldn't have made a more negative person.
And a more perfect secret boyfriend too.
Taglist: @vixensss @miyeonna @15092000volcano + comment or send an ask to be added!
ââ .⊠content warning : SMUT! MDI!!! fem!reader; kinda angst; mild burnout; miscommunication; light argument; explicit sex;
âźâË pairing: idol seungmin Ă fem!reader
âźâË word count: 2,1k
âźâË synopsis: âHe shuts you out. You show up anyway. Tension snaps, words cut, and then it's just hands, mouths, desperation â because silence never kept you from choosing him.â
âźâË A/N: heyy!! I personally didn't like this one â cause I hate writing short ones â I just wanted to post something so the blog doesn't ""die"". if you have some requests or thoughts you want to share, please feel free to send me a message and lmk what you think. don't forget to like and reblog it!! xox à«ź ††àŸàœČá
The lights in the apartment clock flashed 00:42 AM. I sat curled up on the couch, my phone screen glowing in my palm as I stared at the latest message I had sent him.
No response. Again. I had already double-checked if the messages were delivered. They were.
I sighed and typed another one, shorter this time.
[00:42 AM] Y/N: Are you still at the studio?
[00:56 AM] Y/N: Seungmin?
[01:09 AM] Y/N: Do you at least ate?
Still nothing.
My lips pressed into a thin line. I tapped on Chanâs name instead and sent a quick text:
[01:14 AM] Y/N â Chan: Is Seungmin still at the company?
The reply came almost instantly.
[01:14 AM] Chan: Yup. Still in the recording booth.
[01:15 AM] Chan: Heâs arguing with himself about how his vocals suck.
[01:15 AM] Chan: You should probably come take him home before he erases the whole track.
My jaw tightened, fingers clenching around the phone. This wasnât the first time. I tossed a hoodie over my tank top, grabbed my keys, and headed out.
The city passed like a blur outside the window as I drove, hands tight on the steering wheel, jaw clenched. Maybe this was insane. Maybe he just needed space. Maybe I was overreacting. But I knew him. And if there was one thing Seungmin was good at, it was pretending he was fine when he wasnât.
The building was mostly empty at that hour, the distant hum of ventilation systems the only sound as I made my way through the halls. When I reached the studio, the door was slightly ajar, a soft trail of Seungminâs voice leaking through.
Chan was in the producerâs chair, arms folded, head leaning back like he was halfway to sleep. He turned when he heard the door creak. His eyebrows rose. âWow. He really pushed you, huh?â
I dropped my bag onto the couch with more force than necessary. âHeâs not answering me. Again.â
Chan shrugged with a tired smile. âHeâs locked in perfectionist mode. Keeps saying his tone sounds wrong. Iâve told him to stop at least four times. He argued. I gave up.â
I crossed my arms. âIs he eating?â
âNo. Heâs eating self-hatred and... vocal fry.â That earned a half-smirk from me.
Chan stood, slinging his jacket over one shoulder. âHe might listen to you, though. I mean... if the pissed-off girlfriend look doesnât make him flinch, I donât know what will.â
I narrowed my eyes. âCoward.â
âCorrect.â he said, grinning as he walked to the door. âGood luck. Donât destroy any equipment.â
When the door clicked shut behind him, I finally turned to the booth. Seungmin was inside, headphones on, replaying the same take, muttering under his breath as he adjusted the mic. He hadnât noticed me yet. I moved closer to the glass, arms folded.
Eventually, he turnedâand froze. Our eyes locked. He blinked, surprised, pulling off his headphones. I didnât wait for an invitation. I opened the booth door and stepped in.
âWhat are you doing here?â he asked, voice rough. Seungmin blinked, pulling the headphones off. âItâs late.â
âYeah. No shit.â I stepped further in. âDid you plan on ignoring me until morning orâŠ?â
He sighed, rubbing the bridge of his nose. âI didnât mean to. Iâve just been workingââ
âYou always say that.â My voice cracked, just barely. âI get it, Min. You love what you do. But Iâm not just some⊠background character in your day.â
A beat passed.
âI just... needed to get this right.â he muttered.
âYouâve been doing this for days. Skipping meals. Coming home after Iâve fallen asleep. Acting like I donât exist.â His jaw clenched. âYou think Iâm mad because youâre working? Iâm mad because you wonât let me in.â He didnât answer. âYou donât have to carry everything by yourself, Seungmin. Not when Iâm right here.â
He exhaled slowly, voice strained. âI didnât want to worry you.â
âYeah well, too late for that.â
He looked at me, finally meeting my eyes. And for a second, he looked smaller. Tired. Vulnerable. âIâm sorry.â he said. âFor shutting you out. For making you feel like you donât matter. You do. More than anything.â
I softened, stepping closer. âIâm sorry too. For making you think you canât fall apart in front of me.â
He opened his mouth like he wanted to say something more, but the words didnât come.
âLet me hear it.â I said. He hesitated, then pressed play. The recording played softly in the background. His voice filled the boothâraw, imperfect, beautiful. I didnât look at the monitor. I watched him. When it ended, silence hung between us.
âYou sound like you mean every word.â I said. âIt's good. Better even.â
He let out a shaky laugh. âYou always say that.â
I reached up, brushing her fingers against his cheek. âBecause it's always true. Thatâs the curse of caring too much.â
He leaned into my touch without thinking.
âI missed you.â I whispered.
âIâve been here.â
âNot really.â
He looked at me again â really looked this time â and everything about him softened.
âIâm sorry.â he said quietly. âFor not replying. I didnât mean to make you feel like I wasnât listening.â
I stepped forward, my voice lower now. âSorry if I made you feel like youâre never doing enough. Thatâs not what I think. Thatâs never what I think.â The tension in his shoulders. The tired edge in his voice. I leaned in, closing the space between us slowly, giving him time to stop me. He didnât.
Our lips met â slow and deliberate, like we were savoring something we werenât sure weâd be allowed to taste again. There was nothing rushed about it. It was all breath and longing and the echo of weeks spent in silence. His mouth moved against mine like a silent apology, and I kissed him back like I wanted to undo every minute of distance with nothing but my lips.
The way he touched me wasnât hungry at first âit was careful. Like I was glass. Like he was afraid Iâd shatter and disappear. His hands rested at my waist before sliding up, tentative, brushing under the hem of my hoodie. The heat of his palms made my skin jump, and I gasped into his mouth when his thumbs grazed my ribs.
I pulled him closer, fingers threading into his hair, nails scratching lightly against his scalp. His soft groan vibrated through me. It was the kind of sound you only make when something feels too good to be real.
And it did feel unreal.
The studio was quiet, lit only by the soft glow from the control board. The world outside didnât exist anymore. Just me, him, and the months of tension unraveling with every brush of skin.
He broke the kiss first, breathing hard. âYou should go home.â he whispered â but his arms tightened around me like he couldnât bear the thought of letting go.
âNot happening.â I murmured, my lips ghosting across his jaw. âYou donât get to shut down and pretend I donât exist just because youâre scared.â
His eyes fluttered shut, like he was fighting something heavy inside him. âIâve been so fucking lost lately.â
âThen let me find you.â I pulled his shirt over his head and tossed it somewhere behind us. My hands moved automatically, relearning himâhis collarbones, the heat of his chest, the slight tremble in his stomach when my fingers dragged down his abs. His breathing hitched.
âYouâre shaking.â I said quietly.
âI havenât touched you in weeks.â he replied, voice wrecked. âIâve been thinking about this every damn night.â
My hoodie was next. He peeled it off slowly, reverently, like each inch of skin he uncovered was sacred. When he kissed my shoulder â just below my collarbone â I felt my knees weaken. Then he looked up, eyes dark, lips parted. âI donât remember how to take it slow.â
âYou donât have to.â
I pressed my body to his, grinding slowly against the bulge in his jeans. He cursed under his breath, gripping my hips hard enough to bruise. When he kissed me again, it was messy and breathless. No more restraint â just weeks of built-up tension crashing into us like a wave.
He backed me toward the padded bench, lips never leaving mine, hands everywhere â waist, hips, the underside of my breasts. He pushed me down gently, then stood between my legs, looking down at me like I was some beautiful secret he didnât know how to deserve.
âYouâre so fucking beautiful.â he whispered, almost angry with himself for not saying it sooner.
He kissed his way down my bodyâhot, open-mouthed kisses on my chest, my stomach, the insides of my thighs. When he pulled my underwear down with his teeth, I thought I might combust right there.
He looked up at me from between my legs, eyes smoldering. âLet me taste you.â
I barely had time to nod before his tongue slid over me â slow, firm, deliberate. My hips bucked involuntarily, and he moaned into me like the taste alone was enough to undo him.
His tongue worked me open with practiced easeâ lapping, teasing, circling my clit just right before sliding two fingers inside me. I gripped the edge of the bench, gasping, back arching as he pushed deeper, curling his fingers until I saw stars.
âSeungminâfuckâdonât stopââ
âIâm not going anywhere.â he growled against me. âYouâre shaking so pretty for me.â
And I was â legs trembling, breath ragged, vision blurring. He kept going, steady and relentless, until my orgasm hit me hard. I cried out, fingers tangled in his hair, thighs clamping around him as I came with a force that made the world tilt sideways.
He didnât stop until I was panting, sensitive, trying to push him away with shaky hands.
Then he stood, wiping his mouth, looking thoroughly wrecked â and incredibly proud.
âMy turn.â I said, breathless.
I pulled him down by the waistband of his jeans, undoing the button with slow, teasing fingers. His cock sprang free, thick and flushed, and when I wrapped my hand around him, he hissed through his teeth.
âYouâre killing me.â
âYou like it.â
âToo much.â
I stroked him slowly, dragging my thumb over the head, watching his jaw clench and his eyes flutter shut. When he looked down at me, his control was visibly cracking. âTurn around.â
I blinked. âWhat?â
âBench.â he said, voice low and dangerous. âHands on the bench. I need you.â
The words made heat pool in my stomach. I did as he saidâbent over the bench, back arched, looking over my shoulder at him.
He lined himself up behind me, running the head of his cock through my folds. âYouâre dripping,â he muttered. âFuck. You feel ready?â
âDonât make me beg.â
He slid in slowly â inch by inch until he was fully seated inside me. We both groaned. My hands clenched the edge of the bench as he pulled out halfway, then slammed back in, making the whole booth shake.
âI missed you.â he rasped against my ear.
âShut up and keep fucking me.â
He obeyed, thrusts hard and deep, filling me completely. The sound of skin on skin, his breath in my ear, the ragged moans he tried to hold backâit was too much. And not enough.
I pushed back against him, meeting every thrust, panting his name between gasps. One of his hands slid under me, fingers finding my clit again. I jolted. âOh my god â Seungmin â â
âCome again for me, baby,â he growled. âI want to feel you fall apart.â
And I did. Harder than before. My vision went white, body clenching around him, drawing him deeper. He cursed loudly, fucking me through it, and moments later, he stilled â burying himself deep as he came with a broken gasp, his chest pressed to my back.
We stayed like that for a long time, breathing in sync, sweat cooling on our skin. He kissed my shoulder again, softer this time. More tender than desperate.
âYou okay?â he whispered.
I nodded, twisting just enough to see him. âThat was... good.â
He pulled me into his arms, tucking me against his chest like he couldnât stand the thought of space between us. We stayed like that, still tangled, breathing each other in.
Eventually, I smiled. âI guess I really did have to come get you.â
He huffed a quiet laugh. âYeah. Please keep doing that.â
I kissed him again, softer this time, and in the quiet hum of the booth, it felt like the rest of the world could wait.
Seungmin x reader. (f,a) SFW
Synopsis: At first, you knew Seungmin as the guy you made out with on a flight home but once the plane landed, you discovered that he's the son of your father's rival candidate for the upcoming election, causing you to be caught between love and loyalty. (10,9k words)
Some people might call it fate, serendipity, or kismet, but you're not the type to believe in romantic clichés like that, so let's just call it a coincidence.
It's merely a coincidence that the car got a flat tire on the way to the airport, causing you to miss the flight you were supposed to be on. Otherwise, you would have been sitting in seat 4B on a completely different plane next to a completely different passenger in seat 4A.
As you make your way to your seat, you notice him immediately. A young man sitting in the window seat next to yours, he possesses a rare, gentlemanly beauty. With refined features, a charming smile, and tousled dark hair, he exudes a sophisticated appeal. In other words, heâs the kind of guy who instantly catches your eye.
He glances up as you stow your bag in the overhead compartment, offering a polite nod. You take your seat next to him, trying to keep your cool even though your heart skips a beat.
Thereâs something about him that draws you in, something magneticâa quiet confidence that doesnât need to be loud or showy to be felt.
After you settle in and the plane takes off, you feel the urge to talk to him. You're usually not the type to strike up conversations with strangers, but for some reason, with him, you can't help it. Also, you realize that if you want something to happen, you have to start somewhere.
âIs this your first time flying out of here?â you ask, turning to him with a smile.
He looks at you, his lips curving into a small smile. âNo, Iâve been here before, but itâs been a while," he answers, his voice smooth and calm, making something flutter in your chest.
You introduce yourself to break the ice and make interacting easier.
"Seungmin," he says, taking your hand and holding it for a moment as he introduces himself. "Traveling alone?"
"Yes," you answer innocently.
"Business or pleasure?" he asks, a playful glint in his warm brown eyes.
You stare into his eyes and faintly bite your lower lip before answering, "Hopefully, pleasure."
From there, the conversation flows effortlessly. You talk about everythingâfrom favorite travel destinations to the books you're reading. Something about Seungmin makes it feel so natural, and before you know it, two hours have passed in the blink of an eye.
âI canât believe weâve been talking for hours,â you say with a low laugh, glancing out the window at the darkened sky.
The Atlantic stretches endlessly below, and the flight attendants have dimmed the cabin lights, casting a soft, intimate glow over the rows of seats.
âTime flies when the companyâs good,â he says, his eyes lingering on you in a way that makes your heart race.
The space between you feels charged now, the conversation slowing as the connection deepens into something more. You can feel the pullâthe undeniable attraction thatâs been simmering since you sat down. Then you catch him glancing at your lips, and you know he feels it too.
Daringly, you lean in slightly, testing the waters, and he responds by shifting closer. The air between you is electric, and when his hand brushes yours, a spark shoots through you.
Both of you hesitate for a moment, caught in that intoxicating space where everything hangs in the balance until neither of you can resist any longer.
Your lips meet in a soft, tentative kiss, and the world outside the window seems to fall away. His kiss is gentle at first, cautious, testing, but when you respond, he takes it as permission to deepen it. He rests his hand on your cheek, and warmth spreads through you as his lips move against yours in a slow, intoxicating rhythm, making you forget youâre on a plane surrounded by strangers.
For those few moments, it's just you and him, lost in each other, the quiet hum of the plane fading into the background.
When you finally pull apart, breathless and dazed, you exchange a look that says everything. This isn't just some fleeting attraction. Thereâs something real here, something undeniable.
However, once the plane touches down and the cabin lights flicker back to life, reality begins to creep in. It's the altitude, the change in air, and the fact that you now have both feet on the ground. The intimacy of your shared moments with Seungmin starts to fade as you both prepare to disembark.
Everyone stands from their seats to gather their things, and you can feel Seungmin watching as you reach for your bag in the overhead compartment.
"SoâŠ" Seungmin begins as you both shuffle out of the row and into the aisle. "Can I get your number? Or at least, a last name?"
Your heart is still fluttering from the kiss you shared just hours ago, but you hesitate. Thereâs an inexplicable tug in your gut telling you not to give in so easily, to be cautious. You like himâreally like himâbut you're not going to make it that easy.
You flash him a playful smile. âHmm... Iâm not sure I should make it that easy for you,â you tease, shifting your bag onto your shoulder.
Seungmin raises an eyebrow, his lips curling into a half-smile. âYouâre going to make me work for it?â
You nonchalantly shrug, trying to keep things light despite your racing heart. âLetâs just say I like a challenge.â
As you walk together through the terminal, the chemistry between you still crackling, you step outside and notice a car waiting at the curb. The driver, standing beside it, is holding a sign with Seungminâs name. At first, nothing seems out of the ordinary, until you notice his jacket. The driver is wearing a dark blazer, but pinned to it is a familiar emblemâthe logo of a political campaign.
Not just any campaign. It's your fatherâs rivalâs campaign.
Your smile falters as you look more closely, and your heart drops when something clicks. You turn to Seungmin, your mind racing.
âIs that your driver?â your voice comes out sharper than you intended.
Seungmin follows your gaze, looking a bit confused. âYeah. Why?â
Your throat suddenly feels dry. You clear it before asking the big question. âAre you from the Kim family? The same Kim family running for governor?â
"Yes," Seungmin answers, clearly puzzled.
The Kim family. The Kim family. Your fatherâs bitter rival in the upcoming election. This isnât just some random guy you met on a planeâhe's the son of the man your father has been railing against for weeks. You feel the blood drain from your face as the realization crashes down.
Seungminâs expression shifts from confusion to concern. âWhatâs wrong?â
You unconsciously take a step back. "Youâre... youâre a Kim," you say, still in disbelief.
Seungmin opens his mouth to respond, but you cut him off. "Your father and mineâtheyâre both running for governor."
For a moment, Seungmin seems to be processing what youâve said. Then his face hardens slightly in understanding. You take another step back, the weight of everything pressing down on you.
âThis changes everything,â you whisper.
He looks at you, his eyes searching. âNo, it doesnât have to," he says.
If only he knew how badly you wanted to believe him. But you canât ignore the reality of the situation. Both of your families are in a brutal political war, and no matter how much you like him, getting involved with Seungmin could blow everything upâfor both of you.
"How is it not? Your father accused mine of siphoning money from the cityâs budget for his campaign."
"Because he did!" Seungmin says boldly.
"Thereâs no concrete proof!" you counter.
"Of course, because they know how to make things disappear. Your family is known for their generosity with hush money," he remarks bluntly.
Youâve never been one to argue about things that arenât your business, but when it comes to your family, you naturally defend them.
"As opposed to your fatherâs blatant hypocrisy," you calmly reply. "Heâs fighting the climate crisis, but his wife keeps taking private jets for her shopping trips."
You come up with a concrete data point. "According to the data, those trips contributed 58 metric tons of carbonâthe same amount emitted by 4,625 cars in a day."
That seems to shut him up. His jaw clenches, and it's unfair how good he looks when he's mad.
The driver awkwardly clears his throat, glancing between you both. âSir, we should get going. Your fatherâs waiting.â
"It was good to see you," Seungmin says before storming off, childishly bumping your shoulder as he passes.
"Goodbye, I guess," you mutter, scoffing in disbelief as you watch him walk away.
That concludes everything, officially making it an unpleasant coincidence.
-
It was just a coincidence!
That's what Seungmin has been telling himself after spending days wrestling with his feelings, convincing himself that it doesnât matter, that you are just a fleeting moment, a passing fancy. But the truth is undeniable: no matter how much he tries to push you out of his mind, he just canât stop thinking about you.
When his friend mentioned that youâre living separately from your family, something shifted inside him. The tension between your families has always been an obstacle, a reason to stay away, but now it seems more like an excuse. If anything, the fact that you arenât on good terms with your family only deepens his curiosityâand somehow, his feelings.
Seungmin hadnât planned to find your hotel room, but once he knew where you were staying, he couldnât help himself. And now, as he stands there, waiting for you to open the door, his heart races in anticipation despite the cool facade he tries to maintain.
After a moment, the door creaks open, and there you areâyour hair slightly tousled, your expression showing slight shock to see him there. His heart leaps at the sight of you, but instead of the warmth or excitement he hoped to see, your face remains cold, indifferent.
âAre you stalking me?â your voice is cool, a little too casual, as if you havenât been thinking about him at all.
There's no going back now, so Seungmin pushes forward. "Well, you're not that hard to track."
You lean against the doorframe, crossing your arms in front of you defensively. âYou shouldnât be here,â you say flatly.
Seungmin notices the flicker in your eyes, something youâre trying to hide. He takes a small step closer, his gaze softening, and playfully says, âMaybe."
You stare at him for a moment, your expression hard, but he sees the hesitation in the way your fingers grip the edge of the door. Youâre fighting something, trying to keep a wall between the two of you. He understands why you keep your guard up so highâyouâre trying to protect yourself, your heart, and maybe even protect him from the mess that is your life right now.
âYou shouldnât be... with me,â you make it even clearer, but even as you say the words, your voice wavers.
Seungmin takes another step forward, placing his hand near where yours rests. âLet me in, and we'll find out."
Your eyes soften for a brief moment before you quickly look away, the conflict clear in your expression. Itâs obvious that you want to shut the door, to push him away, but something is holding you back. Maybe it's the same thing that brought him here in the first placeâthe connection, the spark between you that refuses to be ignored.
The conflict in your eyes only encourages Seungmin. He leans against the doorframe, his eyes never leaving yours. "Why are you staying in a hotel anyway?" he asks, his voice casual but tinged with curiosity.
You remain aloof, folding your arms across your chest as you raise an eyebrow. âWhy should I let my enemy know?"
The coldness in your tone is deliberate, a shield to guard against him, against what youâre really feeling. But he doesnât back down; his smirk only grows wider.
His hand inches closer to yours as he leans in just a bit closer, making his presence suddenly more overwhelming.
âSee, thatâs the thing..." his voice drops lower, with a teasing edge.
âWhat?â you ask, trying to keep your cool even though the proximity makes your heart race.
âWeâre enemies,â he states the obvious, his gaze locking onto yours with such intensity that it sends a shiver down your spine.
You let out a sigh, already prepared for whatever line heâs about to throw at you. âAnd whatâs your point?â
Seungminâs smirk deepens as he leans in even closer, his face now mere inches away from yours. His voice is low and soft, almost a whisper, but filled with mischief.
âSleeping with the enemy is hot.â
Your breath hitches slightly, but you keep your expression in check, refusing to let him see just how much his words affect you. You tilt your head a little to the side, raising an eyebrow, but the corner of your mouth betrays you with the slightest hint of a smile.
âIs that so?â you respond with a daring smirk.
Seungmin lets out a low chuckle, his eyes flickering with something dangerous and alluring, like he knows exactly how this game is going to end.
As you stand there weighing your options, the tension between you and him becomes unbearable. You can feel the electricity crackling in the air, and despite everything, you find yourself taking a step back, opening the door wider without saying a word.
Seungminâs triumphant smile tells you that he understands your silent invitation. Without wasting another second, he steps inside, the door closing softly behind him as the world outside fades away.
Before you can even catch your breath, heâs on youâhis lips crash against yours with a force that makes you dizzy. The kiss is urgent, an explosion of passion and frustration that has been building between you and him for so long.
His hands grip your waist, pulling you closer as if the mere touch of your skin isnât enough to satisfy the hunger between you.
All the walls youâve built, all the reasons you shouldnât be doing this, crumble in an instant. It doesnât matter that heâs your enemy. Right now, all that matters is the way his lips brush against yours, the way his breath mingles with yours, the way your hearts seem to beat in sync.
In that moment, nothing else exists but the two of you.
-
Itâs Seungminâs third time staying over in your hotel room this week alone, and no, you're not complaining at all. You've already grown accustomed to himâSeungmin is part of your routine now, part of your life, and his absence leaves you feeling restless.
When you're not with him, you recall what heâs done to you: the way he kissed you, caressed you, all the things he's said. Your hand unconsciously flies down to your thigh, wishing he was touching you right now.
But donât get it wrongâthe non-bedroom side of Seungmin appeals to you just as much as the lover side, if not more. He makes you laugh, and he listens to you, even when what you talk about isnât particularly interesting. Heâs comfortable around you, and that makes you comfortable around him. You like how he fills the empty space in the bed, and you also like just lying with him in a comfortable silence that doesnât beg for questions.
However, tonight is an exception.
As you lie on the bed with Seungmin, still recovering from the passionate lovemaking you shared earlier, you feel the weight of reality slowly creeping back in. The silence between you isnât uncomfortable, but it feels heavy, as if there are things that need to be said.
You roll over slightly to face him and place your hand on his arm, fingers gently tracing the veins coiling down his inner arm. âI need to tell you something,â you murmur.
Seungmin turns his head to look at you, his gaze soft but curious. âWhat is it?â
You inhale deeply as you gather your thoughts, looking into his eyes as you begin with the one thing you're sure of.
âI really like you, Seungmin.â
âI know,â he says confidently, one corner of his mouth curling into a half-smirk.
You bring your hand up to cup his chin, gently scratching his jaw with your fingertips as you flash him a soft smile and continue speaking.
âWhat you donât know is that my family isnât speaking to me right now, and thatâs something Iâd like to change.â
âI didnât know. Iâm sorry,â he says earnestly, softly caressing your cheek.
âMy family used to control meâIâm sure you know what thatâs like. I rebelled, took off, and a year into it, I found out my younger sister was going through something, and I wasnât there for her because I was trying to prove some... stupid point,â you explain with a dry chuckle.
His gaze remains steady as he listens to you without interrupting.
âIâm just trying to find my way back in, and I happened to bump into you along the way.â
âAnd Iâm glad you did,â he says, catching your other hand in his and resting it on his chest.
You hold his chin, wanting all of his attention focused on you, because what you're about to say is the most important part of this conversation.
âBeing seen with you would send the wrong message, and I really canât risk making my family more upset right now.â
Seungminâs eyes soften, and without the slightest hesitation, he nods in agreement. âI understand,â he says calmly.
âDonât worry, Iâm pretty good at secret relationships,â he adds with a playful smirk. âAnd all the sneaking around... itâs kind of thrilling. I find it really hot.â
You let out a soft laugh, suddenly feeling at ease. âOf course you do.â
Seungmin pulls you closer, gently brushing a strand of hair away from your face before placing a chaste kiss on your lips.
âWeâll keep it a secret, but I want you to know that it doesnât change how I feel about you.â
As Seungmin presses a tender kiss to your forehead, you feel the warmth and reassurance sinking in. For now, the secret doesnât feel like a burdenâit feels like a shared world that belongs only to the two of you.
-
In under a month, Seungmin learned a lot about you.
You live by routine: you get up at the same time every day, shower, and then your breakfast usually consists of a cup of black coffee and French toast. You share a kiss before parting ways, as you get picked up at the entrance of the hotel while Seungmin makes his getaway through the hotel kitchen exit.
During the day, you help your father with his campaign at headquarters, and you're back to your hotel room around 8 or 9 when you have dinner with your family.
As for your evenings, they belong to Seungmin. When the two of you arenât fooling around like teenagers, you fill the time with late-night snacks, talking about random things, or just cuddling on the bedâthings that Seungmin has never experienced with anyone before.
Day by day, he wants more of you, not less.
Tonight, you both decide to pass the time by watching something on pay-per-view. You rest your head against his shoulder while your eyes are on the large screen mounted on the wall. At times, Seungmin places a kiss on you, and it feels good having you near, as if he was made to be your lover.
From time to time, you react to certain scenes in the film, your bare legs shifting beneath the hem of your nightdress.
âAre you wearing underwear?â he jokingly asks into your ear.
You laugh, teasing him with your playful smile. The night continues with soft moments like theseâgentle touches, soft kisses, and quiet laughter.
By the time the movie credits roll, you both realize the film played in the background while the two of you were wrapped up in each other. At the end of the night, you climb into bed, nuzzling your head into the crook of his neck, enveloping him with your warmth.
Seungmin brushes stray hair away from your face and trails his fingertips over the smooth curve of your lips before placing a gentle kiss with tenderness mixed with a sense of possessiveness.
âGoodnight,â he mutters softly as he breaks the kiss.
The next morning, he finds you wearing his shirtâthe one from the very first night he spent with you. He doesnât know how to describe the feeling that rushes through him seeing you in his clothes, knowing you kept his shirt and have been wearing it. All he knows is that it feels good.
Truthfully, heâs been feeling like this a lot latelyâevery time you smile, ask for a kiss, or cross the room just to be near him, but also when the two of you arenât together. He has spent the past few weeks in a euphoric high, grinning for no other reason than thinking of you.
Thereâs no doubt about itâSeungmin is stupid in love.
-
The fundraiser party is in full swing, the lights casting a warm, polished glow over the room as it's buzzing with conversations and the clinking of glasses. You stand beside your father, perfectly poised, playing the part of the dutiful daughter.
This night isnât about youâitâs about him. Every charming smile, every polite nod you give is an extension of the image he wants to project: a perfect family, a perfect father. But you know the truth.
As you watch your father work the room, shaking hands and making connections, you know your role is to boost his imageânot because he cares about you, but because you are part of his political strategy. Still, this is your chance to prove yourself, to show him you can be the daughter he wants, even if the real connection is long gone.
Then, out of the corner of your eye, you see Seungmin and his brother-in-law approaching. Your heart skips a beat, but you hurriedly calm yourself down, knowing this isnât the time for emotionsâitâs the time for control.
Seungmin and his brother-in-law stop in front of you and your father. Seungminâs gaze briefly meets yours for a second, and despite the public setting, the intensity of that look sends a small thrill through you.
âGood evening,â Seungminâs brother-in-law says politely and formally. âWeâre here representing our father tonight, and he sends his regards.â
Your father, ever the politician, gives a thin, practiced smile. âAh, yes, itâs unfortunate he couldnât attend himself. I suppose running a campaign must keep him quite busy.â
Thereâs a subtle edge to his words, a slight sneer that isnât lost on you or anyone, but fortunately, Seungmin and his brother-in-law remain composed, not rising to the bait.
âOf course,â Seungmin replies calmly. âHeâs doing everything he can for the campaign.â
Your fatherâs gaze shifts to Seungmin, sizing him up before his eyes narrow in curiosity. "Seungmin, isnât it? Iâve heard good things about you. Youâve been quite the asset to your fatherâs campaign, havenât you?â
âOh, please. Iâm just doing the best I can to help,â Seungmin humbly replies, perfectly nailing the model son role.
âItâs refreshing to see someone so dedicated to their familyâs success. We could all learn from that, couldnât we?â your father says, glancing at you, making it clear that his praise for Seungmin is a thinly veiled comparison.
You keep your composure, your smile unwavering, even as a knot of discomfort forms in your stomach. You entertain yourself with the thought that your father has no idea what is really going onâthat the very man he is praising is the one you are secretly seeing. The joke is on him.
âHave you met my daughter?" your father asks, gesturing toward you as if you havenât been standing there the whole time.
Seungmin turns to you, his expression steady, but his eyes flicker with something only you can recognize. He holds out his hand. âItâs a pleasure to meet you.â
âLikewise,â you reply, keeping your smile polite. You have to continue acting as if nothing has ever happened between you and him.
Hours pass as you mingle with other guests, but the pressure of keeping up appearances starts to weigh on you. Toward the end of the party, when most of the guests are distracted, you slip away, catching Seungminâs eye as you do. He follows discreetly, and soon you find yourselves in an isolated part of the building, the muffled sounds of the party still audible.
The moment he comes into sight, you let out a sigh of relief, allowing yourself to drop the mask youâve worn all night.
"I missed you," he whispers as he steps closer. Before you can respond, he presses his lips to yours, the kiss filled with longing and the tension that has been building up since your last secret meeting.
"I missed you too," you murmur between kisses.
In the dimly lit, secluded hallway, you and Seungmin find a rare moment of peace. His hands cup your face, his lips moving urgently against yours, pouring all the longing and frustration of the past few days into every kiss.
It is reckless, but being with him feels too good to resist. In fact, it feels so good that you almost forget the dark shadow that has been hanging over your mind. Almost.
"My mom found out about us," you blurt out after breaking the kiss.
Seungmin freezes, his lips barely an inch from yours, his brows furrowing as he processes what youâve just said. "Wait... what?"
âI guess we didnât fool the doorman,â you say with a heavy sigh as the gravity of the situation sinks in.
For a moment, Seungmin just stands there, panic rising in his chest. If your mom knows, it wonât be long before both of your families find out, and he knows exactly what that would mean for both of youâand for his fatherâs campaign.
âSo... you told her the truth?â he asks, focusing on the possibility that your mom might indirectly support this relationship.
âObviously, I didnât want to risk everything with my family for some fling that wasnât going to last,â you reply meekly.
Seungmin blinks, then his lips curl into a teasing smile. "Oh, so it isnât just some fling?â
âSeungmin, Iâm serious!" you whine in frustration, giving him a playful slap on the chest.
"You canât keep sneaking into the hotel anymore. Itâs too risky, and if my father finds out...â You canât even finish your sentence without feeling sick to your stomach.
Seungminâs smile fades as he realizes the danger you are both in. It feels as if the walls are closing in on both sides, and it wonât be long before someone else notices the two of you together. His mind races, trying to think of a solution, somewhere you can be together without the prying eyes of your families.
Just as he opens his mouth to say something, a voice interrupts, and both of you stiffen.
âSeungmin?â
His brother-in-law is standing a few feet away, his eyes narrowing as he glances between the two of you, catching sight of Seungminâs hand still holding yours.
None of you speak, and in that moment, it feels like the quiet before a storm about to break.
-
Seungminâs brother-in-law has always been sharp, and tonight is no exception. As you and Seungmin slipped out of the party, thinking you were being discreet, he spotted the two of you. From the moment you met, he sensed something was already there. He observed further, noticing the sneaky glances, the looks that said more than words, and the way you interacted with each other. He must admit, both of you are poor actors.
When his brother-in-law corners the two of you in the hallway, Seungmin braces himself, expecting him to spill everything to his father immediately, knowing what he could gain from it.
âWhy arenât you saying anything?â Seungmin asks, suspicion creeping in. He knows his brother-in-law has always been loyal to the family, especially to his father, so this calm, nonchalant reaction doesnât add up.
Instead, his brother-in-law glances between you both with a knowing smile and says, "You two are playing a dangerous game, but you know what? I wonât stand in your way."
That doesn't make Seungmin relax. If anything, the words make him more cautious. "And whyâs that? Why are you suddenly on my side?â
âSeungmin, I already think of you like my own brother,â his brother-in-law replies simply, with enough sincerity to convince anyone who hears him. âI want you to be happy."
Seungmin remains quiet for a moment, still wary, but realizing he has little choice. Whatever his brother-in-lawâs motives are, this is the only lifeline he has right now.
âSo, whatâs the plan?â Seungmin finally asks, keeping his voice steady.
âI have a boat. Itâs docked not far from here. No one checks it, no one comes by." His brother-in-law reaches into the inner pocket of his jacket and pulls out a small set of keys, handing them to Seungmin. "You two can stay there, alone, as long as you need."
Seungminâs gaze flicks from the keys to his brother-in-lawâs face, still unsure if he can fully trust him. But this is the best option you both have right now. He decides to take a leap of faith and takes the keys from him.
"It's docked on the west side, slip twenty-three," his brother-in-law informs him. Before Seungmin can say anything else, he adds, âOh, you may want to check the first aid kit on the boat.â
Seungminâs eyebrows knit in confusion. âWhat for?â
His brother-in-law puts on a mischievous grin. âLetâs just say youâll find some essentials in there."
Seungminâs suspicion deepens, but he doesnât question it further. Maybe his brother-in-law is being sincere, so Seungmin stops overthinking it. On a more important note, you both need a place to hide, and this is as good as itâs going to get. He glances over at you, and with a silent agreement, you both know you have to take this opportunity, no matter the risks.
âThanks,â Seungmin mutters, cautious but grateful. âI appreciate it.â
His brother-in-law pats him on the shoulder, giving him a reassuring nod. âJust be careful,â he says.
With that, you and Seungmin slip away into the night, heading toward the boat where, for at least one night, you can finally be alone.
-
The boat is bigger than you thought it would be, bobbing gently in the moonlit water. As you step onto the deck, you feel a sense of freedom, as if, for once, the outside world canât reach you. You settle into the small but comfortable space, the tension between you fading into something softer, more tender.
When itâs just the two of you, you can finally let your guard down and be your authentic self. You walk up to him and slip into his arms for a warm embrace.
"It's just you and me now," you say, resting your forehead against him.
"Just you and me," he repeats, gently tilting your head with his hand on your chin, and places the gentlest kiss, treating you like a fragile piece of art.
Seungmin leads you through the cabin, the scent of saltwater and wood lingering in the air, mixing with the faint aroma of the sea breeze drifting in from the open hatch.
âThis is nice,â you comment, running your fingers along the edge of a worn leather couch. âBut do you think your brother-in-law keeps any food around? Iâm starving.â
He lets out a soft chuckle and makes his way to the small kitchenette, opening the fridge with a creak. âLooks like frozen pizza is on the menu,â he says, pulling out the pack and showing it to you.
As Seungmin prepares the frozen pizza and tosses it into the microwave, you head to the bedroom to find something comfortable to wear. In the bathroom, you find a soft bathrobe neatly folded on the top shelf. Without a second thought, you change out of your dress and into the robe. As you tie the belt around your waist, you sigh in relief, feeling a great sense of comfort.
By the time you return, Seungmin is plating the pizza, the smell filling the small cabin. He has also found a bottle of champagne in the cabinet, the label a little worn and the drink lukewarm. Both of you eat in comfortable silence, exchanging small smiles between bites, enjoying this rare moment of normalcy.
When the food is all gone, you lean back in your seat with a contented sigh. The dinner is simple, yet it feels more special than any youâve had before.
Being the neat person he is, Seungmin wastes no time cleaning up after dinner.
âYou can clean up later,â you tell him, sipping your warm champagne.
âThereâs not much to clean anyway,â he replies, taking the dirty plates back into the cabin.
Remembering what Seungminâs brother-in-law said before you left, you decide to go on a little hunt for the first-aid kit he mentioned and see whatâs inside. It doesnât take long to find it tucked away in one of the cabinets in the control room. As you open it, you blink in surprise.
âWell, wellâŠâ you murmur, pulling out a small Ziploc bag among the usual bandages and ointments.
Seungmin raises an eyebrow when you bring it over and show him. He shakes his head, already deciding itâs a bad idea.
You shrug, holding the pack out to him with a playful smile. âWhy not? Letâs live a little.â
âWe shouldnât even be touching his things,â he says, leaning back on the sun lounger.
âWhat are you talking about? Weâve just eaten his frozen pizza and drunk his champagne,â you remind him, settling onto his lap.
âI can buy those things back for him,â he replies, folding his hands behind his head.
âBut he mentioned it, so that means heâs fine with it, right?â
He shakes his head, eyes closed, unwilling to hear more persuasion.
âCome on,â you urge, taking a rolled blunt out of the bag and rolling it between your fingers. âJust one. Itâs a special night, isnât it?â
He opens his eyes and finds himself unable to resist you when you smile so sweetly. He reaches for the blunt.
âAlright, fine," he gives in, "but just one.â
You light it and take a slow drag, letting the smoke curl lazily into the air before handing it over to him. His fingers brush against yours as he inhales, and you watch as his shoulders visibly relax.
The two of you take turns smoking, the night enveloping you in a peaceful cocoon. The quiet of the water, the gentle sway of the boat, and the faint glow of stars above make everything feel far away, as if the world and its complications couldnât touch you here.
âI could get used to this,â you softly mutter, your voice barely louder than a whisper as you nuzzle into Seungminâs side, sharing the sun lounger with him, the blunt hanging loosely between your fingers.
Seungmin exhales long and slow, his arm coming around your shoulders to pull you close. âYeah, me too.â
The smoke, the sea, and the quiet lull you into a different kind of peaceâan escape from everything, if only for tonight.
With one last drag, you finish the rest of the blunt yourself. You rest your head on Seungminâs shoulder, your hand on his chest, feeling the steady rhythm of his breath. For once, you donât feel like youâre running away from something.
âI wish it could always be like this,â you murmur, more to yourself than to him. âI feel happiest when itâs just us, alone like this.â
Seungmin shifts slightly, his arm tightening around you as if he wants to hold onto this moment forever. He presses a soft kiss to the top of your head, and your heart flutters in response. He doesnât say anything at first, just holds you closer, and you wonder if he feels the same wayâthat the world outside seems so distant when itâs just the two of you.
âI feel it too,â he finally says. âWhen itâs just us⊠it feels like everything makes sense. Like weâre the only two people in the world that matter.â
His words make your heart ache with a bittersweet warmth. In a moment like this, itâs easy to forget about the chaos waiting for you back home.
Here, itâs just you and him.
You stare at him, your faces merely inches apart. The moonlight casts a soft glow across his features, and God, heâs just so beautiful. His eyes meet yours, and the longer you look into them, the more you see the depth of his feelings. Thereâs something tender, something vulnerableâyouâve never seen him look at you like this before.
Seungmin swallows, his Adamâs apple bobbing as if heâs gathering courage. Then, in a soft yet steady voice, he says, âI love you.â
The words hang in the air, suspended between you, and for a moment, you forget how to breathe. Heâs never said it before, and hearing those words now, spoken under the starry sky with the waves lapping gently against the boat, it feels⊠magical.
âI love you,â he repeats, his voice more certain this time, his eyes steady on yours. âI donât care about the rest of itâour families, the politics, all of it. I love you."
Tears well up in your eyes, not from sadness, but from the overwhelming joy of hearing him say those words. You feel the sincerity in them, the weight of what it means for him to admit it, to declare it, despite everything.
You reach for him, cupping his face in your hands. Using your thumb, you softly rub his cheek. âI love you too, Seungmin, and I think Iâve loved you for longer than I can admit," your voice breaking as you try to hold back your emotions.
Seungmin leans in, closing the small distance between you, and kisses you softly, slowly, as if savoring the moment. His lips are warm against yours, and in that kiss, you feel everything: his love, his promise, his fear, and his hope.
-
Things are going well. Your relationship with Seungmin remains a secret, and the results of the pre-vote are out, revealing that your father is leading the race by an 8% margin. Everyone is happy, all is wellâbut you have this nagging feeling in your chest that things wonât stay like this for long. You hope it's for the better, and God, you hope that's true.
To celebrate your father leading in the pre-vote, your family holds a brunch this afternoon. Being invited to this is a significant step toward winning your way back into the family. Your little sister has taken your hand under the table, squeezing it as a sign of solidarity. She hasnât said it out loud, but you can feel that sheâs happy to have you here, part of the family again, even if only for a moment.
However, as the minutes tick by and your father doesnât appear, a gnawing feeling settles in your chest. You try to brush it off, focusing on how far youâve come. After all, youâre here, included, proving that you can still be the daughter your family wants you to be.
Then your mother calls you and asks you to follow her to your fatherâs study. She makes you sit on the leather sofa in anticipation. Her expression is soft, but thereâs something behind her eyes that makes your stomach churn, and you know something is wrong before she even speaks.
âWhen was the last time you saw him?â she asks, her voice quiet but direct.
Your mind flashes back to that night with Seungmin on the boat. You havenât told anyone, and as far as you know, no one has seen you. But your motherâs gaze is sharp, and sheâll know if you lie.
âI⊠I went on a boat with Seungmin,â you admit meekly, your voice small and low. âBut we were discreet. I swear, no one saw us.â
Your mother lets out a heavy sigh, her hand going to the nape of her neck as she massages it lightly. She doesnât say anything but takes out her phone from her tweed jacket, tapping the screen a few times before handing it to you. Your eyes widen as you look at the screen, the shock hitting you like a punch to the gut.
There on the screen are photosâcompromising photos. Some show you smoking; others are more intimate, even naked. You feel the blood drain from your face. These are pictures from that night on Seungminâs brother-in-lawâs boat, now plastered across the internet.
âMomâŠâ you stammer, trying to make sense of it. âThere was no one there except us. This canât be happening. It wasnât Seungmin⊠it couldnât be.â
âIâm afraid you werenât as discreet as you thought,â your mother says, her expression composed but with a grave undertone. âYour father found out about the relationship. Heâs furious, and this⊠this could ruin everything for him.â
You feel faint and hurriedly lean against the table to steady yourself. âNo⊠no, it canât be. Seungmin would neverââ
The idea of Seungmin betraying you is unthinkable, but the pictures donât lie. Someone had been there, someone had taken them, and now your life is spiraling out of control.
âI donât believe itâs him,â you insist, shaking your head in denial. âSeungmin wouldnât do this to me. He cares about me.â
âThink about whatâs best for you,â your mother says, her voice rising slightly as she struggles to keep her composure. âWhether itâs Seungmin or his family behind this, we canât take any more risks. You need to stay away from him, at least until I can figure out whatâs really going on.â
Your heart aches, torn between your love for Seungmin and the loyalty youâre still trying to prove to your family.
âIâm sending you back to your hotel,â she says in a tone that leaves no room for argument. âAnd youâre not to leave until I say itâs safe. Your father is already angry enough, and we canât afford any more mistakes.â
Before you can protest, she leaves, the door clicking shut behind her, leaving you standing in the middle of the room. You want to believe in Seungmin, but now doubts plague your mind. A question gnaws at you: Is your love for Seungmin worth risking everything you have left?
-
The car ride back to the hotel is a blur of tears and shattered trust. Your chest feels heavy, the weight of betrayal pressing down on you, suffocating you.
The man you trusted, the one who held you close, is part of the very family responsible for leaking those photos. Whether Seungmin is directly involved or not doesnât matter anymoreâhis family is, and thatâs enough for you to push him away.
The car pulls up to the curb, and the doorman is there instantly, opening the door and offering his hand to help you out. You feel faint, your legs trembling from the emotions raging inside, but you force yourself to stand, to walk, and to keep your head up if you can.
Just as you step onto the pavement, a familiar hand grabs your arm. You stop in your tracks, your heart aching in your chest.
Seungmin. Heâs there, his eyes wide with worry, as if he hadnât expected to see you like this. And oh, the sight of him, the man you thought you could trust, brings everything crashing down.
Without thinking, you rush at him, your fists pounding against his chest in a fit of anger and betrayal.
âHow could you?!â you scream through your tears, each punch that lands fueled by the pain inside. âHow could you let them do this to me?!â
Seungmin doesnât fight back. He just stands there, letting you hit him, his face filled with shock and pain as he tries to reach for you, to explain.
âIt wasnât me,â he tries to say, but the words are lost in the chaos of your emotions. âYou know Iâd neverââ
âStop lying!â you shout, cutting him off.
Your emotions hit their boiling point, the pain overwhelming you. âYou expect me to believe you didnât know? That this wasnât some way to tear me apart?â
His eyes widen in disbelief, his hands reaching for you, but you slap them away. âI donât know whoâs doing this, but I would never let anyone hurt you like this. You have to believe me!â
âBelieve you? After everything thatâs happened? Iâve been humiliated, and you come here pretending like you had nothing to do with it?â Your voice rises with every word, and youâre too far gone, too hurt.
He tries again, stepping closer, but you shove him hard enough that he staggers backward. âI canât even look at you right now. Get out! Get the fuck out of my face!â you scream, tears streaming down your cheeks.
Seeing you like this is painful for him, but not as painful as knowing he caused this. His hands tremble as he tries one last time to reach for you. âPlease, donât do thisâletâs talkââ
Drawn by the commotion, hotel security steps in between you and him, blocking him from approaching you.
âSir, you need to leave,â one of them says, placing a firm hand on Seungminâs shoulder.
âWait! Just let me talk to her!â He tries to push past them, but they hold him back, stronger.
Itâs too late. Youâve already turned away, not even sparing him a last glance. He canât bear the thought of being the cause of all this.
As the door of your hotel room clicks shut behind you, the silence fills the room, and everything comes crashing down again. This time, you donât have anything left to fight with, so you let the pain and heartbreak consume you, sinking to the floor as tears flood your eyes.
It hits you nowâyouâve pushed away the one person you thought you could trust, but everything feels broken beyond repair. It feels like youâre losing everything: your family, your trust, and the man you thought was different.
Leaning against the closed door that seals you off from the outside world, you wonder if thereâs anything left to hold on to.
-
The more Seungmin thinks about it, the more certain he becomes that there is only one person who could have leaked the photosâsomeone who knew about the boat, someone involved. His brother-in-law.
He doesnât waste any more time. He grabs his car keys and drives straight to his brother-in-lawâs place. A storm rages in his chest, anger mixed with dread, his head full of accusations and possible answers.
When he arrives, he skips the courtesies and storms inside. He finds his brother-in-law leaning against the kitchen counter, looking surprised but not startled to see him.
âSeungmin? Whatâs going on?â he casually asks.
Seungmin doesnât stop until heâs standing right in front of him, glaring into his eyes, refusing to be fooled again.
âYou know damn well whatâs going on. Youâre the only one who knew about the boat, the only one who couldâve tipped off the paparazzi. Tell me the truth!" He slams his hand on the counter, causing a spoon resting on the edge of a bowl to clatter. "Did you leak those photos?â
His brother-in-lawâs face tenses, the calm façade slipping, replaced by panic. âLook, Seungmin, before you go offââ
âJust answer me!â Seungmin urges, his voice cracking with anger. He canât bear the thought that someone so close to himâsomeone he thought of as a brotherâhas betrayed him like this.
After an intense silence, his brother-in-law sighs and rubs his forehead. âFine. Yes, I hired the paparazzi.â
Deep down, Seungmin knew this would be the answer, but it doesnât stop the anger and betrayal surging through him. His hands ball into fists at his sides, his body shaking from holding back violence.
âYou set us up? Why?â
His brother-in-law looks at him and licks his lips before answering, âIt wasnât just me, alright? I had permissionâpermission from your father.â
Seungmin could understand his brother-in-lawâs motive: he wants to get on his fatherâs good side, to be acknowledged and approved. But his father? His own father, whom Seungmin respects and admires, someone he has helped campaign for because he believes in him?
âMy father? He knew? He approved this?â Seungmin stammers, struggling to comprehend it.
âYour fatherâs been watching you, Seungmin. He knows about your little affair with her, and heâs not happy. So yeah, he gave the go-ahead. The idea was to expose her, make her the problem,â his brother-in-law explains, and as if he couldnât say anything more stupid, he adds, âItâs nothing personal, just politics.â
Seungmin knocks everything off the tableâplates, glass, spoonâall clattering to the floor. âYou ruined her life for politics!" he shouts, hoping itâll knock some sense into his brother-in-lawâs crooked mind.
âYou know how this works, Seungmin,â his brother-in-law says calmly, still leaning against the counter. âYour father is just trying to protect you.â
âProtect me? By destroying her? By ruining her reputation?â Seungminâs jaw clenches as he fists his hands so hard his knuckles turn white.
âSheâs not innocent in all of this, and you know you shouldnât have gotten involved with her in the first place,â his brother-in-law says, his gaze piercing.
Itâs betrayal upon betrayal. Seungminâs mind is still struggling to process the fact that his father orchestrated the entire thing, using his brother-in-law to tear them apart.
Without another word, Seungmin storms out, but his brother-in-law daringly runs his mouth once more, âYouâll thank me later, Seungmin. Trust me.â
But Seungmin isnât listening. His mind is busy planning what to do nextâhow to fix this, how to make things right. His number one priority is not letting his family ruin your life any further.
-
Seungmin storms into his fatherâs office, despite his father clearly being in the middle of an interview. His father hurriedly signals his secretary to escort the interviewer out of the room, knowing Seungmin is barely containing his anger.
The man behind the desk doesnât flinch, already knowing why his son is there. Heâs always composed and in control, but today, Seungmin isnât going to let him keep that control.
âYou set me up,â Seungmin spits, his voice sharp with betrayal. His father looks up, surprised but not shaken. âYou used your own son to destroy her, to ruin her life, just because of some political rivalry?â
His father leans back in his chair, calmly putting his hands together in front of him. âItâs not about you, Seungmin. Itâs about our familyâs legacy. You were distracted, involved with the wrong person. I had to make sure you stayed focused on what really matters.â
âWhat really matters?â Seungminâs voice shakes with disbelief and anger. âWhat really matters is that you took someone I care about and humiliated her! For what? Your campaign?â
âThat girl was trouble,â his father remarks coldly. âSheâs from a family that stands against everything weâre trying to build. You should have known better.â
âI donât care about the politics!â Seungmin shouts, stepping closer to his fatherâs desk, unafraid for the first time of going against his fatherâs principles. âI care about her, and youâyou ruined her for your own gain.â
His father stands, towering over the desk and staring intensely into his eyes. âYou think you can just walk away from this? From your family? Weâve sacrificed everything for you, Seungmin. Youâre going to be a part of this, whether you like it or not.â
âNo, Iâm not. Iâm done with all of this. Iâll never be a part of this family again,â Seungmin says, shaking his head, done being a pawn in his fatherâs political games.
His fatherâs eyes darken, and a cold smirk rises at the corner of his lips. âYou think this is all about one girl?â he scoffs.
âYouâre naĂŻve, Seungmin. You havenât been in this world long enough to understand how power works. Sacrifices have to be made. And if you walk away from this family, from me, thereâs more where that came from.â
Seungminâs chest tightens with disbelief. âWhat do you mean by that?â
His father leans forward, his voice low and dangerous. âYou think those were the only photos? Thereâs more from her past. I have them, and if you walk away nowâif you so much as think about turning your back on this familyâI will release every last one. She wonât have a life left to salvage.â
His father pulls open a drawer and takes out a file, showing Seungmin the photos heâs been keeping as a weapon. âBut if you stayâif you fall in line and keep your head down until the election is overâIâll make sure they disappear.â
Seungmin is hit with another wave of betrayal. His father had planned this all along, dangling her reputation as leverage over him. He expected manipulation, but this? This was beyond anything he could have imagined.
âYouâre willing to destroy everything just for power?â
His father doesnât flinch. âItâs not about power, Seungmin. Itâs about winning. And I have won.â
-
TEN DAYS LATER.
The election is over, and his father has indeed won, but to Seungmin, it means he has nothing left to lose.
The man in front of him has torn apart the one thing that means the most to him, and for what? A title? A seat in the governorâs office?
As everyone gathers around his father, congratulating him and celebrating his victory, Seungmin can't help but wonder: does his father feel the slightest bit of disgust for what he did to achieve this win? Seungmin certainly does. He can't look at his father the same way anymore and refuses being related to him apart from sharing the same DNA.
Seungmin makes his way toward his father, and when he's close enough, he extends his hand. His father doesn't hesitate and grips it, shaking it with a triumphant smile plastered across his face.
"Are you happy now?" Seungmin asks calmly.
"Well, I've won," his father replies with a sickening smirk.
Thereâs not a hint of remorse on his face for what he did to his own son, which only convinces Seungmin further that he wants no part of this anymore.
"But you've lost your son," Seungmin boldly remarks, each word carrying a finality his father canât ignore.
Without waiting for his fatherâs reply, Seungmin turns on his heel and walks awayâfrom his father, his family, everything. He leaves the office behind, as if itâs already become a distant memory.
There's only one thing left to do now.
He drives straight to your fatherâs campaign headquarters because he doesn't know where else to start. Your family is the only one who knows where you are, and although he doubts any of them would tell him, he canâtâhe mustn'tâgive up.
When he arrives, the place is busy with activity, but it offers a different kind of atmosphere compared to his fatherâs headquarters. He balls his hands into fists in determination and enters the building without hesitation.
"Apologies, sir, but the headquarters is strictly for staff only tonight," a security guard blocks him from stepping inside.
"I need to talk to someone in there," Seungmin says, hoping the guard will understand and let him through.
"Unless youâve already made an appointment, we can't let you in, sir," the guard says firmly, crossing his arms and standing in front of the doorway.
Reluctantly, Seungmin steps back, trying to come up with a new plan. He considers waiting outside until one of your family members leaves. Itâs a flawed idea, but itâs the best one he has.
Then, as if by divine intervention, your younger sister appears at the reception desk. Seungmin takes a step closer to the entrance, ignoring the guard, and does everything he can to catch her attention, even calling her by her full name.
She looks over her shoulder and, upon seeing him, her expression turns cold and defensive. She never trusted him, and Seungmin doesnât blame her. Still, heâs desperate, and this might be his only chance to find you.
âI need to know where she is,â Seungmin says, his voice steady but pleading. âI need to see her before itâs too late.â
Your sister crosses her arms, scrutinizing him. "Why should I help you? After everything thatâs happened, why should I trust you?"
His throat tightens, but he meets her gaze with unwavering sincerity. âBecause I love her. I had no part in what my father did. Iâd give up everything to be with her. I already have.â
Thereâs a long pause as your sisterâs expression shifts, her defenses slowly lowering. Perhaps she sees the earnestness in his eyes, the depth of his regret, and his determination.
She turns to the receptionist, writes something down on a piece of paper, and hands it to him. âIf you break her heart again, I swear to God...â she mutters, leaving the threat unfinished.
Seungminâs heart leaps. Heâs just met her, but she already feels more like family than his own ever has. âThank you," he says, his voice full of gratitude.
âSheâs leaving the country tomorrow, so youâd better hurry,â she adds, turning away before he can say anything more.
Every second becomes precious as his heart pounds with a new sense of urgency. This is it. He wonât lose youânot to his father, not to the mess his family has created. This time, nothing will stop him.
-
The country house is quiet, almost too quiet. The only sounds are the soft rustling of the trees outside and the occasional creak of the old wooden floorboards beneath your feet. The room is stifling, but itâs your thoughts that press down on you the most. You fold another shirt and tuck it into your suitcase, packing for tomorrow, planning to leave nothing behind.
It was a mistake to come back here, and you know it now. This city was once a refuge; now, it feels like a prison, a place to hide. Youâve become a liability to your family, and your father made that painfully clear when he sent you here. You were told to stay quiet, remain hidden, and leave without a trace in the morning.
Thereâs no future for you here anyway.
Tears prick the corners of your eyes as you zip up the suitcase. You canât take any more of thisâfeeling like a pawn in a game that was never yours to play. Leaving is the only choice left. Itâs for the best, even if it means abandoning everything youâve ever known. Itâs not an easy decision, but you force yourself to push through it.
Then, suddenly, thereâs a knock on the door, breaking the stillness of the night.
Your heart leaps, and for a moment, you freeze. You remember your fatherâs warnings: Never open the door. No one is to know youâre here. Stay hidden. You take a step back, away from the door.
Another knock comes, this time more urgent.
You remain still, holding your breath, praying that whoever it is will go away. But then you hear a voiceâhis voice.
âPlease... itâs me, Seungmin.â
Your heart races at the sound of his voice, familiar and full of emotion. You badly want to rush to the door, to throw it open and fall into his arms, but the alarm bells in your head ring louder. You canât. You shouldnât.
âI know youâre in there,â Seungmin says, his voice breaking between words. âIâve been looking for you everywhere. Please... just let me in.â
You clench your fists, torn between what you know is right and the ache in your chest. You stay quiet, pressing your back against the door, fighting the overwhelming urge to respond.
"I had to find you," Seungmin continues, his voice softer now, almost desperate. âI couldnât let you leave without seeing you. I canât lose youânot after everything weâve been through.â
Tears well in your eyes as you lean your forehead against the door, trying to keep your emotions in check. You shouldnât let him in. This is a mistakeâall of itâbut hearing him on the other side, so close yet out of reach, is tearing you apart.
âI just want to be with you," Seungmin whispers. "I love you.â
The words break something inside you, and before you realize what youâre doing, your hand is on the doorknob. Torn between fear and love, you know you shouldnât open the door, but your heart is aching for him. No matter how hard you try, you canât ignore the pull you feel toward him.
âPlease, donât shut me out," he mutters, his voice thick with hopelessness.
Your walls crumble. With shaking hands, you unlock the door and pull it open, revealing Seungmin standing there, his face full of worry and relief. His eyes soften the moment they meet yours. Without a word, he steps forward and takes you into his arms.
He holds you tightly, his warmth familiar and comforting. He feels like home. Finally, you let out a breath you didnât realize youâd been holding.
Seungmin buries his face in your hair, whispering, âIâm here. Iâm not going anywhere.â
You pull back just enough to look up at him, your eyes searching his. In that moment, without thinking, you lean in and press your lips to hisâa kiss full of longing and everything youâve been holding back for so long.
In the quiet of that night, with the stars shining through the open window and the future uncertain, you know that, despite everything, being with him is the only thing that makes sense.
-
The soft glow of moonlight filters through the curtains, casting a delicate sheen across the room. Your bodies are entwined beneath the sheets, the warmth of the moment lingering between you.
Seungmin hovers above you, his chest rising and falling as he gently caresses your face, his fingertips tracing the outline of your cheek like you are something sacred. His gaze is intense but tender, as if memorizing every part of you, still unable to believe you are really here in his arms.
His touch is soft, but the weight of the emotions between you is palpable. You can feel it in the way his fingers brush over your skin. He hasnât said much, but his eyes tell everythingârelief, love, fear of what could have been if he had lost you for good.
âI almost lost you,â he murmurs, his thumb grazing your lips. You lean into his touch, savoring the feeling of being so close, so connected. âI donât ever want to feel that again.â
You gaze up at him, your heart aching with affection. Here, in this moment, it is just you and him, and nothing else matters.
Seungmin lowers his head to place a soft kiss on your forehead, then your lips, as if sealing some unspoken promise between the two of you.
âLetâs go somewhere,â his lips brush against yours with every word. âLet's start over, somewhere far away from all of this.â
His words hang in the air. The invitation comes so suddenly that you donât know how to react. You blink up at him, feeling a mix of emotionsâhope, love, but also fear. You love him deeply, more than you thought was possible, but you donât want him to lose everything for you the way you have for him.
âSeungminâŠâ you whisper, your voice barely audible as your hand comes up to cup his face. âAre you sure? I donât want you to lose your family, not like I did.â
âIâm sure,â he says firmly, his voice filled with conviction. âThis, us, itâs what I want. I want to leave all of this behind and just be with you.â
A tear rolls down your cheek as you stare into his eyes, seeing the truth in his words, the earnestness of his intentions. While it makes you indescribably happy, it also breaks your heart a little. He is giving up everythingâhis family, his place in their worldâjust to be with you. You love him more for it, but it's also a heavy burden to bear.
âYou really mean that?â you ask, your voice trembling with emotion.
Seungmin nods, his forehead pressing gently against yours. âYes. This is what I want.â
It feels like the world has finally shifted, like things are starting to fall into place. Even though the future is still uncertain, you believe in him, in the two of you together, and that's enough.
âI love you,â you whisper, pulling him down into a soft, lingering kiss. âAs long as weâre together, everythingâs going to be okay.â
He kisses you back, holding you tightly against him, and in that moment, everything becomes clear. This is not just a mere coincidence. This is fate. You and Seungmin, together, is fate.
-
The hum of the plane's engines is comforting, familiar, as you both settle into your seats, side by side.
The memory of that first flight togetherâthe stolen glances, the whispered conversationsâcomes rushing back, but this time it feels different. This is a new beginning, a chance to start over.
Seungmin glances over at you, a playful glint filling his warm brown eyes. He shifts in his seat, turning toward you just like he had the first time.
"Hi, Iâm Seungmin,â he softly says, offering his hand in mock formality, his smile full of warmth. âTraveling alone?â
You canât help but smile back, slipping your hand into his. âNice to meet you. And Iâm traveling with someone very special, actually.â
You both chuckle, the familiarity of the moment easing the tension of everything that came before. It's like stepping into a memory but with the promise of something better ahead.
Seungminâs eyes soften as he looks at you, and he leans in closer, his voice lowering.
âBusiness or pleasure?â you ask playfully, replaying the conversation that had sparked your connection all those months ago.
âNeither,â he answers, his voice gentle but certain. âIâm traveling for a happy ending.â
His words send a flutter through your chest, and you feel the warmth spread all the way to your fingertips. You look at him, your heart overflowing with emotion, knowing that this isnât just a flightâit is a leap into the unknown, into something new and full of possibility.
You squeeze his hand, feeling the familiar warmth of his skin against yours. âA happy ending,â you repeat with a smile.
As the plane begins to taxi down the runway, he intertwines his fingers with yours, holding on tightly, unwilling to let go. You both stare out the window, watching the world fall away beneath you, your hearts beating in sync.
And as the plane lifts off, climbing higher into the sky, you know that whatever the future holds, as long as you are together, everything will be okay.
The past is behind you now, and in this moment, with Seungmin by your side, the world feels wide open, full of hope and promise. Into a happy ending, you go.
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âĄKnight To Remember - Seungmin
MINORS DNI 18+ ONLY MEMBERSHIP//M.LIST
pairing: knight! Seungmin x princess! reader
summary: Your parents set up a competition for all the knights in the kingdom and said whoever wins it wins your hand. Your childhood enemy has entered just to piss you off but what happens when he unexpectedly wins?
warnings: hurt/comfort, angst, tooth-aching fluff
Knights and noblemen from the entire kingdom had made an appearance. They had trained, bartered and bought their way into this competition. All for your hand in marriage. It wasn't that they were after. This long line of eligible men weren't your true loves. When they looked at you, they saw the crown. A shining symbol of money and power. Marrying you was just a technicality. An added responsibility they each of them would ignore the moment the wedding ceremony was finished. You would rot away in that castle just as your mother had. And there wasn't a thing you could do about it.
The first pairing stepped forward. An experienced knight that everyone knew by name. The crowd roared and cheered him on and he soaked up every moment. His opponent matched him in size but not popularity. The match was over in a few moments with Mr. Popular coming out the victor. âWho's next?â He shouted, his confidence growing by the second.
Some of the other knights instinctively stepped backwards, not wanting to risk the almost certain humiliation of going against such a distinguished knight. You sighed heavily as you watched the other men look around at each other, unsure what to do.
âI'll take you on, big guy.â A voice rang from the crowd with a familiar tone. You leaned over your balcony to see him, Seungmin, stepping into the ring. His gloved hand gripped tight around the handle of his sword and he moved his feet into practiced positioning.
Seungmin was exceptionally skilled as he was irrefutably stubborn. He had been asked by many to join their individual cause and help them fight, but Seungmin always brushed them off. Must have enjoyed the company of free drink and free women more than fighting for his kingdom. What a pig. You turned your nose and your back as Seungmin readied himself. But you still peered over your shoulder still, figuring it would give you some sort of entertainment to see him get his ass kicked.
Seungmin raised his sword in proper knightsmen etiquette, signaling that he was ready to begin. Mr. Popular stepped forward as well. He was noticeably taller than Seungmin. âAre you sure? I don't want to embarrass you in front of such a beautiful princess.â The knight boomed, gesturing to you in the balcony above the arena. Seungmin turned his head towards you and smiled. A smile you knew all too well. A smile that promised more mischief was to come. He bowed to you like a gentleman. You rolled your eyes in response. âReady when you are.â Seungmin said, addressing the knight. Although his eyes never left yours as he spoke.
âIt's not like I killed him.â Seungmin laughed as he pulled off his remaining armor. You stood together in your father's study. The entire kingdom was already filling up the castle with cheers of congratulations. The halls were echoing with Seungmin's name. In a panic, you pulled him in here to try to get an explanation out of him. âDo you realize what you've just done?â You were searing with anger. Seungmin moved to a small shelf with a bottle and some glasses and poured himself a drink. âOf course I realize it.â
You groaned in frustration as he moved casually. âYou really do hate me, don't you?â You snapped. Seungmin sat across from you in a lounge chair that was almost always reserved for your father. He swirled a glass of wine, his long fingers clinging to the rim. A slow smirk spread across his lips.
âIs that what you think? That I hate you?â He said finally, standing up from the chair and making his way to you. He closed the gap between the two of you almost instantly. Like he was impatient now. Like waiting any longer to touch you was no longer an option.
Your body reacted immediately, stepping away from him and inching closer to the wall behind you. âYes, that's what I think.â You whispered. Your voice was breathier now, like Seungmin had willed the air out of the room. His armor was gone now. But more than the iron helmet and the steel plates that he carried heavy while he battled. He was stripped away now. His broad shoulders and muscular arms filled the tunic that billowed and swayed as he moved. He looked vulnerable. Like the boy that threw rocks at your window in the middle of the night to tell you to sneak out. The boy who picked on you when you wore your fanciest dress. The boy that pulled your hair and ran away. âI don't hate you,â his eyes were hooded and dark. His pupils dilated from the dim lighting of the candles. âIf I hated you, I would've let one of those fucking pricks win.â He took a long sip of his wine. His eyes stayed locked onto yours. âWhat do you mean?â You tilted your head, genuinely taken back by his response.
âDo you really think I'd let one of those entitled assholes marry you? Do you think they care about you? Do they know your favorite food? Or how you sneak desserts from the kitchen before dinner is served? Or that you are terrified of thunderstorms? No. And they will never care to learn those things. I can't leave your happiness up to someone else. That is my responsibility.â
Your breath was short and shallow like you needed to cry, or scream, or run away. âYour responsibility?â You snapped back, unsure of what you were feeling anymore.
âThat's right,â Seungmin brought his hand up to your chin, gripping it firmly so you would really hear him this time. â You're my responsibility.â
You wanted to push him backwards, scream that you are no one's responsibility. You wanted to tell him that you don't need anyone for anything⊠but your heart pushed past your head and grabbed the steering wheel, aiming you directly into his arms. Your hands cupped his face and pulled him into a deep, longing kiss. A kiss that started hard and desperate but then slowly turned into something more delicate and soft. His mouth would move into yours and your lips would respond the same. His hands made their way through your hair, down your neck and finally rested on your hips. Every breath you took mingled with him. The kiss never breaking in fear that this was all a dream and the moment you stopped you'd awake in your bed married to someone entitled asshole.
Seungmin grabbed you by the back of your thighs and pulled you up and around him. He held you so close to his chest you could feel his heart beating. His lips moved down from your mouth and lined your jawline and neck. Soft pecks gave way to hungry bites. Smooth caressing of his fingers gave way to impatient scratching and pulling. You reflexively rut your hips into him, the clothes between you seemingly like the worst torture imaginable.
âWhere's Seungmin? I have to congratulate my new son-in-law!â Your father demanded from another room. You pulled back and in an instant so did Seungmin. He continued to hold you, your foreheads pressed against each other as you both attempted to slow your breathing back to normal. Your eyes flickered up to his and with a smile he knew what you wanted to say. He knew you and you were his now. His princess. His responsibility.
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A mini-series where you place an order for your favorite ice cream and I serve you -- well, you'll see. (This IS an NSFW series, so MDNI!)
Directions: To place your order, head to my inbox (link in my pinned post) and tell me what flavor ice cream you want + what topping you would like on your ice cream. Due to a limited amount of toppings, I'd like to limit the orders to One (1) Ice Cream Flavor & Two (2) Toppings per flavor, if you wish to have more than one.
If you place an order that has already been served, I'll simply link you to that serving.
These replies WILL be short & simple, they are NOT full scenarios and are just answers to the topping questions - So if you want a longer reply that is more in depth, ask for two scoops instead of one!
Onto the menu!
Flavors
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough : Christopher Bang : Decadent & Dreamy
Chocolate Covered Cherry : Lee Minho : Rich & Luxurious
Cotton Candy : Seo Changbin : Soft & Creamy
French Vanilla : Hwang Hyunjin : Smooth & Classic
Strawberry Cheesecake : Han Jisung : Tangy & Elegant
Blue Moon : Lee Felix : Enchanting & Vibrantly Sweet
Mint Chocolate : Kim Seungmin : Crisp & Comforting
Butter Pecan : Yang Jeongin : TImeless & Velvety
Toppings
Hot Fudge -Â A sexual fantasy of his
Caramel Sauce -Â What he watches/listens to/indulges in to get off
Strawberry Drizzle -Â Something non-sexual that turns him on
Chocolate Chips -Â If he's interested in threesomes/orgys
Peanuts -Â His favorite position
Candied Almonds -Â His favorite location to be intimate
Whipped Cream -Â What he prefers his partner to wear during intimacy
Marshmallow Topping -Â Where he likes to be touched
Cherries -Â His favorite toys/If he likes using toys
Coconut Flakes -Â How he likes it (soft/rough/etc)
Sprinkles -Â His favorite part of your body
Oreos -Â His favorite intimate act (oral/vaginal/etc)
M&Ms -Â An instant turn on for him
Reeses Pieces -Â His favorite act of foreplay
Pretzels -Â What position he oftens takes in bed (top/bottom/vers)
Graham Crackers -Â His favorite part of his own body
Sea Salt -Â A roleplay scenario he wants to try
Popping Pearls -Â How he sexts/If he sexts
Example Orders
"I'd like to order one scoop of Mint Chocolate with Peanut toppings please!" "Two scoops of Butter Pecan with M&Ms & Graham Crackers please :)"
trope: kim seungmin x reader | strangers-to-lovers ; use of profanity ; mentions of a one night stand once ; heâs a fuckboy basically summary: fuckboy kim seungmin takes interest in the quiet, photography major who lives just across his dorm. wc: 3.8k words
The first time Kim Seungmin sees you, you have a camera strapped around your neck.
Youâre just across his dorm room, hands fiddling on the buttons of your DSLR and eyes shifting where you can get your eyes on, looking.
Probably for something that can be added to your portfolio, he thinks. Not that he cares.
It isnât all that hard to spot him either. Seungmin is easy to find, with a cigarette lit between his fingers and the smell of smoke vexing your senses. His entire body is leant on the wall, eyebrow slit and all to truly sell the fuckboy character.
You lock eyes when you finally find the source of smoke, and you think for a second to tell him to stop. Itâs not what you do. Instead, you shift your attention.
Itâs never a good idea to be within distance of boys like him anyway. There are other things to think about, things much more important. Like what youâll have for dinner, the old pair of shoes you need to replace, your final portfolio.
Sighing, you look down at your camera.
You hope the low ISO 200 can capture whatever the fuck you want to take a photo of tonightâlong shutter speeds, white balance on auto, manual mode. Youâd be fucked if you didnât have these settings memorized.
Different for day. Different for night. Itâs a hassle, but itâs a hassle you keep up with if you want to graduate.
âYou know, it isnât safe for pretty girls like you to be out this late.â
Raspy. It comes from just behind you, and you have half a mind to turn to face the threat when youâre greeted face to face with a smirking Kim Seungmin. He sounds kitschy, looks kitchsy and it seems like he knows it as well.
You roll your eyes. âI think Iâll be fine.â
He stares at you for a minute.
âWhatever you say, princess.â The bass of his voice is a little terrifying, but not enough for you to shuffle away.
He wouldâve been more if you werenât hellbent on the idea of finishing your portfolio for the semester. Nothing scares you more than a failing class.
Not even Seungmin.
He doesnât seem to mind your lack of chalant. He doesnât really care. The boy has never been the type to stick his nose in other peopleâs business, talking to others only when necessary. Being annoyingly chatty was reserved for his friends.
In hindsight, starting a conversation with you shouldâve been the first outlier he noticed on his sudden shift of behavior. But he doesnât. Instead, he shrugs his shoulders and separates himself from you.
He was only out for a smoke anyway.
+
The next time he sees you is after his one-night-stand-gone-wrong.
Itâs still at night, just a week later. And you look exactly like the way you were, camera in your hand and an unbothered look on your face.
Though, when you hear footsteps echoing from just a short distance and spot a speeding figure coming from his room, your face twists in disdain.
You were only out to practice a certain exposure you want to perfect. Not to bear witness to whatever the fuck happens in Seungminâs dorms.
When he locks eyes with you for the second time that week, you pretend not to notice anything.
âYou again?â
Heâs shameless. A bit of his overgrown sideburns are sticking to his skin, shirt lazily thrown on, and sweat still glistening on his forehead. You donât want to think of the connotations of what your observations could possibly mean.
You simply look at him, the way his face morphs in recognition and the way his neck cranes just a little. He looks like heâs in his element, sweat and fucked-out eyes and furrowed eyebrows.
Youâre the exact opposite, picking at the buttons of your camera with sleep-riddled eyes and air struck hair.
Sighing, you push yourself off your unflattering position on the ground, brushing off the rubble that mightâve stuck on your pants from sitting there for so long.
You slip back into your dorm room without uttering a single response to the boy.
+
He sees you everywhere after that.
And truthfully, it was starting to get annoying. Especially when the boys started catching on to his staring.
While Changbin was narrating stories of nights Seungmin couldnât care for the details of, he finds himself scanning the student hall.
He thinks he doesnât know the reason why, or at least not until he finds you eating with some other girl.
Your eyes are intently glued to the screen of your camera. He wonders what photos could litter the memory of your SD card.
Before he can even shift his attention back to whatever the fuck was happening back with his friends, heâs caught red-handed. Shit-eating grins surround the table, a few howls here and there, and shoves that Seungmin could've gone without.
âIs she your next target, Seungmin?â
He wants to vomit at the word choice.
âTarget?â He scoffs. You werenât a target. âShe isnât even my type.â
Kim Seungmin brushes off their noise, canceling out the ill-intentions theyâve made up for him. He just sits there, unperturbed by everything until his friends finish eating.
He looks at you one last time before leaving. Itâs hard not to.
It doesnât save him from further teasing.
+
âYouâre a photography major?â
Youâre caught off guard by the sudden voice behind you.
It seems Seungmin has made a habit of surprising you when you least expect to see him.
â...I am.â
You finally reply after letting the question hang in the air for a few seconds longer than necessary. He doesnât care, only cares that you responded to him.
âYou donât talk much, do you?â
Is he only capable of asking you questions?
âWeâre not friends.â You deadpan. His lips pull into a smile.
âIâm just curious why you have a camera with you all the time. Loosen up.â
He doesnât say anything after that, just lets the silence hang there. He knows he can tick you off even more, but he doesnât find himself wanting to. He simply walks back to the dorms with you.
When he walks too fast, he stallsâfor just enough time for you to catch up with him.
You fail to notice the way he shifts his position, always standing by the busy side of the road.
+
âAre you smoking again?â
Itâs the first time you initiate conversation, and he snaps out of the trance heâd been in. He was outside again, similar to when heâd first met you. And you were still you, with your camera, and the way you lift it to fit your eye through the viewfinder.
âWhy? Are you starting to care about me, princess?â Thereâs that same smirk evident, and it seems he took your question as invitation to stand next to where you are.
You want to stomp on his face.
ââM just asking. I really couldnât care less.â
You can smell the smoke off of him, warranting you to take a full step away. Youâve always hated its scent, and the second-hand smoke exposure.
In turn, Seungmin runs a hand through his hair. Itâs shorter, looks like he got it trimmed recently. When you put your camera away in favor of leaving the site of crime, the boy attempts to stop you.
âLeaving already?â
âIt isnât exactly part of my tuition fee to talk to people like you.â
You sound harsh, and itâs an odd feeling to suddenly feel offended about a simple phrase heâs heard multiple times before.
People like you.
What the hell was that even supposed to mean?
âSpare me a few more minutes, angel.â
You donât bother arguing any further. Besides, you still needed a few more practice photos of where you were looking. You lift your camera back up to peek through its viewfinder, and you can only hope the noise of your photos is enough to drown him out.
âWhat are you doing out here so late, anyway? Didnât I tell you it wasnât safe?â
âI also remember telling you Iâll be fine.â You grumble, snapping a shot. He moves closer to you when you open your mouth to continue talking. âPracticing helps ease the feeling of dread, like Iâd be less likely to fail if I did.â
Seungmin notices the calluses on your hands, rough with hard work, and then his eyes trail to your side profile. The light exposure from the moon makes you look prettier than you already do.
Wait, what?
The boy has never stared at someoneâs hands and drawn a conclusion before, never taken the time to admire and talk to someone he wasnât planning on screwing over either.
Thereâs a first for everything.
âSmoking helps.â
You snort at his sudden comment. Too much time has passed by for him to suddenly butt back into the conversation. The timing makes you laugh a little.
His heart races at the sound.
âAre there thoughts when you feel dread?â He asks, albeit a little silent, in case you didnât want to talk about it.
You contemplate whether you should talk about it. Itâs an unlikely conversation to have with an unlikely person like Kim Seungmin.
Against your better judgement, you answer.
âI donât know. It just feels like⊠it feels like my heart is palpitating. I feel scared for some reason. I guess I just really donât want to fail. Does that make sense?â
âYeah. It does.â
âYou also feel dread?â You ask.
He hums in response. âAll the time. Sometimes Iâm not sure if the decisions Iâm making are the right ones.â
It makes him sound so human to be able to empathize. You hate to admit youâre surprised.
âJust do what feels right in your heart.â
âHow am I supposed to know?â
âYouâll know.â You mumble.
The few minutes youâve spared him has run out. âGoodbye now, Seungmin.â
âYou know who I am?â
âEverybody knows who you are. You and your friends.â You wave him off, finally shutting off your camera and putting the lens hood back. âBye.â
Youâre dismissive, and itâs something that would usually annoy Seungmin because heâs the dismissive one in his friend group.
The sudden challenge should anger him, but it doesnât. What is it about you, and your playing hard to get, and your dismissiveness that has his attention so much?
Heâs usually the one being chased, never chasing.
Heâs usually the one being told things, never initiating. Never telling.
Youâve definitely done something to him, but he doesnât want to think about it.
He really doesnât want to think about it.
+
It happened without warning.
You only remember how angry Seungmin was. Everything else was a little blurry.
You donât even know who threw the first punch. Shapes and shadows just seemed to move around you until a fight broke out.
The victim was from the Engineering department, though you donât find the word victim befitting for someone like him. You donât even know his name, just that he has a history for picking on people.
And it seemed today, you had fallen prey. You guess it just wasnât your lucky day.
Though, if you think of the situation in whole, he definitely had worse luck than you.
Seungmin was locked and loaded behind gritted teeth and white knuckles when he threw a punch. And he was unforgiving with his hits.
âSeungmin, stop it.â Your voice comes out in a desperate plea, and as if a switch, he pulls himself off of the nameless Engineering boy.
âFucking asshole.â Seungmin spits at him.
He surprises you with how cold he can speak. While youâve always known that boys like him were a little more asshole-coded, you didnât think he had it in his moral compass to defend you after having only shared not more than four conversations.
âWhy would you do that? Seungmin, what the hell?â
Youâre exasperated as you peel him away from the crime scene. Heâd suffered a few blows youâre sure would bruise later, and his knuckles were bloody from his displays of violence earlier.
Heâs speed walking ahead of you, doesnât think he can look at you.
âWhy didnât you stand up for yourself? He had your camera.â His voice was significantly louder than it had been during your earlier conversations. You think it might be the first time heâs raised his voice at you.
His features, however, deeply contrast with the upset dripping from his voice. His face softens ridiculously fast when he turns back to look at you. And while his intentions send a soft nudge on your heart, youâre still upset at the predicament heâd willingly and intentionally put himself into.
âI didnât need you to start a fight.â You sigh, tugging him by his arm after heâd stopped walking to direct his line of sight at you.
You continue the fleet-footed walk back to your dorm, dragging him with you.
âA thank you would be appreciated.â He grumbles from behind you, but makes no move to free his arm from your grip. Seungmin simply lets you drag him away.
âStay there.â You sit him down just in front of your door before slipping into your little room. It takes no longer than two minutes before youâre back outside.
Heâs still right where you left him. The only difference is heâs looking at you as if heâd been waiting for you to come out.
You make a move to crouch next to him.
Thereâs a first aid kit sitting between the two of you, a tub of water, among other things.
âHow could you be so reckless?â You offer no warning when you take his hands, soaking them under the water and carefully washing the site of injury.
When youâre sure itâs clean, you turn to look at him. âYou barely even know me, and youâre getting into fights.â
Youâre clearly stressed, packing ice into a thin cloth while lecturing him under one breath. He doesnât argue with you. Instead, he hyper fixates on the way you hold his handâresting it on your thigh, applying light pressure on his bruise.
Your hand is warm, almost too warm against his. And he notices the same callouses he did that night you caught him smoking again. Yours with hard work, his with stubborn lament.
The action makes his face flush an embarrassing color. You donât seem to notice. Youâre too preoccupied being upset to even look him in the face.
âYou better not do this again.â
In truth, Seungmin had probably suffered much worse than bruised knuckles. This, in comparison to all the previous fights heâd gotten himself into, was nothing. But it feels more significant than the rest.
His heart folds at how youâre taking care of him.
It was a curiously intimate thing for you to attempt to reduce the swelling with your makeshift cold compress. Thereâs an unidentifiable feeling in his heart he still doesnât want to think about, but he knows thereâs a subtle change in the air that he needs to address.
âHe couldâve smashed years of your hard work.â He suddenly breaks the silence.
It triggers you to glance up, and you lock eyes with Seungmin once more. It looks like heâs rethinking whether he should continue talking.
Against his better judgment, he does. âHe had your camera, and all I could think about was how devastated you would feel if heâd broken it.â
You blink a couple of times at his sudden confession. Moreso because heâd been observant enough to know the significance of that single piece of item. And maybe because he was looking at you a certain way.
He does that sometimes.
You donât really know what to say to him, so you shift your focus back on his wounds. And when youâre sure there wasnât any more damage, you let him go. âIâm done. You can go.â
A silence falls between you both before the boy climbs back on his feet while holding the cold compress youâd handed him. He takes a few tentative steps away.
âAnd Seungmin?â
He suddenly turns back at the interjection of your voice, looking at you with that same look from earlier, like you should know heâd do it again for you. Itâs almost fond. And Seungmin hovers there, waiting.
You take the brief moment where his attention is on you to finally say the words thatâd been brewing in your throat.
âThank you.â
Youâre trying so hard to keep your voice monotone. Heâs trying so hard not to smile.
+
Seungminâs been in front of you for almost ten minutes now.
Itâd been almost a week since heâd gotten into a fight, and he has the gall to suddenly appear in front of you. In the student center during dinner, of all places.
âHi.â Itâs his fourth time uttering those words now, but it seems your attention is still on whatever the fuck poison they were serving for dinner.
âTalk to me. Hi.â He persists.
(âHe likes her, for sure.â Hyunjin laughs from a few tables away.
Thereâs amusement in Chanâs eyes.
âYeah, he definitely does.â The eldest smiles to himself.)
His attempts are fruitless. You are still drinking your soup, and he is still vying for your attention.
âYouâre ignoring me.â Seungmin pouts. He actually pouts. âAre you still upset I started a fight?â
You donât respond. If you were honest with yourself, you donât know why youâre ignoring him either. Was it because youâd felt the slightest nudge in your feelings the last time you saw each other?
âPretty girl.â
You stall before asking. âHowâs your knuckles?â
He smiles. âBetter. Will you stop ignoring me now?â
âI wasnât ignoring you.â
âIf you want me to apologize, I wonât. I donât feel regret for doing what I did. Iâd rather his face smashed than your camera.â
Thereâs that nudge again. You didnât want him to apologize either. A few days of mulling it over and the news of quiet in the Engineering department since his fight with Seungmin tells you enough that the benefits had outweighed the risks.
No more stories of students being taunted for doing absolutely nothing.
The boy in front of you clears his throat, trying to get your attention. âBut, Iâm willing to do anything else for you to stop ignoring me, or apologize for anything else.â
An idea flashes in your head.
âI know how you can make it up to me.â You say in lieu of a real response.
+
When youâd asked him for a favor, heâd gotten a little excited.
Heâd thought it was somewhere along the lines of a date, like that crap he sees in movies. He didnât think heâd have to model for a few shots in your portfolio.
âNew piercing?â You ask, gesturing at your own lips to try and mirror the spot heâd gotten it. Itâs silver and shiny, and definitely adds to the fuckboy appeal.
You shudder, you know your own parents would never agree to you doing the same.
âLike it?â Seungmin has the audacity to smirk, flaunting the silver on his lower lip. You simply roll your eyes.
(Though, the few seconds you spare to stare at it is enough judgment for him.
You lift your camera back up. âAlright. Just do whatever for now. Actually, maybe a hand in your pocketâyeah. Thatâs perfect.â
He does whatever the hell he can think of. And while most wouldâve been embarrassed by now, he couldnât find it in himself to care. If it meant youâd stop ignoring him, heâd do this a million times over.
âStay in that position.â
âHmm, I like it when youâre being bossy.â
âShut up.â You snap a shot, looking at the screen of your camera and smiling in contentment. You donât give him the time to rest before youâre lifting it back up to eye-level.
And it goes on like that for a while. You use him to study lighting, and angles, and shadows, and forms.
Though, itâs a little difficult when he looks so damn attractive in everything. You might have a biased model. Youâre afraid if you were to shoot him in shitty lighting, it would still turn out good.
âAlright.â You switch off your camera after flicking through the numerous shots youâd taken. âI think Iâm done.â
âSo, youâll stop ignoring me now?â
He looks at you with everything so potently him when heâs with you.
âUhuh.â You hum, letting your DSLR drop around your neck. He smiles victoriously.
None of you turn to leave.
You lament in the night air just a little longer, and Seungmin spends the time staring at you.
You suddenly turn to him. His gaze is a little too invasive not to notice. âWhat?â
âJust thinking.â
âAbout?â
âYou.â Thereâs something about the way he says it that makes you look away. You could swear you saw a tint of red on the tip of his ears.
âAmong other girls, I presume.â
He exhales. âNo. Just you.â
âResident fuckboy Kim Seungmin thinking about just one girl?â
âFuck you.â Though, thereâs no spit in the way he says it. His heart warms at the thought of you feeling comfortable enough to joke around with him now, despite you still coining him a fuckboy. He supposes that oneâs on him for years of tainted reputation.
Your half laugh at being cursed echoes in his mind, lingering more there than in the air.
âYouâre acting strange tonight, Seungmin.â
âYou make me act strange.â His voice softens even though heâs essentially putting the blame on you for the way he was acting. And he says it in a way that makes you think heâs waiting for you to say something, or to at least understand the intentions behind his words.
You donât know how to respond though. He sounds a little too serious to just merely be fucking around with you, like youâve heard he does.
âThe boys are saying Iâm getting soft.â Seungmin doesnât sound like heâs waiting for your response, so you let him continue talking. âEver since that first night I met you. What the fuck did you do to me?â
He meets your eyes.
âWill you say something?â
You attempt to flat out your nerves at how heâs baring himself vulnerable in front of you all of a sudden. You would be lying if you said you hadnât grown fond of the boy after his multiple attempts at getting your attention, but youâd also be lying if you said you didnât think it was just another one of his ploys to get into your pants.
âHow do I know youâre not lying?â
âIâm acting like a damn puppy following you around everywhere. And I let you boss me around for pictures when I could be drinking with my friends right now.â Heâs still eye-to-eye with you, and itâs scary the way honestly spills from his.
âThen go drink with your friends then. âM not forcing you to be here.â
Youâre so fucking stubborn, and he tries to search for your eyes but you arenât looking at him anymore. Yours are downcast somewhere, on the ground, on anywhere but his eyes.
âLook at me.â You donât know why, but you instantly do. Maybe it was in the way he said it, almost desperate. âI donât want to drink with my friends. I want to be here with you. Because I like you.â
You crack a slow smile at his words, and at the way heâs stripped himself in genuine softness in front of you. It wasnât everyday youâd see Kim Seungmin like this.
âSo donât think Iâd lie to you about that.â Heâs pouting again, and you tease him for it.
You get on your toes, get a good look on his face and the pout that adorns it. âAre you upset I thought you were lying?â
âFuck off. Iâm justââ He canât help but laugh, pushing you away from him lest he wants to suffer the consequences of kissing you without your permission. He wants you to like him back, and if he has to do it slowly, so be it.
âJust give me a chance.â Almost pleading.
You press your tongue against the inside of your cheek. âOkay.â
âI understand if youââ He suddenly pauses. âOkay?â
âOkay.â
He stares at your lips, at the way it forms around the word, and heâs puzzled at how hot his face feels because heâs never been flustered like this. And he thinks his cheeks will start to burn if he doesnât stop smiling. But he just canât bring himself to stop, not when youâve willingly given him a chance.
On your own autonomy.
âYou wonât regret it.â
You donât think you will.
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how they fuck you against a mirror/window
changbin + hyunjin
changbin:
- a muscle momm-ahem i mean daddy!!
- normally prefers shower sex because he likes to pin you up against the shower door and watch your tits be squished on the door in the reflection of your bathroom mirror as he fucks you from behind
- is a giver so loooves to eat you out
- if you were down, he would eat you out in one of those bathtubs with massive windows next to it, and his cock would leak of pre-cum with how much trust you have in him to be exhibitionists together
- his knees would literally tremble when he glances to his right and sees your reflection in the fogged up mirror of the bathroom
- he would be holding you up with ease on the corner of the bathtub, your leg propped up next to you and the other leg over changbinâs shoulders, hands tangled in his slightly wet, dark coloured locks
- after eating you out to the point where your legs clamped shut and you were cross-eyed, he would plant soft kisses on your damp shoulder
- and then BAM! heâs got you flipped so your tits will be the only view of your next door neighbour, holding your arms back by your elbows, entering you slowly yet desperately
hyunjin:
- a romantic boy who would buy a full-length mirror and place it in your bedroom just for you
- every time you got changed, he would sneak a glance at the naked reflection of you, cock forming a tent in his sweat pants
- his dream came true though
- he had your legs wide open, pussy exposed to the mirror
- he would be kissing your nape, your neck, your shouldersâŠeverywhere because he loves you so much and thinks you are a piece of art
- he would roam his hands all over your body, pinching your nipples hard, then caressing them softly with the tip of his fingers
- he loved the way he could see his fingers disappear in your heat, other hand rubbing gentle circles on your swollen clit
- would be SO hard and his cock would be digging into your back but we donât talk about that
- dips his fingers into your pussy, then pulls it out to show you (and the mirror) the wet strings that formed between his fingers from your juices
- makes a show of sucking his fingers with a moan, making eye contact with you in the reflection
- would fuck you reverse cowgirl style, making sure you could see for yourself how your tits bounced with every thrust, the way your face crumpled up with pleasure
- also the way his glistening cock would slide in and out of you with ease
- would stop thrusting if you werenât looking at your reflection